34. Emily

THIRTY-FOUR

EMILY

"How long do you think they'll be?" I ask Esha. She's been here longer than I have so she will know when they go out for things like this, how long they go for. I know the commissioner was a different matter, because he hurt them, so they will hurt them and take their time, but this is something different. This is saving someone.

"Wes gave them twenty minutes, an hour there and back. Two hours twenty minutes. They aren't going to mess around. In and out." Esha looks at her watch then back to me. "Emily, you've been here long enough, now. You know what they're like? Everything has a plan. Everything has a time. One hour to get there. They won't take pit stops. Twenty minutes inside, they won't risk taking any longer than that, then one hour drive back. They should be on their way back. Next ten minutes." She turns to face me, and with a smile. "I really hope it's good news for you Emily. I really do."

This has probably been the longest two hours of my life. How does anybody do this? Everything you have worked on, to find someone, I've given all that power to somebody else. Now I just have to wait.

"Hey-" Esha pulls me out of my thoughts. Maybe I wasn't hiding them very well. "You might get your sister back. Have a family."

"Yeah, but-"

"Stop thinking of it in a negative way," she tells me, and I shake my head. I seriously need to work on my poker face.

"I'm trying not to, but I've been searching for so long and…" Stopping because I don't know what to say without crying.

"You know, sometimes I remember things about my family. My brothers laughing with me, our movie nights. Wishing they were near me. But then, obviously I remember what they did-" she goes quiet. It's the first time she's opened up about her family with me, and I don't know what to say to her. "-I don't know. Sometimes I wish I had my family."

"You have Jaya."

"I do. She's been my best friend since I was little. She is pretty much a sister but anyway. I shouldn't be saying anything. I know why the guys did it. I know, it was an easy decision for Ares. Revenge for what my family did to him and his brothers... But I do hope they find your sister. I really do" I can hear the lump in Esha's voice when she talks to me. I can feel those emotions of her missing her family. Knowing she lives with the four of them after what they did to her family, and I was about to go crazy on her.

"Well, you have me now. I'm sure we'll be sisters soon enough-" What's so funny, I ask her when she starts laughing. "I'm not actually married to Ares. He's never actually proposed to me. We've never been to a church or a Registry Office and the chances of it ever happening is zero-"

"And you think Nitro will?"

"You'll be married before me, I promise you that." I don't reply, because I have no idea what to say to her.

Would Nitro ask me to marry him? I hope so because I would scream yes to him. My life only has one man in it, and I would happily make him my husband if the chance ever came up.

I quickly get off the couch, and run over to the dining table so I get a better view of the front door when I hear it open. Nyx and Tic are the first to walk in, they don't look at me, Ares, then Nitro with my sister.

My sister. Oh my God, my sister.

I can't move, I stare at her as they walk closer to the table. I quickly look at Nitro pushing Rachel away from him, he's trying to get her to stop touching him.

Why is she touching him?

Why isn't she looking at me?

"Does good girl want to sit down?" Nitro pulls out a chair for her and my brows narrow together.

What did he just call her?

"Yes sir."

What is happening?

"Am I a good girl?" Rachel asks.

"Yes, you are," Nitro tells her, as he sits down. What is happening with my sister? Nitro is just staring at me. And I'm trying my best to hold my tears back. This is not happening to my sister.

"When did you last eat?" Nitro asks.

"I've not done anything to be rewarded with food." She's talking like a fucking robot.

"You have done something good. You sat in our car and you listened to us," Ares tells her. "Esha will get some food for you, you stay here and eat your food like a good girl. Yes?" Ares looks over at Nitro who walks away, and nods to me to follow.

"What? What...Nitro? That's not my sister." I hold back the tears, because I'm about to lose it.

"Hey, hey, hey, little tiger. They've had her for a long time. They've played games with her. She's programmed to be a submissive." I press my lips together to stop myself crying.

I cannot cry for my sister. "She didn't even look at me. She did not even look at me to know I'm her sister." Nitro cups my face trying to calm me down, but it's not working.

