17. Joel

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joel

The anger coursing through me felt real and dangerous and was becoming more and more difficult to rein in. It had been a long time since I’d felt rage like this, so much so that it was near uncontrollable. I’d thought I’d mellowed as I’d gotten older, but apparently it had just gone dormant, waiting for a moment important enough to show its face again.

Cameron’s face when he’d nearly crumbled to the ground would be etched into my mind for eternity. How dare someone hurt what was mine like that. It had to be his fucking sleazy ex-roommates. I knew it without a doubt. I wanted nothing more than to march right up to their door and confront them, but I didn’t think I would be able to control myself if I saw them. Maybe I would’ve gone anyway, but Luke’s comforting presence and knowing Cam was just on the other side of the wall and needed me when he woke up was enough to keep me there. Luke’s kids were handling that end. My job was to be here for Cam.

“What did Justin say?” Luke asked quietly after a few minutes of silence. I had nearly forgotten all about the conversation, so lost in my head.

“He’s calling the cops and filing a report against whoever posted it. He said he’s going to press charges, but he knows it wasn’t Cameron and will back him if it comes to that.”

“That’s good, right?”

“Yeah. Fuck, I need a whiskey.” I scrubbed my face. “Yeah, it’s good. I guess his boss was on the verge of firing him, that’s why he was so pissed, but he calmed down by the end. I told him to contact Logan so he can guide him to the right people.”

“That’s fine. Logan will make sure guys he trusts are on this. It’s always hard to prove things like this, but the fact that Cameron is clearly being stalked should help. They have us at the coffee shop for gods’ sake. There’s no way that was a coincidence.”

“Definitely not. I just—I don’t even understand the point. That kid and Cameron weren’t even dating, and after shit went down and Cam left, he moved on. Why is he still doing this to him?”

Luke shrugged, and his big hand was on my thigh, rubbing comforting circles. I wasn’t sure if he even realized he was doing it, but the connection was my lifeline now and the only thing keeping me grounded.

“Who knows. Some people just like to watch others suffer. River never liked Sammy. He tried to cause some shit with him a few years ago, since he was jealous of Cam and Riv’s relationship, but River squashed it before it went anywhere. Still, I don’t think he ever completely trusted him, and this proves why.”

“What about the other one? Riley?”

“Yeah, that I don’t get. I’m not sure how or why he’s involved.”

I turned my head to look at Luke. “I’m glad you’re here.”

“Me too. I’m not going anywhere. I’m here as long as you want me to be.”

I cupped his face and kissed him, unhurried. “That would be forever. If you never leave my side, I’ll die happy.”

Luke’s lips twitched. “That might be a little impractical, but I can certainly try.”

I kissed him again before forcing myself to break it apart. “I’m going to check on Cam.”

Luke stood up faster than me, since my fucking back was giving me issues. “I’ll come too.”

We held hands as we walked to the bedroom, like even separating for that short walk would be too much.

Cam’s eyes fluttered open as we walked in. At first, he smiled softly at us, his eyes glued to Luke’s and my conjoined hands. Then the light died in his eyes as the events of earlier came back to him.

I didn’t waste another second and climbed into bed. “Scoot over.” Cam immediately scooched to give me some room and then dove back into my chest once I was lying on my side, facing him.

Luke faltered by the bed, clearly unsure of his place. Thankfully, Cam immediately nipped that in the bud. “Come snuggle with us, Luke.” He patted behind him, also giving Luke clear direction on where he wanted him. “I can be the meat in a sexy man sandwich.”

I chuckled and Luke rolled his eyes good-naturedly, but he also climbed into bed behind Cam. He left a good inch of space between them, but my boy wasn’t having that and grabbed Luke’s arm and threw it over him, so that the two of us really did have Cameron smooshed between us like the meat in a sandwich.

“That’s better,” he whispered and nuzzled my chest. I wished I’d thought to take off my shirt. Cam really liked skin-on-skin contact when his anxiety was getting the best of him. Since it was too late for that without pulling away, I just wiggled around until I could pull my shirt up enough for Cam to have all the access he wanted. His lips brushed against my sternum.

