18. Bea

I can’t believe swimpractice was so bad, it hasn’t been this bad since….I can’t even remember. It gave that bitch Britney her chance to act all superior, timing is why I’m the best on the team right now. She won by a few seconds, and that was because my time was off. The worst part, I hated the fact she was all over Travis. Telling him how much of a better swimmer she is than me, and maybe he should go back to her.

It took everything in me not to punch her in the face or even better, hold her under water for a moment, now that would have been satisfying for me.

Three races and I lost one. What the hell is wrong with me?

So swim practice put me in a bad mood, before I had even started one class.

“Are you going to admit you’re falling for Travis?” Quinn asks, and I snap my head to face him, which makes him laugh. “We are still in denial, I see. If only the fire around you wasn’t burning so intensely-” He stops talking when I push him away from me.

I already knew I was falling for Travis, I just didn’t think I’d fall this hard. To the point that if I don’t see him in the day, or get to have sex with him, I feel that something is missing in my day.

Three words I never want to say, but god are they fighting to be said, and I’m doing everything to stop them.

“Bea, it’s not a weakness, showing him how you feel, I bet he feels the same way about you,” Quinn says, as we both pack our books away after class. I had two classes today after swim practice. And this is the one I wasn’t looking forward to.

The teacher hates me and I know Mr. Parker is behind it. He’s trying to fuck up my education, because I got under his skin, and I fucking love it. If he thinks I’m going to back down because I’m scared of him. He’s fucking wrong.

Travis’ face when I told him about his dad and Mr. Martin. He was ready to kill someone, and that is the reason why I’m not worried, my man will fix this in his own way.

Will it be for me, or to piss his dad off? I don’t know,but either way, I will win against this asshole of a teacher.

“You might think that, but I’m not so sure-”

“The man is willing to pierce his dick, he”s not doing that for just any pussy, he’s doing it for someone he wants more with.” Quinn cuts me off, and hands me my bag.

I roll my eyes at him, shaking my head. “And you think he will still care when he finds out what I know, and never told him.”

“Don’t know why the two of you don’t work together. You both want the same thing.”

Now that is something I’ve been thinking about a lot, together we could finish him, but I want him to suffer, not sure if Travis will let me have my revenge first.

“I’ve been playing with the idea.” I stop, and turn to Quinn. “I’m scared he will hate me for not telling him the truth from the start, or at least when we started getting more serious-ish.”

Quinn wraps his arm around my shoulder and starts laughing. “You have fallen hard for him.”

I go to tell him to shut up, but stop when the teacher calls my name.

“Meet you outside,” Quinn whispers.

Making my way down to the asshole, I smile. “How can I help you, sir?” I ask, already knowing he’s going to be a dick with me.

“Next time you have an issue with me, why don’t you fight your own battle instead of getting your boyfriend to fight for you.” He starts putting things together on his desk, eyes locked with mine, and the only thing I can do is laugh. “Something funny?”

“You. Mr. Parker must be paying you with something special to want to get on the wrong side of Travis and his friends.” He slams a book down on the table, which makes me laugh a little more. I’ve hit a nerve.

“I’d watch your back, anything can hit, at any time.”

I laugh harder, because if he thinks I don’t know Mr. Parker is up to something, he’s the stupid one. “Don’t worry about me. I can fight my own battles, but you aren’t worth my time.” I snap at him, and walk out of the classroom. Ignoring him when he shouts for me to get back to his classroom.

Shit, shit, shit, what the hell am I doing? Fucking up my education, all to fuck up the Parker bastard who took everything from me.

“What did he want?” Quinn asks, as we make our way to the ice rink.

I told Travis I’d meet him there at the end of my class, as it coincided with the end of his practice.

“He told me to fight my own battles, and not send my boyfriend,” I make my way to my car first, to throw all my books in. They weigh far too much to be carried around for no reason.

“What did Travis say to him? Whatever it was must have hit a nerve.” Quinn slams the door shut to his car, as I do too.

