13. Harper

Chapter 13

Harper

I can’t believe I said those words to my best friend, but I mean them. I want to do both of those things to him, with him, whatever.

“I would love to feel your mouth wrapped around my dick, but I don’t think I could handle it right now. I need to be inside of you,” he growls. Then he pulls my body on top of him, lining our most intimate parts together.

I slide down on his hard, long cock and feel my body stretch around him. It’s never felt like this before. Of course, the last time I had sex was the summer after graduation with a guy in Europe whose name I don’t remember. It was not good.

But this…this is incredible.

“Fuck, Harper, you feel amazing. I’ve never felt anything like this before.”

Miles stares into my eyes and I feel like I’m missing something, but then he begins to move, and I can’t think about anything but the way he makes me feel. His hands on my hips help me establish a rhythm and soon we are both breathing heavily as we work together toward one goal— pleasure.

“I’m gonna come, Miles,” I yell as I feel myself tightening around him.

“Come for me, sweetness.” He slips his hand between us and pushes me over the edge.

I come with a scream and Miles follows me over the ledge with a deep groan of his own. I thought the orgasm I had from his mouth and fingers was amazing, but this is something otherworldly.

I fall across his chest and listen to the fast beating of his heart until he starts to slide out of me. Then I move to the side and become the little spoon to his big spoon. “I’ll move in a minute,” I tell him.

“What? Why would you move?” Miles asks, raising up on one elbow to look over my shoulder at me.

“I just assumed you would want me to go back to my room. I don’t want to be in the way.”

A deep sigh comes from Miles as he flops onto his back. “You’re going to pull away now, right?”

“No…” Although that probably is what I’m going to do eventually. It’s what I always do. I just never thought it would happen with Miles. I feel those damn tears forming again.

“Harper, how long have we been friends? I know you. Hell, I know you better than anyone.”

“I know, but things change. Different dynamics make you view people differently. I don’t want that to happen to us. I’ve never stayed friends with someone I’ve slept with after it was over. That isn’t something people do. Have you?”

“I don’t know,” he answers while turning back to me. “I hope I will.”

He doesn’t know? What is that supposed to mean? He continues to stare at me as if I’m still not understanding something very important and I replay everything that we’ve said to each other tonight. He couldn’t be…

“Miles, were you a virgin?” Isn’t that something I would know about my best friend?

A blush spreads across his cheeks, “Yes, Harper, I was. I told you I’ve only ever wanted you and I meant it. I saw you on the first day of freshman orientation and I was a goner. I wanted to ask you out, but you kept treating me like just a friend. I thought there would be a moment, but there never was. Then you became too important to me to mess up our friendship.”

I pull the sheet up to cover my body. I don’t know how to process this. I friend-zoned Miles. In what alternate universe does a guy like Miles want a girl like me and I’m the one who friend-zones him?

“I’m sorry,” I whisper. “I didn’t know.”

“Sorry for what, sweetness?” Miles moves the hair off my shoulder and puts a sweet kiss on my shoulder. “Sorry that I didn’t tell you I was a virgin, sorry that I didn’t tell you how I felt? Those are on me. I should have told you. I was the one who was afraid.”

“I’m not upset about either thing, but I think I need to go to the other room. I just need to think,” I say as I grab my clothes off the floor and slip the shirt on.

I can see the disappointment in Miles’s face, but he just says, “Of course, we can talk in the morning.”

I nod and leave the room, but I don’t go to the other bedroom. I quietly walk to the living room and grab Titan. I know this is probably what Miles will say I was always going to do, and he might be right, but I need to get out of here. I think we just ruined ourselves.