Chapter 20

Tyler

Feeling her soft bare skin under my hands is like nothing else on earth. And I don't even know if I deserve it. There"s been a gray cloud hanging over me since I spoke to Stacey, and I know I need to tell Cindy. I just need the facts first.

I need to see my ex and work out what we're going to do from here.

I feel like an ass not giving Cindy the details, but there's no way I intend to keep this from her. I am going to need her input. What if Stacey is serious and does want to adopt the baby out? I don't know much about the situation right now, other than what she told me, but I know I don't want that to happen.

I can't let it happen.

How in the hell I would care for a baby if it comes down to it is anyone's guess.

But I'll have to find a way to figure it out. Stacey hasn't exactly left me with any choice.

And maybe it's wrong being with Cindy right now, when my head is so full, but she chases away the dark clouds hanging over me. I meant it when I said she makes everything better. Her soothing words put me at ease, and I feel like I can tackle anything.

For the time we're here I need to focus on her and deal with what's waiting for me when I get back to Seattle.

"You're an angel," I say, smoothing her hair from her eyes. "I don't know if I deserve it."

"That's where you're wrong."

She might not be saying that if she knew what was going on with me right now.

"I just know I've never felt this way, Cind. You know I'm happy to wait, and do whatever it takes."

"I don't want to wait," she breathes, reaching forwards to kiss me softly. "I want you to touch me, Ty."

"More than I'm doing now?" I whisper, clutching her bare ass cheek.

"Yes, I need you to touch me even more."

I trail my spare hand up to her hip as she presses her tits into my chest, holding onto me for dear life. I need to make sure she's ready for me to do that, so I remove my hand from her butt cheek and brush my palm over both of her perky nipples.

Looking down, she watches me as I dip my head to tease and taste her, pulling her nipples gently with my teeth.

My other hand skirts around the top of her bikini bottoms before I slide my fingers under the fabric and over her mound.

"Oh, Ty," she groans.

I smile into her breast as I pull. My hand dipping down further between us. I feel right away she's had a Brazilian at some stage. It's hot as fuck as I feel down her crease.

"Fuck," I respond, edging my fingers down closer to her sweet spot. I want to get her off while I'm actually touching her pussy this time. I glance up at her, momentarily releasing her nipple from my mouth. "You're okay?" I check.

"Never better," she says encouragingly.

I delve deeper, my index finger sliding over her slit, parting her as she lifts her hips slightly so I can touch her opening. She gasps, holding onto my biceps while I explore. She's very slippery, I can feel it through the water.

"You're so wet," I whisper.

"Just for you, Ty."

I grunt, more turned on than I've ever been. The fact she's only had one partner before me is a turn on, and a first for me. I loved her sucking me off, and the fact she hadn't done that before either. She's already so damned good at it. I'm in my seventh heaven wondering what it will be like when she lets me take her.

I lave her with my tongue as I gently swirl my finger back up to her clit, rubbing over it while I keep playing with her nipple with some tongue action.

"That feels so damned good," she encourages. "Ty, you've no idea."

I glance up at her, she watches every move as I latch on and suck not taking my eyes off her. She moves her hips against my hand, making the sexiest noises I've ever heard, not looking away from me.

"You're so fucking beautiful, Cind. I wanna make you come so hard, baby."

She moans in appreciation as I move my finger back down to her entrance and rub over it a couple of times before I rest the tip of it there and push a little so I can enter her.

She cries out, and pushes down onto me so my finger slides part way in. My thumb strokes over her sweet bud as she places her hands on my shoulders and squeezes them. "Ty…"

I push in and let her sink down onto my finger. I want to look in her eyes and see her pleasure, but I don't want to let her succulent breast go. I switch to the other one as she starts to move her hips against me and I pull my finger part way out and then back in. I pop my mouth away for a moment, poking her nipple with my tongue.

"That okay?" I ask her.

She squeezes me in response. "Yes, Ty!"

