Chapter 4

Krylox

I comfort my mate the best that I can, honestly a bit angry that she is so scared but there's nothing I can do about it. I don't know how to make her see that I am one of the good ones, that I won't do something that she doesn't want. I mean, she doesn't have to believe me, I suppose I wouldn't be able to blame her if she didn't. She owes me nothing, but I can assure her that I'm going to do everything in my possible power to make sure that she's going to be alright by my side.

She is settling herself in my arms, just holding on for dear life. Like I have said before, I'm not completely certain what's going through her head, but I do know that I can't do anything without her. If I did, I'm not sure where I would end up going from there, but I will continue to do everything in the right way possible because why else would I do something like that? I mean, if anything, I'll just make sure that she is happy and go from there.

I'd hate to even think about what might end up happening if I go down this route.

Going back and forth in my mind about it, I have just come to the conclusion that I will only be able to show her all of this with time. She doesn't owe me anything and I have to keep reminding myself that. In her eyes in this moment, I am a threat and I'm the kind of man that is what had taken away her freedom. Of course, she was sent as a breeder by her own people but that doesn't mean she's going to just accept being treated the way that she is. She's going to be lucky if she gets away with all of this so easily.

I will have to teach her the ways to survive but I don't know if she will forgive me if I make it known to her that she won't be able to do what she wants to. It's the unfortunate reality in this moment but I can't protect her if she ends up going against the code that so many live by. I hate to even see it that way because I know if I tell her this, she might be a bit defiant and then I will definitely not be able to keep her safe.

"You have to trust me." I suddenly tell her, seeing how she looks up at me with confusion, "that is the only thing that I am going to ask of you. If you can trust anyone on this planet, it is me and I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure that you are safe. You don't have to trust me a hundred percent but just know for certain that I'm going to be there for you. You have to follow my lead and you have to at least pretend to be submissive when we are around others because they will attempt to break you if they deem that you're not what a ‘breeder' should be. I will keep you safe, I promise, and no one will touch you if you just follow my words."

She turns to stare at me some more because she probably doesn't like where this is going, "are you serious? Are you telling me that you are going to have to do this because of what the societal standards are? I had sent her against my will, just thrown away like I never meant anything to my family to appease some sex-crazed aliens. I'm grateful that you picked me because I don't think you are like the rest of them but at the same time, how do I know you are not? You could do anything to me if you wanted to. You could force me into submission, and I wouldn't be able to fight you off. How can I trust you?"

I hate that she thinks this way of me, but I definitely understand her reasoning. I'm sure it is not easy to trust someone after everything that has been done to her, but I don't know how to make her understand that this is just how it is. I understand that she's worried about all of this because she has no idea what could end up happening, but I haven't done anything to deserve it. I just know that either way, I'm going to have to keep doing this or I might end up losing her forever.

"I don't know how to prove it to you besides my actions." I tell her, seeing how she relaxes a little bit, "but I can promise you here and now that I'm never going to allow something like that to happen to either one of us. You don't have to believe me or even agree but I can assure you that everything is going to be okay if you trust me enough to go through with it."

She's watching me cautiously and I can just tell by the look on her face that she doesn't believe me so much. I don't understand why she can't believe me though because I have not done anything truly wrong, but it could just be she doesn't trust easily in general. I keep going back and forth in my mind about it, trying to decide what to do or even what to say. I know this could very well turn around on me and then I would definitely not be able to do anything about it but the other part of me wants to keep fighting. I want to keep proving myself with every passing second that I am here.

And how she's looking at me, I know she feels the same way now.

"Okay, I will believe you." She murmurs softly, ducking her head slightly, "but I hope that you don't do anything that ruins that because I'm not so forgiving. I hope you realize that."

I honestly wouldn't expect anything less, so I just nod my head, "that's fine. I don't expect anything from you unless it is something that YOU want to do. But since I did end up picking you, we will have to attend this ball at the royal palace to ‘show you off'. I don't want to, but it is a mandatory event… But you will not be treated like the other breeders."

She doesn't look too sure about what I am telling her, but she ends up nodding either way. That does make me feel a little better about myself because I'm holding onto the hope that I will be able to prove it all to her with time. I just hope that she doesn't deem me a liar.