Linking my arm with his we move toward the rink. “Didn’t even know Travis spoke to him, I thought he would have done it with me there.” I look over at a car racing past us, have I seen it before? Something is nagging me about it. “Want to swim later?” I ask him.

“A swim, or your swim?” Quinn jokes.

“A swim.” I reply.

“I’m in. And Travis probably spoke to him in private, in case he threatened to kill him, you won’t be accused of anything. He’s keeping you safe.” Quinn opens the door for me, and I see practice has finished, and it’s only the three of them on the ice.

Don’t know why they have to stay on the ice longer, just get off at the same time as others.

Soon as Travis sees me he skates over. “Looking beautiful as always, Firecracker.” I walk over to him, and he leans in for a kiss. “And, you taste so good.”

“You promised me classroom sex, I’m still waiting,” I joke with him, and it makes him laugh.

I have no idea where he ran off to after swim practice but he didn’t look right, so it’s nice to see him back to normal again.

“Did you talk to my teacher?” I ask him.

“I did.” He leans closer to me. “I’m looking forward to making him suffer a little .” I laugh, I’d love to see him kill someone, I have no idea why, and it makes me sound like a crazy fucking woman, but the thought of him looking out for me in this way, has me excited.

“Question, it might be stupid, crazy, but…” I stop for a moment, what the hell am I about to ask, am I crazy? “Do you want to go get food, Quinn and I are going swimming later and I should eat.” Not brave enough to ask what I was thinking, and Travis knows it too.

“Now, how about you ask what you really want to ask. What type of swim are you going for? And we are going for food.” Travis, takes off his gloves and throws them in his helmet

I laugh at him. Quinn and Travis are both the same, and think I’m only going in the water for one reason. It’s not always for holding my breath, I love a good swim in the water, it’s my freedom, like hockey is for him.

“Just a swim. I’ll wait by the car for you guys.” I lean in to give him a kiss, but before I can move away he grabs my neck and pulls me closer to him, the grip tighter than it normally is.

“Oh, Firecracker, ask the question you wanted to ask.” He whispers against my lips. I look into his eyes, and I see the smile behind them, which makes me smile. “Come on, Firecracker. Ask me.” He whispers.

Does he know what I’m thinking or is he just trying to play a weird mind game with me?

“We’re having fun right? This is fun…and we’re-”

“I have a feeling you’re going to be repeating yourself, until you can ask the question.” Travis jokes with me, and I try to push him away but he has a good grip around my neck at the moment. “I was past fun a while ago now. When you’re past it let me know, because then you’re mine, and I won’t let you walk away, even if you want to.” Travis kisses me a lot harder this time. “Just say the word,” he whispers, and I smile. I should say it, I don’t want to walk away from him, but I’m scared he will hate me when he finds out the truth. “Firecracker, it will be amazing.”

“I’m sure it will be. Shall we get food?” I ask, not wanting to continue with the conversation.

“You might not say it, but I will. You’re it for me-” He skates off, and shouts. “Meet you by the car!”

I have to tell him what I know. Together we could bring down his dad, and I can give him something he’s wanted for so long. Answers.

“Ready?” Quinn asks.

“Yeah. I’m going to tell him the truth.” My body shivers at the thought of telling him. I’m scared how he will react.

Two things can happen once I tell him. One, he will hate me and never want to see me again, or two, he will understand why I did what I have.

Walking to the car, August and Meadow are talking behind us. I stop when I see the asshole who calls himself my dad, standing by my car.

“I’ll go get Travis,” I hear Meadow behind me.

I laugh when August shouts, “Don’t think she needs him.”

Now this should be interesting what the fuck does he want now? I wonder how much this man is willing to piss me off, before he gets the hint that I don’t care about him.

“Oh look it’s my loving dad, the man who protected me when I needed him. You’ve given me everything, what else could you give me?” I ask him, as I walk closer to the car.

It won’t be long until Travis will be out here, but I’ve never backed down from my dad, and I’m not going to now.