I chuckle as she presses her mouth to me, her tongue finding mine as I move my finger in and out of her. I pull all the way out and try for two fingers, sliding back in slowly.

She breaks from the kiss and throws her head back, moving faster against me, enjoying the sensation of my fingers inside her.

"That's it baby, you feel so tight," I say. "You like that? My fingers in you?"

"I love it, Ohhh."

I curl them around, my fingers feeling for her G-spot at the same time my thumb massages her clit. The water sloshes around as her tits bounce between us, I'm so turned on watching her and could blow just from this.

"TY!" I feel the pull on my fingers, her walls closing in as I feel her orgasm draw close and I let it play out. I want to milk it for her from the inside, and the outside.

She squeezes me tight, as the tug of her release corresponds with her moans, and her body shudders against me as she rides the ripple effect to stillness.

This takes several fucking glorious moments. Our lips are going crazy, our tongues colliding and my dick pushing so damned hard against her down below in the water I can barely contain it.

When she calms and we come to a still she pulls her head back to look at me.

Her face is hot with her hair stuck to her face, and she has such a look of lust in her eyes, I want to sit her up on top of the spa and eat her the fuck out.

In fact, that's what I might do.

"You okay?" I breathe in a hoarse voice, my fingers still in her. I don't ever want to remove them, only if they can be replaced with my dick.

"I'm perfect," she whispers. "Ty, what the hell was that?"

I chuckle as she presses her forehead to mine.

"I've never ummm, felt it so strong. Or had anyone touch me so deep…"

I kiss her again, moving my free hand on the back of her head to pull her in. It's not surprising the guy she was with never found her G Spot.

"You better get used to it. And yes, you are perfect."

"I didn't mean it like that!" She laughs.

I reluctantly pull out. "I'd give anything to taste you baby."

Her eyes bug wide, my lips pull into a grin.

"Does that shock you?"

"Yes."

"Are you ready for that?"

"What if I wanted you to make love to me?"

I swallow hard. My dick swelling at the words. "You sure?"

"I've never been more sure of anything."

"I'm not doing it here in the tub on our first time," I say. "I'm selfish, I need to see all of you in a bed."

She kisses me again, it's long and hard and we're both needy.

My spare hand glides down to squeeze her ass, as I pull my other hand out from under the water. My fingers sliding out of her, I move them to my mouth to suck and taste them. She gasps again and I chuckle. Fuck, I love shocking her. It's such a turn on.

"Your nectar tastes so fucking sweet. I really do want to taste you baby, and I will. But I need to be in you, now that you've said the words."

She sucks her lip under and then slides off me, pulling herself up out of the spa as I follow. We quickly dry off and we head into the bedroom. She pulls off her bikini bottoms as I grab her from behind, pushing my wet briefs to the floor.

My dick sticks into her lower back as she giggles. "You think that's funny, precious. How hard you make me?"

She nods her head against my shoulder as she walks forward to the bed with me clutching onto her for dear life. I want to take her seven ways to Sunday, but I know I have to be careful with her. She only had a brief sexual experience once before which, to be honest, didn't sound all that great.

I want to claim her and show her how a man can really be. I want her to experience what pleasure is all about.

"Would you believe me if I said you're the sexiest man I've ever seen?" She whispers, turning in my arms and reaching up to kiss me.

That makes me smile. Fuck, I love hearing that. "You're liking what you"re seeing?"

"Loving everything. And the tatt's," she says, swirling her fingers over my artwork that trails down my arms and across my chest. "They make you look badass."

"It's hot as fuck against your pale skin," I mutter. She has no tattoos and I find that really fucking pure right now, "You liked my fingers in you, baby?"

"Yeah."

"I'm gonna grab a rubber."

She slides onto the bed while I reach to the nightstand to find my wallet. I know I have a few in there for safe keeping.

She rests back on her elbows, watching me as my dick bobs with my movement and throbs in anticipation of sliding into her hot body. That alone consumes me.

"Baby, are you definitely sure about this?" I ask, holding the rubber in my hand. I really need to make sure she wants what she's saying.

