Prologue

1350, Second War of Scottish Independence

Marsh Residence, England

Jane Marsh liked to believe that she was a good person. She tried, as much as she could, to steer clear of any situation that might test this goodness, but so far she had not had great luck doing so.

Jane seemed to attract problems. So, over the years, she'd perfected the art of inventing stories just to escape whatever situation she found herself trapped in.

Today was no different. Her sister's engagement dinner was the perfect excuse. If she got caught eavesdropping at her father's study, she would simply say that she had come to inform him that the table had been set. Its plausibility would depend on her ability to keep a straight face while she was saying it. And to maintain it while her father threw verbal daggers, which had grown ineffectual from overuse, afterwards. Still, she'd best not get caught.

From inside, she could hear Commander Edward Pierce, one of the guests of the celebration, regale her father with tales of his valor. His voice was loud, almost theatrical. He had a way of saying things like he was the main actor in a play riddled with soliloquys, always emphasizing his own qualities. Now, however, he was speaking to her father about the war with Clan Fletcher.

That caught her attention.

Just two weeks ago, her uncle Howard had been slaughtered in a battle with the clan and Jane had been disconsolate, for he had been more of a father to her than her real one had ever been. He'd listened to her and brought her gifts. He'd praised her beauty and given her a sense of belonging. When, as a child, she'd told him that she hated her eyes because green eyes were only for cats, he'd carried her on his lap and said, "Then I am the biggest of cats, Jane. I am a lion!" He'd made a marvelous imitation of a roar and encouraged her to do the same.

"What does that make you?" he'd asked afterwards.

"A lion, too!" she'd giggled. And then she roared again.

"Smart girl. Just like your mother was."

And now he was gone.

Jane had mourned for a week. She had barely eaten, and she had not stepped out of her room. It was Eleonor who had broken her out of her despondent spell by informing her that she was engaged to be married.

Her father's voice, in contrast to the commander's, was steely and firm. It carried authority. She knew it well: it was the voice that played in her subconscious when she did things badly.

Oh, look at what you have done now.

You cannot get anything done right.

Stupid, just stupid.

"I suppose congratulations are in order, Commander Pierce," her father said. "A win against those savages is a win for all of England."

"True, true," Commander Pierce said. "I am starving. I declare, I am parched. Could I ask you to ring for a servant, Marsh? A few sips of wine before the festivities will do us good. Better yet, I shall go and find a servant myself."

"Yes, of course," her father said, and she heard the shuffling of feet. She swiftly gathered her skirts, moved away from the door and fled down the hall to her sister's room. Her abode was an austere affair, with lifeless walls and cold halls. She'd lived all her years in it and it still did not feel like home. The wood, though fastidiously polished by the maids, was rotten in places. The stone, though scrubbed, needed replacing. She'd once suggested that the curtains be changed, and the windows be left open in summertime and her father had looked at her as though she had an unnamable, untamable disease and walked away.

Oh, to leave here and go someplace else where she could have a say, where she could choose her own room and decorate it any way she wanted! In this sense, Eleonor was lucky. Soon, she would be the mistress of her home, a hallowed duchess, with the ability to dictate the house's curtains and linens and rugs. Jane was truly happy for her, but she would miss her sorely. She loved her most in the whole world, and with her uncle Howard gone, living here would become doubly hard. She swallowed that despondent thought, pasted a smile on her face, and entered her sister's room.

"I do believe that at least the bride should be present at the engagement dinner," she said, closing the door behind her. Eleonor was standing by the window, her back to Jane. At twenty, Eleonor was almost a head shorter than her younger sister. She had the straightest black hair and the darkest black eyes that Jane had ever seen, in contrast to Jane's green ones, so similar to her uncle's eyes. Often, when they were children, Jane would look in the mirror and imagine that it was Eleonor's black eyes that stared back at her.

"Oh, you chose the oxblood dress," Jane said, as she walked to Eleonor's bed. It was a beautiful, blooming affair of cotton with tiny lace trimmings on the bodice and the miniature cape. Unlike Jane, Eleanor had a lean figure. The kind that was favored in paintings and sculptures. Jane, on the other hand, was fuller in front and behind. Her proportions made her self-conscious, as her father had always insinuated that it was an indication of indiscretion. It was one of the many reasons for which Eleonor was their father's favorite. Not that it bothered Jane: she was glad that their father treated at least one of them well.

"It is the prettier of the two, like I said before," Jane said. "It fits you well. I cannot believe that you considered the black one in the first place. Black is such an inauspicious color for an engagement dinner."

"You sound like a superstitious Scot," Eleonor replied without turning. Jane smiled. "Sir Edward Pierce is in Father's office, as usual. You would think the man did not have a home of his own. He is regaling Father with the details of his recent victory over Clan Fletcher."

She sat on the bed, careful to spread her skirts out first. This habit, as well as other habits surrounding grace and poise, were not borne of the need to be ladylike but the fear of not being so. When she was twelve, her father had called her a harridan that belonged in the wild with fellow creatures simply because she had come down for supper with her hair improperly combed. There were at least seven men, her father's friends, around. They had laughed boisterously as she ran up the stairs, tears streaming down her face.

