Chapter Four

Grim had been pretty sure he'd ruined the whole night bringing up spanking way too soon, but as he looked at Nicole laid out in his best friend's arms, he realized Josh had absolutely saved it for them.

"Thanks," he said as he peeled Nicole off Josh's lap and hoisted her against his chest. "You okay or do you need to clean up?"

The way she'd sounded, she'd probably wriggled and thrashed, and he could imagine what that had done to Josh's cock. He knew simply listening to her had him standing at attention.

"I barely managed to keep myself in check," Josh admitted, climbing out of the cab. "Let's get her inside. Don't forget to lock it up. You know where we are."

"We could go to your place." Nicole wrapped an arm around his neck. "I feel better about it now. I was trying to be careful, but I don't have to be tonight, do I?"

His heart twisted in his chest. She was so vulnerable, and he wanted to be the one who made sure no one took advantage of that. "You don't, baby, but I think we're bedding down here for the night. It's another twenty minutes back to the ranch, and I will die if I don't get my hands on you soon."

"It would be faster if you didn't drive like my grandma," Josh groused. "Come to think of it, Granny drives way faster."

"Grandma Diane doesn't have my deep sense of responsibility to keep everyone alive," he shot back. He was careful for a reason. He'd been given so much by Josh and his family he would never risk any of them. And he wouldn't risk Nicole, either.

He was already in deep with this woman, hence the uncool almost-lecture on spanking. He could practically hear Josh telling him to chill the fuck out and take things slow on the "we want to tie you up and do nasty things to you" front.

Thankfully, she didn't look worried now. She had a dreamy smile on her lips, and her eyes were soft.

"Where's your key, darlin'?" He wanted her out of this parking lot as soon as possible. It looked like someone was checking in next door. He got a vague glance at a blonde before she rolled her suitcase inside. She seemed oddly normal for a motel guest. More suburban mom than the usual criminal element.

"In my purse, the front pocket," she murmured as though she couldn't care less if they looked through it.

Maybe she wasn't in the kind of trouble he was worried about. It didn't matter because he and Josh would handle it no matter what.

"Got it." Josh had her purse in hand, closing the truck up and moving to her room. "You would think we were back in the stone ages. Who still has actual keys?"

No key cards for the Willow Fork Sleep Easy Motel. He was sure the owner would laugh if anyone asked if they could check in on their phone. He wasn't sure Jerry Nevins had joined the cell phone revolution. As far as he could tell the man still used a rotary phone on a landline.

He wanted to take her to the magnificent hotel attached to Subversion. Half this rattrap would fit into the suite he and Josh always stayed in. She deserved the best, and he wanted to give it to her. She could be their pampered princess of a sub. A little bratty. A whole lot sweet.

Josh got the door open, and Grim carried her in.

Josh turned on the lights, and the room was neat, if a bit shabby. It didn't matter. Nothing mattered except the woman in his arms.

He sat down on the king-sized bed, grateful that at least it seemed sturdy. He leaned over and kissed her. Her mouth flowered open under his. He could hear Josh moving around. He would be making sure everything was locked down and they had what they needed. Sure enough, when he looked over there was a line of condoms on the nightstand.

His whole body felt alert and alive. This was happening. They were starting something with her, and it would be important.

He let it slide away. He didn't need to put pressure on any of them this evening. Tonight was about pleasure. Tomorrow they could start talking. Slowly. They would ease her into the relationship they wanted.

"You are so gorgeous, girl." Josh proved he was already a step ahead of Grim.

"So fucking beautiful," he agreed.

"I don't usually feel that way," she said quietly. "But I feel real good tonight. I'll feel even better if you kiss me again."

He lowered his head and let his mouth find hers. Kissing Nicole felt natural to him.

He'd loved the whole night. Even dancing. Not once had he found himself wondering when he could slink away and find a quiet place to read or get some work done the way he normally did when surrounded by people.

It wasn't so bad when she was there.

"Tell me what you want." He was going slow. He was tamping down all his instincts to tie her up and haul her back to their place. Those, he'd been told, were his inner-caveman instincts, and he was supposed to…not suppress them exactly, but to try to round out the hard edges.

