Chapter 31

Sometimes, it's better not to google your name. And in this case, I should have listened to my own advice. I'm sitting in the tour bus while the guys are in the recording studio working on a song with a famous French pop star. I thought I'd kill the time and search the web. Not my best idea.

While the press doesn't have anything too harsh to say, Tattered Souls hardcore fans do.

Message boards are filled with people either being happy for the guys finding love, or they outright hate me. I even saw someone say they wish I'd die because I took away their chance at being the guys' omega.

Like, be for real, girl, you never had a chance. But obsessed fans like these live in their own little fantasy world. I wouldn't be surprised if half of them have some messed up shrine in the back of their closet.

The guys used to try to convince me to take my singing further than just messing around, and I said no. And now, I'm saying hell no because I don't want this kind of life. I'll live alongside the guys, but I'll bow out of being the center of attention, thanks. That comes with stalkers and hardly any privacy. Not that I won't lose some of that being the guys' omega, but it won't be nearly as bad as they get it.

"Enough of that," Calvin scolds, snatching the iPad out of my hands. "You don't need to be reading this bullshit."

"It doesn't bother me," I tell him. "It's just a bunch of crazed fans who are jealous now that their fantasies won't come true. Real fans should be happy that their favorite artists are in a good place, not wishing the person they choose to live their life with dies."

"What!" he shouts, eyes snapping down to the iPad. "They're giving you death threats?"

"Not directly, no, but on some message boards there are. It's really no big deal. I'm not worried."

"I am," he growls, scrolling through the messages. "This is a big deal, Jade."

"How? It's not like they can get to me. Just find out who they are and monitor them."

He looks over at me with narrowed eyes. "How do you know that"s what I'd do?"

I grin. "I've gotten to know you a lot better in these past few weeks than you think."

"Smart girl you are," he muses. "But I'll be treating it just like if the guys were getting these threats."

"Fine, fine. You do your sexy, protective alpha thing." I sigh, putting my feet up on the table. I close my eyes, trying to hold back a grin, when I'm yanked up from the couch and into Calvin's arms. He spins us around, placing me on the little kitchen counter.

Sucking in a breath, I look up at Calvin's bright blue eyes. "What are you doing?" I ask in a breathy tone.

"This is the only time we've had alone since... well, since you've gotten here. It's driving me crazy, Jade. They get you all the time. They hoard you away in their hotel room, keeping you for themselves," he murmurs, gripping my chin. "I've been a patient man, but I'm done waiting, Jade."

My eyes flash with worry. Does he mean he's done waiting for me to decide if I want him as my scent match? Doesn't he know by now that I want him, that I'm not going anywhere?

I'm almost done with my spray; I have one dose left that will last me until we get to Italy, and then I'm done. We're going to be there for a few days, it will give us some time alone to help me adjust.

Tears start to fill my eyes as fear of him being upset with me fills my body.

His face crumples. "Shit. No, Jade, that"s not what I meant," he reassures as he brushes the falling tear away. "You take all the time you need regarding the scent match, I'd never rush you on that. What I meant was that I'm done listening to them make you scream their names. It's my turn," he growls.

Understanding dawns on me, and my cheeks flush as my lips part. He means sex.

"That"s right, Darling," he murmurs. "I'm done waiting to be back inside my favorite place on earth, that sweet, delectable, perfect pussy."

My belly cramps with pleasure as I try to clench my thighs together, but he steps between them, his hands grabbing onto them.

Biting my lower lip, I swallow the whimper threatening to escape me as the bulge in his suit pants presses against my already-drenched pussy. "Can you be a good omega and let me have my way with you?"

"Yes, Sir," I whisper.

Calvin groans, closing his eyes, his hands on my thighs tightening. "I fucking missed you calling me that, my Darling Jade." When he opens his eyes, they"re bright with need and hunger. "I can't have you the way we normally do. That will have to wait for a place with more room. But I will have your slick on my tongue and my cock filling you up, do you understand me?"

I whimper this time as I nod my head. "Yes, Sir."

He grips my chin again. "Good girl," he murmurs, brushing his lips against mine. "Always such a good girl for me, aren"t you?" he asks before sucking my lower lip into his mouth and biting down.

I whine, arching my hips to grind against him. He chuckles before sucking away the sting and releasing it with a pop.

Sex with Calvin has been the only time in my life where I let go and give over control. Now I know why I always trusted him with my safety and my body. While there"s never been a BDSM relationship between us, it"s very clear that he is the alpha, the dominant one, while I am the omega, the submissive one. I've always had the urge to please him, to earn that praise that had me preening.

