19. Worth

What the hell had come over me in the pool? I'd been about to kiss Laurie and then do God knows what right there with everyone watching us. The resort would never kick me out, but being asked to return to our villa would embarrass the hell out of Laurie.

This situation wasn't going to work. Laurie wanted more as much as I did, and somehow it didn't matter that I'd only known him for a few days, I'd started thinking of him as mine: mine to protect, mine to please, mine to take care of. I didn't think that feeling was going to go away. He'd said the flames rising between us would die down, but they were only getting hotter and more difficult to ignore.

Was this how my friends had felt when they'd met the men they loved? The thought had me reeling, but I wasn't afraid like I'd thought I'd be if I ever fell for someone. I would never walk away from this chance. Something told me Laurie was exactly what I needed. Beck would understand eventually. I didn't think he could possibly stay mad at Laurie, and I'd pissed him off plenty of times before. We always solved our problems. As long as I didn't hurt Laurie, everything would be all right, wouldn't it?

We walked in silence for a while. I wanted to pull Laurie into my arms, run my hands over him, and pick up where we left off after the other night. But I kept walking, one foot in front of the other, so aware of his presence my body was buzzing.

The sun was low in the sky as we reached the end of the resort property. Rather than go around the barrier to continue on to the public beach, I suggested we turn around. We made it less than half of the way back when Laurie took hold of my arm and pulled me to a stop. I turned to face him, heart pounding.

"I want you." The words were soft, but not unsure.

"Laurie, if you need more time…."

He shook his head. "This is inevitable."

"I know, but I won't push you."

He looked down for a moment, squishing his toes in the sand. "What is happening between us?"

"Something more powerful than I ever thought possible, something beautiful."

"I called Beck this morning." The words seemed to spill out of him.

"Did you say anything about last night?"

"No. I told him you were taking care of me, that I was enjoying my time with you. I think he suspects I'm crushing on you, but he didn't ask."

"Is this just a crush?"

Laurie pushed back his wet hair. "I don't think so, but I'm terrified of what it is."

"Don't be. I'm here to catch you if you fall."

"I'm already falling. I trust you now, but what's going to happen when we leave here?"

"I'll take you to New York."

"Don't promise that, not yet. Can we just take things day by day?"

I nodded because I knew what I felt. I knew how different it was from anything I'd experienced before. I thought about what Miles had said. As long as Laurie wasn't going to leave me or deny the chance to see where this could go, I knew everything would work out.

Laurie glanced toward the ocean and then to a group of rocks further up the beach. "I guess we have to make it back to the villa."

I made a strangled sound. "You thought…you'd let me…."

"Walk fast."

"Jesus, now I'm hard as fuck, how am I supposed to do that?"

He took my hand, and we rushed toward the steps that would lead back to the pool.

I was breathing hard by the time we grabbed our belongings and scurried to our villa. I wanted his naked body against mine. I wanted to watch him as he came with that beautiful look of ecstasy on his face. I wanted to spend the rest of the day touching him. I would do anything I could to make him believe I wasn't going to walk away.

When we finally reached our door, I struggled with the keypad lock, cursing it for refusing to open. Laurie pushed my hand out of the way and punched in the code. "You had it wrong."

I'd been using the code for my office. The green light flashed, and we stumbled into the living room. I shut the door behind me and turned. Laurie was right there looking up at me. I flashed back to last night.

"No interruptions this time," Laurie said, tossing his bag far away from us.

I cupped his cheek with one had. "What do you want?"

Laurie hesitated for a moment. "Do you really think Beck will forgive us?"

"I do. He just doesn't want you to get hurt."

"And you're not going to hurt me."

He was making a statement, not asking a question, which made my pulse go even faster. I prayed he really meant that. I didn't deserve a man this perfect, but no way in hell would I push him away. Miles was right, I would be a fool not to take this chance. But Beck was right to worry. If this went poorly, if one of us changed our mind, it was going to hurt like hell.

"I think it's worth the risk."

Laurie smiled. "Me too."

I slid my hand to the back of his neck and pulled him to me, crushing his mouth against mine in a rough kiss.

Laurie was more aggressive than he'd ever been. He walked us backward, pressing me against the door and grinding his cock against mine as his tongue thrust into my mouth. I was content to let him have anything he wanted from me.

When he started to climb me the way he had in the club, I slid my hands under his ass, lifted him, and turned us so he was the one pressed against the door. He wrapped his legs tightly around my waist, and I worked my hips, thrusting into him, barely able to breathe. He felt so fucking good against me. I wanted to stay here forever, just the two of us touching each other, giving each other pleasure, never having to face what was outside this villa.

"I need you so much," Laurie moaned.

His head dropped back as my mouth trailed along his neck, kissing, sucking, biting. I tore his shirt open. One of the buttons clattered to the floor.

"New shirt. Too nice," he whined.

"I'll get it mended." I nibbled his collarbone, sucking hard at the tender skin.

"Everyone will see. At the pool. The beach."

"I want to mark you. I want everyone to know you're mine. God, you're so fucking hot." This was what I wanted, what I craved from him. Why had we even tried to deny ourselves?

I put my hands between us and freed our cocks from our swim trunks. I wrapped my hand around both of us, stroking us together the way I had after we went dancing.

"I won't last," Laurie gasped.

"You don't have to."

"I want to cum all over you."

"Do it. I want your cum on me everywhere."

I worked us hard and fast, but Laurie pushed at my chest. "No. Want…naked."

"You want to be naked?"

"I want you naked. I need to see you."

I loved how lust drunk he was, how he could barely speak coherently. I set him down and stripped off my trunks, tossing them on the floor. Laurie was trying to do the same, but his hands were shaking.

"It's all right. Let me take care of you." I knelt in front of him and nuzzled the side of his cock as I pushed his swim trunks down. He rocked his hips against me, so I gave him a teasing lick before ordering him to step out of them.

I snatched up my pool bag and took his hand to lead him to my room. He moved faster than me, dragging me behind him. I wasn't going to argue. I was as ready as he was. When we reached the end of the bed, he pushed at my chest, encouraging me to sit down. When I did, he straddled me, and I took our cocks in my hand again as he kissed me. When we came up for air, I pointed at my pool bag on the floor. "Grab that."

Laurie leaned down, got ahold of the handle, and pulled it toward us.

"There's a lube in the inner pocket."

He pulled the bottle out and smiled. "You thought we'd need this at the pool?"

"I don't like to be unprepared."

"This better have been intended for me."

I smiled. "Princess, there's no one else. I'm only interested in you."

"But you…you've always been…."

"You're fucking magical, and you're all I need." I kissed him again and he rocked his hips, making me more impatient to be inside him.

I held out my hand, but he popped the bottle open, squirted lube on his fingers, then reached behind himself. I sucked in a breath as he rose up on his knees and drove his fingers into his ass, riding them the way I wanted him riding my cock. I lay back, not bothering to pull down the comforter. I needed to give him more room to move.

"That is too fucking hot. Turn around, I want to see better." We both changed position so he was laying between my legs with his head down and his ass in the air. I jerked myself off as he stretched himself open.

I watched for as long as I could stand it. "Enough. Get back here and ride me."

The smile on his face made my cock jump. He was just too good.