"I suppose I should feel happy, somewhat. It is justice, in a way, even though it was at the hand of the commander and not Father," she continued now. "But it does not change the fact that Uncle Howard is gone, Eleonor." A wave of sadness washed over her again.

Commander Edward's victory against clan Fletcher, in the grand scheme of things, meant nothing. It could not bring her uncle back. More so, she knew that the commander would present it as some sort of gift, something she must be thankful for. He was a slippery man in his late forties that put one in mind of a fox. He always smelled of smoke and something else, something slightly malevolent. And then there was that theatre-talk. That infernal theatre-talk. His presence was disconcerting, and several times, Jane had had to evade him, for his attentions were… peculiar. He seemed determined to share the same space as she. Over the years, he had taken an uncommon interest in her. He paid her compliments that always managed to seem a little insulting. He would be at the engagement dinner, an event best suited, in Jane's opinion, to only close family.

"The Commander does nothing for free. He is never driven by a sense of duty or responsibility or loyalty. I am sure that this victory of his is just a way to get close to the duke, so that he can inundate him with requests for favors. Defeating clan Fletcher cannot bring our uncle back." Jane said. "If he were here, he would corner me and ask if I was interested in getting married, as well. He would promise to facilitate any match of my choosing. He always wanted to make me happy."

Eleonor's response was a sigh.

"Eleonor?" Jane said, frowning. "Are you alright?"

Eleonor shook her head. Jane's eyebrow went up. She gathered her skirts and walked to her sister. She took her hand and looked into her eyes. Her face was drawn and sad. "What is the problem, Eleonor dear? What ails you? Your engagement, is it? The duke?"

Eleonor's face grew even darker. "Oh, Eleonor!" Jane exclaimed. "I know he is much older, and that every girl would prefer someone well… more… animated. But he is a duke. We must look at the bright side. What he lacks in youth, he will make up for in wealth. You'll be mistress of all his houses. You'll have servants to mind you and you'll be among top society! You will attend occasions that the king himself will be present at. You'll live away from the strife of this infernal war. Really, Eleonor, it won't be that bad, you'll see."

Eleonor said nothing. "And… and if you're worried about the duke himself," Jane continued, "I know he is not handsome. But he has an eleven-year-old daughter who adores him. That is a good sign. If he is a good father, he will be a good husband, no?

Eleonor shook her head, and then her face crumpled, and she began to weep. The tears took Jane by surprise. Eleonor reached for her, and Jane held her and rubbed her back, while she whispered sounds of encouragement. When Eleonor pulled away, her eyes were watery, and her hair was mussed. "Jane…"

"Yes, Eleonor?"

"I… need you."

"I am here, darling. Please talk to me, Eleonor."

"I… I… I am in love."

This came as a shock to Jane, but she smiled and said, "To feel love is a wonderful thing, Eleonor! Remember, when we were girls, we would talk about falling hopelessly in love and having our lovers love us back and…" She trailed off, realizing the import of her sister's declaration. She knew it was almost impossible for the answer to her next question to be in the affirmative, but still, she could hope. "Is it… is it the duke, Eleonor? Please, tell me you meant the duke."

The look of despondence morphed into one of irritation. It was gone in a second, however. "Of course it is not the duke," Eleonor said.

"Right," Jane said, and tucked a tendril of hair behind Eleonor's ear. "With whom, then?"

"I cannot tell you, I am sorry," Eleonor said.

"But you tell me everything!" Jane exclaimed. "Will you then hide something as important as this from me?"

"It is not that I do not want to tell you," Eleonor said, "But I cannot, Jane. I really cannot. You must believe me."

Jane sighed. "Why is that, Eleonor?"

"Because," Eleonor sniffled, "because he has abandoned me."

Jane's eyes grew wide. "What? He is a rake, I am sure. A blind one, no less. What man could abandon you? You are kind and beautiful and brilliant. He does not deserve you. Not at all. Oh, come, Eleonor, it is alright, it is alright." She made to take Eleonor in her arms, but her sister shook her head and burst into tears.

Jane tried to hug her again, but Eleonor refused. She folded her arms around her middle and rocked herself. When she looked at Jane again, her eyes were red. "I have made a mistake. A huge mistake."

"No." Jane said. "You have done nothing wrong. It is he who-"

"I am with child."

A weight dropped in Jane's stomach. Her mouth turned bitter. Her eyes widened. "What?"

Eleonor nodded, her face crumpling again.

It took quite a few moments for Jane to process this. She knew nothing of pregnancy, save what she had read about in books. Her mother had died at Jane's birth, and so she had no one to ask about ‘womanly' things. A tragedy indeed because she was supremely curious about everything. The books she had read on the human anatomy had been a little vague, but not vague enough that she did not know what it took to be pregnant. She was a little shocked, truth be told, that her sister, the saintly Eleonor, had done it. She looked at her sister's belly and then her gaze moved to her face. "Oh, Eleonor," she said simply. Eleonor jumped into her arms and sobbed, her tears flowing into Jane's hair. "What will I do, Jane? I am ruined!"