It was funny how he almost never heard his stepfather in his head anymore, but Jack Barnes was always there.

"I don't know." She was staring at him like he was something special. "I guess I want to explore. Maybe not the spanking thing tonight, but it doesn't scare me the way I thought it would. I thought this would be something that went fast, and then you would be gone."

He shook his head. "Not happening, girl. We're spending the night if you let us."

"Then I want you to show me," she whispered. "Show me what it means to be with two men."

That he could do. Starting right now.

He kissed her again even as Josh moved in. His best friend had already gotten his shirt off and was taking his place on the other side of Nicole. "Kiss Josh."

Her head moved, tilting so Josh could take her lips.

This was what he needed. He'd been restless lately, his work not fulfilling him the way it used to. The club worked for a while, but what he needed was an actual relationship, a woman they could truly care about and share.

The fact that he was almost certain she was lying to them about any number of things didn't matter. She was lying about this great job she was going to get to in a couple of weeks, lying about having friends in other cities.

She was alone. She needed them. She just didn't know it yet.

Sex, it seemed, might be an excellent way to prove to this cautious woman they could be trusted.

"I'm going to take off your shirt," he whispered. They would get to a point where he could do what he liked and trust her to stop him if she wasn't on the same page, but they weren't there yet. He worried she might stay silent, and he wanted her to have every opportunity to make her wishes known.

She turned on his lap, facing Josh and holding her arms up, giving him permission.

He eased the T-shirt over her head, letting his hands skim her waist and then the sides of her breasts. Her skin was warm and soft, like the woman herself.

Her bra came next. He twisted the clasps with the ease of a man who'd done it many times. He liked to undress their women, to present them to Josh. To make them feel like the gorgeous gifts they were.

He tossed the bra to the side.

"Damn, you're beautiful, Nicole," Josh said, his eyes on her chest.

Grim couldn't see her, but he could feel her. He let his hands run up her sides again but this time he stopped at her breasts, cupping them and testing their weight in his hands. He ran his thumbs across her nipples and bit back a groan. They were hard nubs, and the fact that he could smell her arousal made his dick jump.

Josh had primed her, and now they could spend all night showing her exactly how it felt to be worshipped by two men.

Josh put a hand in her hair, smoothing it back even as Grim stroked her nipples. "Nicole, how do you feel about getting Grim in your mouth? I know it's something I'd like to see."

Bastard. He shot his partner a what-the-fuck look because he knew exactly what he was doing. If he got the first blow job, then Josh would get inside her first.

Josh gave him a "well, buddy, I'm quicker than you" look.

Nicole's chest swelled in his hands. "I feel good about it. I should warn you, though, I've been told I'm not great at oral."

It was obvious she'd had some assholes in her past. Possibly the one she was running from. He couldn't tell if she was running from a person or trying to get away from her problems, but it didn't matter tonight. Nor did it matter who had her first. What mattered was how she felt on the other side of this. "Only because you didn't have the right lover, darlin'. I'm going to teach you what I like, and I expect you to do the same for me. Good sex doesn't simply happen. We have to make it happen."

"You believe that?" Nicole asked, her head laying back on his shoulder as he stroked her breasts.

"Yes, we do," Josh replied, his hand coming up to tilt her head so she had to look him in the eyes. "We're not going to be selfish and we're not going to be quick. We want hours and hours to learn your body, to figure out what gets you hot and what makes you come so hard you scream out our names."

Her only response was to groan and wriggle her ass over his dick. Yeah, he had no idea how Josh had managed not to spill in his jeans.

Suddenly the idea of having her mouth on his cock wasn't a bad one. Not that it had been in the first place. This was how they tended to work. They negotiated. The first blow job would be okay since he knew Josh wouldn't watch for long.

"Get on your knees, baby, but take those jeans off first," he ordered, giving her breasts one last gentle stroke. "I want to feel your mouth on me. You tell me if it's too much. You only take what you can."

"He says that because his dick is so big," Josh offered.

