Chapter Fifteen

Theo

Last night I jerked off to the photo of Perry's dick, and I can't lie, I've looked at it numerous times today. It's been twenty-four hours since I got the photo, and I'm pretty sure I have everything about it memorized. Each and every vein in Perry's dick and in his hand. The way his clothes bunch up under his full balls. The way the hair at his groin is trimmed like he does some manscaping down there. His short nails that I'm pretty sure he chews.

I've had dick on the brain, and all I can think about is Perry wanting to suck mine, and…okay, maybe not all I think of. I'm also curious about his…and replaying the things he said.

"You have such a pretty cock, Puppy. I can't wait to suck it for you. Can't wait to empty those big, full balls right down my throat."

But in my thoughts, even more than that or at least equally, is what he said about school.

We'lldo some studying, and we're getting a B.

I like being a we with Perry. I like that he thinks of us that way and that he's just…so damn kind.

And I really want to see him. I've been busy with school and he with work. He's at Shenanigans now, and since tomorrow is Friday, I'm off school for the next three days. I'm pulling for some of that dick sucking to start happening, but how does one ask their friend with benefits when they plan to blow them?

Hey, Perry, remember you said you were gonna put my dick in your mouth? Can we do that now, please?

I snicker at my ridiculous thoughts as Avery comes into the living room.

"Hey, what are you doing tonight?" I ask him. "You wanna hit up Shenanigans later?" How big of a nerd will I seem if I go by myself? I don't want to look like I'm stalking Perry. It'll just be a coincidence that my friends want to go to Shenanigans when he works, and then, oops, maybe I'll go home with him and his mouth will accidentally swallow my cock. Funny how those things happen!

"I can't, man. I have a football team get-together."

"No worries."

I shoot a text to Casey because he's not home, but he has plans too, which means the only person left to ask is Jack. It's not that I don't want to hang out with him. He's my boy. I love spending time with him, but he's also gay and wants to have sex with Perry, so how do I explain it if I get all weird when Jack flirts with him? And what if Perry decides he doesn't want to be exclusive anymore, that he'd rather have sex with Jack because Jack has more experience being with a guy and he's not totally clueless.

On top of that, while Avery and Casey are not very observant, not much gets past Jack, and if we spent too much time together around Perry, will he realize I'm doing sex stuff with him? Good sex stuff. Great sex stuff.

"Ugh!" I bury my face in my hands.

"Everything okay?" Jack comes into the room and plops down on the couch beside me.

Yes, everything's good, but it's also different, and I'm having sex with a dude I can't let myself like because I don't want to lose his friendship. School is hard, and I don't talk to my friends, and I'm not telling you I'm bisexual for a reason that is convoluted even in my own head.

"Yep, everything's fine," I say.

"Doesn't seem like it."

See? Avery and Casey would have never said that.

"Do you want to go to Shenanigans and chill tonight?" I'll cross the flirtation bridge when I get to it. I just really want to see Perry tonight, and again, I don't want to go alone.

"I'm down," Jack says.

"Bet." I can't help but smile.

Shenanigans isn't crazy-busy,which I assume is because it's a Thursday night and most people have better things to do than hopelessly stalk the guy they're fooling around with. Not me, though.

Perry is making drinks and doesn't notice us. As much as I want to, I don't head right over. I'm not that big of a dope. I'm just here with a friend to have some fun.

"Wanna sit at one of the tables?" Jack asks as Perry laughs at something the guy with orange-ish hair at the counter says. What is Orange Curls, a comedian or something? Perry sure seems to think he's funny.

"Hello? Earth to Theo." Jack waves his hand in front of my face, making me snap out of it. This is a very…interesting reaction that I'm having, and I don't like it at all.

"Yeah, sorry. I spaced out for a minute. Sure, let's sit." I can do that. I can be at Shenanigans without wondering what Perry's mouth will feel like on my dick.

Or if he thinks I'm funny…

We choose a table and sit down.

"How's everything going?" Jack picks at his black-painted nails as he speaks.

"Good. Normal. Why would it be anything else?"

He looks up at me, nose crinkled in confusion, and okay, maybe I could have been a little smoother.

"You're being weird."

"No I'm not."

"Oh look. Your hot friend is coming over."

I whip my head to the side just as Perry says, "Hey, P—Theo. I didn't know you were coming tonight." He leans on the booth with his arms crossed and looking too sexy for words.

"P-Theo? I have a feeling there's a story there." Jack grins at Perry, and I totally recognize his flirting smile. I've seen it enough to spot it a mile away.

Perry shrugs. "Maybe." He turns to me. "I gotta be quick. I don't usually come out here to take orders, but I wanted to say hi and see what you two want to drink."

