19. Chapter Nineteen

Chapter Nineteen

Slate

The tension skyrockets when Lexia goes inside. My dick is misbehaving, and I am grateful to be in the water where Lumen cannot see how hard I am.

He can be cocky and I'm sure he would make comments about it, and I'm not in the mood to be teased. I'm in the mood to be fucked. Hard. Harder than he fucked me last night. Yet, I don't want to admit that to him either. I just want him to do it.

I want him to know it's what I want.

How crazy is that?

It's been a long time since I've had someone inside me, and I forgot how much I enjoy it. My concern should be Lexia and mating with her, but I can't get Lumen out of my head.

"Tell me your favorite thing about this realm."

I blink a few times until his question settles in.

"I like that every day is different."

Lumen swims over to me. "What do you mean?"

"In my realm, there is nothing. We do nothing. I like that I can come here and things aren't the same."

He frowns. "Aren't you supposed to want things to be the same? To be nothing? Isn't that what you are?"

I gesture around us. "I guess there is a reason for me feeling this way, isn't there?"

Lumen smirks and says, "I suppose so."

"What is yours?"

"Food. Cooking, specifically. Not just eating food but making it. Especially now that I make it for others. Lexia's face lights up when I prepare one of her favorites."

I smile to myself. I know the look he speaks of.

"Food is wonderful," I agree.

Lumen moves in front of me, putting a hand on either side of me, boxing me in.

"Tell me what else you like about this realm," he says huskily.

Something brushes against my cock beneath the water, and I can only assume it's his.

"Sunsets," I answer.

He laughs. "Sunsets?"

I bite on my bottom lip and nod. I said I wasn't in the mood for teasing, but I set myself up for it that time. But he surprises me when what he says is far from teasing.

"I can agree they are beautiful." He steps closer to me, and this time, it's definitely his cock brushing mine. "Want to know another one of my favorites?"

My gaze dips to his lips, then back up.

"Yes," I rasp out.

He leans in close to my ear, his hot chest pressed to mine. "Fucking."

My eyes fall closed on those words. "Fucking is good," I agree.

"You want me," Lumen says, not hiding the cockiness from his tone.

I open my eyes, meeting his electric ones. "I do."

"You have since the moment you came into this house."

"Yes." He searches my face, and I'm not sure what he's thinking. "Is it a problem?"

"No problem. I only wonder why it's so strong toward me and not your actual mate."

"It's strong toward her too. But in a different way."

"Different how?"

"Like in the way a husband cheats on his wife that he would die for—with a man." I accentuate the last part. "I'm not fragile."

When the words leave my mouth, I realize how bad they sound. I don't mean to say I will cheat on Lexia, because I would never do that. I'm only trying to make a point that I have this connection to her and would do anything for her, but there is just something about Lumen… it doesn't make sense, and maybe it's terrible of me to say, but I have the luck of having more than one mate, so I guess it doesn't make me a bad person.

"And I won't treat you as so," Lumen says.

"Exactly," I breathe out.

His gaze darts to my lips, saying there when he says, "You want me to hurt you."

"I like feeling something after feeling nothing for so long."

"She will make you feel something too."

I nod. "In a different way."

"In a different way," he agrees, dragging his thumb along my bottom lip. His gaze goes back to my mouth. "Let me fuck your mouth."

"Only if you promise to make it hurt."

Lumen smashes his lips to mine. He spins us so his back is to the wall, but it's only a moment before he breaks our kiss. He hops up to sit on the edge, freeing his cock and gripping my hair, tugging me to his dick. Shoving to the back of my throat, I gag, tears stinging my eyes. My nails dig into his thighs, but he doesn't let up. He thrusts his hips and pushes my head down as far as it'll go. Saliva drips down my chin as tears pour from my eyes. I can't breathe, but it doesn't matter because I don't need to breathe anyway.

"Just like that," he coos, bringing his other hand to my head and pushing me down harder. My throat burns, but it's an amazing feeling.

My dick is throbbing. I already need to come, but I refuse to touch myself. If I come, it'll be because he made me. I don't enjoy having to get myself off and would rather suffer through the pain until he gives me the relief. Until he wants me to.

Lumen lets go of my head, allowing me to take a breath. I cough as I take a few lungfuls of air, and before I know it, he's gripping my head again and tugging me back down.

"Fuck yes," he groans, pushing my face all the way down so my nose hits his stomach. Each time I gag, he moans.

He doesn't warn me when he comes. I feel the heat of his cum in my throat and force myself to swallow but end up choking. Still, he doesn't let up, just keeps his dick down my throat until he's satisfied. It's the hottest thing I've ever experienced. When he finally lets me go, I'm a mess. Tears pour down my cheeks, saliva and cum spilling down my chin and out of my nose. With a cocky smile, Lumen reaches behind him to grab a towel and hands it to me. I grab it, but he doesn't let it go.

"Before you clean yourself up, just know you look absolutely beautiful right now."

He winks before letting go of the towel and hopping to his feet. I watch him as he heads inside and stare at the door long after he's gone. I snap out of it eventually and clean myself up. When I get out of the pool, I'm still hard as a fucking rock.