Nicole slid off his lap and got to her feet. There was a tremble to her hands as she started to undress, but he didn't think she was afraid. He worked the buttons of his shirt, not wanting to leave her alone. Not this first time. There would be plenty of times later when they would have her naked while they were clothed, but they had to build trust first. Besides, he didn't want anything between them. He wanted her hands on him, craved it.

He wasn't sure why he was drawn to Nicole, but he'd learned long ago some things were meant to be. Sometimes if a man was open to it, the universe gave him a bounty. It was up to him to take care of those gifts, to never take them for granted.

Josh moved in behind her, letting his fingers brush over her shoulders. They looked beautiful together. They would make a gorgeous couple.

Could she handle what the town would throw their way? How harshly society would judge them?

"Don't," Josh said, even as he lowered his head to her neck and started kissing her. "Not tonight."

His best friend knew him well.

"Is something wrong?" Nicole asked, hesitating at the fly of her jeans.

"He's always worried about hurting someone else, and he's thinking about the fact that this town can be hell on anyone different. He's thinking about my parents and what they went through, but we're going to concentrate on tonight and nothing else," Josh vowed.

"I wouldn't care." Nicole's eyes found his, and he saw the will there. "If we were together, I wouldn't care what anyone else thought. I've tried to fit in and all I got for it was pieces of myself taken away. I won't give up on good things to please people who don't matter."

His heart clenched because she likely didn't know how bad it could get, but damn, he'd needed to hear those words. "Then take off your clothes. You already know we think you're gorgeous. Show us."

She took a long breath and then shoved her jeans to the floor along with her cotton undies, kicking them to the side. Her eyes went to his chest. "I think you should show me, too."

He pulled his boots and socks off and stood, wearing only his jeans and boxers. When his hands went to the fly, she moved in, covering his hands with hers and brushing them back so she could twist the button loose. Her eyes were down, watching as she slowly lowered the zipper.

He gritted his teeth because she was going to do him in. Every cell in his body felt awake and alive and a little desperate as she cautiously undressed him.

Josh stepped back, watching Nicole the entire time.

Grim's cock bounced free, the hard length jumping the minute she touched him. Heat flashed through his system, and he forced himself to breathe. He wanted to toss her on the bed and pound himself inside her, but it wasn't happening.

She was getting what she needed tonight even if it killed him.

He managed to get the jeans off along with the boxers, kicking them to the side. He watched as she palmed his cock.

"I think you're beautiful, too, Grim." Every word came out breathless. "Why do they call you Grim? Olivia's answer seemed a little sarcastic."

Livie was entirely sarcastic. "I wasn't raised like Josh. My parents…my stepfather…he didn't believe in joy. He always told me any happiness should be found in heaven, and it mocked God to laugh or have fun when it came to what he called earthly delights."

"Earthly delights meant anything at all," Josh explained. "So Grim didn't learn to smile a lot until he came to live with me. He was serious all the time, and someone took to calling him Grim. It stuck. My momma and Olivia tried for a long time to get everyone to call him Jared, but Grim likes the name."

He wouldn't say he liked the name. It simply felt more real than Jared. "The people who gave me the name no longer matter. The people who called me Grim are still in my life."

"Jared is a beautiful name, but I understand the necessity of transformation every now and then." She went on her toes. "You should know I like you no matter what you call yourself."

A kiss brushed over his lips and then she was moving again, dropping down to her knees.

He was too big, too tall. He settled back on the bed, spreading his knees wide and allowing her to move between them. "Touch me."

Her eyes were soft and filled with desire as she cupped his balls. It took everything he had to not come then and there. She moved up, wrapping her hand around his cock as she leaned forward and swiped a tongue across it.

Grim's eyes damn near rolled to the back of his head.

"Spread your knees wide, sweetheart," Josh said.

Yes, he knew the game plan. Josh wouldn't simply sit back and watch when he could be involved. This would teach her what they wanted. Her in between them always.

"Do what he says." It was time to get bossy with her. She seemed to respond so well when he took control. "But don't stop taking care of me. If you do, he'll stop."

