Chapter Nine

Valor

THE LAST TWO weeks have been the longest weeks of my life. Savannah is driving me insane and I don't know what the fuck to do about it. I try to show her every single day that I want to be with her and I'm not lying when I told her everything in Benton Falls before we left to come to Pine View. The night we arrived, she couldn't avoid me since all five of us were in my room at the clubhouse. Now, Savannah has gotten really good at avoiding me all day long until it's time for dinner. When we all lived together in Benton Falls, we had dinner together every single night. Savannah wanted the girls to have that because it's not something any of them had growing up. So, dinner was the one meal of the day where we'd all sit together and share what happened during our day and what we needed to do that night or week. Other than dinner, Savannah doesn't spend two seconds with me if she doesn't have to and she makes sure she doesn't need to. I can't fucking stand it.

The girls, including Savannah, love the house. We were able to move everything into the house the next day before church and they explored every room when I left. Savannah chose one of the guest rooms to move her things into and I'm trying so hard to respect her wishes, but it's fucking hard knowing she's in the same house as me and that I can't touch her. I want her in my bed, my arms, and wrapped around me like she used to when she slept at my side. Most of the time I'd wake up to Savannah laying on top of me and my arms holding her tight to my body. Those were the best mornings if you ask me. Anyway, I've taken her around town to make sure the girls got enrolled in school and Ava was able to try out for the cheerleading squad. She made it and came home full of excitement while talking a mile a minute about the friends she was already making at her new school.

Savannah got approved to do the books for the club. No one wants to do them and I admitted to being tired of having to spend hours after putting in a full day of work going through the ledgers and inputting the information into the computer. I've never liked sitting behind a desk and so the club approving Savannah taking over the books makes me happier than I thought it would. Vault gave her an office in the clubhouse so she can keep everything there and not have to take it back and forth from the clubhouse to our house. He doesn't want to risk anything getting lost on accident and neither does Savannah.

The last few days she's been working on getting her office set up and waiting for Buzz to get her the computer he's working on for her. He'll make sure the connection is secure so no one can hack it without him knowing and that it's got the programs she gave him a list of so she can make everything easier and we'll have all the information on each business with a click of the mouse. Savannah has cleaned the entire room, is hanging up pictures of the girls and her she brought from home, and she even bought a few things from one of the stores in the city. What I like the most is the new chair she got and the rug she put down. It's thick as fuck and onyx. Savannah was so happy when she saw the rug and I watched as excitement filled her that day in the store. I honestly didn't understand it until we got back and she unrolled it. In the middle of the rug is a skull that's made up of smoke. With how dark the carpet is, the skull appears to be fading into nothing before getting really detailed depending on where you're standing in the room looking at it. I love the rug and want one for the house now.

This morning, Savannah never came back to the house after taking the girls to school and dropping them off. I know she didn't eat breakfast, so I made her coffee and a full meal while she was gone. After calling Vault and learning she's at the clubhouse already, I pack everything up and make my way there. It's not a long walk to get from the houses to the clubhouse and with how frustrated I am right now, a walk will do me some good. I don't want to yell at my girl and that's what will happen if I don't try to slow myself down and think about this shit from her point of view.

Savannah and the girls have had their lives completely twisted with moving here so suddenly and I'm trying to give her the space she needs to adjust to all the changes. That time is about up as I realize this is how she's going to keep me at arm's length so I can't get close to her or prove that I mean what I've said to her. Savannah has another thing coming if she thinks I'm gonna back off from this. The girls and her are too important and I will do whatever it takes to make her see how serious I am.

I don't knock on Savannah's door, just push it open and find her with music blaring as she cleans the office again while Buzz finishes setting up the computer on the desk someone's moved against the wall with the window. He nods at me in greeting before I make my way over to Savannah after setting her plate and coffee down on the desk. Buzz sees it and won't knock it over to ruin everything. Walking up behind Savannah, I wrap my arms around her stomach and pull her body back into mine, nuzzling her neck with my face as she trembles in my arms.

"What are you doing here, Valor?" she asks me, her voice shaking slightly as she places a hand on my arm and melts back into me even further.

"You didn't come back home after droppin' the girls off and I made you breakfast and coffee. Thought I'd bring it to you here. You almost done, Buzz?" I ask as he lifts his head with a smirk on his face when I look over my shoulder at him.

"Just finished. Savannah, if you got any questions, you know where my office is. All the programs you requested are on the computer and I know I don't have to go over them with you. Slim and Fox made sure to let me know you're really good at what you've been doin' for them and don't need the extra help. I'll leave you two alone," Buzz answers, grabbing his stuff and leaving us alone in the office.

I lead Savannah to the desk and help her sit down on my lap once I've taken a seat in her new chair. For a second she sits with her body so fucking tense and I know she's not sure what to do. Especially when she moves just right and feels my hard cock pressing up against her ass. Savannah lets out a moan so low I wouldn't have heard it if she weren't sitting in my lap.

