9. Sloane

nine

Sloane

I take one more steadying breath before I walk over and open the door, trying not to look as hurt as I am now that they're both standing right here. They could've talked to me or come to see me at any point since that night, but they haven't. Even now, they're both still pacing, running their hands over their chests through their hair, doing anything other than standing still and acknowledging that I'm here.

"Which one of you wants to go first?" I ask, trying to keep my voice light.

It works well enough because Jovi looks over at me with a smile on his lips as though he can't tell that they've hurt me these last two days by ignoring me. He steps up in front of me, a hand reaching for my face. The way he cups my cheek makes me want to cry, but I hold myself together.

"So you first, then Alik?" I ask, waiting for a nod from Jovi before pulling him into my room. "Is he coming to watch or not this time?"

Jovi's eyes narrow on me like he can tell I'm not fine right now. He doesn't question it, though. He just turns to Alik, who still hasn't turned to face me before entering my room.

"Just me right now," he says, the words not holding the humor they normally do when we talk with one another. He starts to unbuckle his pants as the door closes, and I walk to my bed. "I'll be fast today, okay?"

"Sounds good," I murmur, crawling onto the bed on my back, spreading my legs, and waiting for him to crawl on top of me. His fingers brush over my breasts as he plucks the pendant off me and holds it up. "Oh, right."

I take it from him, clicking it to orange to let everyone know not to enter my room because I'm getting dicked down, and then lie back down. I don't know how much time passes without him even touching me when he finally sits on the edge of the bed, lower arms on his knees, upper arms crossed over his chest.

"I don't want to take a female who is unwilling, Sloane." Jovi's voice is dark, sad almost as he speaks. "I'll apologize to Phial, but I'm not having sex with you right now."

"Jovi," I start to try to reason with him, telling him he needs to work out whatever his aggression issues are with me so he can continue on this mission without hurting anyone else.

His eyes snap to mine, emotion warring on his face as his jaw ticks back and forth. He's not whatever animal part of him came out when he was fucking me the other night. No, he's all Jovi, and he looks broken. I start to talk again, knowing I need to make sure that I do my job. Sure, I may not want to fuck him right now, but there are other things to do besides that. Things that I find hot right now, even if I'm mad at them.

"I can't have you hurting my friends. What would you feel comfortable doing right now to work through some of this?"

Jovi's body tenses. The fingers on his knees flex until the knuckles turn pale. He looks over my body, his eyes not lingering anywhere for too long, almost like he hates himself for even looking. It makes me feel small like he can't let me do my job right anymore, either. He stands from the bed, and I think he's about to leave the room entirely. Instead, he unbuttons his pants and shimmies them down slightly until he's taking himself in hand.

"Can I come on you?" he asks, already pumping his cock. A hardness creeps into his eyes as I slide down the bed closer to him, spreading my legs and offering my body for him to release on.

"Yeah, come on me, Jovi."

I grab my breasts and squeeze them together. One of my hands trails down my abdomen and between my legs, spreading myself open for him and rubbing on my clit enough to have me moaning. His jaw tenses, and he looks like he might stop, so I keep talking.

"I want this. I wouldn't have turned the pendant to green if I didn't want you. I wouldn't be doing this if I didn't want to. I want to touch myself for you."

I stop caring about how pathetic it might be because it feels so good, and Jovi is here with me now and he's looking at me like I'm his entire world. It's easy to get lost in this moment. A part of me wants him to need me and find pleasure in me, even if it is just for this small moment we have together when he needs to work through his aggression. Something in him changes, the same cold look taking over his gaze as I make my confession.

"Fuck yourself with your fingers," Jovi commands, pumping himself faster as I begin to insert two of my fingers into myself.

He watches me with cold eyes as I finger myself, a low growl starting in his chest as the first of his come lands on my abdomen. He reaches down and removes my fingers from my pussy before letting thick strings of come fall between my legs. He pumps shot after shot against my clit, on my upper thighs, dripping into my pussy.