When Calvin steps back, I whimper at the loss of his body against mine. He grins as he starts to make quick work of his tie. "Patience, Darling. I will give you everything you need."

I'm needy, my pussy is weeping with slick as my clit pulses with need. I need him to touch me, taste me, fuck me. I need his knot, but I know he won't give it to me. Not right now. Not on the tour bus.

He pulls his tie free and steps toward me. "Arms out," he orders me.

I don't even think about it as I hold my arms out in front of me. "Good girl," he praises as he takes his tie and loops it around my wrists. When he has a good knot, he raises my arms above my head. I look up as I watch him attach the tie to the handles of the cupboard.

With a thundering heart, my lips part, and I try to calm myself, but there's no use. Anticipation and arousal rush over me as I squirm, desperate for his touch.

Calvin takes a step back again, and I'm about to beg him to do something when he pulls his shirt free from where it's tucked into his pants, lowering himself to his knees.

Panting heavily, before he"s even touched me, I watch as he stares up at me with predatory eyes. He slowly lifts my dress up my thighs. I shiver, biting my lower lip as the touch of his large, warm hands sets me on fire.

"Calvin," I whimper as he lets my dress sit around my waist before pulling my panties down.

"Shhh," he soothes, kissing my inner thigh. "I have you, sweet girl. Just relax. Let me taste you."

He shuffles forward, bringing his face between my legs. "You smell so damn good, Jade," he murmurs, taking one of my legs and tossing it over his shoulder before doing the same thing to the other one. My chest heaves as I strain to look down at him, but it's hard at this angle. So I let my head fall back against the cupboard and close my eyes, letting my body feel the pleasure this sexy, strong alpha is about to give me.

"Fuck, Darling. Look at you, you"re dripping," he says in a husky tone as he parts my folds with one hand and dips his fingers into my pussy with his other.

"Oh," I moan as my hips buck forward, his fingers curling in just the right spot, making my eyes roll back. A gush of slick coats his hand, and I don't even have the mentality to be embarrassed. It feels too damn good.

Calvin thrusts his fingers in and out of me slowly, always making sure to hit my G-spot each time.

My body hums with pleasure, my belly clenching with need. And when he leans forwards and sucks my clit into his mouth, I let out a sob. "Oh fuck," I whimper as I do my best to work my hips, trying to grind my pussy against his fingers and mouth.

He takes his time, sucking and nipping as he fucks me with his fingers, the fire in my belly quickly growing more and more wild.

I hope no one is outside the tour bus because the noises that are coming out of me are so damn loud, but I can't help it. It feels too good.

"I'm going to cum," I pant out, my chest heaving as I writhe against his hand. "I'm so close."

"Be a good omega and cum on my tongue, Darling. Can you do that?"

"Yes, Sir." I nod my head, eyes squeezing closed. The pleasure is almost too much. With each second, it rises higher and higher before I can't take anymore.

"Oh, oh, oh, oh, fuck!" I scream, my eyes rolling back as a powerful orgasm rips through me. I try to clamp my legs closed, but Calvin uses his broad shoulders to hold them open.

My pussy clenches around his fingers as he continues to fuck me with them through my climax.

"Calvin," I whine as I slump back, my head spinning, body humming.

"Such a good girl," he praises, voice thick with need.

I'm tired and buzzing with pure euphoria. I could use a nap right about now. But when I blink my blurry eyes open, Calvin is standing before me, cock in his hand. I lick my lips, eyes dropping to the piercing on the tip of his dick.

"I love the fact that all of you have your dicks pierced," I hum. "It feels so good."

"Did not need to know that about my brother," he chuckles.

"Funny, he said the same thing when I told him you had yours done." I grin, and he shakes his head with a smile of his own.

He steps forward, and I gasp as he rubs the tip against my sensitive pussy, brushing over my abused clit. "Let's not talk about anyone else, Darling. It's you and me here together right now, only us."

"Only us," I whisper, blinking up at him. How could I have been so blind? I was so hurt by my past that I almost lost an amazing alpha.

No, something tells me Calvin wouldn"t have given up so easily.

"Calvin."

"Yes, my Darling?" he asks as he continues to rub his cock through my slick-covered messy folds, teasing me so damn good.

I'm panting, still not recovered from my orgasm, and already working up towards another.

My heart races and nerves send butterflies swarming in my belly. Swallowing hard, I confess something I never thought I'd say to anyone but my three best friends. "I love you."

Calvin pauses, his tip right at my entrance. His eyes snap up to mine from where they were watching what he was doing to my pussy.

"You do?"

I lick my lips and nod. "I do."

His eyes flick back and forth between mine, and for a small second, I think I fucked up, admitting something he wasn't ready for. Hell, I didn't even know I was truly ready to say it until this exact moment.

