Chapter 14 - Leah

Hearing that Killian still wanted to be with me after all this time was hard to accept, but if I wanted us to have any chance of working out, I needed to start to trust that he was telling the truth. If I wanted to believe him and build a true life together, we had to keep moving forward.

I couldn’t deny that I had enjoyed exploring a physical relationship with my mate so far. I may have had no idea what I was doing, but it felt like my ability to get lost in my own head was playing out in my favor. I had heard many women say they weren’t able to orgasm with a partner because they couldn’t focus on their pleasure, but I seemed to be having the opposite experience. When he touched me, it was all I could think about.

So when Killian asked if I was ready to do more with him, my answer was obvious.

“Yes?” he asked, making sure he heard me correctly.

I nodded, moving closer and wrapping my arms around his waist. I didn’t want there to be any doubt in his mind that I was consenting. No reason for him to back away from me.

“Tell me what you want me to do,” I murmured, looking up at him through my eyelashes in what I hoped was a seductive glance.

He inhaled deeply and stared at my lips for a moment before coming in for a kiss.

Our kisses before had been rough, hot, and passionate. This was different. He was tender and careful, holding me gently while his lips parted mine sensuously. His hands didn’t roam over me as they had done before. He held me confidently and patiently, knowing that he didn’t need to rush because we were going to do more than kiss very soon.

For the first time, I realized how drastic our height difference was. I had always been rather small, but for the most part, my height hadn’t played any role in my life. Now that he was kissing me, I became aware that he was bending down to reach me while I was on my toes trying to reach him.

Killian seemed to realize the problem at the same time as I did. He bent down even further, wrapping one powerful arm underneath my ass. Grasping my thigh with his free hand, he pulled me up onto his waist and set me on a tabletop.

“That’s better,” he said, running a hand through my hair. “There’s only one thing wrong with this picture.”

“What’s that?” I asked.

“Too many clothes.”

My heart fluttered as he began unbuttoning my pants. He lifted my hips and carefully slid them down, pulling my panties down along with the jeans.

“Mm,” he said, licking his lips as he saw me unclothed for the first time. “I like what I see.”

As he reached my ankles, I kicked off my shoes, allowing him to finish his task. “Now you,” I said, nodding at him.

“Not yet,” he said. “It’s always ladies first.”

He pulled a chair up to the table so he was sitting in front of me. He placed my legs over each shoulder. I leaned back on my hands as he turned his head and placed his lips on my inner thigh. I moaned with pleasure as he moved closer and closer to my opening.

Killian wrapped his arms around the outside of my hips and over the top of my legs, and he parted my lips gently to expose the pink inside. The moment his tongue made contact, I felt a warmth spreading throughout my body, focusing on the places where his body touched mine. The contrast between the cold table underneath me and the hot heat of his lust sent shivers of pleasure through my body.

“Let me know if I’m too rough,” he said.

I grabbed his hair and guided him back down, insistent that he finish what he started. I felt his tongue caress the deepest corners of myself as my mind became blank, thinking only of how good it felt.

As my breathing became more ragged, Killian began working on my clitoris with his thumb while his tongue continued its ministrations. The slow, steady pulsing of his hand brought me over the edge, and I moaned as I reached orgasm.

I looked down at Killian, wondering what his reaction to my display of passion would be. His smile was wide as he continued rubbing my legs, which still rested on his shoulders.

“Good girl,” he said with a smirk.

I bit my lip, not realizing how turned on his praise would make me feel. “What do I do now?” I asked.

“Do you want more?”

“I want more of you ,” I clarified.

He contemplated my response and nodded. “Get down,” he said gently.

I hopped down from the table as he lowered his pants, revealing his erect member. “On your knees,” he said, putting a hand behind my head.

“Yes, sir,” I said quietly.

I wasn’t sure exactly what to do, but the basics seemed pretty straightforward. I wrapped one hand around the shaft of his penis, angling it toward my lips. Remembering how much I had enjoyed the slow, teasing journey he had made along my thighs, I decided to make him wait for a minute. My lips were still closed, but I placed the tip of his penis against them, dragging the smooth skin across them slowly.

“You like to tease me, eh?” he asked. I could tell his restraint was collapsing and that he wouldn’t be able to wait much longer.

“Maybe a little,” I said.

And then I licked the shaft of his dick. Killian’s eyes rolled back in his head, and he moaned, caressing the back of my head with one hand.

I took a deep breath through my nose and took as much of him into my mouth as I could, rubbing my tongue against the bottom of his penis as I bobbed back and forth.

“Leah,” he moaned.

The sound of my name on his lips made me yearn for even more. I began moving faster and faster, wanting him to say it again.

“Leah, touch yourself,” he gasped.

I looked up into his eyes with his cock still in my mouth as I took my free hand and began to play with myself. The combination of the desire in his eyes, the sounds he was making from the pleasure I was giving him, and the stimulation of my clitoris made me moan as well.

As the sound traveled from my throat, I heard Killian exclaim and knew he was close to ejaculation. Knowing he was nearly there sent me over the edge, and as I came, he did as well.

“Oh, god,” he said. “I’m so sorry, I didn’t think I was going to cum that quickly. I was going to have you pull out, so I didn’t do it in your mouth.”

I swallowed his load and wiped the saliva from around my mouth. “It’s okay,” I said. “You had me in your mouth. I was just returning the favor.”

Killian chuckled at my response. “That is not what I was expecting you to say.”

“What did you expect me to say?”

“Something like, ‘Ew, that’s disgusting,’” he admitted.

“I was a little too distracted by my own pleasure to worry about it, to be honest,” I explained.

I grabbed my clothes from where Killian had tossed them and began getting dressed as he did the same.

“I’m glad you were enjoying yourself, too,” Killian said. “I knew it would be amazing between us, and I promise there’s plenty more to come in our future. But I want you to know that I’m not going to take your virginity until the time is right.”

“And when will that be?” I asked impatiently.

“When we finally have sex for real, it will be in our bed, and it’s going to take all night,” Killian said. He was looking dead into my eyes, and I knew he wasn’t messing around. He meant it.

I shivered with excitement, looking forward to the promise of even more experiences with him. As hard as I tried, though, I couldn’t help but wonder if everything between us was physical. I hadn’t given him an opportunity to explain the past yet—not fully, at least. There was a lingering feeling that no matter how close we became physically, there would always be something missing. My fear of abandonment was still fully present, but I was determined to allow myself a slight bit of hope.

***

The following morning, I woke up full of anticipation for what the day may bring. Neither Killian nor I were scheduled to work today, and I hoped that he would make good on his promise to take my virginity.

I got dressed and went to the kitchen, ready to grab the cup of coffee that Killian always had waiting for me in the morning.

“Good morning, beautiful,” he said with a grin.

I smiled back at him and was about to ask him if he had any plans for the day when the doorbell rang.

“Are you expecting someone?” I asked with a frown.

He shook his head and went to answer it. But when he pulled the door open, all thoughts of sex disappeared when I saw who was standing on the front step.

“Good morning!” my mom said brightly. “I hope you don’t mind the intrusion, but we’ve missed Leah so much.”