"What's he…" She gasped, and suddenly her hands were on his thighs, holding on. "Oh, my god."

What he was doing was eating her pussy like a starving man.

Grim reached out, sliding his fingers into her hair and twisting lightly. "I meant what I said. You don't want him to stop, do you?"

She shook her head slightly and then leaned back in, sucking lightly at his cockhead. She moaned, the sound reverberating across his flesh.

Her tongue whirled around him, tentatively at first, and then she seemed to settle in.

He glanced to his right and caught sight of the three of them in the mirrored closet door. It was the kind that folded out to open, but Nicole had it closed so he could see everything. Josh was under her, his head between her legs, hands holding on to her thighs so she was balanced as he devoured her pussy.

She looked sexy as fuck leaning over and working his cock. Her hips wriggled, acknowledging the pleasure she received, and she gave it all back. To him.

Nicole was gorgeous in between them, fitting there with a perfection he couldn't have imagined.

She sucked him deep and then Josh must have hit some perfect spot because just as he could feel the back of her throat she moaned, and he couldn't hold back any longer.

He fisted her hair as he came, wild pleasure flowing through him. Nicole took everything he gave her, drinking him down even as she rode out her own wave.

Nicole sank down, her head across his lap, and it was obvious she was spent.

But they weren't done with her.

Not even close.

* * * *

Every inch of her skin felt alive as Nicole took a deep breath and felt Josh slide from between her legs.

Had that really happened? Had she given Grim a blow job while Josh blew her freaking mind with his tongue? He'd tongue fucked her, eaten her pussy like no one had before.

It had to be a dream, except she could taste Grim on her tongue, the salty sweetness of him coating her mouth, his masculine scent filling her senses. She wasn't this girl. Woman. She wasn't the woman who had crazy sex.

Of course she also hadn't thought she would be the woman on the run from the cops for killing her husband, but here she was. Maybe it was time to throw out all expectations and take what joy she could find.

She felt big hands cup her ass, and she remembered she was naked. With two hot men, and they seemed to like what they saw.

You're too fat, Nora.

Why did you lose all that weight? You look like a scarecrow.

Sometimes Micah's voice haunted her, an echo of a nightmare that was constantly chasing her. She couldn't do anything right. Now she realized it was all about control. It hadn't mattered what she'd done. She couldn't please him. No matter what way she went, he would find something to criticize because criticism was the point.

"You taste so sweet, sunshine," Josh whispered into her ear. He covered her back, his arms wrapping around her waist even as she clung to Grim.

She'd decided to believe them. At least for the night. "Grim tastes perfect, too."

A low chuckle had her tilting her head up so she could look into amused dark eyes. Grim's big hands came out, stroking her hair. "I will take your word on it, baby. Now come up here. Are you too tired? Because I think Josh would like to get inside you."

She'd expected Josh to start fucking her from behind while she blew his best friend, but he'd surprised her. Josh Barnes was a ridiculously giving lover, and there was no way she would deny him. He'd given her two earthshaking orgasms without taking anything for himself. But she didn't want it to be only Josh. "Will you hold me?"

Grim's gaze went soft. "Always."

It was a bittersweet word because their always wouldn't last long. Tonight would last forever in her memory, and that would have to be the always she got.

Josh moved from behind, and before she knew it she was being settled back on the bed, her body lain out against Grim's. He was behind her, his legs opening hers. It was a vulnerable position. Wanton and blatantly sexual, and she felt weirdly precious.

Had she ever felt this wanted? Was this the feeling she'd been chasing her whole life? The one she'd missed out on in childhood, the one that led her to a terrible marriage?

Grim kissed her temple, his hands restless on her body as she watched Josh kick off his jeans.

"I know I've said it, but I won't stop until you know how I feel," Josh said, pulling off a condom from the roll he'd lain out earlier. "But you are gorgeous, girl. You are sexy and beautiful, and I can't wait to get to know you better."

He wouldn't. He couldn't know the real her, but she wasn't going to turn him down. He was a gorgeous god of a man, and he would forget this time, or rather it could be a fond memory years down the line when he and Grim had found their perfect woman and settled down, someone who would appreciate them and work hard for their future.