"What is this, Valor? You've been trying to do everything you can think of to make everything easier on me and that's not your responsibility. I appreciate you letting the girls and me live in your house, but I can't take things to the level they were in Benton Falls. I deserve to be more than a notch on a bed post. I'm ready for a relationship and I won't settle for anything less than a man who wants me for me and isn't entertaining other women," she says, hurt filling her voice at the thought of me being with another woman.

"I'm not gonna say that I haven't been with a woman since movin' here, Savannah. I've been with one woman and it was over before it really began. No, I wasn't tryin' to date her or anythin' like that. I met her in a bar and fucked her in the bathroom. My dick wouldn't even stay hard unless I was thinkin' of you. Since then, I know there's no point in tryin' to be with anyone who's not you. Have I fucked shit up between the two of us? Yeah, I have. I've been showin' you every day that's not who I am and that I want you and only you. Is it gonna take me fuckin' you to prove that you're the one I want?" I question her, turning her to face me and letting her eyes hold mine as she tries to figure out how sincere I'm being.

"No matter how much I tell myself that I don't want you, I really do Valor. That's never been the problem. The problem is that I do love you and have for the longest time. I want it all with you and I don't know that you can give me everything in you. I want dates with just the two of us out away from the compound. Everyone knowing that I'm your girl and you're my man. I want the girls to see how a real man treats his woman so they don't settle for less than they deserve because we weren't shown that before our mother sold us off for drugs. Can you give me that, Valor? Are you telling me right now that you can give me that shit and not make me feel as if I'm your second choice in this relationship?" she questions me with tears in her eyes that fucking gut me.

"I'll give you all of that and more, Love. I want the girls to see you treated like the queen you are because you don't deserve anythin' less than that. You wanna go on dates, I'll take you out once a week. If that's not enough, we'll go on dates whenever you want. Ava can watch the younger girls and we can make sure guys are at the house to make sure no one gets close to them. We'll take things somewhat slow, but it's gonna be hard as fuck because I want you more than I've ever wanted anyone else," I tell her, wrapping my arms around her even tighter than before as I let her see my truth. "You gotta stop avoidin' me though, Love. If we're doin' this, and we are, then we have to talk and actually put in the fuckin' effort to make this work. Are you unsure about shit because of what you found back in Benton Falls? I'm sure you are. I will tell you now that those letters are no longer in my possession. I burned them just after movin' here and I don't want you to think about them again."

"It's kind of hard not to think of them, Valor. I saw them and know that you thought you were in love with Kasey. Someone I spent time around and got to know. We're friends and I can't just forget that you wanted her and spent time with her when they moved here," she says, trying to get off my lap as I move her plate closer and motion for her to eat while keeping her in my arms.

"I know, Love. Kasey wasn't the woman I want. Yeah, I liked certain things about her and that's why I thought I was in love with her. However, you have everythin' and more that I want in a woman and it took me spendin' that time with her to realize there's no fuckin' comparison. You're worth more than a million Kaseys and that's not a lie. She's meant for Anthony and I'm meant to be with you. You've given me more than any woman ever has and never once asked for anythin' in return. Savannah, you're a woman who will stand at my side and give me the support and strength I need when I can't stand on my own two feet. You've done it in the past and were there for me more than anyone else when we lost Dad. If it weren't for you and the girls, I would've been even worse than Vault was. You kept me grounded and reminded me without sayin' a word that I'm stronger than I know and can get through the darkest days as long as I have you with me."

"Valor, I don't know what to say to that," she says, a tear rolling down her face that I swipe away with my thumb.

"There's nothin' that needs to be said. You told me actions speak louder than words and I'm gonna show you that my actions are true and I mean what I say. For now, you can have your separate room in the house, but we'll be spendin' plenty of time together. Before too long, you'll be back in my bed and there won't be a night we're apart for any reason," I state, turning her head so she's facing me as I lower my face and press my lips against hers.

If there's one thing I've missed more than anything else about Savannah, it's kissing her. I could spend hours doing nothing more than kissing and be a happy man. Her lips are so soft and full and she gives everything she has with each kiss we share. Savannah moans as she opens her mouth and I slide my tongue in alongside hers. She moves without breaking the kiss so she's straddling my lap in the chair. Grinding down against me, I groan at the feeling of her rubbing against my cock and hating the fact that so many clothes are separating us.

"Love, we gotta stop this now or I'm gonna bend you over your desk and fuck you," I tell her, pulling my lips from hers as we both pant from the lack of oxygen.

"I want you, Zach. Bend me over the desk," she says, her voice a whisper as she looks up at me and I search her eyes for the truth of her words. "I'm not gonna change my mind. I told you wanting you wasn't a problem for me. I want you to fuck me. It's been too long since I've been with you and I miss the way you make me feel. Fuck me, Zach."

I don't need another word from her. Standing with her in my arms, I turn us and lay her down on top of her desk after moving her plate of food out of the way. Savannah removes her shirt before I can and I run my hand up her soft skin as she reaches behind her body to undo the clasp of her bra. Taking off my cut, I rest it on the back of the chair before pulling my tee- shirt off and letting it fall to the floor with her shirt and bra. Reaching out, I remove her jeans and panties at one time so she's spread out on her desk. I take several minutes to do nothing but look at her and memorize every change over the years.

