29. Mae

29

MAE

" F uck… fuck! Oh, my God, yes, just like that. No! Don't you dare move!"

I tightened my grip on Rocco's shoulders to keep him in place and rocked my hips down harder and harder.

"This is perfect," I gasped. "Don't move."

"Oh," Rocco moaned deeply. "So Dino and Jian can boss you around, but I can't?" His warm, large hands caressed my waist, keeping me close as I rode him with all my strength.

Bracing my knees on either side of his hips, I fucked myself harder on his cock and a stream of desperate, eager moans slid past my lips. He was filling me right to the brim, stretching my pussy just in the way I liked, and the current angle I had made his cock slide repeatedly against my G-spot. I was so close, and I refused to lose how fucking good this felt.

"Dino and Jian had the upper hand," I panted, my words punctuated by the slick sound of skin on skin. "But I'm not giving it up here because this… is… perfect! So don't move! "

"Yes, Ma'am." Rocco grinned. "You're fucking hot when you're bossy."

"Shut up!" I shoved one hand over his mouth, and Rocco laughed against my palm. I was so close, so fucking close. Rocco had come to visit Zack and me, but my mom had taken Zack out to the park. Rocco had volunteered to wait, but one thing quickly led to another and I couldn't resist his magnetic pull. There was something so intense about Rocco. I was a moth to a flame, willingly throwing myself into the fire.

"Oh, God," I whimpered. The pleasure was rising, dragging me to the cusp, and Rocco's obedience was a strange turn-on. There was something surprisingly erotic about holding him down—despite knowing how easily he could overpower me—and using his cock for my own pleasure.

Rocco's tongue danced along my palm, so I returned my hand to his shoulder. He turned his head and kissed the inside of my wrist, moaning openly.

Then, suddenly, Rocco thrust his hips up hard and shoved his cock deep inside me. I couldn't voice my annoyance while moving because I came so hard that my entire body went limp. My eyes rolled back, and there was nothing but darkness for a few seconds as I was consumed by pleasure.

By the time I came back down from such an exhilarating height, Rocco's cock was pulsing deep inside me and his warmth mingled with my own.

"Holy shit," I croaked. "I knew you couldn't stay down."

"What can I say?" Rocco smirked. "You're fucking irresistible."

"Am I?" I sagged forward into his warm chest. "We must both have magnets, then."

"Can't keep your hands off me?" He kissed the top of my head, and I groaned softly .

"Off anyone."

We remained like that for a long time, simply existing together and sharing body heat. Eventually, our bodies cooled and Rocco's cock softened enough to slip from my pussy with minimal resistance. I missed the fullness immediately, but it came with a warm reassurance that I could regain it any time I wanted.

We managed to keep our hands off one another while we showered, sharing intimate moments as we washed one another, then we returned to the kitchen.

"Mom's on her way back," I said, turning on the coffee maker while I checked my phone. "Do you want to stay for dinner?"

Rocco leaned his long arms against the counter, and I had to drag my gaze away from the way his veins drew up against his skin.

"Can I?" he asked softly.

"Please."

"Then I would love to."

"Excellent." I typed out a reply to Mom, asking her to pick up an extra portion for dinner. Jian was escorting her, so I knew she'd have no trouble bringing dinner home.

"How are things with work?" Rocco asked when I set my phone down. When I sent him a questioning glance, he continued. "Dino told me your boss was on your case yesterday."

"Oh, yeah. He needs me back in the city. I've used up all of my holiday days to be here, and even with the extension he gave me because of Mom's health, it's not enough. My time is almost up."

"Are you going back to the city?" Rocco's question was heavy, and it brought forth a smothering silence. I tried to distract myself with the coffee maker, but he was asking me the question I'd been avoiding myself .

"Honestly? I have no choice. My job is there. My life is there, Zack's school." I sighed deeply. "But I'm more torn than I ever expected. I thought I would hate it here, but I… I like it here."

"Oh, really?"

"Yeah." I glanced at Rocco over my shoulder and smiled. "There's been some unexpected perks. But… I can't upend Zack's life like that."

