17. Jax

Jax

" S o, I guess we're not talking about what happened today, are we?"

I raised my head to meet his gaze. "Are we still married?"

"Yes."

"Do you want to stay married?"

"Hell yes."

"Good talk." I lifted him and carried him into his bedroom, straight through to the bathroom.

He couldn't stop laughing as I turned the water on in the shower without putting him down. "This is for your benefit because I went for a run before coming over," I said.

He pulled my T-shirt up and then licked my neck. "Salty with a hint of aftershave. Hmm, delicious."

"You're delicious." I captured his mouth with mine, but as he wrapped his legs tighter around me and our erections touched, I suddenly needed far less fabric between us.

"Fuck these clothes." I put him down, helping him out of his jeans, underwear, and shoes before doing the same with my clothes.

My dick bobbed hard against my belly at the sight of Tanner naked. "I'll never get enough of you, Tan."

"Good, because whether you want it or not, you now have me forever."

I pulled him into the shower. "That sounds like heaven."

"You know what else sounds like heaven? Your thighs slapping against mine as you fuck in and out of my tight hole."

I stifled a groan because fuck, that image was going to live rent-free in my head until the end of my days.

Despite the rush to get naked, we kissed under the warm spray like we had all the time in the world.

"Do you know when I first noticed you?" I asked, nibbling his bottom lip.

"Hmm."

"Your first day at our school. You walked around full of confidence even though you were the new kid. You were tall and skinny, with all that blond hair. When Jodie brought you home with her, I saw it as my chance to get closer. I didn't know it then, but you were part of me figuring out my sexuality."

"Really?"

I turned him around and drizzled a small amount of soap onto my palm before working it into a white foam and running it over his shoulders.

"Can't say it was hard figuring it out when I only ever seemed to get random erections when you were around. Then I started noticing other boys, and I knew."

He glanced over his shoulder at me. "I couldn't figure out my fascination with you. For a while, I thought I wanted to be like you. I looked up to you so much. Your focus, brains, loyalty to your family."

I worked his back muscles, relishing the moans it drew from him.

"I'm sorry I left. Maybe if I'd stayed…"

Tanner turned around and wrapped his hands over my shoulders, drawing me close. "Life happens exactly as it should. No amount of ifs, ands, or buts will change the past. If I had a dollar for every time a client told me the reason they're drinking is because of regrets, I'd be a millionaire, but we can only make decisions based on the information we have at the time we're making them. We were both young."

I wasn't sure what got me more, his words or the blue in his eyes that held me hostage. I was barely able to catch him as he jumped and wrapped his legs around my waist.

"Enough talking, Jax. I love you so fucking much, but now I need you to show me how much you love me back. Preferably through the means of your dick in my ass. Got it?"

I chuckled. "Yes, sir."

"Oh, kinky."

I grabbed the lube and applied some to my hand before seeking his hole.

"Hardly."

He gasped as I pushed a finger in. My dick was so hard I was pretty sure it would take the whole weight of Tanner, which was a ridiculous thought. Although having free hands to roam his body would be beneficial.

"Fuck, Jax. Give me more. I can take it."

"I know you can, baby, but I'm hanging by a thread here, so let me do this properly because when I'm finally inside you, I can't be held responsible for my actions."

I pushed two fingers, drawing more moans. When he clenched around my digits, I swore a bead of precum leaked out of my dick.

"I'm good, Jax. I promise."

As much as I wanted to take his word for it, I was conscious of how tight he was, so like a good doctor, I was precise in my preparation.

When my cock finally sank into Tanner, I knew I was home. This was the place I never wanted to leave again.

I fucked him into the wall, grunting my pleasure into his neck.

"God, you feel so fucking good, Tan."

"Arghh, take me to bed, Jax. I need…I need…"

I knew what he needed. More leverage and less slippery surfaces. I turned the water off and got out of the shower with Tanner still impaled on my cock.

He grabbed a towel from the hook on the door and threw it on the bed before I laid him down.

"Let me turn over," he said.

I lifted off him, giving him enough space to get on his belly. He raised one of his legs, showing me his pink pucker.

I pointed my cock at it and pushed in again. In this position, I couldn't go as deep as when we were face to face, but it was guaranteed that every thrust would hit his prostate.

"Is this what you wanted, Tan?"

"Oh fuck, yes."

"Who's the only one who'll ever get to do this to you?"

"My. Husband," he said, punctuating each word.

I couldn't find words to match the emotions going through me. Even love didn't feel like it encompassed it all. Tanner was my everything. My heart. My soul. My home.

"I'm so close, baby," I growled in his ear.

"Do it, Jax. Fill me with your cum. Mark me and make me yours."

I didn't need to be asked twice as I increased my pace.

Tanner started pushing back against each thrust until he was shaking beneath me. When I knew he'd come, I finally let go with a roar that would probably be heard downstairs.

I collapsed against him. My eyes closed as my senses returned.

"Hmm, you fuck so well," Tan said in a cum-drunk haze.

I grabbed the towel and pulled it from under him, using it to clean us as best I could before working us under the covers.

Tanner cuddled against me, resting his head on my shoulder.

"I'm sure I'm going to wake up in the morning and this will all be a dream."

"Impossible because I'm having the same dream, and it's better than anything I could have ever imagined."

He took my hand and ran his fingers over mine. "I guess we should probably get some rings, huh?"

"And maybe tell our parents."

"Fuck, I hadn't thought of that."

I kissed the top of his wet hair. "We still need to take a shower."

"Hmm, maybe in a bit. Let me enjoy my husband's super sexy chest, okay?"

I chuckled. "No complaints from me there."

There was nothing but silence and lazy exploring hands for a while.

"Hey, Jax, who do you think will be the baby's favorite uncle?"

"Me, duh."

He looked up, raising his brows. "You can tell them all the gory medical stories, but I can help them make the best cocktails in the city."

I laughed. "Somehow, I think it'll be a while until either of those can be an option."

"You know, I don't think I've ever been this happy. It's almost scary. I've also never wanted to hug my partner's ex so much. I'm going to create a shrine in Trent's honor."

"You shall do no such thing."

"Hmm…" Tanner went so quiet I thought he'd fallen asleep until, "I'll do one for your abs then."