"Right now, the only people she's looking at are the four of us because she thinks we are her new owners."

"What?"

Looking over at the table, Esha gives her some food, and she looks up at Nyx who gives her a nod, then she begins eating.

"She just needs to be refreshed. We just have to bring back her old memories to get out of this lifestyle. And once we've done that, she'll be back to normal I promise."

"I know they've had her for years and years. What do you think they did to her?" I look back at Nitro, hoping he can give me some sort of hope.

"From what I can see they haven't physically hurt her. She doesn't seem to have any marks on her. She's probably got the back tattoo, which we won't know yet. But it doesn't look like they've burnt her, or cut her or anything. If you look at her, Emily, really look at her, she looks like any other girl on the street. If I was walking hand in hand with her, no one would even think twice that there was something wrong with her. She's got perfect manicured nails, perfect hair, which says to me they washed and cut it all the time." Nitro stops and turns back to face me. "She was used as a toy to be raped, she played their fantasy of the perfect girl, manicured, makeup, and gave her facials. Everything. That's what they've done to her. They programmed her to be hundred percent submissive. They want the perfect girl on their arm."

I just stand there in silence because I don't know what to say. I watch my sister eating her food, looking over at the guys. Opening my mouth to say something, but my mouth just shuts again because I'd still cannot get over what is happening.

"She won't look at me Nitro. She doesn't look at me. She won't remember me."

"Hey Little Tiger, she will look at you, and I will give her every piece of information about you. We might have a long road ahead. We might not. It might all click in her head just like that. We won't know what state she's in mentally until we talk to her. At the moment we're trying to build trust with her. She trusted us in the car. She's trusting us now. For some reason she thinks it's the four of us that have her, own her. We're gonna sit down, and we're gonna ask her questions."

"Is she going to answer them?" I ask.

"If she thinks we control her, she should be answering everything we ask, she's a computer. She's programmed to do what her Dom wants from her."

"I thought this was a made up world and no one actually really did these things." Nitro let's out a little chuckle.

"Little Tiger, the BDSM world isn't a joke."

"Please make her remember me, Nitro."

"I will. I promise." He kisses the top of my head.

I can't believe this is what they did to my baby sister. My baby sister is a submissive and I don't know how long she's going to be like that.

She can always be like this and just do what every man tells her to do. No! I need her to fight for herself.

"Safe word, she must have a safe word." I quickly say to Nitro.

"For some reason we don't think she has one. They would have done everything, they could have done anything and not care if she was screaming and begging them to stop."

My heart beats faster in my chest and my stomach starts to turn, feeling sick thinking of everything they did to her. They took my memory, I can't remember anything they did to me because they took it and I am so thankful they did. I don't have to remember all the evil things they did to me. But she will remember. She will remember every little thing they did to her, and I don't know how to help her.

The rest of the guys join in on our conversation, and I look over at my sister eating her food.

"What's the plan?" Ares asks, and everyone stands in silence.

"I say, see if she knows anything. She thinks we're her masters. Emily, how do you feel about that?" Nyx turns to me.

"What's happening after?" The four of them look between each other, having their stupid silent conversation. I don't know what they want me to say, I have no idea how I should be fixing this.

"Kit?" Ares asks.

"Whatever happens after, we're going to do our best so that she forgets everything they did, and she can have a new life. It might not be the life that you wanted for her or your parents wanted for her. It will be the best life she can have considering everything she's been through-" Nitro stops and just stares at me for a moment because I already know what he's going to say. "But right now she's in that world and any answers from her now are better than no answers." Yes, not true.

"No matter what I say, I have a feeling you're going to do whatever you think is best."

"Yes." The answer was a little more firm and to the point.

So no matter what I say they're going to do what they want, I suppose it is just asking for my permission. I'll look over at my sister. Do I want the people who did this to her to suffer? Fuck yes.

"Do what you need." Are the only words I can say right now because she still hasn't even looked up at me. She's not even looking at Esha.

