26. Cassian

26

CASSIAN

T he guys are itching to have her back, so I need to make the most of every moment with my girl before the time comes. I need her to feel me, remember me, and I need to be consumed by her every breath for as long as I can.

Watching her back at Janie’s was indescribable.

She owned that fucking room, just like she owns me. There’s a part of me that wants to scream “fuck it” and go on the tour with her, but the other part of me is desperate to be better at this alpha shit. The wolves deserve so much more than what my father previously offered, and that starts with me making selfless decisions. Especially when I’d rather be selfish.

Her core is sizzling to the touch, even through her pants, and when I grind my palm against her, a gasp echoes around the room.

“Are you going to do that teasing thing again, or… fuck.” Her sass drifts into a curse of pleasure, followed by a heavy moan as I tighten my hold on her pussy. The seam of her pants is probably causing her discomfort, but it seems the friction balances on the line between pain and pleasure and she flexes her hips, eager for more.

“We don’t have much time,” I admit, cupping her cheek with my free hand as I look deep into her eyes. Our breaths mingle between us as she softly shakes her head.

“How long?”

“Not long enough for what I want to do to your body, Alpha,” I rasp, my cock threatening to burst the button on my pants with desperation as she flutters her lashes.

“Then stop wasting time talking and spend it… fucking.” She preens, the grin on her lips infectious as she tries to suppress it by sinking her teeth into her bottom lip, but all it does is add fuel to the raging fire within me.

Tightening my hold on her chin, her eyes blow wide, the tension rippling through us so intensely it threatens to steal my breath.

“Strip.” It’s an order, a command, one she doesn’t shy away from as she instantly slips her hands beneath the waistband of her pants.

I reluctantly release my hold on her and reach for the hem of her t-shirt, exposing the soft planes of her stomach before revealing her bright red bra hidden beneath.

Fuck.

A flash of her panties a moment later confirms they’re matching, just as blood red as the fabric on her chest. The lace is enticing, luring me deeper into her depths as she kicks her boots off and slips free of her pants until she’s standing in front of me in only her pretty lingerie.

“I don’t know who I have to thank for this masterpiece, but it still doesn’t do you justice,” I admit, raking my eyes over the length of her once, twice, three times for good measure.

“Your words shouldn’t caress me like that,” she muses, her thighs clenching as she presses them together.

“You’re addicting,” I growl, reaching for her waist and pulling her chest flush against me, lifting her just enough so we’re face to face, her toes pressing into my boots reminding me how delicate she is in my grasp.

“And you’re fully dressed,” she retorts, quirking a brow at me as she reminds me of the bark she keeps hidden under her sweetness.

“Help me,” I order, and she shakes her head.

“I think you’re forgetting who the alpha is here,” she teases, pressing her palms against my chest. My hold tightens, but a moment later, magic whirls around us, forcing space between us as she leaps back.

“Did you just use your magic to…” My words trail off as the amusement in her eyes deepens. Fuck. “That shouldn’t be hot.”

“You don’t love me because I’m a masterpiece, Cassian. I’ll take the compliment, though. It really gets my pussy wet.” She winks, fucking winks , before continuing. “But you love me because I’m relentless, sometimes reckless, and always resilient. I can bend for you in these four walls, but only when I want to. Right now, I don’t want to. I want you feral. I want you on the edge of giving in to your wolf. I want all of you, and I want it now.”

Her words dance in the air like a twister heading straight for me, but it’s a storm worth enduring to reach the eye because I know that’s where I’ll always find her.

My center.

My home.

My mate.

I sense my wolf burning beneath the surface, desperate to see her with his eyes, and I blink. It’s deep, heavy, and weighted, but when I settle my gaze back on her, I see what I know is reflected in my own eyes.

Her eyes are pearly white and sharp, a raw reflection of her wolf. The way her jaw falls slack confirms my beast is prominent in my eyes, too.

“Cassian,” she croaks, using her magic to slam a gust of wind into my back so we fall into each other, tumbling to the floor unceremoniously as our limbs intertwine.

Clinging to her, my heartbeat thunders in my ears, my jaw slack as she lies on the floor beneath me. My hand cups the back of her head, softening her fall while her legs wrap tightly around my waist.

“You’re something else, Alpha,” I ramble, blinking at her, making sure she’s real because there’s no way in Hell someone this perfect is anything more than an illusion. To think I could have fucked all of this up if I hadn’t dropped my walls and let her in.

The love I could have missed out on, the joy that I finally know exists; all because of her.

“And you’re still not in me,” she grumbles, pushing her heels into my ass, encouraging me closer, and I shake my head in disbelief. Before I can think better of it, I use my wolf speed to rid the remaining clothes from our bodies so nothing stands between us. Not even a single thread of fabric.

“If you think I’m not going to feast on every inch of you first, then?—”

Fuck.

