Chapter 1

Layla

All my life, all I knew was that I wanted to help people, but I didn't know where my journey would take me. It was kind of crazy to think that so much could change in so little years because I never would have thought that aliens would EVER come into existence, but they keep proving me wrong there each and every time. I keep thinking that maybe I'm going to figure out what to do with it or something, but it feels like I'm not getting anywhere. I have had to earn my position but now, everyone trusts me, and they know that I'm going to do everything in my power to do my best.

It wasn't the easiest thing for me to do but I did end up getting to a position where I could decide where I wanted to go. I didn't want to remain back on Earth while everyone else went out and risked their lives to save these aliens and humans who are at war right now. It's a dumb war going on the planet nearly full of water with very little land. The aliens were known as Atlanteans, and it made me think of the story of Atlantis on Earth. Maybe they were the aliens that are around now, but I don't know if that is a hundred percent true.

My stomach churns as I have seen so much death and wounds right now, it's not even funny. I wanted to do everything in my power to make sure that nobody was hurt too badly or at least could be saved but some of these aliens are ruthless and they don't try to hold back. It irked me a little bit because I couldn't understand how they could be so cruel and how they could allow themselves to be brought into a place where they would end up hurting these other people without so much as blinking an eye.

If I would have done something else about it, I know that I would have done something different if I could, but something is telling me that I need to think long and hard about my next decision because I honestly think it could change everything. It made my stomach churn with nerves because I didn't know what to do or say to these people who would end up looking at me for some kind of comfort. I didn't know how to comfort them because how could I say something when they are going to die?

Of course, I did end up comforting them the best that I could, and I didn't allow myself to be brought down because of it. It did end up driving me a little crazy because I had no idea what I was going to do about this but what I do know is that I'm not going to allow anything to stand in my way. If anything, I'm going to do the best that I can to make sure that they can pass on as peacefully as possible.

I wish there was something more that I could say about it, but I have to keep my feelings out of it. I know I might end up making a big mistake and not allowing myself to end up going the way that I need it to, but I never can be sure where it is going to take me. It makes me wish that there didn't have to be death in the world, but I know unfortunately that it isn't ever going to be the case.

I keep going back and forth in my mind about it, trying to decide what to do. I couldn't be completely certain about my choice but what I do know is there is nothing I'm going to be able to do about it without letting it get to me. I keep going back and forth in my mind though when I do this because I know that I might be the last thing that they ever see.

I mean, what else can I do about it though?

Drawing in a deep breath, I continue on with what I'm doing, trying to not think about much because there has been extra death today. It drives me nuts to even think about it, wondering if there's just something that I'm going to be able to do about it. I wish that things could just end up working out, but I don't think it's going to work the way that I need it to.

I tuck a lock of my hair behind my ear and see my next patient. I don't know why but I'm feeling extra nervous right now. I feel like something is going to happen and I know it might end up being a bit ridiculous, but I know there might not end up being something that I can do about it. I keep trying to ask myself what the best course of action would be but I'm falling short right now. I don't know why I feel this way because I don't think anything is happening but maybe it is. I know this could end up being the worst thing that I do but I have to remain focused.

If anything, I'm going to have to just continue to do everything in my power to make sure that I get my job done. Drawing in a deep breath, I run my fingers through my hair and look around curiously as I keep thinking someone is going to show up.

"Hey, you seem really on edge today." My coworker and friend, Sarah, murmurs as she looks at me curiously, "is everything okay?"

"I don't know." I admit to her, "I just feel weird."

She raises an eyebrow at me because she probably doesn't know why I feel like that, "that's kind of strange. You're normally pretty calm in this kind of situation so it is refreshing to see that you're definitely acting human like the rest of us. I hope that you're going to just stay by our side and not let it get to you too much."

I know what she is saying, and it makes me feel bad that she thinks that she's going to have to pick up my slack. It is a little irritating because I have no idea why she thinks I'm not strong enough to handle this kind of stuff but I'm going to have to keep proving to each and every one of them that I don't allow things to just get to me for no reason. But then before I can make some kind of retort, there's what sounds to be shouting and it seems like we have another wave of alien warriors to take care of. I have never seen so many aliens in my entire life but I'm okay with it because what did they honestly do? I don't think I'm going to ever know at this point.