The four of them walk towards the dining table and Esha stands next to me and wraps her arm around me.

"They found her. He found her for you. It will take time, but she'll come back to you." Esha gives me a reassuring smile, and I look over at my sister.

The four of them sit in front of her and she smiles.

"I'm eating sir. I'm being good." She's not asking just one of them, she's asking all of them. Which makes me think that at some point she was given to not just one person, but more. Fucking animals.

"Yes, you are a good girl. But what's your name?" Nitro asks.

"My name is whatever you want it to be sir."

"We want to call you the name that you want to be called." Nitro answers her again. I plead with myself please say your name please say your name.

"I don't know."

"How about we call you Rachel?" My sister's lips curl into a smile.

"That's a pretty name. I like that name." My sister smiles at them.

Okay. So they're trying to bring back some type of memory through this conversation. Okay, I can be on board with this conversation now.

"Before you went to that place, and you were in that cage. Where were you?" Ares asks.

"I don't know what you mean. I've always been there. Unless...unless I was naughty. If I was naughty then they would take me somewhere else." My sister keeps herself calm, keeps herself looking like none of this is affecting her, but I see her fingers moving, tapping almost. She doesn't like talking about this.

"And where would they take you?" Ares asks.

"To the dungeon."

To the fucking dungeon what the fuck.

"A dungeon and what did they do to you in this dungeon?" Nyx asks this time.

"Was I naughty? And am I being punished again? I promise I won't talk about it-"

"No," Nyx is the first to stop her over-thinking. "You've not been naughty. Someone sent us today to talk to you. He wanted us to talk to you to see how everything was with you. So how about we go back to today when we got you. You were begging us not to do anything. Can we ask why you were thinking that?" Nyx gives her a smile, letting her know she's doing well.

"He only finished with me two minutes before you came in. I was tired. I didn't mean to upset anybody. I was just tired." She lets out a long breath, and sits up straight again.

Some bastard raped her before Nitro got to her.

"Do you know who this person was?" Nitro asks.

"I was with him for a day, he took me to the park. It was a nice park, but then he got angry because I told him I was at a park with another girl. He was so angry."

That kills me, she remembers her past life. She remembers being at the park with me. She remembers something that's got to be a good sign. Nitro looks at me and gives me a small nod. It's just a matter of talking to her. I see that all this is talking to her to remember who I am, who she is.

I feel Esha squeeze my hand a little letting her know that I'm not alone and she's with me

"If you were a good girl, did you get to see other people's faces?"

"I always got to see their faces. They always said that I was their little bird and I was so good. They would let me go shopping sometimes, which I had to be very good at shopping-" She looks at each one of them, and smiles. "If I'm good with you, will you let me go shopping?"

"Of course, whatever you want to buy." Nyx smiles at her again, and he looks over at me wiping the tears away from my cheeks.

"So, do you want me to dress up as anything?"

"No. You look beautiful the way you are." Ares tells her, and I smile. He's being soft with her, when he needs to be he can be soft.

"Do you know what we want you to do? We want you to be a good little girl and take a shower and go to bed," Nitro tells her and she nods a few times.

"Did you want me to wear something for bed? Is it already there on the bed?"

"No. You're going to have a nice shower. You're going to put on some nice pyjamas and you're going to sleep." Nyx is the one doing most of the talking now, and I wonder why Nitro isn't saying anything.

"Thank you sir."

"But before you go, I want you to meet somebody. This person has a special place for you in her heart and I think you should meet her." Nitro nods his head for me to come over and I sit next to him. "Rachel, you may look at her." Finally, she looks at me and stares and stares what feels like forever.

"You're very beautiful." I swallow the lump in my throat. I smile because she's my little sister, exactly how I pictured her to be. "I always knew you'd be pretty. I always knew you were going to be the pretty one," I whisper to myself more than to her, but she smiles. "Can I give you something?"

She looks over at the guys, before answering. "Yes," She asked them permission. "What would you like for me to do?"

