2. Varnak

CHAPTER 2

Varnak

M y life is a vrecking mess right now, thanks to one tiny, muscular female who wants to fight every male in this place and I cannot bear to let her do it.

I refuse to see her wrap her arms around any other male on this base. My heart would burst if I had to watch something like that. Anger would drive me insane and I'm very sure that I'd probably kill any one of them no matter if they were my friend or not.

I stalk past Koehn and he grunts at me, his eyes shining with mischief. I don't know what's gotten into him but whatever it is, if it's because of his new mate, I almost wish he wasn't as happy as he currently is. It's vrecking disgusting.

"How is your little mate today, Varnak?"

Glaring at him, I turn on my heel and stride away. "I don't have a mate, asshole."

"You do….you just don't want to admit it." He knows. They probably all know which is why they're accepting my growled statement that they can't touch her. Even if some of them are dying to go to war with the little demon. She's been tormenting all of us since she came to this base. She's taunted us with comments on our manhood and whether we're scared of the little monster.

Hell yeah I am! I am terrified of her. Terrified to even get near her for fear that I won't be able to let her go. Won't be able to let her take even one step away from me without throwing her over my shoulder and stalking out the door and to a bed so that I can fuck her out of my system.

Which will never happen. I have a mate. I never thought that that could happen. I mean, it's not like I want one. I want to fight until the day I die. I want to do it all and see it all and then destroy anyone that gets in my way or the council's way until I can't do it anymore and I die.

But I have a mate and I'm assuming at some point that mate is going to manage to slip under my skin and wriggle her way even more into my soul until I can't see a day without her, without knowing that she's my one, my reason for living, for breathing. Just for being.

But for right now? I don't want it. I want to live my life the way I see fit. I want to be able to move without a word and leave for long periods of time.

I just want to be my own male and I don't want anything to mess with that.

I don't want to be responsible for bringing a life into this mean, bad world and worry every damn day of my life that I can't protect them.

I know some of Lacey's story from Koehn. She's been through a lot in her short life and none of it was her fault. Although she thought it was.

I feel a kinship with her on that. My own family was destroyed when our tribe was attacked. In one instant, I had nobody anymore.

It vrecking hurt. Not to mention the female that didn't want me.

So I'm not in a rush to be responsible for anybody else and with Alex?

My hand runs through my hair which I've got down today although I usually braid it up to fight. To be ready at all times.

"That female is not right in her mental state," I mutter under my breath. I cannot be responsible for her.

Koehn snorts with laughter. I whip around, my fists clenching at my sides. "What is so funny?"

"You. You sound just like me. You can fight it all you want."

"I intend to. I don't want a mate."

"It's fated. I don't believe that you can fight that."

"I can fight any granthing thing I want. And I'll vrecking win."

He shakes his head, his white hair a mess from his usual tidy length. But with the biggest smile on his face. He smacks my arm and walks towards a mat in the workout area. "Come on. Let me see you do something beyond crying."

I snort. "I'm not crying."

He yanks his hair up in a leather tie. "You're not fighting either."

I meet him on the mat. Tying my own hair up, I slip into an offensive posture. "Get ready to get your ass destroyed."

"Your English sucks. Is that the best trash talk you've got? I think Alex could and would destroy you."

"I've been practicing same as you."

"Difference is that I'm with my mate and she helps me. Alex just seems to be making you into a bigger mess. That sucks as she's your mate."

Blood pounds in my ears and a snarl flicks my lips. "I am tired of this talk. What is it exactly that you want from me, Koehn?"

He sighs. "We're having a meeting about this trip that the females are so excited about."

"Yeah. I've already said I'd do it. I can take one of the two-seater ships. Who are we thinking to go with me?"

"I don't think you're going to like the way this is going to go, my brother."

I don't like it. I can tell by the look on his face, smug and yet worried.

"There is no way that they could be thinking of sending Alex with me," I grit out between clenched teeth, my fangs grinding into my bottom teeth.

"That is what they are thinking of doing." He holds up his hand as I open my mouth to spew a diatribe of swear words. Human swear words fascinate me. "Look at it this way. If you manage to find this female, she's gonna be scared. She's not going to understand you at all. And you won't have the means to add our language to the chip until you get back here. It's the best way to make sure that she is comfortable."

"What about my comfort, Koehn? There is no vrecking way I want to take a long trip alone with Alex. The female is a damn menace. The other day she threatened to take my manhood in the most painful way possible."

Koehn snorts but buries it under a cough when I glare at him and grit my teeth again.

"What did you do to make your mate say something like that?"

"She found out that I threatened Grudnik."

He lifts a white brow. "Why?"

He knows. The whole damn base knows. But I growl under my breath. "You know that I threatened to kill him if he touches her."

"Yes. I do. And now she does. That female is the scariest thing I've seen in a long time. I would not close my eyes anywhere near her. She probably will take off your rada."

"Very amusing, Koehn. But that is why it would be very stupid of me to take a trip with her."

"Doesn't matter. None of the other females will go right now."

"What about Lacey? She's a pretty strong female. I bet she would enjoy this journey."

He growls and glares at me. "Now you're just trying to anger me, Varnak."

"What?"

"I do not believe this look that you are wearing, Varnak. If you thought that I would send my mate alone with another male you must have hit your head…hard."

I grin. "I did not think of that."

"You didn't think that I would not want my mate, Lacey, going on a long trip with an unmated male who is moderately good-looking."

I grin. "You make it sound bad."

"I make it sound like a good way to die."

I choke on a growl. "You would not trust me with your mate?"

"I wouldn't trust a fantua with my mate. And he does not have the balls like the females say."

"Just come to the south bridge in fifty parsecs. We'll finish this discussion then."

I grumble under my breath, "That gives her the chance to argue her case."

"If you mean, Alex, you are right. Good luck, my brother. I'm pretty sure that the females are solidly on Alex's side on this one and the council members have all accepted her proposal to go."

I'm fighting a losing fight. I can feel it. But vrecking hell if I'm just going to give up. I am not a quitter. I don't want to have to take that granthing female. She does something to my insides and I can't think around her

Her blue eyes are deeper than space and sparkle with annoyance every time she looks at me. Her mouth is full and red, like she has been thoroughly fucked. Which just makes me want to fuck her.

And I can't. I would lose my soul.