It wouldn't be her, but she had tonight.

Josh was utterly masculine, standing at the end of the bed, his cock jutting from between powerful legs. He was a stunning man with dark hair that curled around his ears and piercing emerald eyes. His shoulders were broad, and every inch of the man was cut and muscular. He was so beautiful it almost took her breath away.

And he made her feel beautiful in a way she never had before. She was the girl no one noticed, the one who sat in the back and did her work without a lot of fanfare. And then she'd been the girl who hid. She didn't feel hidden with these men.

Grim's hands cupped her breasts, reminding her he was there. Everywhere their skin touched felt alive and warm. How long had she been numb? Years it felt, long before Micah died and she'd been a pawn in his brother's game.

Something was waking inside her, something she'd never felt before.

Josh climbed on the bed, covering her body with his. He leaned over, taking her mouth in a hungry kiss. She could taste herself on his lips and tongue, a tangy cream. Could he taste Grim on her? There was something wickedly exciting about the idea that even now they were all together. She and Josh were kissing, but Grim was on her tongue. Josh kissed her until she was breathless, and she could feel the arousal he'd satisfied flaring back. She'd had the most powerful orgasm of her life, and she already felt the need again.

What were these men doing to her?

It didn't matter. All her questions fled as she felt Josh's cock at her pussy. He'd joked about how big Grim was, but Josh was huge, too. She whimpered as he started to breach her.

"You okay, baby?" Josh held himself still.

She didn't want him to stop. She tilted her pelvis up, forcing him deeper inside.

Josh groaned, and his head fell forward. "Oh, baby, later on we're going to have such a talk about who's in charge of this. But I can't stop for discipline tonight. I have to have you."

His hips flexed, and she groaned as his cock filled her up. She was deliciously stretched. Nicole wriggled, trying to get used to the feel of him. Then she felt something hard against her back.

"Baby, you're going to make me come all over again. I hope that shower is functional because you're getting dirty tonight," Grim vowed.

They wanted to cover her with them, with evidence of their desire for her. She welcomed it. She wrapped her legs around Josh as he started to thrust inside her.

It felt so fucking good to be between them. It made her wonder what it would be like if Grim was in her… Had she thought about having Grim in her ass? She'd never considered anal sex, but it might be worth it to have them both inside her.

Then she wasn't thinking about anything but Josh's big cock sliding inside her over and over again, about Grim's hands on her breasts, his mouth next to her ear as he told her how sexy she was, how much he wanted her.

How he couldn't wait for his turn.

They weren't words she'd ever thought she would hear. She certainly wouldn't have told anyone they would be so sexy her pussy would clench at the thought. Those words Grim whispered shot straight to her soul in a way she hadn't realized she needed. They made her feel wanted, protected, precious.

Beloved.

This had never been her fantasy. She'd never thought beyond finding a nice guy to settle down with, to build a life with. The sex would be more for him, the affection for her.

But this sex was affectionate. This sex was centered around her in a profound way.

Josh kissed her again before he twisted his hips, and her breath caught in her chest.

His lips kicked up in the sweetest, sexiest smirk. "There it is. That's your sweet spot, baby."

She hadn't known she had one of those, but Josh Barnes was proving she did. Her clitoris had gotten a workout, but this spot deep inside her threatened to overpower everything.

Josh settled in and worked over her, his gorgeous face a mask of desire. For her. For what she could give him. Them.

"Don't hold back," Grim commanded. "You give us everything. I don't care who hears."

After all she'd had to listen to, she didn't care either. She'd been a quiet church mouse all her life, and now she wanted to shout to the heavens. When the orgasm enveloped her, she called out their names over and over again, called them out until Josh's body went stiff, his rhythm losing its precision as he obviously careened over the edge. His jaw tightened and he pumped into her, grinding against her and giving her a glorious aftershock of pleasure.

She lay back, spent in Grim's arms. Josh's head fell to her breast.

A deep sense of peace overtook her as she laid her hands on Josh's silky hair.

They were hers. Even if only for a little while.