"I want you, Ty. Please."

I rip the condom packet and roll it on as she watches me with wide eyes.

I smirk. Loving her innocence so damned much.

"You'll be careful, right?" She asks me as I climb over the top of her, holding onto my length as I stroke him a couple of times.

"Yeah, of course, baby. Remember, I said I'd never hurt you." I reach down to kiss her again, and tug one of her nipples with my free hand. She lays her head back on the comfy pillows as I hold my body above her and she opens her legs wider for me and bends her knees.

I guide my tip to her entrance and gently rub it around a few times before I push inside just a little.

"Ohhhh," she calls out, clutching onto me again.

"That okay?" I kiss her neck and keep playing with her tit, because I know she likes that as much as I do, and I need her as aroused as possible.

"Yeah." She nods.

"Just relax," I whisper, freeing my hand from my dick and placing it on her cheek. "You're so beautiful, Cind. Do you know that? It's gonna feel so fucking good."

"It already does," she sighs, smiling up at me, but there's a slight wince there too as I ease in a little more.

"Just breathe. You'll adjust if we go slow."

I keep kissing her, occasionally bending my head down to suckle each of her nipples until I can push in a little more and a little more. Eventually, she grabs my hips and pushes herself into me. We both cry out in unison from the connection when I'm seated deep in her.

To say her walls are gripping my cock is no word of a lie. She's holding me there.

I'm at her complete mercy, willing to give her anything. "Baby, you feel so good." My hand moves into her hair again as our tongues crash and collide. I wait so she can adjust to the intrusion inside her. I know it's been years since college when she was with her ex, so I can't fucking break her the first time we do it.

"You feel so good, Ty. You're so big. I just need to breathe."

I want to move so bad, but I want her to adjust and be comfortable first.

"Keep talking to me," I say, breathing into her neck. "I need to know how you're feeling."

"I love you inside me already," she says. "I've never felt like this before."

"If I could stay like this forever I'd be happy." I kiss her softly, dying to see my cock sliding in and out of her.

"I'm good, Ty, really I am," she says it as if she's reading my mind.

On that, I pull my hips back and gently slide out of her as she holds onto my arms.

Our eyes never leave each other. Then I slide back in as she encourages me, sliding her hands down to my ass cheeks.

I feel her start to move her hips slowly with mine. I'm in no rush to get crazy with her or to ever finish. But I honestly don't know how long I can last. Especially when I glance down to watch our hips moving, and I now get to see my cock disappearing into her with every gentle thrust. I can feel her juices coating me, so I'm sliding in and out with ease.

Slowly, we start to quicken the pace, but again, I don't want to go all frantic with her the first time. I want to enjoy every single second being inside her.

I know she's nervous. I want to make it good for her.

I glance down at her breasts bouncing with our movements, then my eyes flick back to hers as she focuses on my face. Her lip curled under, her eyes heated and in a constant state of bliss.

"So tight, baby," I groan, as she bends one knee and I take a hold of it, pushing deeper into her.

"Tyyyy!"

I want to be so deep inside her I forget my own fucking name. That's what she does to me. She takes away all the turmoil I've been feeling in one fell swoop.

It's then I know I'm addicted to her, and I may never get enough.

I want to protect her with everything I have. I know now that this is what love is.

And I have to fucking come clean about the Stacey thing as soon as we're back in Seattle. I don't want to keep shit from her, and if she finds out some other way, she may never forgive me.

I reach my hand between us, sliding it down to her sensitive bud, stroking it as we rock. Then bending to suck a nipple back into my mouth.

She clutches onto me, her hips picking up the pace. It's so deep and so fucking passionate. I pop her nipple out from my lips and suck the other one in, taking as much of her breast into my mouth as I can as she squeezes my ass cheeks. I feel her insides tighten around me.

"Ty, I'm so close."

"I can feel it, babe. I am too." I latch on with my teeth and pull. In the very next breath she spirals, calling out my name. The sounds of our skin slapping on each thrust is as sexy and as erotic as hell.

