Chapter 5

Elarix

Although I have grown to be very wary of my mate considering the fact that she wants absolutely nothing to do with me and I suppose that I can't even blame her there. I just honestly thought that she would want more of me, but she kept avoiding me like I didn't even exist. It makes me mad to even think about it because why in the world would they end up treating me this way? Why did she think that it was okay?

She is carrying my child but sometimes she treats me as if I am a nuisance. I know that I am far from it, and I understand if she is hesitant to allow me to be a part of her life because she doesn't know how to feel about it, but I can assure her one hundred percent that I'm not going anywhere, and I would hope that she didn't try to push me aside like I never meant a thing.

I know fated mates mean so much more to me than it does to her, and I hate the fact that this is just how it had to be. I hate the fact that it ends up being this way because I already find myself being so protective over Harper and I don't even think she realizes it. She wants to keep me hidden, for what I do not know why, but I do know that there's no way that I'm going to just be able to take this when it's clear to me that she's not sure what she wants either. I can see it in her eyes how she feels towards me, and it makes my stomach churn. Maybe this wasn't the best idea.

I'd like to think that I'm the only one for her, but it is becoming more and more clear with every passing moment that it is definitely not the case. I'd like to make sure that she becomes a grand part of my life and to make sure that she is happy, but I already know that there is no way it's going to happen with things the way that they are now. I kept telling myself that it's just going to take time and why would she want me around unless she did actually feel something but there's honestly no reason for her to feel anything towards me.

I'm just the alien Rogue that got her pregnant.

Today though, Harper took me outside of her home for the first while to get me clothes because she said that I needed them. I stand protectively next to her and although Harper is a taller woman, I still tower over her. I see human men, women, and children looking at me with shock, as if they have never seen someone like me before. Maybe they haven't and I'm not going to say anything to that though because there's no reason to. I just keep my gaze ahead because of what Harper has said to me and the best thing for me to do is to make sure that I don't end up losing everything to her.

I won't let her win in this sense. I won't allow her to bring me down just because she wants to hide her feelings towards me. She can lie to me all she wants, and she can try to say that she doesn't feel anything towards me, but I know it is not the case. I know she feels everything, and I know how I feel about it. It's not an easy feeling, let me tell you there, and it's the kind of feeling that makes your stomach churn with knots and makes you wish that you could do something else about it.

I growl at any man who gets to close, seeing how Harper looks up at me curiously but I don't want her to know what I was doing. I don't want her to get mad at me because I know that she might end up getting upset if she learns what I had done. I know it's not right for me to go ballistic on someone like that but what I do know is there is no way in hell that I'm going to just allow things to happen this way without getting something else in return. I'd like to think that I'm going to go down an alright road, but I guess there's only one way to find out.

Licking my bottom lip, I stick close to her as we go through a clothing store, finding it quite humorous as she tries to find things to fit me. I don't know how she thought that this was going to all be alright because there's just no way that it could happen that way but I'm going to just take it one step at a time. Fiddling with my fingers, I look around cautiously as I try to decide what I'm going to do next. I'm not completely sure what road I'm going to have to go down, but I do know that if it is by Harper's side, I think I will be okay.

"Are you alright?" She suddenly asks me, making me look down at her curiously, "I'm sorry, you have just been plastering yourself to my side and I can't help but wonder if you're alright. Can I do anything?"

I don't know why she is being so kind to me, making my heart practically skip a beat as I watch her carefully. I know that this could go in the wrong direction than what I needed it to, but I just know that I'm going to be alright. Since I have decided not to answer her entirely, I just nod my head and allow her to go about her business, doing one thing at a time. She smiles softly at me, a weird look that I'm not used to because why is she looking at me like that?

I don't think I want to know.