When he finishes, the warmth returns to his eyes, and he falls to his knees. "I'm sorry," he mutters, lying his head on my knees as he rolls his head back and forth. "I'm so sorry."

"It's okay," I murmur, reaching my hand down and stroking his hair as best as I can. I give up on not trying to get come everywhere and just sit up. Jovi keeps his head against my knees, his arms wrapped around my legs. "It's okay, Jovi, I promise, I'm okay. I liked that."

He sniffles, sounding a bit like he's crying, but it's not something I'm about to bring up with him. He does it once more and then peels himself off of me. He doesn't look at me until he stands back up, a cursory glance over me to make sure I'm okay, and then his jaw is ticking, his eyes blinking rapidly as he looks at the ceiling.

"How about after I finish with Alik, we all have a chat, okay?" I ask as gently as I can, grabbing his hand and stroking it. He nods, still not looking at me, but it still feels nice.

Something's been going on with him if he's falling apart over coming on me. Maybe it means the last couple of days haven't been them ignoring me for the reasons I think. I know it's foolish to get my hopes up, but I really want them to want to be around me for more than just sex. Of course, here I am now, kicking Jovi out of my room right after he comes so I can tend to Alik, but this is different. We're going to talk afterward, all three of us, together.

"I'll send him in," Jovi says as he rubs his hand over his face once. "And I'll be right outside as soon as you finish."

"Promise?" I keep a firm hold on his hand, forcing him to look at me. "Promise you'll be out there, and you won't ignore me anymore."

Jovi's eyes crinkle, confusion and horror mixing as my words sink in. "Did you think we were ignoring you?" He stumbles backward, just barely close enough to the door as it slides open, letting Alik in.

Come is still dripping down my abdomen and between my legs, but neither man seems to care about that. No, Jovi looks horrified, and Alik looks like he wants to kill someone with how pissed off he is.

Jovi shakes his head, coming back to his senses. "I'll be right out here, I promise."

He grabs Alik by the shoulder and whispers something in his ear before stepping out. Alik's eyes harden even more, the thing that seems to take over their bodies when they want to be intimate, showing its full face as he steps closer to me.

"I was told to be quick," he says, devoid of any emotion other than raw anger. His hand is already in his pants, jerking his cock out. "Get on your knees."

I do as he says, hoping there's maybe a chance I get to suck on him. With how horrified Jovi looked when he found out I thought they were ignoring me, it's safe to say I'm back to wanting them to like me.

Alik's smile is dark as he stares down at me, his cock positioned right in front of my face, but he continues to work the length himself. I open my mouth and stick my tongue out, willing him to see I'm eager for him. He growls, a hand coming to the back of my head and holding me so my face is tilted upward.

"Can't do anything more than coat you until we talk." His grip tightens in my hair, but not enough to hurt me. "Since you're being so good, I think I can feed you, though."

I moan, keeping my eyes and mouth open, wanting him to know I want him to feed me his cock. He laughs a dark chuckle that has my core tightening and clenching around nothing. Warmth spreads through my body from my lower belly, and wetness grows in my core.

"Eager little female," Alik says, pumping his cock much slower like he's trying to drag this out. "I'll feed you, but I need you to do something for me."

I nod my head as best as I can before he even tells me what it is. It earns me another one of his wicked smiles and a soft tug on my hair.

"Good girl. Now, I want you to call me your mate."

"I'm your mate," I say before I lose the nerve, hoping mate isn't as serious as it sounds. Who am I kidding? I hope it's exactly as serious as it sounds, and I hope Alik means it when he wants me to call him it.

Alik clicks his tongue. "I wasn't done. Call me your mate and beg for me to come in that pretty mouth of yours."

"Please, Alik, come in my mouth, come in your mate's mouth." I open wide for him after I say the words.

He growls as my words do something amazing to him. His hand tightens around his cock, pumping over it twice more before he comes. The first strings land on my cheeks and down my chin before he rests his cock on my outstretched tongue and lets the rest release into my mouth.