But then he's letting out a growl that causes my whole body to shiver before he lunges forward. One hand slides behind my head, cradling me as his lips crash down onto mine. His other hand grips my hip, holding me still as he pushes himself inside me.

I cry out, equal parts pleasure and pain from his massive cock stretching me so fucking good.

Calvin's thrusts are punishing in the most delicious way as he pounds into me. His thick cock sliding in and out of me, slick already dripping down our thighs.

We kiss like we need each other's air to live, tongues tangling, teeth clashing. It's messy but so damn passionate it has my toes curling.

My needy pussy didn't get enough because another orgasm is already starting to form. Heat slowly consumes my body as I thrash, whimpering and moaning, trying to grab onto my alpha, pulling him closer. But my damn hands are still tied above my head.

"Fuck!" Calvin rips his lips from mine, wet and swollen from our kisses. "The shit you do to me, Jade," he growls as he continues to work his cock in and out of me at a punishing pace. "You make me want to get on my fucking knees and worship you like the fucking goddess you are." His eyes are wild, and I don't think I've ever seen Calvin this out of control. "I would do anything for you, Jade. I'd fucking kill for you. I fucking love you so damn much, Jade. I have from the moment I saw you."

He says that last part with such emotion, it makes my heart swell and my eyes tear. Also, something tells me he would actually kill someone. For me. That both thrills me and arouses me. It has me gushing around his cock. He groans as my pussy clamps around him, begging for his knot. Even though I know he won't give it to me.

"You"re killing me, Darling," he groans, closing his eyes

"Please," I beg. "I need your knot, Alpha."

"I'd love nothing more than to shove my knot inside that tight cunt," he growls. "But not until we're in a place where I can take my time with you, Darling."

I pout, but it doesn't last because a second later, I cry out, my eyes widening as Calvin starts to play with my clit.

"Oh, oh, fuck, Calvin," I whimper.

"Are you going to cum again, little omega?" he asks in a low growl. "Are you going to have this tight pussy clamp around my cock, strangling it as I give you all my cum?"

"Yes," I gasp, nodding as I squeeze my eyes shut. "Yes!" I scream the last part as I do just as he said.

My body cramps up, the orgasm hitting me in waves to the point I almost black out. I'm sobbing nonsense at this point as he fucks me so hard the whole bus starts to shake.

"That"s it. Fuck, yes, Jade. Take my cock. Fuck!" he roars, and then he's cumming too.

His cock jerks inside me, filling my pussy with rope after rope of hot cum. There"s so much that it's dripping out of me and onto the floor and counter.

"Fucking hell," he grunts, putting his forehead to mine.

For a moment the only sounds in the bus are our heavy breathing and pounding hearts.

He pulls back and kisses my temple before freeing me from the tie. "You did so good, Darling, listened so well. I'm so proud of you," he murmurs as he rubs my wrists softly where the tie dug into my skin from my struggling.

"Thank you, Sir," I whisper. He groans, and I can feel his cock jerking inside me, as if me calling him that made him cum some more.

He pulls back, his cock falling free. But that"s not the only thing that's expelled from my body. A wave of cum spills out of me, splashing onto the floor. I look down at the mess, biting my lip as my cheeks heat.

"Fucking hell, that"s so damn sexy," he groans, eyes locked on my exposed pussy. "Seeing you dripping with my release," he murmurs as he parts my folds and shoves two fingers in.

My hands grab onto his arm, nails digging into his skin as I whimper. He pulls his fingers out and brings them up to my mouth. "Suck," he demands, and I open immediately.

His cum has me moaning as I suck him clean. I want more, and I almost ask him if I could suck his cum and my slick from his cock, but then I'd be begging for him to fuck me again, and we would never leave.

"You"re so fucking perfect for me, Jade," he tells me as he pulls his fingers free. "Now, go shower; I'm going to clean this up."

"Okay." I don't argue with him, still on cloud nine as he picks me up and places me on my feet.

"And, Jade," he stops me, pulling me back as I turn to leave.

"Yes?"

"I fucking love you."

I bite my lip. "I love you too."

The smile he gives me has me swooning. "Now go, be a good girl and clean up."

I nod and rush into the bathroom. I stare at myself in the mirror and grin so wide my cheeks hurt. My lips are pink and swollen, my eyes are still glazed with lust, and my whole body is flushed.

I'm so damn happy in this moment, and all I can think is how glad I am that I let myself take this chance on these guys. How I didn't let the hurt of the past close me off for good. Because if I did, I'd be missing out on so many amazing things. And that would have been a damn shame.