“There ya go. That’s better,” I said soothingly.

Eventually, Cam looked up at me. “What happens next?”

Luke and I gave him a brief rundown of everything that had happened while he’d been asleep. I thought he was relieved to hear Justin believed him and that Logan and Lake were already on it.

“Lake’ll nail their asses in no time. I just wish I understood why this was happening.”

Me too, but who knew if we ever would. I’d be satisfied with just getting them out of Cam’s life and stopping this. “Some people just like to watch others suffer,” Luke said quietly. “There doesn’t necessarily have to be a reason. They’re just awful human beings. That’s all there is to it.”

Cam twisted so he could look at Luke. “Thank you for being there for all this. I know it’s probably not what you signed up for.”

“I care about you, Cam. A lot. The only thing I signed up for was to be there for my family, no matter what that looks like.”

Cam pushed back into me like he needed the extra support. I tightened my grip on him. “Do you still not regret last night?”

Luke reached out with his hand not wrapped around Cam and touched his cheek. “I more than don’t regret it. I want more of it, and anything you’re willing to give me.”

I could feel the shock through Cam’s body even without seeing his face. “Like, you want to date me or just fuck me?” He kept his tone relatively neutral so it was hard for me to tell if he had an opinion one way or the other.

“Not just fuck you. I— Can we take it slow and see where it goes? Maybe have a couple group dates and then if that goes well, an individual one? I want to explore this connection I feel between us, between all three of us.”

Before answering, Cam turned back to me. “You’re okay with all this, right, Daddy?”

I couldn’t help myself and reached out to kiss him. “Yeah, caro . I’m thrilled by all this. Don’t worry about me.”

Smiling, Cam turned back toward Luke. “I’d like that. To take things slow between us and see where it goes. To be clear, though, I still want to have sex with you. Like, whenever you want.”

I was happy he still seemed comfortable with sex. I was afraid he would be blaming himself and trying to shy away from that part of him after the tapes, but that didn’t seem to be the case. I would of course support whatever Cam needed, but he loved sex, and I’d hate to see him give something up because of those assholes.

Luke seemed a little uncomfortable, and I thought I might have to intercede, but before I could, he replied, “How about we start with a kiss?

“Yeah? I’d like that.”

Luke’s hand was so large it covered nearly the whole side of Cam’s face as he leaned in and very, very lightly brushed his lips against Cam’s. The boy wasn’t having that though. Just when Luke started to pull back, Cameron chased him, not letting him get far.

Luke huffed a laugh but obliged, deepening the kiss this time around.

I watched, captivated. They were hot together. It looked so natural, like they’d always been meant to be.

Luke might not consider himself a Dom, but he sure as fuck knew how to dominate a kiss. It was fascinating to watch. Whenever we kissed, Luke seemed content to let me take the lead, which suited me fine. But with Cam, once he let himself get sucked in, Luke effortlessly took control. He had Cam halfway pinned to the bed as he all but devoured him.

I freed my cock and had my fist wrapped around it before I even realized what I was doing. What could I say, it was hard to ignore when I was watching live porn.

“Fuck. You two look good together.”

The kiss broke apart at my words, but to my surprise, instead of things getting awkward, Luke leaned over Cam, clasped the back of my neck, and brought me into a searing kiss, right over Cam’s panting form.

“Yes, please, more of this,” Cameron teased, his hands touching both of us.

Hungry for more, Luke and I broke apart to both go in on Cameron, kissing him at the same time. He fisted my shirt, pushing me even closer to him as he eagerly opened his mouth for both of us.

“Our boy has a pretty mouth, doesn’t he, amato ?” I asked as I licked a stripe down Cam’s neck. Both my men gasped as I intentionally used the word “our,” but I didn’t hear any complaints.

“Yes,” Luke replied, his voice breathy. “Very pretty.”

Cameron smiled cheekily up at him, watching him through his lashes. “Would you like to see what else my pretty mouth can do?”

“Fuck,” I cursed under my breath.