When he finishes, he tucks himself into his pants and kneels down to help clean me up. Luckily for him, his species has tasty come. So tasty, in fact, I'm wiping up the strings from my face and sucking it off my fingers. Alik watches me with wide, adoring eyes as I suck on my forefinger one final time.

"Wow," I say, trying not to sound as hot for his come as I am. "You should've told me it was sweet. I'd have been blowing you guys all the time."

"That's good to know." He rubs the back of his head, his eyes moving from my naked body to the door to my room. "Let's get you cleaned up, and then we'll all talk, yeah?"

I grab the pendant and click it off so no one thinks I'm still in here fucking. "Sounds good."

I rise to my feet, a little unsteady, as the room seems to sway. I let out a giggle, finding all of this just a bit funnier than I did a moment ago. I spin around, noticing Alik is now right behind me, his arms out to brace me like I'm falling, and then, oops, yeah, I'm falling. I giggle harder as he spins me back around so he can look down at me.

"You're so cute," I say as I rub my hand over the dense, short fur of his chest. "Why'd you guys have to be such assholes?" I giggle again, not realizing just how not okay that was to say.

If Alik notices, he pays no attention to it. Nope, he's ushering me into the bathroom and starting the water, all the while pulling out his comm tablet and making a call. I would be irritated if I wasn't now a giggling, happy mess of a woman rubbing against him and shoving my hand down his pants.

"Get Essa," Alik says into the comm. I hear Jovi on the other end, but not well enough to make out what he's saying. "I messed up. We're in the bathroom."

"Shower with me, Alik," my words slur as I say them. I gasp, another giggle taking over, and then ask. "Am I drunk?"

"On me, yes," Alik says through gritted teeth. I'm still plastered to his side, running my hands all over him. "Come on, in the shower." He hoists me up with two of his arms and then comes into the shower with me since it's clear I'm not letting him go. "I'll get you cleaned up, and then we're never going to let me come in your mouth again."

"Boo," I whine, which turns into a moan as he lathers up a sponge and starts cleaning me everywhere. "Mhm, where's my pendant? I'm green again now, Alik."

"I'm sure you are," he grumbles under his breath, but I catch him running the sponge over my breasts more times than necessary. I feel him spread me wide and run his fingers over my clit.

When I giggle and grind into his hand, his chest flushes dark purple again, but the coldness in his eyes doesn't return. If I'm able to get that version of him back, I know I'll definitely have him inside of me in no time.

I'm just about to say all the naughty things that I know to get him going when Essa busts into the bathroom, her blaster drawn. I squeal, hiding behind Alik even though I know Essa would never hurt me.

"Calm down," Alik snarls at Essa. It doesn't cause her to put the blaster down, though.

"Step out of the shower and bring her with you," Essa says as she pushes the glass door open.

Her brows furrow when she notices the wet pants clinging to Alik's legs, and then she tucks her blaster away. Her pupils are contracted in small lines straight down her irises, and her voice has a more melodic tone to it. It's frightening and soothing all at the same time, somehow.

"I thought you'd both be in here going mad off each other."

"Nope, just her," Alik says, grabbing a towel and beginning to dry me off. "Now, we need you here to watch her until she comes down from the high. We can't be near here right now. Especially not me. She's making me want to snap, and if I do that right now, I'm going to do something I shouldn't."

"Keep the drunk human from seducing you." Essa nods and salutes him. Her scariness seems to have faded, and she's back to being normal Essa now. "Aye, aye, captain."

Alik growls at her, wrapping the towel around me and tucking one corner into it so it stays wrapped as he steps away. He leans down and presses a kiss to my temple the same way Jovi did the first night we had sex.

Butterflies erupt in my stomach, and I lean forward, hoping he'll also kiss me on the lips. When nothing happens, I crack my eyes open and grow red when I see it's just Essa and me in the bathroom.

I laugh, unable to stop myself since I can get drunk off alien sperm now. It would mortify me if everything up to this point hadn't already been mortifying enough.