"Don't just stand there, Zach. I need you," she begs me, her voice filled with need and desire as I drop to my knees and bury my face between her legs.

Without hesitation, I slide my tongue through her slick folds and groan at the taste of her. Sliding a hand up her leg, I don't stop until I reach her wet pussy and slide a finger inside. Sucking her clit in my mouth, I don't stop sliding my finger in and out of her channel, adding a second one. Savannah is writhing on top of her desk as I put her legs over my shoulders and pull her closer to the edge of the desk. Savannah doesn't take long before her entire body starts to shake and coil tight.

"Zach!" she screams as she's thrown over the edge and her orgasm crashes through her.

I work her through her release while unbuckling my belt and undoing my jeans. Sliding them down far enough to release my hard, weeping cock, I stand after removing my fingers from Savannah's pussy. With her watching me, I slide them in my mouth and suck her juices from my skin. Savannah tries to squeeze her thighs shut but can't since I'm standing between them.

"This time is gonna be hard and fast, Love. Tonight I'll give you what you want and spend hours worshiping your body the way it's meant to be," I tell her, lining myself up with her opening and pushing inside.

By the time I'm buried deep, I have to give myself a minute before I find my own release just from sliding inside her tight pussy. Groaning when Savannah clenches around my length, I pull out before sliding back inside again. Savannah wraps her legs around my hips as I lean down and suck a nipple into my mouth. My girl arches her back off of the desk and presses closer to my mouth. She slides her fingers into my hair and pulls the strands just the way I like. Groaning with her nipple still in my mouth, I release it with a pop and move to the other side.

My hips move faster when I start to feel that familiar tingling sensation in the base of my spine. This is going to be over way sooner than I want it to. Gliding a hand between our bodies, touching every inch of Savannah I can, I find her clit and start rubbing it to get Savannah there instead of finding my own release and leaving her hanging.

"So. Close," she says, her voice tight and breathy as her pussy clenches around my cock sliding in and out of her.

Moving even faster, I add in a twist to my hips and press against my fingers on her clit every time our bodies collide with one another. The only sound in her office now is the slapping of our skin against one another and our moans as we both get so close to release. It doesn't take long for Savannah to be thrown over the edge once again as she screams out my name. I thrust into her a few more times before following her over the edge.

"Savannah!" I growl out, throwing my head back and remaining buried deep in her pussy.

I carefully lower my body to hers, not ready to be separated from her just yet. I know this just changed things between the two of us and I'm not going to let my girl hide from what's happening between the two of us any longer. Savannah will be given everything she's asked for and more on a daily basis. We both know we'll have our ups and downs along the way, but I'm willing to fight with her at my side to ensure we're successful and don't let stupid shit ruin what we could have.

"Tonight, I want you in my bed, Love. I want to make this shit up to you because it's been way too long and I didn't last as long as I wanted to. I'm gonna spend hours relearnin' your body and makin' sure every inch of you is mine. I want to feel your hands and mouth on me as we get to know one another all over again," I tell her when I can finally breathe normally and my heart starts to beat at a more normal pace again.

"I don't know, Zach. Being in your bed isn't something the girls need to see right now. It's going to take time, but we'll figure it out and make this work if that's what we truly want," she says, making sense even if I don't like it. "We can't make the same mistakes this time because if we fail and can't make this work between us, it will kill me. And the girls will get hurt again. I'm not going to risk them if I don't have to."

"I don't want to hurt the girls, Love. Let's go up to my room so we can get cleaned up. You get back to work and I'm gonna take care of a few things for clients while the girls are still at school. I'll pick them up today and we'll handle dinner," I tell her, slowly pulling out of her and watching as our mingled release slides down to her thighs. "I'm clean just so you know. Haven't been with anyone in over two years and I still get tested yearly. My last test was a month ago."

"I'm clean. You're the last guy I had sex with," she says, taking the clothes I hand her from the floor as she starts to dress again. "I'm on birth control. I don't want to make a habit of this, Zach. Until we're ready to have kids, we need to take every precaution we can. Things happen and I get that. For now, I'd rather use condoms until we're on firmer ground."

"Okay, Love. I'll make sure we have plenty of them before I grab the girls from school," I tell her, taking her hand in mine and leading her up to my room so we can clean up and then get back to work.

The rest of the day goes by so quickly with everything I have to do. My mind is on Savannah every second as I get through the work I've let pile up while taking care of her before going to pick my other girls up. Ava doesn't have practice today as I head to the high school after getting Chloe and Miracle from the middle school. The four of us head for the grocery store and grab something for dinner even though we have a ton of food at home. Nothing was taken out this morning and there's no time for something to thaw out. So, we agree to make hamburgers, potato salad, and fries for dinner tonight. Ava even gets some ice cream and what she needs for milkshakes. They have a machine to make them and it's been a long time since any of us have had them. The day is one of the best I've had in a very long time and it's because of the girls.