“The money I keep giving you.” He pulls out the check from his pocket, and puts it out for me to take. “Let me do this one thing for you.” He pleads. “I’ve written my will and-”

“Does this mean you’re dying soon?” I ask, my body relaxes a little when I feel Travis” arm wrap around my waist. “I don’t care about your will, and I don’t care if you die now. Fuck if you die now, I’d walk over you to get to my car, and leave you.”

“Bea, I can’t say sorry enough-” He stops talking when I start laughing. “Let me pay the debt off.”

I take a step closer to him, take the cheque from him, and rip it up, then throw the small pieces of paper in his face.

“I’m happy to be in debt, anything is better than taking your money. Now get out of my fucking way, before I have some fun with your car agin.” Travis stands next to me, and hands me his hockey stick. “You’re making it very hard for me not to kill you myself, the only reason I won’t is because it’s nice knowing your suffering.”

“Bea-” He stops when I walk to his car. “I’m leaving,” he shouts, just as I’m about to swing the hockey stick to hit his car.

“Until next time, my loving, supporting dad.” As I walk past him, and nudge him hard enough for him to lose his balance. “Thanks.” I hand the hockey stick back to Travis. “Love how supportive you are, without even a second thought you were happy enough to give me this, and let me go crazy. I love it.” I tiptoe and give him a kiss.

“And you being crazy, is a fucking turn on. I can watch it all day.” He wraps his arm around my waist and pulls me closer, then looks up at Quinn, “You coming to eat with us, we don’t bite.” Travis” comment makes Logan and Blake laugh, Quinn never really comes out with them, the only time he’s been with them is when I was with Jasper, and that was because I think Travis would have followed him around, otherwise.

I whisper. “Well you do.”

“Only you,” he jokes, making me laugh.

“Yeah, I’m hungry. Plus this one wants to go for a swim, so I need to fuel up. Just an FYI, I don’t mind biting,” Quinn walks around my car and sits in the passenger seat.

“Yeah, he”s a little crazy in the bedroom, the stories are amazing.” I kiss Travis, then pull away from him, and open my car door. “Travis,” I call his name as he walks away to his car. “Will you be home tonight?” I ask.

Before he can answer, his phone starts ringing.

“Hello…what time? We will be there,” he ends the call and turns to the guys. “Cain’s found something-” then turns to me. “I’m home.”

“I need to talk…to you about something… it’s important.” God saying the words is hard, he is going to hate me, I just know it. I close the car door, and take a step closer to him as the others walk away giving us a little privacy. “But please remember, I don’t think this is fun anymore, and I had to do it for my family.” Travis tilts his head a little, brows narrowed together.

“You want to talk, we can ditch all this and talk now.” He moves a piece of hair away from my face, softly gliding his finger down my cheek which makes me close my eyes, and I feel the tears escape a little. “Bea, whatever it is, we will figure it out.” He pulls me in and I wrap my arms around him, not sure if he will when he knows what I’ve been hiding.

“I hope so,” I whisper, and give him a kiss. “Tonight. Where are we eating?”

Travis doesn’t answer straight away, and stares at me for a moment. I give him a nod, and let him know I’m fine, and we will talk tonight.

“Burger place, next to the pizza place we went to the other day.” I nod letting him know I know where it is. When was the last time they had a home cooked meal? I think I will cook for everyone if, after tonight, Travis still wants me around.

“Are you going straight to the house?” Quinn asks, as we make our way out to the cars. He brought his own car to campus, but for lunch we took mine, instead of taking two for no reason.

I needed this swim so bad, my body has been tense all day and being in the water helped so much. But now all the tension and worry is back, but I have to talk to him.

My mind was on tonight and the conversation with Travis. I’m not even sure how many different ways I’ve thought of, to tell him everything. Tell him who I am, and why I worked my ass off to get into this college.

“Yeah, keep your phone on, in case he kicks me out,” I half joke about it.

“I don’t think he will kick you out. He might go crazy, but I think he’s in too deep with you.” Quinn stops by his car as it’s closer. I have no idea how he always gets a good parking spot. The only time I get this spot is when I’m here at three in the morning. But who the hell is crazy enough to get up that early for a swim, besides me? No one.