Luke looked at me like he was waiting for my reaction. I cupped the side of his face. “Go on. I’ve been fantasizing what Cam would look like with his lips stretched around your dick.” It was now their turn to curse as the image implanted itself in their brains.

We had to untangle ourselves and take off our clothes we were all still wearing, but soon enough, Luke was lying on his back, naked in the middle of the bed, with Cam and me sitting on either side of him. I leaned across and brought Cameron in for another kiss.

“Go on, baby boy. Treat Luke to that sweet mouth of yours.”

“Yes, Daddy.” Cam kissed my cheek and then straddled Luke. He wrapped a hand around his base, his pupils dilating as he eye fucked Luke’s cock.

“Gods, Luke. I always knew you had big dick energy. It’s good to know I was right.”

With those words of wisdom, Cameron went down on Luke. Now, I knew from experience just how talented Cam’s mouth was. My boy fucking loved giving blow jobs. He was pulling out all the stops for Luke too, as he started with his balls, first licking them and then sucking one into his mouth, and then the other.

Luke’s arms were glued to his sides in tight fists. It seemed like he was fighting the urge to touch Cameron. Well, that wasn’t going to work.

“You can touch him, amato . Fist his hair. He fucking loves that.”

Cam shivered. He moved from the balls, his tongue tracing along the underside of Luke’s dick. I grabbed the lube and a condom from the side drawer and coated my own dick before fisting it in my hand and giving myself a few strokes.

Luke hesitated, his hand hovering about an inch above Cam’s head, but then our boy finally wrapped his lips around Luke’s tip before swallowing him halfway down in one go.

“Oh fuck.” He wasn’t hesitating now, and I moaned in pleasure watching that big hand fist Cameron’s soft hair. It still wasn’t as loud as Cam’s.

I gave myself a few more strokes, just enjoying watching the two of them. I’d never considered myself much of a voyeur, but maybe a new kink had just been unlocked. At least when it came to Cameron and Luke.

I didn’t want to just watch though. I repositioned myself so that I was kneeling behind Cam, who was conveniently bent over with his ass in the air. I palmed his cheeks with both my hands, and my baby boy immediately spread his legs for me without ever releasing Luke.

I spread his cheeks open, exposing his hole, loving how his whole body shivered when I blew directly on the opening. I looked at Luke. “He feels good, doesn’t he?”

Luke was half gone with lust as he nodded. “Y-yeah. So fucking good.”

“It’s okay to use him a little. He likes to choke.”

Cameron moaned on Luke’s dick, which cause Luke to throw his head back against the headboard. Some of the tension left him, and finally he seemed to let go enough to give in to everything Cam was willing to give him. His other hand curled in his hair. He pulled Cameron off him with an obscene pop. Our boy got a solid breath before Luke pushed him back down, forcing him to swallow him almost all the way.

That was my cue.

I grabbed the lube and poured some directly on Cam’s hole. He jumped but didn’t have a second to adjust before I pushed a finger in. He didn’t need a lot of prep. He always kept himself ready to go, and he liked it to hurt a bit. Still, I wouldn’t risk it without stretching him at least a bit.

“Swallow all of him, baby boy. I want to see your nose touching his hairs.”

“Gods . . . ,” Luke muttered, his fingers flexing as Cam obeyed. I pushed in another finger.

“Look how sexy he is, Luke, with both his holes filled.”

Luke looked at me with wide, slightly panicked eyes. It seemed like he just realized what I planned to do. “Are you . . . at the same time?”

My grin was feral. “That’s exactly what I plan to do. Cam enjoys being stuffed from both ends, don’t you?” He nodded and garbled something that sounded somewhat like, “Yes, Daddy,” around Luke’s cock. “If he needs to stop, he’ll pinch your thigh twice. You’ll know it’s intentional.” Some boys were reluctant to safeword, but Cameron wasn’t one of them. That was why I always felt comfortable playing rougher with him. He would stop the second he wasn’t into it. “Stop the second you feel it.” I trusted Luke, and I knew he’d never intentionally violate anyone’s consent, but he had very little experience in anything kinky, and we were throwing him in the deep end. It didn’t hurt to be safe.