"OHMYGOD," she shouts as I feel the pull. My dick can't take much more, but I try to hold on so I can watch her squeeze her eyes closed, as her orgasm takes hold. It ripples through her body, milking my orgasm close behind. And I'm fucking loud about it and I don't care.

"FUCK, Cind. OH FUCK." My body pulses as I feel my release in a long epic wave, throbbing deep inside her, taking me somewhere I never thought I could go.

Fucking ecstasy is what it is. I hold her to me like I'm a man taking his last breath.

Her body is still trembling under mine, and I'm not much better.

Our sweat and fluids mixed together are a divine combination. I lift my head to kiss her, our tongues doing as sensuous a dance as our love making. And love making isn't exactly something I've done for a while.

I stay seated inside, trying as best I can to keep my body weight off her until I have to reluctantly break our connection so I can dispose of the rubber.

I gently pull out, causing another sexy murmur from her swollen lips, and flop onto my back. I quickly roll off the rubber and put it on top of the discarded wrapper on the nightstand.

"Holy shit, Cind." I sigh, wrapping my arm around her as she snuggles into my side.

We're both still coming down from our high. I can hear her breathing only just starting to slow.

"Wow, that was amazing," she whispers.

"You're amazing. I can't even tell you. Are you sure I didn't hurt you?"

"I'm definitely sure. Though, I might not be saying that tomorrow."

"I can fire up the jacuzzi again? That might ease any aches."

"That sounds good."

I move to get up for a moment but she pulls me back down.

"This has been an amazing night," she says. "The best I've ever had, Ty."

"I love you." I lean back in to kiss her. I don't even care anymore what I'm blurting out. "We fit so well. I knew we would."

"I love you too. And you're so patient with me, that took some work to get going."

She loves me.

My heart throbs at her words back to me. I chuckle into her neck. "You took me so well, babe. I never had any doubts."

"I'm glad it's you," she says. "I don't want anyone else, Tyler. To give myself to you after only a few weeks, this is big for me."

"I know it." I kiss her again, more softly this time. "I'm not gonna make you regret it, either, baby. I want you to know every second we're together how much you mean to me."

"Why do you love me, Ty?"

I pull her into my side. "Because you captured me from day one. I love your eyes, and your softness. I love your style and the way you're softly spoken. You've no idea how beautiful you are, and your beautiful body. You don't have an agenda, you are who you are."

"That's a lot." She giggles.

I nudge her side. "Why do you love me?" It's something I've never asked anyone before. In fact, even with my ex I don't really recall us having a heart to heart like this after making love. I've barely made love to anyone in my life.

"Because you're big and a little scary to look at, but you're soft inside. You're sexy, funny and smart. I love how you take care of the team and you're a family guy."

I grin in the darkness kissing the side of her head. "Big and scary?"

"Maybe a little. That monster of yours sure is!"

"You gonna make up a name for him?" I chuckle.

"Yes, Mr. Big! Though, I think monster is still quite fitting."

I laugh, running a hand over my face. She fucking does wonders for my ego.

"Babe, you've no idea how fucking cute you are."

"You seem to like my innocence too, Ty."

"I love that about you. I like showing you things that are a little on the wild side. I like the fact there's things you've never done, except with me."

"And there's still so much to explore."

"You make me excited just thinking about it," I admit. "But I think I need to sustain you first with some room service and that jacuzzi. Then maybe we can explore a little more?"

"You're perfect," she says, blinking up at me.

And I swallow because I know I'm far from that. I have a huge fucking secret hanging between us that won't let up in my head. Do I ruin the moment and tell her now?

Or wait until we get back and I've confirmed everything with Stacey and wrapped my head around her pregnancy? And what the fuck am I going to do now I'm in love with another woman?

I need to think, but I want to enjoy these quiet moments we have before we have to head back to Seattle and face the music with her dad as well.

Next week is sure shaping up to be full on. I just hope it doesn't turn into a shit storm.