9. Bea

9

BEA

W hat is even happening right now? Today has been an emotional rollercoaster, to say the least. I woke up this morning and felt like I was on top of the world after my sexy shower time with Beck. Then everything came crashing down and I kept falling farther and farther, down into the darkness.

And now? Now Beck says he loves me and wants to buy me a house.

"Yes," I whisper, biting my bottom lip.

"What?"

"Yes," I say with more confidence.

"I'm going to need to hear it again, sweetheart," Beck says with a smile.

"Yes, yes, yes," I tell him, pressing kisses all over his face. "Yes, I want to be with you. I love you. Yes, I want to live here in this house and make it ours. I want a life with you, Beck."

"I want all of those things, too," he whispers, tucking some hair behind my ear. "I need you, Bea."

I nod, needing him, too. I always need him. He kisses down my neck, knowing just where I'm weakest for him. His hands roam down my body, resting on my ass and pulling me into him.

I slide my hands under his shirt, feeling those hard, defined muscles ripple beneath my touch. My fingers roam over his torso, his ribs, and his back, and then they slip underneath the waistband of his jeans.

"Bea… Fuck, I can't wait," he groans into my neck.

I'm not sure what he means, but then he picks me up, wrapping my legs around his hips while he walks us backward five steps, setting me down on the kitchen counter. Beck licks and nips his way down my neck, between my breasts, covered by the dress I'm wearing. He drags his lips over my tummy, and then kneels in front of me, flipping the skirt of my dress up.

"Lay back, baby, let me taste what's mine," he grunts. Beck lays one large hand over my stomach and urges me to lie down on the counter.

"I want to watch." I blurt out. I almost take it back, but then those blue eyes darken, letting me know he loves the idea.

"So fucking sexy. Prop yourself up on your elbows, baby, and enjoy the show."

With that, he grabs my hips and jerks me so my ass is on the edge of the counter. Beck digs his nose in between my legs, parting my folds over my panties. He inhales and growls before sucking the wet spot on the scrap of fabric.

Next thing I know, Beck rips off my panties and slings my legs over his shoulders before shoving his face in my pussy.

"Oh! Beck, god, I…"

My senses are flooded, overwhelmed in the best way possible. His tongue darts in and out of my entrance, his nose circles my clit, and his stubble tickles the insides of my thighs. When he growls into my pussy, I gush for him, making him growl again.

Beck lifts his head and I stare down at him from between my legs. He's covered in my juices and it makes me moan just looking at him. He loves it. I love it.

His hands hold me steady when my hips jerk involuntarily, shaking with the pressure, the pleasure.

Beck sucks on my folds, first one side, and then the other. He turns his head and nips at my inner thigh before kissing the sting away. He gives the same attention to my other thigh and then licks up my slit. He's avoiding my clit, licking me everywhere except where I need him most.

"Fucking love this pussy. Delicious," he groans, staring right at my core. Damn. I don't know what it is about that that turns me on so much, but I feel my walls pulse under his scrutiny.

"Jesus, you're throbbing for me."

"Please," I try finding my voice, but I know it's barely a whisper.

Beck grins and then dips his head, working me up again. I feel him everywhere, my clit, my slit, my hole. He never stays in one place for too long, surprising me each time his tongue lands on any part of my skin. My juices trickle down my slit and back entrance, tickling me and causing me to cry out. Beck's tongue follows the trail, licking my ass and causing me to jump. He chuckles and resumes his attack on every single part of my cunt.

My head falls down to the counter as I grab his hair, riding his face, needing to find release for the orgasm he's been teasing me with for what feels like hours. He sucks my clit into his mouth, rolling it in between his teeth, and I break.

"Yes! Oh, yes, ohmygod," I scream. He licks me through my orgasm, sending me up and over, again and again. "God, I can't… I can't stop," I cry out, gripping his hair.

I tremble as I come, pleasure rolling through my body and blocking out all thoughts. All sights. All sounds. The world disappears and there's nothing left but my body gushing for him as he demands my orgasm.

Every bit of strength has been wrung out of my bones, and now drips down Beck's beard. He stands up and leans over me, kissing me long and deep. I taste myself on him, loving how much it turns him on. He tries to pull away, but my mouth follows his. I bite his soft lips and lick my juices off of the tip of his nose.

"Fuck," Beck growls, gathering me up in his arms and kissing me wildly. "You like that? Like when I kiss both of your lips?"

"Yeah," I gasp before he nibbles on my neck and shoulder.

"Jesus Christ, I want to devour every inch of you."

"Yes, please. Do that to me."

Beck makes some sort of strangled sound in the back of his throat and then throws me over his shoulder.

"Beck!" I shriek, surprised by his caveman move.

He grunts, completing the whole caveman routine. I giggle and then shriek again when he tosses me down on the bed.