"Nothing. I want you to do absolutely nothing for me but to smile." I take off the bracelet around my wrist with her initials on it. Nitro never asked me about it, and I never spoke about it. Always too scared. If I ever spoke about it someone would take it off me. I kept it a secret. But now I can give it back to her. "Can I give you this?"

I handle the bead bracelet with her initials on it and she looks at it, really looks at it and moves it between her fingers and I hope something clicks. I hope something just goes ‘Yes, I know who this person is.'

She drops it on the table. "Everything okay, Rachel?" Nitro asks.

"Sir. Yes. Everything-" She stops mid sentence and then picks her bracelet up again and tilts her head to the side as if she's trying to think of something.

Think, Rachel. Your sister is stood in front of you, sat in front of you. Please, think.

"Where would you like me to sleep, sir?" She slowly gets up from the chair and looks down at her bracelet once again, then puts it on her wrist and smiles.

"Esha will take you into the bedroom and take you to the shower." Ares nods to Esha.

"Thank you, will you be joining me or will you all be joining me?"

"Not tonight. Tonight, we want to make you feel special and you can have the bed to yourself." Again Nyx is the one to talk to her.

"Okay, will you come kiss me goodnight?" They all nod to her, then she turns around and walks off to Esha.

Nitro puts his hand up and nods his head letting her know that she sleeps in our room.

"She remembers something doesn't she?" I ask Nitro.

"Yes, she does Little Tiger. We've got to knock that wall down with a hammer, but we will. I promise you-" Nitro stops talking and that always worries me, because he is thinking something which can't be good. "Do you trust me?" Nitro asks.

And I'm shocked he's even asking me.

What does he think? I don't trust him after everything is done. Found my sister for me.

"One hundred percent, yes."

"Your sister can't stay here."

"What?" I shout.

"The stuff we do is only going to mess with her head. She needs to go somewhere. Find herself. If you want to go with her Emily, I understand. But she cannot stay in this house."

"Why?"

"First of all, she thinks we are her masters who will have sex with her. And if we don't that in a day or two,she's going to start thinking that she's done something wrong and she'll constantly think she's a naughty girl. Being the submissive she is, it will break her and she will curl up into a ball. So that is why she can't stay here."

"Then when you send her somewhere else, she's going to think they have her Dom or whatever it is called." I fight with him, this can not be happening, I found her, and now I have to let her go again.

"No, she's going to think we are her masters and where she is going she's going there to work and work only. She will not have sex with anyone. She will not call any of them sir. We will have strict rules for her. She thinks we are her masters, she won't want to upset us, she will be too scared." Nitro turns his chair to face me, cupping my face. "Where we are going to send her, she will be safe. No one will look for her there, and if they do we can get there. You can leave with her, talk to her. But she needs to find herself, she needs to remember. Where we will send her is not even an hour away. If you choose to stay here with me, then we will go see her all the time, you can spend time with her, talk to her. But at the moment there is only one thing in her head."

"Follow the rules."

"Yes," Nitro whispers, and I know this is going to take some time for her, and I have to trust the guys again with my sister.

"She will be safe won't she?" I choke on the words.

"Yes. We trust that man as much as we trust Wes." Nitro and I both turn to the stairs as Esha comes down.

"She wants to have a goodnight kiss," she looks at me, and I shake my head. What the fuck, they won't kiss her, would they?

"Nyx." Nitro looks at me. "There was a reason he was doing all the talking, she will feel a little more reassured with him, he is building a relationship with her. He will talk about you, she will talk to him about things." So that's why Nitro never said anything, they knew this was going to happen. "Don't worry, the man is in love with someone else."

"Fuck you," Nyx shouts at Nitro, which makes him laugh. "Wes will be here in ten minutes."

Even in times like this, they have to make fun of each other, to them this is just another day.

Wherever they take my sister, I will be there with her. Either I live with her, or I go to see her as much as I can. But if Nitro says she needs to find herself, I'm going to listen to him. I'm happy I've found my sister, now I need my sister to find me.