18. Priest

I may have diedand gone to heaven.

She's so fucking tight.

I clearly know the reason for that, and while a part of me wants to believe I am a decent man, the other part tells me I shouldn't be doing this. That I took vows for a reason, and the whole point of being celibate — no matter how short a time — was for the greater good. To find myself. To ground myself back with people again and not get lost within the doings in the MC, all of which vary. And here I am, balls deep inside a virgin who I've let not only capture my heart, but my soul.

She lies underneath me, her eyes glistening with unshed tears and I breathe, "Did I hurt you?"

She shakes her head. "So good, Priest. Don't stop."

The way she says my name. It shouldn't sound so familiar, like I've known it all my life. I slide back out and try my hardest not to ram inside her. I don't want to break her but goddamn this feels so good. Her pussy grips my dick like a vice and I'm seeing stars when I slide back in.

"So tight," I mutter. I've never experienced anything quite like this before. I want to bask in it and never let her go. "Your body is so soft and perfect." It's like I'm doing this for the very first time; the sensations run through my body and ripples form on my skin from every single moan she makes.

Making her want me is my new favorite pastime. Scratch that. Making her feel like this is my new favorite pastime, something I know is already addictive and I haven't even taken it home yet.

I want this experience to be spectacular for her. It's not usually how losing your virginity is for most people — but that was never gonna be the case for Bella. I want it to be everything she never knew she needed.

Every single moment, every flutter of her eyelids and breathy moans, I want to experience with her.

She runs her hands up my arms and biceps, fascination on her face as she takes me in.

And I can't get enough. I start to roll my hips slowly, moving in and out of her, fully aware she's soaking wet and probably bleeding. The thought that I'm the only one, that I'm so lucky to have this first time with her, fills my chest with pride that I know I don't deserve. I'm tainting her. Marking her. And I don't even have the gall to feel guilty anymore. I'm past the point of giving two fucks about any of it. Which is selfish. But it would be more selfish to let some other fucker ruin this moment for her when I know I'll make her feel good. I know I'll give her the time of her life. I care about her, and it shows in how gentle I'm trying to be with her. Even if it thrills me to imagine how much she can take and if she'll scream and dig her nails into my ass, I hold off and pump her in and out nice and slowly.

"Oh," she cries.

I'm pushing my palms into the mattress, looking down at her beautiful face as she stares up at me. Her lip catches between her teeth as she holds my ass cheeks. "Wrap your legs around me, baby," I tell her. She does as she's told and I smile.

I lift her hips slightly, going deeper as her eyes roll into the back of her head. I'm hitting her clit with my pubic bone and it's all it takes to send her into a spiral that causes me to close my eyes and not lose my load too soon. Her pussy clenches and she comes all over my dick as I pump her harder. She digs her nails into my skin and I don't even fucking care if she draws blood, as long as this never has to end.

"Priest!" she screams.

"Yeah, baby?"

I lean down, nibbling her neck as she wraps her arms around mine. I lower my body so my chest presses into her tits. I nip and suck her neck, not caring that I'm leaving a mark. I roll my hips back and forth, in and out, and her moans never fucking end. She's caught in a web of pleasure and it thrills me to the core hearing her beg me for more. My beautiful little mafia princess. Let's face it, that's what she is.

I'm joining the dots and I'm fairly sure I'm not coming up blank. But that talk is for later. Right now I need to take my girl in every which way I know how and remind her how beautiful and precious she is.

"I'm lucky you let it be me," I whisper in her ear. "I'm so happy it's me."

"I'm so happy it's you too," she breathes. "Faster, Priest. Fuck me."

A low growl leaves my chest as I lift up and stare down at her. "Say it again."

She swallows hard. "Fuck me. Fuck me harder."

I groan, lifting to my elbows as I pull out and thrust in hard. She moans as I do it over and over again. I'm hitting her so deep, and with every thrust, she grips me even harder with her tight little hole.

"That tight little pussy," I mutter. "So fuckin' perfect for me. Look at how well you're takin' my cock, baby."

"Oh, God."

"Do you like takin' this big cock, baby girl?"

"I love it."

I speed up my movements and my lips find hers. I shove my tongue in her mouth and when she starts to unravel once more, I fuck her harder. The bed creaks underneath us and rocks against the wall as I pump her hard and fast, my cum shooting out of me with such ferocity that I'm momentarily lost for words. I collapse on her a few seconds later and she lies panting underneath me, both our breathing as ragged as each other's.