He nodded seriously. “Of course.”

Confident he understood, I pulled out my fingers, rolled on the condom, and lined up with Cam’s hole. “Ready, caro ?”

He pulled off Luke for a second. “Yes, Daddy.” Then he swallowed him whole once again, not stopping until his nose was buried in the dark hairs around Luke’s balls. I sucked in a breath, overcome with the scene, and then I eased into Cam in one smooth move not stopping until I was all the way in. Luke watched me like it was the sexiest show he’d ever seen.

“Joel . . .”

I just smiled at him. “Breathe, baby boy. This might be your last chance for a while.”

Cameron hurried to pull off enough to get a few gasping breaths. When I felt like he’d had enough, I pushed his head back onto Luke. Once he was in position, I pulled almost all the way out and then slammed back in. Cam was driven forward, choking on Luke’s dick. He barely had a second to adjust before I did it again. And again.

“Fuck, fuck. Cameron. Joel. Holy fuck.”

“You can move, Luke. Fuck our boy from both ends.”

Cameron gagged as Luke struggled to find the rhythm, but once he did, it was game over. Our boy could do nothing but hang on as he was taken from both ends, only getting brief bursts of air.

“Good boy. Look at you, taking us so well. He’s perfect, isn’t he, amato ?”

“Y-yes. So fucking perfect.”

Cameron whined. I shoved back into him. “Fuck, you’re so tight, Cameron. So, so good. I’m so proud of you, my perfect, sweet, talented, sassy boy.”

Cameron was making all kinds of sounds, and I could tell he was nearing his limit. I changed my angle and adjusted my thrusts. They were shallower, but faster. I reached one hand underneath Cam’s body and wrapped my hand around his hard and dripping cock.

“I’m pretty fucking close.” Luke gasped.

“So are we.”

“ Caro , you’re going to make Luke and me come and fill both your holes. Once you take every single drop, then you can come. Understand, baby boy?”

I took the whine as a yes and met Luke’s eyes over our boy. Cameron was desperate now and was putting everything into taking both of us to the edge. The orgasm began building in me, and it was no secret Luke was about there.

“Fuck, I’m coming, Cameron.”

Cam’s cheeks hallowed as Luke cried out, his hips jerking. It was the sexiest thing I’d ever seen, and then it was my turn to blow my load in the condom. Cam’s whole body was shaking as he finally pulled off Luke. A trail of saliva was attached from his lips to the tip of Luke’s dick.

“Good boy. So fucking good.” I started to increase my pace, jerking him off. “Come, baby boy. You deserve a reward.”

“Daddy! Fuck. Luke!” Cameron’s body bowed back as his orgasm plowed through him, covering Luke’s thigh and softening dick.

Once he was spent, he collapsed onto Luke’s chest, clearly not bothered about lying in a puddle of his own release. Everyone was gasping for breath and exhausted. The moment was heady. It was the first time all three of us had been together like this and it felt important. I met Luke’s eyes again as he wrapped his arms around Cam, holding him tight, and I knew he felt it too. It was like the universe telling us this was right, that we were meant to be.

I’d never put a ton of stock into the fated mates thing that was starting to happen again. I mean, I believed it, as Luke’s own kids were proof that it existed, but just like knotting, or even having the alpha gene at all, it didn’t mean much to me. But now, as my knot started to grow for the second time and all three of us collapsed into a pile of limbs, it hit me like a ton of bricks. Fated mates not only existed, but I had them. Not one, but two.

Gods.

I had no idea what to make of my realization. I loved my late husband, and in a way, I always would. I’d mourn his loss just as Luke would always love and mourn his late wife. They would always be a part of us, but everything that had happened, including all the awful moments like losing my husband or my daughter denying a relationship with me when I’d come out, all those terrible things and all the good ones along the way had led to this right here. Luke, Cameron, and I, messy, sweaty and exhausted, together as one, as I was confident we would be from here on out.