“Yeah, well you have more faith than I do. Keep your phone in your hand!” I snap, and point at him and he laughs at me. Don’t know why he is laughing, I’m being so serious right now.

“I will have my phone in my hand.” He kisses me on the cheek and gets in the car. “You want me to take you to your car?”

“Nah, it’s only there.” Not sure if I said that because it means longer for me to get to Travis house, or I just wanted a little time to myself.

Waving to Quinn as he drives off, I make my way to my car. I go through the words I’m going to say, and still they make no sense. This is going to be a long night, of me trying to figure out what to say, or to see how long it takes Travis to get pissed off with me.

I look behind me, when I hear a car, looking around seeing others leaving the campus, then stop when I hit something. “Fuck.” I shout, but my mouth is covered with a hand, my eyes widen when I see Jasper standing in front of me covering my mouth.

“Hello, beautiful.” He leans in closer and licks my cheek. I try to fight the grip of the guy holding me from behind. “I like the fight, it makes me hard.” Jasper leans and whispers in my ear. “You want to feel how hard?”

I head butt him hard, fuck! I think that hurt me more than it did him.

“Oh this is only making me ha-”

“You want to check her, or wait until someone sees us?” The guy behind me shouts, and the only thing I can think about is. Check me for what?

“He said you might have a tracker, your boy doesn’t trust you.” Jasper pulls out something from his pocket which is beeping, and moves it over my body. “Needs to know your every move.”

Why the fuck does Travis have a tracker on me? When the fuck did he put the tracker on me?

I’m going to fucking knock him out when I see him, but right now I’m happy he did this. Travis knows I’m coming over, so if I’m not there, he will look for me, and when he notices the tracker isn’t moving he will know straight away something is wrong.

The machine starts beeping faster when it gets to my neck, and the light bulb goes off in my head. I was telling him my neck was hurting a lot one morning I woke up, and he brushed it off by saying I must have slept funny. That’s when he put one in me.

“This might hurt,” Jasper takes out a pocket knife, and brings it up to my neck, but I kick him a few times, but I scream in pain when I’m kicked in the back of the leg so hard I fall to the ground. “Pin her down,” Jasper shouts.

Someone grabs my legs, pinning them down as Jasper climbs on top of me, my arms trapped under his legs. Then I feel someone else grab my head with a strong grip, and push my head to the side.

How many fucking people has he got with him? Is this what he did to Tessa? Overpowered her.

“Cover her mouth!” Japer shouts, even I know I’m going to scream, because this is going to fucking hurt.

I’m still trying to fight my way out, but it’s not working. I don”t even think I’m making any impact on them. If they are the same size as Jasper, the other two are over double the size of me.

I scream when Jasper cuts my neck, the only thing I’m thinking is how is he going to get it out of my fucking neck? I see the tweezers in his hands, the grip on my head gets tighter, a hand covers my mouth as Jasper puts the tweezers into the cut and pulls out the tracker.

My whole body tenses up feeling the blood drip out of the wound. What are they doing? What kind of fucked up game are they playing with me, only to get back at Travis?

Jasper stands up, legs either side of me, and he smiles throwing the tracker in my car. Looking back over at me, he curls his lips up before sitting back on top of me.

“We”re going to have some fun now.” The fucking bastard slaps me hard, the sting hurts like nothing ever has before. Jasper’s hand wraps around my neck, and not in the way Travis does it. He’s trying to cut off my airway, and I can’t even fight because the other two fuckers are holding me down, so I can’t move.

Jasper lets go of me, and I cough trying to get some air in my lungs. “Get her in the car!” Jasper snaps, then kisses me hard, and I bite his lip hard, wanting it to hurt as much as I can. Bastard.

I thought it would show the asshole I’m not backing down, but biting him has only pissed him off, because he punches me in the face. Fucking hell that wasn’t a fucking gentle punch either, hard enough to make my head shake, even a few seconds later, my head does not feel right.

