Diary entry, Maisy

November 23rd , 2022

I'm writing this because it's the only way I can make it real. After finding him fucking Fran, all I could do was cry. Then I realised if she was going to ruin everything I had with him, I would do the same for her. The moment Jesse turned up at my door, I knew it was a mistake. I'd never spoken to Jesse on a personal level before and I regretted it the moment I told him what I'd seen.

He didn't believe me at first, told me I was lying, that Fran would never do that, and I was just trying to ruin their relationship. Until I showed him my phone. He became enraged, throwing my phone across the room and smashing it to pieces. I hate myself. I hate that I allowed this to happen to me. But it's the only way that everyone will know the truth. I tried to console him but even that didn't help.

When he eventually looked up at me, there was no trace left of the Jesse that walked into my room. He was something else entirely. He began screaming at me, blaming me for ruining his life and sticking my nose where it didn't belong. Said I was a whore and that if I was going to act like one, he was going to treat me like one.

The moment his fist connected with my face I knew my nose was broken. I remember everything about that night in vivid playback. The moment he pushed my head into the pillow and how my muffled screams bled out into the fabric. The way his hand felt as he pulled down my shorts and I begged him to stop. I even remember the song that was playing on the radio when he finally pushed inside me.

Huggin Kissin by Big Black Delta.

The moment I gave up fighting and let him take what he wanted from me. Jesse Richmond raped me in my dorm room at eleven-thirty on November 22nd, 2022. He shattered me into a thousand pieces and took the last piece of me with him. He made sure I would never be able to come back from this. He told me that because of who I am, nobody would believe me.

Because who could ever love someone like me.

Maisy.