"Oh my God." She's so fucking warm. "I… I…"

"Lost for words?" I chuckle. I peck tiny kisses into the crook of her neck. Our bodies are slick and stuck together and I never want to detach from her. I'm so fucking fucked.

"I'm lost for all eternity."

I chuckle again. "Those are mighty words. Does that mean you enjoyed yourself?"

"Are you kidding? I'm glad your neighbors aren't any closer."

I peck her on the lips once, twice. "Are you sore?"

She bites her lip and nods. "Yes."

"Good. I want you to feel where I've been. I'm the first." I keep kissing her lips. "I'm the only one." I don't even know what the fuck I'm saying, but she doesn't question it.

"You're so good at that."

I rub her nose with mine. "I've had a little more practice at it." I pause, looking down at her gazes on me. Her eyes full of wonder as I enjoy the stillness. "I want to do that again, from behind."

She gasps. "But you're still in me."

I smile. "Yes, I am." I pepper her with kisses. "But I'm ready."

"You just came twice."

"Oh Bella, baby, I can go all night with you, but first we probably need to shower."

She nods. "That's probably a good idea."

I bury my face in her neck again. "I don't want to pull out of you."

"It'll only be for a little while." Fuck, her words send more fury to my already swelling cock.

"Promise?"

"Baby, now that I've had you, there's no way we're gettin' any sleep tonight."

She leans up to kiss me and I let her. The warmth this woman has, she radiates it from every pore. It unlocks something deep within that I've never felt before. I belong with her. That's the only way to describe it.

"Do we really need to shower?"

I smile against her mouth. "Don't worry. Fun doesn't just have to be in the bedroom."

Her giggle is like music to my ears.

I slide in and out of her slick pussy as she presses her hands against the glass in the shower. Of course, washing each other turned into touching each other, which turned into me sinking to my knees and sucking her clit until she came on my face. That turned into her jerking me off as our tongues collided and I pulled her nipples until she begged me to fuck her again.

I part her ass cheeks, groaning as I see everything. My fat cock glides in and out of her pussy as my balls slap against her.

"I wish you could see how good you look takin' me," I tell her. "How fuckin' perfect this pretty pussy is."

"Oh, Priest." I love how she says my name. Not a moan, not a plead, but more like a prayer. Like if she can't have me, she'll die. Which is exactly how I feel when I'm with her. I'll fucking die if I can't be with her.

"So tight, baby. Do you feel me?"

"Oh, God yes. I feel it."

"Tell me. Tell me how good I make you feel."

"It's so big," she groans.

"What is, Bella?"

I need dirty talk from her. I need her pretty, sweet mouth to be filthy. To tell me all the things she wants me to do to her in detail.

"Your dick. It's so… perfect."

I snort. "Yeah? You know what else is perfect?" My words are strained by my thrusting and ragged breathing. "Your tight little hole." I swipe my fingers over her asshole and she gasps. "This is gonna be mine too, but not tonight."

"You… You'd like that?"

"I love every single part of your body, Bella. And I'm going to fuck you every single way possible."

She moans as I grip her hips, sending her into a long, drawn-out orgasm that has my balls pulling tight. I need to hold on; we don't even have a condom on. I need to go fucking put one on before I do something I'll regret. I pull out, my mouth at her neck where I bite down on her gently.

"You like marking me," she whispers.

"I love how warm your skin is," I tell her. "How soft you are."

"I need more…"

"And we need a condom." I turn and switch the taps off. The less temptation to stay in here and finish off, the better. I step out and pull a towel off the rail to wrap around my waste, then I wrap one around Bella's shoulders and she snuggles into it. She quickly dries off and I do the same, hurrying as fast as I can. When she drops her towel and reaches for me, I lift her as she folds around my body and I walk her back to my bedroom. My dick presses into her stomach as her mouth finds mine and we kiss long and hard.

"Are you glad you waited?" I breathe against her perfect lips.

"Y—yes."

"Turn around." I smack her ass playfully and she does as I say. "On your hands and knees, baby girl."

I watch, spreading one palm across her ass cheek and up her spine as I take in her gorgeous body. I reach for a condom, rolling it on quickly as she turns to watch me.

I stay standing, admiring her from behind.

"Do you see what you do to me?" I hold my dick and run it through her wet center. "Do you see how hard you get me, Bella?"