"Why not?"

"Because!" I snapped slightly and spun to face him. "He is my priority. I need to keep him safe and happy. Regardless of what I feel, there's no guarantee that staying here won't end as badly as it did the last time. With you and Dino and Jian… the world you all live in? It's exciting and dangerous, but can I really live in it? No. I can't change his entire life just because I've been—" I stopped myself.

"You've been what?" Rocco prompted, moving around the counter. "Having fun? Enjoying yourself?"

"I'm a mother. I have responsibilities that are more important than who I sleep with."

"And I'm a father," Rocco said. "Or I want to be."

"I haven't told Zack about you, and I don't even know how to. I don't want to rely on you or the others because all it takes is some sexier woman to point her tits at you, and you could leave. Or some stray bullet to…" My throat closes, and I can't finish my sentence.

Rocco stepped closer. He trailed his fingers down my arm until he reached my hand, and then he locked our fingers together.

"Mae. I know I broke your trust, and I know you still carry a lot of pain from that night. But I stand before you now and I swear, I am here for you. For both of you. No matter what you decide or how long it takes you to trust me again, I am here. Whether you stay here or go to the city, I can travel. I want to be in your life, in Rocco's life. Please. "

"You say sweet things," I murmured, retracting my hand. "But you are in the Mafia and I don't want that life. Not for me and not for Zack."

As I turned away, Rocco sucked sharply on his teeth. "You don't have a choice."

I quickly turned back to him. "You literally told me that I could decide."

"About that? Yes. But the Mafia? Zack is my son, and nothing can change that. You can't keep it a secret forever when people will always be after his blood no matter what. He has become a target just by existing, so you have to choose how to protect him. Be with us, and let us protect you and our son. Or leave and try to protect him yourself. Either way, he is Mafia."

It almost sounded like a threat, but deep down, I knew Rocco was just trying to be realistic so I wouldn't make a bad decision. Could I really protect Zack from those kinds of people?

No. I knew I couldn't.

Before I could reply, Rocco's phone rang into life and he answered it. He barked a few words in Italian, then grimaced as he hung up.

"I'm sorry. There's something I have to take care of. But can I take a raincheck on dinner?"

"Sure." I nodded slowly.

"And Mae?"

"Hmm?"

"Don't forget to consider what your heart wants."

"I can't parent Zack through the whims of my heart," I murmured. Sighing, I slowly walked Rocco to the door and held it open. "Do you really think he's a target? I thought you had sorted everything with the people who killed your father? "

Rocco's brow dipped. "Technically, yes. But peace is forever fragile. All it takes is the wrong cocky asshole to make a grab for power."

"Damn." I sighed deeply. "This isn't going to be as easy as I thought."

"Rocco!" Suddenly, Zack's excited yell cut through my worried thoughts. Glancing past Rocco on the doorstep, Zack sprinted up the path as fast as his short legs could take him. My mother was just at the gate with Jian, who was unloading the bags from the car.

"Hey, kiddo!" Rocco immediately scooped Zack into his arms and a warm, affectionate smile bloomed across his handsome face. "How are you?"

"Good!" Zack clapped his hands together, and my heart clenched. Zack had opened up to Rocco quickly through their shared enjoyment of nature and dinosaurs. It had to be a guy thing. But suddenly, they were painting a picture of the perfect future right in front of me.

Rocco and Zack together, Jian nearby with my mother, and Dino surely wasn't far away.

Could I really have this?

Could I have it and stay safe?

Suddenly, a sharp screech of tires filled the air, and a silver car previously parked across the street roared into life and took off down the road. Jian immediately dropped his bags and threw himself into his car.

"Rocco?" I asked as my heart leaped into my throat. Within seconds, Jian raced off after the stranger and their squealing tires could still be heard even as they raced away.

"Get him inside," Rocco demanded suddenly, shoving Zack into my arms.

"Rocco, what's going on?"

"Inside!" Rocco barked. "And lock the door!"