"I'll just take a beer. I'm the driver tonight." Jack's gaze flickers back and forth between me and Perry, and I only notice because my gaze is doing the same, only between him and Perry. I want to be my normal me around Perry, but I'm also wondering if Jack will be able to tell I'm hooking up with him, and also afraid that Jack won't know and will flirt, and then I'll get all weird and jealous. I'm not the weird, jealous type. Okay, I'm weird, but definitely not jealous.

"Theo?" Perry cocks a brow at me. "Do you want another Screaming Orgasm?"

Don't blush or giggle, don't blush or giggle, don't blush or giggle.

As far as I know, I've never giggled in my life, but Perry seems to make me do all sorts of things I never did before.

"Yes, please," I answer, and it sounds a little subby and sexy, which I hadn't done on purpose.

"My favorite." Perry turns and heads back to the counter. Orange Curls is still there, but I see him talking to a guy with glasses. The guy leans over the counter and gives Orange Curls a kiss.

My face flames, and I feel a little action beneath my track pants, and—"I'm having sex with Perry!" I blurt, and slap my hand over my mouth. Shit. I hadn't planned on saying that, but the words were dying to get out.

"This is new." Jack gives me a kind, understanding smile.

"Yep. I didn't realize I'm bisexual. The first night we met, he was apparently flirting with me. When we hung out, he thought it was a hookup, while I thought it was a friends' chill night. Once we had that sorted, we decided to get to know each other as friends, and then I started feeling jealous, wanted to kiss him and jerked off to him—that has to mean I'm queer—and now we're doing the friends-with-benefits thing." I exhale a deep breath. "God, I needed to get that out."

"Thank you for telling me and for trusting me with that piece of you. I know it can be difficult to come out."

I just…came out. Holy fuck. "Thanks." I draw circles on the table with the tip of my finger. "I'm not ready for everyone to know. Not because I'm ashamed or anything, but—"

"There is no but. If you're not ready, that's all that matters. No one should make that choice for you."

I nod, unsure what else to say, but his words soothe an ache inside me I hadn't known I had. Perry had basically said the same, but it feels good to hear it from Jack too.

"I do have a question, though."

"What is it?"

"Are you sure you're okay with being friends with benefits?"

I frown, unease swimming in my gut. "Of course. Why wouldn't I be?"

Jack shrugs. "It's not your usual MO."

"I had sex with like four girls my freshman year."

He chuckles and shakes his head as if he doesn't know what to do with me. Why do I get that look so often from everyone?

"All girls who came up to you at a party or something and wanted to fuck. You didn't sleep with any of them twice, and you weren't friends with them either. The only person you've had sex with more than once was your girlfriend for two years."

I shift uncomfortably, but apparently, Jack isn't finished.

"The way you looked when you came home the other day and the guys were giving you shit, I told them to leave you alone because it seemed like you really liked the person. And when you looked at him now, I swear hearts shot out of your eyes."

I have to swallow when my heart tries to leap up my throat and out my mouth. "Hearts didn't shoot out of my eyes."

"Yes. They did."

"No, they didn't."

"Yes they—"

"Shh! He's coming back!"

"One beer and one Screaming Orgasm." He sets the drinks in front of us, and though I try not to look up at him, I can't help myself.

He's got a little piece of something by his mouth. I don't know what it is, but I reach up and wipe it off with my thumb.

"Sorry…you had…something."

"I took a bite of a cookie. You caught me."

"I like cookies," falls out of my mouth. I like cookies? What the fuck is wrong with me?

I drop my head to the table and bang my forehead a couple of times. I'm an idiot, and I need help.

"Hey. Don't do that." Perry slides his hand under me so the next time my forehead hits, it's his palm.

"Ignore me. I'm being weird tonight."

"Are you going to sit up, or do I have to tell my boss I'm your head rest for the night?"

"I mean…if you think she'd be okay with it."

Jack clears his throat, and I snap up. Shit. I forgot he's here.

"I should get back to work. If you don't have plans later, I'm probably going to get off early. I owe you some…anime." His tone is flirty, but then, as if he realizes what he's doing, he turns to Jack. "He's forcing me to watch anime, but what are friends for?"

"I can think of a few things."

I kick Jack under the table. "Yeah, sure. We can watch anime tonight. I rode here with Jack, so can I ride home with you?"

Perry grins, but then it keeps stretching into a large smile, one that says he's extremely happy I'm saying yes, which makes me a little syrupy inside.

"Cool. I have about an hour left. I'll bring you a cookie. And the drinks are on the house."

Perry winks, and damned if I don't watch him walk away.

"Just friends with benefits my ass," Jack mumbles, but it is. We're just two guys experimenting together who are buddies. Nothing more.