She bites down on her lip and nods as I continue to rub. She's so wet and slippery and I can't get enough that I've done this to her. "Yes."

"Do you want my cock inside you?"

"Yes." It sounds more like a hiss and it makes me smile.

I taunt her hole, slapping my dick against her as she groans. Then I shift so I'm nudging her clit. "How much?" I slide my tip back and forth as she hisses.

"So much."

I finger her hole and rub her clit at the same time until she's trying to close her legs. I hold them open wider, spreading her ass cheeks so I can see more of her and when she comes again, I waste no time slipping inside her before she's even done panting my name.

I don't still this time, I start to pump her from behind, holding her hips as I glide in and out. She has no fucking clue how tempting she is. Pressing every one of my buttons with complete ease. She has a spell on me that she's not even aware of. I've no clue how I'm going to ever let her go and then a scary thought flashes before my eyes; maybe I don't want to.

I close my eyes.

What would that look like? Bella as my ol' lady. My heart thuds in a way like it never has. And I've never, ever considered having an ol' lady. That's just not how I've ever been. I never felt the need for a steady girlfriend or thought I'd be a very good partner, truth be told.

But the thought doesn't put me into a tailspin like it may have a few years ago. The idea that she could be with another man, however, definitely puts me over the edge.

"Who's pussy is this?" I grunt, knowing I'm being a Neanderthal.

"It's yours, Priest."

I continue to roll my hips in and out, enjoying every single sensation. The feeling rolls over me again and again; contentment. I've never had much of it in my life, yet here I am not just enjoying it, but basking in its glory.

I run my palm up her spine, enjoying how hot and wet I make her feel and even though we just got out the shower, she's glistening with sweat again. I move one knee onto the bed, shoving it under hers so I can get deeper. I push her hair over one shoulder and she turns to look at me.

I grip her chin. "This pussy is mine. You are mine."

"Yes."

I don't just want her compliance. I want her to really fucking mean it. To feel it like I do.

My lips part but she beats me to it.

"I feel it, Priest. I feel it between us. All of it."

I still, my dick buried deep inside her as I bring my other knee to the mattress between her bent legs. "It's not just the sex?" My voice is barely a faint whisper.

"I can't deny your dick is huge." A small laugh permeates the air between us. "But it's not just about that and you know it."

I'm so deep inside. She's squeezing my cock like she never wants to let go. Like she can't let go. "I do know it. I feel it too." I pull out then sink back in. "You mean so much to me. I've fallen under your spell."

I hear her intake of breath as I work her slowly, in and out. "I love this."

"What, Bella? What do you love?"

"This feeling between us. Being so close. You."

I love you, too.

I've never said the words to a living person. Never. And yet they come so easily to me when I'm with her.

"You love me?"

"Is it too soon?"

"I don't know, but I don't want you to say it just because you love my dick inside you."

"I love your heart." I thrust as she grunts the words. "I love your soul." I slide out and then thrust again. "I love… everything about you."

"Fuck," I groan as she sticks her ass back toward me, essentially meeting my thrusts. "I love you, Bella. Fuckin' hell…" How did this happen? How can I feel this way about a woman I haven't even known for very long?

I don't know any of the answers but I don't even care.

"Oh, Priest." She grips the duvet with her fingers, pushing her hips back as I fuck her with wild abandon. "Oh, yes."

My balls slap against her pussy as I push into her faster, deeper, my whole body tenses. I want nothing between us, but she'll have to get on birth control before we fuck without a condom. I want to fill her pussy with cum and never let her out of my sight.

"I'm gonna come," I warn her.

She throws her head back and cries out as I follow behind, slamming my hips one last time as my cum leaves my body in wild spurts as I try to calm the beating of my heart. My whole entire body shakes with my release. I've never come so hard in my life, and maybe that"s because of the I love yous. I'm not sure, but whatever it is, the intensity has me lost in a battle of emotions. I pull out and roll onto my back, pulling her with me. Her back against my front. "That was fuckin' beautiful."

She yawns. "So good…"

I chuckle, pulling the condom off, I tie it and drop it in the small trash can close to the bed. I turn back and pull the duvet over us as she settles in. The adorable sounds she makes when she's content only add more fuel to my smoldering fire.

I told her I loved her. And she loves me.

What in the hell am I doing?

I wrap my arms around her. I don't need to overthink this. I just need to sleep. And with Bella in my arms, I know that it'll be the best night's sleep I've ever had.