“Then what?” she breathes, her voice husky as she nudges closer so the tip of my cock is nestled at her center, feeling the warmth of her core like the rest of me is desperate to.

“Addi.” It’s a plea, possibly a prayer. I’ll never know.

Her wolfish eyes widen, her nails shifting to claws at my shoulders, nipping at my skin, leaving me no choice but to eliminate the remaining distance between us as I sink into her pussy until I reach the hilt.

Panting, we stare at each other, lost to the moment, to each other.

Her eyes shift to her hands at my shoulder, noting the elongated claws cutting into my skin and causing a crimson trail to trickle down my chest.

“Cass—”

I flex my hips, cutting off her apology before it can fully form, and her back arches off the floor.

“I know exactly who the alpha is here, Addi,” I breathe, my fingers brutally digging into her waist. “I’ll never forget it. You complete me, and it’s my job to spend the rest of my life giving you every piece of me. More than my cock, though,” I tease, slowly dragging my dick from her folds before I slam back inside her with enough force to have us both seeing stars. “My heart, my body, my soul. All of it.”

“All of it,” she repeats, untangling her legs from my waist, and my dick slips free. My protest is halted as she flips over onto her front, lifting her ass in the air as she glances over her shoulder at me. “I need you deeper,” she breathes, making my cock strain as she inches her thighs apart.

Fuck.

Aligning my length with her entrance, I feel her muscles tighten before turning to jelly as I thrust deep into her core.

“Tell me you’re going to miss me,” I grunt, retreating until only my tip remains in her pussy, and she groans.

“Of course I’m going to miss you,” she moans, eyes locked on mine as she continues to stare over her shoulder.

“Tell me how much,” I insist, holding onto her hips for dear life as I slam into her tight pussy again and again and again.

“So, so much,” she pants, her claws wedging into the wooden floor to hold herself in place.

“I don’t know how I’m going to breathe without you,” I admit, lifting one hand to her shoulder so I can anchor myself better and fuck her harder.

“Fuck, Cass,” she groans, and I fall silent, basking in the sound of flesh on flesh as I take her as mine. I just need… more.

Releasing her shoulder, I creep higher, grabbing the lower braid of her crown before tugging her toward me. Her head rolls back as she rests it against my shoulder, and I nip at her ear. My wolf is so close to the surface that I feel a bone crack in my foot, the impending shift on the verge of taking over.

“Cass,” she cries out, tilting her face so our eyes are locked, and I sense the panic there. She’s on the verge too. Her wolf is close to the surface. I hear a crack, and I know it’s not me.

“Trust me?” I ask, and she nods, not missing a beat as I tear away from her.

My body takes over, instinct vibrating through my veins as I try to keep my wolf at bay. Grabbing her wrists, I hold them in one hand at the base of her spine as I press my other in between her shoulder blades, lowering her cheek to the floor. Her ass naturally lifts in my direction. Rising to my feet, I crouch, needing the support of my feet instead of my knees, as I press her wrists into her lower back and align my cock with her pussy.

“Please, Cass,” she cries out, panic thick in her voice, but it’s muted when I slam my cock into her folds once more.

Harder, faster, I let my wolf take over my movements without shifting.

Grunts, snarls, and rasps fall from my lips, echoed by the sound of Addi’s desperation. Her eyes sparkle, but no more bones crack as I fuck her into the floor.

“Cass, Cass, Cass,” she chants, her body thrumming with electricity before it grows so tight there’s no denying her impending orgasm, and she explodes. Drenched in her release, I keep going, sweat clinging to every inch of my body as I piston in and out of her. “Oh my… fuck!” she screams, the tension easing from her body only to ignite again. Her pussy squeezes me so tight it’s impossible to deny my own release, and I tumble over the cliff of euphoria with her.

Baring my teeth, I growl through every thrust until we collapse to the floor, a pile of limbs as perspiration holds us together.

“Don’t even think of showering tonight,” I grunt, my voice darker than usual, only confirming how close my wolf is to the surface. “You leave this lodge drenched in me as a reminder.”

“I don’t need a reminder, Cassian. You’re here,” she breathes, pressing my palm against her chest, right where her heart is, and my muscles relax a little, but not enough.

Nothing will ever be enough with the impending distance set to divide us. The needs and desires of others mean nothing to my wolf. He sees in only black and white. No gray areas are allowed, leaving our need for her the only thing that matters to him.

“Promise me you’ll be safe,” I grumble, scrambling to calm the worry that threatens to claim me. Running my fingers through her hair, I fight the desire to bundle her in my arms and hide away from the world.

When she turns to face me, her eyes have lost the pearly haze, her wolf satisfied, and it’s all her once again. She lifts her hand to cup my cheek, that one soft touch enough to break through the tension rippling through my voice before she speaks, soothing my soul.

“I’m coming home to you, Cassian. I’m always going to come to you.”