Chapter 26
26
Wyatt
Ellie and I are fooling around in the master bathtub when the text comes in that the Ryders are on their way back with Tucker. She goes pink in the cheeks. "My parents know what we're doing," she whispers.
I kiss her forehead before I reach for a towel. "And they approve, because I'm awesome."
Her lips twitch. "Or maybe because they know I can keep you in line."
"Nah."
I'm smiling as I disentangle my legs from hers and climb out of the tub, and not just because her eyes go dark and smoky again as her gaze wanders down my dripping wet body.
No, it's because of the peace.
The utter contentment.
I never wanted to get married because I didn't think it was in my genes, in my bloodline, to be capable of being a good husband and father. Fate proved me wrong on fatherhood.
And this sensation that I've found a missing piece of myself, and that she's sitting right there in the bubble bath, turning down the music and tucking her hair behind her ear. "Did you grab my dress from downstairs?"
"It's on the bed."
"I didn't mean you had to. I could've gotten it. I just?—"
I silence her with a kiss, which might be my new favorite hobby.
Kissing Ellie Ryder.
Who knew?
"I left your shoes for you to get yourself," I tell her. "But I'll probably go get them anyway because you'll get mad and insist you're perfectly capable, and then we'll have some silly little fight that'll end with me needing to stroke your pussy, so?—"
"Yep. Same old obnoxious Wyatt," she says with a grin.
"Same old stubborn Ellie."
She rests her hands on the edge of the tub and leans her chin on them, watching me dry off. "Provided we don't die, we're never going to be bored, are we?"
"I might be."
She gets me with a surprise slap to the ass, then shrieks as she slips under the water.
I give her to the count of one-half before I'm grabbing her arm and pulling her up.
"Okay?" I ask.
She blows and spits at the bubbles around her mouth. I grab my phone and angle it toward her like I'm going to snap a picture, and she rolls her eyes with a laugh. "Go ahead."
"Nah, I don't?—"
"Oh, no. I want you to remember this for the rest of your life. Get in here. Selfie with me."
When I get down on my knee, she scoops bubbles onto my head and dribbles them on my nose.
And we're both smiling in the picture.
"Crazy woman." I wipe her face with the towel and set out another on the floor for her when she gets out. "You hungry?"
"You know what sounds good?"
"Banana pudding?"
"Tea. I have chamomile sometimes to help me fall asleep when I'm achy."
"With banana pudding?"
"We're out."
I put a hand to my heart and stagger. "You're right. We can't be together. We'll run out of banana pudding and die."
She throws the towel at me with a laugh. "Shush and go heat me some water, powder monkey."
"Yes, ma'am, Calamity Ellie."
While she takes her time getting out, I toss on sweatpants and a T-shirt, fill a tea kettle and turn on the burner, then head downstairs to get her shoes. Tucker's left his security blanket down here again, so I take it upstairs too, all the way to his bedroom, and pull out pajamas for him since he'll probably be dead on his feet at this hour.
Hope he had fun.
I'm on my way back downstairs when I smell it.
Smoke.
"Wyatt?" Ellie calls, and there's no mistaking the panic in her voice.
Nor the blare of the smoke alarms that suddenly explode in the house.
I tear down the stairs and land in a cloud of smoke just outside the kitchen. Ellie's in here, coughing, and flames are erupting from the stove. "The towel!" she shrieks, then coughs again.
Fuck .
I snag the flaming fabric and fling it in the sink, then turn the faucet on. "Get out," I tell her. The smoke's not too thick—I don't think anything else is burning—but the smoke alarms are still going off and the towel's still flaming in the sink.
I turned on the wrong fucking burner.
I turned on the wrong fucking burner .
And there was a fucking towel on it.
And I nearly burned Beck's house down.
After promising her that would never happen .
"Hi, yes, there's a fire," I hear her say. "It's at… Oh my god, I don't know the address. Beck's house. Beck–Beck— what's my last name ? Yes! Beck Ryder's house. On the mount— yes !"
The alarms are screeching. She grabs my arm. "Wyatt. Out . Both of us. 9-1-1 says we have to get out. Now."
I spray the last of the embers and check the stove, which is off. "It's out, Ellie."
" You are not going to die in a house fire on my watch, goddammit, get the fuck out !" she shrieks.
She doubles over, coughing, then says, "Yes, we're still here," and that's when I hear it.
