Chapter 16

Sixteen

VANESSA

T he dinner was bland in my mouth as my mind was distracted.

I could think of nothing but Gabe. I needed him here with me and safe. It took everything in me to smile at the pack and pretend everything was alright. I glanced at the front door constantly, thinking of how I could escape. When I glanced back at the table, I accidentally locked eyes with Blade sitting across from me. He had a knowing look in his eyes as he winked at me, daring me to escape. His shoulders bulged as he sat shirtless while he ate. All the alphas around me felt like giants compared to me. They were scarfing down the food as I slowly nibbled on it.

I used to have a giant appetite.

Now it felt like hell to chew and swallow every bite. It was a struggle, and my stomach kept twisting in worry for my son.

I couldn't imagine losing my child like what Alex had gone through. It made me see him in a different light. He wasn't just a hulking beast sitting next to me. The alpha had deep intense emotions he had gone through.

"Vanessa, you said you didn't want any more kids when we were riding out here," said Laurent, taking a giant bite of mashed potatoes. "Is there a particular reason why?"

Damn it.

Laurent was the most curious of the pack, always asking me questions. I could tell he wanted to know me on a deeper level, but I couldn't give him that. I wasn't in the space or in the mood to get to know anyone.

"I'm just not ready," I said, staring hard at my chicken rotisserie. Willing him in my mind to stop digging deeper. If they knew where my son was, they'd suspect I'd go after him and stop me from trying.

"It's not like she has a choice," said Alex with a full mouth. "Sooner or later, she'll go into heat."

I smelled the alphas' energies rising, their deep primal scents filling the kitchen at the thought of me in heat. I could sense this as an omega. Omegas usually calmed their alphas down and could tell what type of energy her alpha was emanating. The best feeling was when an alpha would lay against me, fully knotted inside me, sated and content.

But it was different this time.

I still thought of Jack from time to time- wondering if he had abandoned me. That it was too late, and he moved on with a new omega. I didn't think the thought of that would hurt or affect me, but it did.

After we ate, the alphas wanted to play a game of monopoly. Sitting around the board on the floor, I sat between Mason and Alex. I could tell the alphas had their eyes on me at all times. Even when going to the bathroom, someone tried to follow me sneakily. They didn't trust me yet. As Alex rolled the dice, his large arm brushed against mine, and I held my breath as I felt a spark of energy between us intensify. Every brush of the fingers to hand over the dice and money. Every skin-to-skin contact had my pulse racing without me wanting it to happen.

"You're winning," said Alex softly, watching me count the money.

"She's good with her money," said Mason, rubbing my back with his large hand.

"You guys just all suck," I said. They guffawed at my brazen attitude. I was starting to get a little more comfortable around them, but I couldn't allow myself the luxury of just letting them take care of me. And it pained me to no end. The skin contact with the two alphas on either side of me was causing my body to react and get aroused. "I want to walk outside for a few minutes. Get some fresh air."

And also testing the waters.

"Mason will accompany you," said Alex gruffly.

Okay, they didn't trust me . "Of course, not a problem."

Mason

I followed our new cute omega to the door.

"Aren't you going to put on shoes?" I asked, looking at the various slippers on the ground.

"I want to feel the sand in my toes," she said airily, and I smiled. She was such a cute addition to our pack. I loved being around her sweet sugar candy scent, even though her sorrow dampened it. She was lean, and her long legs looked sexy as fuck as she walked ahead of me, breathing in the ocean air. Night had fallen, and no one was outside right now. It was the greatest part of living near the ocean.

Vanessa stood there under the moonlight, staring out at the ocean. Then, to my panic, I saw tears falling from her eyes.

"Are you okay?" I asked, lightly touching her shoulder. I didn't want to scare her off or startle her. But if she knew the crazy thoughts in my head of rutting and breeding her, that would have her screaming far into the palm trees.

Our pack needed another baby.

We had done the healing work and were finally at the stage to mate with a new omega. Blade and I blamed our airheaded ex-omega for Lilly's demise, and Blade fantasized about ending her life with his blade. I knew he was just talking, but we were all depraved in some way.

"Can I have a minute alone?" she whispered.

I hesitated for a second. But realized she was probably coping with being sold to a new pack. I wondered about her past life before she got here.

"Sure, I won't be far," I said, wanting to kiss her cheek. Every fiber of my being wanted to hug her, to make her problems disappear. Walking away, I sat on the sand, a little distance away from her. Feeling a pinch on the back of my shorts, I swore when I saw a crab attached to me. "Fuck off, man."

Standing up, I yanked it off me and threw it into the water. I walked back and forth along the shoreline, watching Vanessa as she sat in our beach chair. Vanessa was staring off into the distance, lost in her thoughts.

I desperately wanted to know her more. To help her.

And her body was banging. The more I stared at her long luscious legs and big breasts of hers, the harder I became. As an alpha, my thoughts naturally went there for an omega that was ours.

Then I passed by our daughter's headstone planted next to the water, and I sobered up. Could Vanessa be going through a similar loss? Walking back towards Vanessa, I noticed she had fallen asleep on the chair, her tears dry on her cheeks.

Carefully, I lifted her into my arms. She was tall, but I towered over her, and I was much bigger. She was light in my arms, her breasts bouncing as I walked her to the house. Thankfully, she didn't wake up. The rest of the pack looked at me as I carried her inside, some of them looking envious. But I didn't care. I had her warm body cuddled in my arms at this moment.

Slowly, I settled her in the bed.

I wanted her to be comfortable, so I decided to undress her. Placing my fingers carefully over the top of her red leggings, I rolled them down over her legs, revealing pale smooth flesh. Dropping it on the floor next to the bed, I admired her fit and shapely thighs as she breathed softly in her sleep.

My cock was hard as I gazed at her body.

Her white panties had a dark wet stain in the middle as she lay there with her legs a few inches apart. I wanted to fucking lick her right there in the middle.

To taste her.

My breathing quickened as I watched her sleep. Placing my hand in my shorts, I squeezed my cock, the crown of it already seeping. I watched her as she turned onto her belly, snoring softly.

I worked my cock, while watching her butt from behind and the dark stain on her panties. I gently spread her feet apart with one hand, causing her thighs to separate even more. As she breathed deeply, her bottom would jiggle a bit, which was barely covered in her underwear. With my other hand, I squeezed my cock from the shaft to the tip.

Faster and faster, with my eyes glued to her panties.

I desperately imagined what she'd look like underneath her little panties. I imagined rutting into her from behind, her knees on the ground. Sinking my thick cock into her tight little pussy. Her warm pussy sucking my cock inside her.

I climaxed in my shorts, sticky semen covering my hands.