The guy behind me gets a handful of my hair, and I scream as he pulls me up to stand. The stingon my scalp from the asshole pullingmy hair hurts, but my face still hurts more from the punch Jasper gave me.

Jasper sits in the back with me, his friend on the other side, but my head feels fucked up, I can’t keep my head up much longer.

“You can’t keep your head up, let’s use it for some fun,” He grips the back of my head, and tries to bring it down to his dick, but instead I punch him between the legs.

“Fuck you!” I shout at him, then he slaps me.

Fucking hell, I’m going to be a punch bag tonight. But where is he taking me, who told him I would have a tracker?

The questionsjump around in my head, without any answers. I know Jasper hates Travis…then it hits me.

Fuck!

I know where they are taking me. I pushed his buttons, he knows I know things, so the question is how far will he go with this fucked up plan for me to keep my mouth shut. There is only one thing I can think of, but there is no way they are stupid enough to kill me, are they?

“When Travis finds you, he will kill you.” I look over at Jasper, but I am dazed from being slapped and punched so hard.

“Don’t worry about me, worry about yourself.”Jasper leans in closer, his hand grabbing my face hard. Squeezing my cheeks together, it’s hurting so much, I try to slap his hand away, but can’t when the other guy grabs my hand. “Don’t fight it,” he whispers against my lips, then kisses me, but I try to fight him as much as I can.

Jasper sits back, and I look out the front window, where the hell are they taking me? We’re driving out of town, so he’s not taking me to the Parker house.

“You know, I told him to let me have fun with you, but he said no, not yet anyway.” Jasper talks, and I try to blank him out, yet it’s not working. My head hurts, my eyes hurt, my neck hurts, and I feel the blood escaping from the cut, which is the reason for me feeling so dazed right now. “Tessa, was-”

“You raped her, I don’t want to hear anything you have to say about it,” I cut him off, and I’m met with a loud disgusting laugh from him.

“Rape, it’s such a ugly word. Especially when she was loving it.” He stops talking and turns to face me. “It’s nice when he shares. I’m hoping he will share you.”

God, I feel sick. What I was thinking about Travis dad, and Tessa is true. They all hurt her, She didn’t have anyone to protect her. Parker makes sure the people around him have no one, so that he has all the power.

It will be taken from him. I’m not losing this fight. Not tonight. Not until I make him suffer.

The car stops, and I look around to see where we are, it’s pitch black out, but I know exactly where we are. The lake, he’s brought me to the water. There is no way in hell, I’m letting him win out here.

Jasper pulls me out of the car by my hair. I try to grab his hands to ease the pulling pain on my scalp, but it”s not working, my legs scraping against the ground.

“What took you so long?” I hear Parker shout.

Jasper throws me on the ground and I look at the black polished dress shoes, I don’t even bother looking up at the asshole. I’m not playing his game, he has the upper hand right now, but the day will come when I will have the power.

“You were right, he put a tracker in her,” Jasper replies.

Parker grabs my hair, and pulls my head to look up at him. “I see he”s been having some fun with you,” the bastard smiles. Pulling me up to stand, he brings my face as close to his body as he can. I feel sick just having him touch me.

“Fuck you!” I push him away from me, and he laughs because I think it hurts me more than him, since he pulls my hair when he takes a step back.

“You’ve become someone who seems like she’s going to be a pain in our ass. And I don’t like it.” He yanks my hair, so I’m closer to him. “Before I get rid of you, what have you told Travis?”

Now, I can fuck up his head a little more and tell him that I’ve told Travis everything. Because either way, he has a plan for me tonight, and he will fulfill it.

“Wouldn’t you like to know,” My answer is rewarded with another sting to the face, when he slaps me. “He will kill you.” I snap at him, and all I”m met with is laughter.

“You haven’t told him anything yet,” He looks behind him at Logan and Blake’s dads who are also here to have some fun.

I stand in the middle of them all looking at me. You are not showing them weakness. No matter what happens, you do not show them weakness. Fight as much as you can, fight! I shout to myself. I am not losing to him, he’s taken too much from me, and it won’t happen again.