The high-pitched panic.
"Ellie—"
" Out !"
She's in a bathrobe, and she's limping hard. The haze isn't thick enough to mask it. " Please get out," she adds, and now there's a choked sob in her voice, and fuck .
I sweep her up and head for the door. "Okay. We're getting out. It's okay."
As soon as we're outside, she twists. "Let go."
Tears are streaming down her face.
"Ellie—"
"No. No . Don't. Back up." She retreats down the sidewalk to the driveway. The yard is too sloped for her to head there, and the limp is breaking me. "Yes, we're outside. We'll stay out."
She's crying.
Ellie's crying.
Ellie never cries. She tells those tears to back the fuck up and get out of her way.
But she's crying. On the phone with a 9-1-1 operator.
"It's my fault," she sobs. "I ignored the signs."
"Ellie. Stop."
Headlights flash up the driveway. The Ryders are back. They stop mid-way to the house, and Mrs. Ryder flies out of the passenger seat. "What happened? What's wrong?"
"We burned the house down," Ellie sobs, letting her mom gather her up while the alarm blares inside.
"We didn't—" I start, but my objection is cut off by the wail of a fire engine's siren in the distance.
"A fire?" Mr. Ryder asks.
"I set a towel on fire. It's out. It's fine. It was an accident."
"It's because we—we?—"
"Ellie, it's not?—"
Sometimes I wish my hair was long enough to pull it out, because that might help distract from the ice-cold fear settling into my chest.
Both the Ryders look at me, but Tucker leaps out of the car, fear written all over his little face, looking so fucking much like the kid I remember being at his age, and my throat closes up and my eyes sting and I grab him tight. "It's okay," I say as he starts to cry too.
"Miss Captain Ellie's crying," he sobs. "Is the house gonna burn down?"
"Hey, no, no, everything's fine." Everything's not fucking fine.
"Take me home," Ellie whimpers. "Mom? Take me home. I want to go home."
"Honey, it's late," Mr. Ryder says.
Headlights flash again, but instead of a firetruck, it's a fire engine red sports car.
Fucking hell .
"Ellie—" I start again while I hug my son and my best friend steps out of his car and the closest people I have left to parents gape at me in utter confusion.
"We can't , Wyatt," she says, her words muffled against her mom's shoulder but still clear as day to me. "We. Will. Die."
"We—"
" When's the last time you ever accidentally set a towel on fire ? Never. Ever . Because it's you. You don't make mistakes . We are not supposed to be together. "
"Ellie, sweetie, what's all this?" her mom says gently. "Honey, everyone makes mistakes. The house is fine."
Beck looks up. "My house is on fire?" he asks.
Curiously. Not mad. Just confused.
Despite the alarms still blaring inside.
"No," I tell him.
"Burned to the ground," Ellie sobs.
"It's not—" I start.
" IT WILL BE . Mom. I want to go home ."
Beck looks at me, shrugs in bewilderment, and then saunters to his sister. "C'mon, Ellie. I got you."
"She's in a bathrobe," I say.
"I'm commando," he offers.
Tucker's still crying. The sirens are getting louder. And when Beck helps Ellie shuffle past us, she doesn't look up when she whispers, "I'm sorry, Wyatt."
Having my arm gnawed off by a bear with dull teeth would be less painful than the searing ache shredding my heart. "Ellie?—"
Beck shuts her in the car, and he, too, doesn't look at me as he walks around to the driver's seat. The engine roars back to life, and he pulls out of the driveway thirty seconds before the fire truck screeches to a halt at the house.
"The fire's out," I tell the firefighters, but the words are hollow. "Kitchen accident."
They still file inside.
Mrs. Ryder wraps her arms around both me and Tucker, and I wish I was seven again so I could fucking cry too.
Because it's Ellie.
She's strong. She's smart.
And when she's fucking determined, there's nothing in the world that will stop her.
And she's determined that I'm not good for her.
I grip Tucker tighter, because fuck .
One day, he'll grow up and leave me too. And we still have the teenage years to get through, when he'll probably hate me.
"I love her," I whisper to Mrs. Ryder.
"I know, honey," she says softly. "I've always known. She'll come around."
I shake my head, but I don't answer.
Because she won't.
She's made up her mind.
And thirty minutes after I thought I was finally in, finally right, it turns out I'm out.