Beck strips down in record time and then pulls me up, getting me naked as fast as possible. His hands are everywhere, skimming over my shoulders, squeezing my breasts, trickling down my ribs, gripping my hips, and finally massaging my ass, pulling me closer to him so I can feel every solid inch of his need.

"I can't go slow, baby. I need you."

I nod and grab his hair, pulling him down into a wild kiss. I get lost as our tongues tangle, and when I open my eyes again, I'm flat on my back on the bed, with Beck leaning over me.

"Spread those legs, Bea. Need to be inside of you, right the fuck now."

I open for him, offering my body up so he can use me however he wants. He slams his dick into me with a roar, splitting me in two. I love it. Love feeling his raw power, love knowing he needs me like this, love being able to provide this release for him.

Beck continues to piston in and out of me, grunting with each thrust. I wrap my legs around him and press my heels into the backs of his thighs, encouraging him to go deeper.

"I don't want to hurt you, baby," he grunts, clearly struggling to hold himself back.

"I'm not going to break," I tell him.

"I'm not worried about you breaking. You're the strongest person I know."

"Then prove it," I challenge him.

Beck's eyes grow dark, his nostrils flare, and his jaw tenses as he picks up speed.

"Fuck, fuck, that's it, baby. Jesus," he mumbles before dipping his head down to suck on my breasts.

I cry out and arch my back, pressing my chest closer to him. Beck bites and sucks on my nipples, his stubble scraping the sensitive skin. He's rough, unleashed, and perfect. Each time he hits the end of me I think I'm going to blackout from pleasure. I didn't know my body could take all of this, but I want to see how far it will go.

Beck pops off my breast and kisses up my neck, sinking his teeth into my shoulder again, marking me. I scratch his back, leaving my mark on him as well. He growls and takes my lip in between his teeth, tugging on it before diving into my mouth with a possessive kiss.

I hang on for dear life as he fucks me harder, tilting his hips and hitting that spot that drives me crazy. Beck rests his forehead on mine, the sweet gesture in such contrast to the way he's ripping me apart with the rest of his body.

"Look at me," he demands.

I open my eyes and see him staring at me, looking into the very depths of my being. It's so intense, so everything. Our skin slaps together as we both moan, sweating, breathing as one.

"Come for me, love. Need to feel that cunt squeeze me nice and hard. Come for me. Do it now," he growls.

His words are my breaking point. My orgasm slams into me so hard I can't breathe. I throw my head back in a silent scream as he fucks the air right out of my lungs. It's almost too much.

"Breathe, sweetheart," he whispers into the shell of my ear.

I whimper and gasp for air, the oxygen flooding my veins, bringing awareness to every part of my body as Beck continues to thrust in and out of me. One orgasm rolls into another. I cry out using words I don't even understand. His name in a thousand tongues. I come hard. There's no strength left inside of me, but he moves my legs onto his shoulders and grabs my hips, fucking into me deeper than ever before.

"Jesus, fuck, Bea, so fucking tight for me. So fucking wet. I can't… fuck!"

I lift my arms above my head and grab onto the headboard, steadying myself as he pounds into me, over and over.

"Shit, love seeing those tits jiggle for me. Give me one more, baby, one more, I know you can do it."

I shake my head, convinced that one more orgasm might just kill me.

"Please, love, need one more. Need to see you fall apart like this."

He reaches down and rubs my clit with his thumb, making my back bow off the bed. My body shakes with the effort of keeping my bones inside my skin as I tense and stretch, reaching for the end. One more thrust and I scream my release as my body jerks violently.

"That's it, Jesus, Bea, fuck!"

Beck stills inside of me as I continue to writhe and pulse, massaging his huge cock, my pussy demanding to be filled.

He roars and swells deep inside of me, shooting his cum and hitting me deep. His release causes my body to tremor and twitch as he fills me up. Our combined orgasms leak out of me, dripping onto the sheets.

Finally, finally , Beck slips out of me and gathers me up in his arms so we're on our sides facing each other. He kisses my forehead and then nuzzles into the top of my head, stroking my back in tender circles.

"Thank you, love. Thank you," he whispers over and over. "Are you okay? I lost control… again."

He pulls back and looks me in the eyes, tracing my lips with his thumb. I kiss the pad of his finger and smile up at him.

"I'm good," I tell him. "That was…intense." He nods, furrowing his brow in concern. Before he can say anything, I add, "But so incredible."

"Thank fuck. I love you so much, Bea." Beck cups the back of my neck and pulls me in for a kiss. It's so tender, almost reverent. So different from what we did a few minutes ago. "I love you," he says again, whispering the words against my lips.

"I didn't know what love was until I met you," I tell him honestly, my voice shaking.

"We'll learn together. You're my whole goddamn world. You have been since I first saw you. Love you so much. Love you more every day."

His confession burrows its way into my heart, covering up all of my pain and broken pieces with promises of forever.