"Don't say that," Jane cautioned, squeezing her sister's hands lightly. "There is a way to remedy this. We only need to figure out how." She paused, deep in thought. And then she said, "Whatever the solution is, we must hide the pregnancy, Eleonor. Father must never know."

"But how will he not know? You cannot hide a lot from Father, Jane; you know this."

"I mean this only as a temporary measure, Eleonor. You do not wish to go through with the marriage, I suppose?"

"No," Eleonor said. "I have thought about it a lot. Getting married seems the easiest choice to make, I know. Just like Maribeth. And yet I cannot bring myself to do it."

"That is if she truly did it," Jane added. Maribeth was a childhood friend of Eleonor's whose baby was born seven months after her wedding. Eleonor knew that Maribeth was in fact intimate with her childhood sweetheart, Benjamin, a weak, flighty sort, but she did not insinuate anything at the child's birth one year ago. Maribeth responded to the gossip with disgust and told everyone who cared to know that some babies did in fact show up earlier than they were meant to, complete with hair and fingernails. Her husband was a simple man who was besotted with her, and the baby was male, and so there were no consequences as such. Eleonor knew, however, that it wouldn't be the same for her.

"Alright," Jane said. added. "How far gone are you?"

Eleonor did the math in her head. "About two months."

Jane felt the air leave her lungs in a whoosh. But she plastered a smile on her face and said, "Well, we just need to delay the wedding until we figure out what to do. We must come up with a plan. A very good one."

Eleonor nodded.

"Oh, but will you not tell me who the father is? Where is he? Perhaps we can send him a message. He could be instrumental in our-"

Eleonor said, looking at her hands. "He is gone, Jane. Gone. We were planning to run away together-" Jane's eyes widened at this. Eleonor sighed and continued, but after I told him about the pregnancy, he just… disappeared. I went, several times to our usual meeting spot. Nothing. He left me. Oh, Jane, I am so- "

Jane held a finger over her sister's lips. With her other hand, she pointed to her ear. Both girls listened… and then heard retreating footsteps. Jane shot off the bed and opened the door. The steps were fast, and Jane followed them swiftly down the hall. She knew who it was, and the thought left a knot in her stomach. For only one person that she knew smelt so strongly of smoke. She searched all the rooms on this floor, opening them, sticking her neck in, only to close them and bolt to the next. At last, she was at the end of the hall, where only one room remained.

Her father's office.

She entered it without thinking.

Two pairs of eyes turned to look at her. There was no element of warmth in either of them. "Don't hang at the door, Jane," her father said, "Enter."

She swallowed and urged her feet to move. She stood before them. Her eyes went from the commander to her father. There was a look of pure maliciousness in Commander Pierce's eyes. It was as though she had done him some great wrong, and, mentally, she went over the conversation that he had eavesdropped on. It did not concern him. It was nothing against him. He had no interest whatsoever. She'd run after him solely because she knew that he could not be trusted to keep his mouth shut. He took every opportunity that appeared to offer future leverage. He would scheme, plot, and grovel if need be. This played out even in the course of his dealings with… the Duke of Lancaster.

Jane's eyes widened. Commander Pierce, in the anticipation of a favor, could tell the duke that the woman he wished to marry was not just merely bereft of virginity, but pregnant by another man. It would mean nothing to Commander Pierce that he was friends with their father or an admirer -the term used loosely- of Jane.

Jane could not let that happen to sweet Eleonor!

Her gaze moved to her father. He was looking at her, his gaze steady. He wasn't angry.

He was furious.

"Father, I-"

"You what, Jane?"

Jane's heart began to beat fast. There was a thundering in her ears. She tried to calm herself, tried to make her words even when she said, "I do not know what the commander has told you-"

"That I am harboring whoredom," her father replied with vitriol. "The commander has told me that here, in my house, I have been living with girls that are intent on bringing shame to me, despite my feeding them, clothing them, catering to their every whim and fancy. Despite my toil, I have bred committers and coverers of fornication."

Later on, she would mull over how flawed his speech was, for he had never catered to their whims and fancies. Even Eleonor, whom he clearly loved more, could not make requests of him without first weighing the consequences.

Now, she rushed to Eleonor's defense: "Father, it was a mistake. Truly. She did not know!"

"Silence!" her father thundered. "You wish to make me the laughingstock of every English troop that hears it. My name, dragged through slime. All because of you. Everywhere that evil is mentioned, you are bound to be tied to it."

"Father!"

"It was you who encouraged her to sin. You are a sinner, and that is not enough. You want to drag everyone that you can into the mire with you. You introduced your sister to sin, and now that it has sprouted into a bastard you seek to hide it."

"Father-"

"Silence!"

Every word he said compressed her until she was deflated. But then, if one thought about it critically, Jane had nothing to feel guilty about. She was a virgin, so how could her father accuse her of sin?

"Why did you not bring it to my attention as soon as you knew of it? Why did you choose to hide it instead?"

Jane was silent.

"You fancy yourself a loyal sister, do you not? That is very well. A loyal sister is to be desired, after all. Loyalty goes with sacrifice, does it not?" He looked Jane in the eye, and she shuddered. "So my dear girl, you will sacrifice yourself for the sake of this family."