Chapter 21

My thoughts were ping-ponging between rage, fear, and the ever-present Omega need as I rode on the back of Trevor's bike. Rage because I kept picturing the look on his face when that Omega had cornered him. The complete blankness and how his scent had been drenched in terror. I knew exactly who she was, from Theo's story and the one time I'd seen her picture. Okay… and all the times I cyberstalked her, plotting how to fuck her shit up after I learned what she'd done. I never expected her to be there though. I never would have put Trevor in that situation, and I knew Jade wouldn't have either.

The fear and the need were confusingly mixed because both were tied to being on this fucking death machine. I got the appeal, I did, and parts of me could appreciate the freedom in the ride. The more dominant part of me kept remembering that there were people out there who wanted to hurt my pack. Also, there was literally nothing between Trevor and I and the pavement that was right fucking there.

Speaking of right fucking there—Trevor. Except for that one day in the conference room, a day that lived on repeatedly in my wet dreams, I'd never been this close to him for so long. His mahogany and teakwood scent was so strong that I could smell it even with the helmet on. I wanted to rip the helmet off so I could press my face right into the hard muscles of his back and breathe him in.

Trevor stiffened a little and it pulled my attention out of the Alpha pheromone-induced haze I was in. Shit. I'd been basically grinding my hard dick into him. Fucking hell. Embarrassment flooded me as I thought again about what he'd had to face tonight and cursed my needy Omega body. Too afraid to really lean away from where I was plastered to his back, I shifted my hips back until I wasn't obviously pressing my hard-on into his back, unlinking my hands from where I clenched them in front of his stomach. I began to move my hands to his sides when one of his large hands suddenly grabbed my own and held them where they were pressed into his lower stomach.

"Don't let go of the handles! What the fuck, Trevor!"

I could feel the vibrations of his laughter as he put his wandering hand back on the handlebar where it belonged. I breathed out slowly in relief as I realized I knew the street we were on. Less than a block from our house, Trevor began to slow down, moving the bike toward the back of the property where the gated, detached garage was.

He entered the gate and then the opening garage door before quickly pressing the button to close it again. I took another deep breath as he took off his helmet and patted my hands. Removing them and beginning to climb off the bike, I realized my muscles were stiff from how tense I'd been the whole ride. I took off my helmet and was looking around for where to put it when it was removed from my hands. Trevor placed it next to his on one of the storage hooks that I'd noticed in the garage before because the large balls on the end looked odd to me. Made more sense after realizing they were for helmets not decoration.

With the helmet off and Trevor standing so close, I was choking down the whine that wanted to erupt from my throat and call him to me. My perfume was rising again, and I needed to get into the house, but I couldn"t make myself move. I closed my eyes and tried to take shallow breaths so I wouldn"t make him uncomfortable. Running through what I could possibly say to him after what he faced tonight when I felt the heat of his huge body as he got closer to my front.

My eyes shot open and I looked up at him, so fucking tall. The blue of his eyes were almost completely eclipsed by his blown pupils. Trevor's nostrils flared as he took in a deep breath then pressed closer. He crowded into me until the backs of my thighs met the bike and my hands went back automatically to brace myself. My chest was heaving but constricted behind the corset Aubs had talked me into. His big fingers moved down the lapel of my jacket, unbuttoning the one button and tracing the boning of my corset with one fingertip. I couldn't breathe.

"Thank you, Ethan."

His words cleared the lust fog for a moment because I hadn't expected that. He was thanking me? My hormone-addled brain fought to make me refocus on the tease of his thighs barely brushing mine and where his hand moved slowly up and down my ribs.

"Welcome?"

His huffed laugh ghosted across my upturned face, and I sank deeper into the haze.

"You stood up for me, stopped her?—"

A growl slipped from my lips, and I bared my teeth. A crooked grin tipped up the corner of his mouth. That tiny movement on both him and Theo was like catnip.

"You're mine."

Trevor froze at my words. His hands stopped their leisurely perusal of my torso and his breath caught in his throat. His utter stillness was alarming as I realized what I'd said and how it might upset him.

"I mean, I would never let someone like that hurt you again. You're pack and I didn't mean you're mine, like you're a thing but…I?—"

My panicked rambling cut off as his mouth crashed into mine. I moaned into his lips and lifted onto my toes so I could wrap my arms around his neck at the same time he crushed my body to his. He swallowed every sound I made as his tongue plunged into my mouth.

He broke the kiss and slid his hands down to my hips, pulling them fully against his own. The feel of his hard length pressing into mine made me mewl with need.

"I am yours, though. In every way you will have me, Ethan."

I could never have predicted how all-consuming my need for these people would be. Movies and books gave us a fairytale version of packs who were fated to find each other, to be scent-matched and fall in love. I'd never thought it was real. Never thought it could be, until Shae's scent punched me in the gut and pulled me from one of the worst moments of my life; until I met them all and had the same visceral reaction to each of them.

"I didn't think you'd ever want me." His brow furrowed and the damp notes of sadness and shame began to taint his scent. I hurried on. "I know we already talked about this a little bit, that it wasn't about me, and I need you to understand something. I'm never going to hold anything that happened between us, before, over your head. Never pull it out of my pocket in an argument or anything like that."

He swallowed thickly, and the tips of his fingers that had crept under my jacket, dug into the back of my corset, struggling to find a grip.

"The night that Shae was taken, when you asked me to watch out for Miles? I knew things had changed. And after everything you told me when you first kissed me? Nothing before that matters."

Eyes squeezed shut and one tear raced down his cheek before I couldn't see anything else because he'd crushed me into his chest and buried his face into my neck. We stayed like that for a long moment before I felt the tip of his nose trail up my throat. Shivers cascaded down my spine and I gripped the hair at the base of his skull, where it was trapped in his bun. He hissed like I'd hurt him.

"Sorry, I shouldn't have pulled when your hair was up."

His lips pressed into the skin on my neck and he shook his head lightly before pushing our hips together again so I could feel how hard he still was.

"You know about how Jade and I play, right?"

"Um, a little?"

"I like pain, Omega. Not as much as some but more than most. Jade gives me the dominance and pain I crave but that doesn't have to be how it is with us. Whatever you're comfortable with."

I nodded and he pulled back to meet my eyes.

"If you're okay with it though, all I can think about now is you pulling my hair like that while you fuck my throat."

The choking sounds that croaked out of me were not at all sexy but earned me that tilted grin.

"You want to suck me off? Out here?"

More trailing kisses on my neck in a way that made my eyes roll back. "I'd get on my knees for you anytime you asked, Omega."

"Fuck."

"Is that a yes?"

Nodding enthusiastically, I pushed him back lightly so I could take off my tuxedo jacket and start to undo the corset's front fastenings. Was I overeager? Yes, but find me the person who wasn't excited about getting their dick sucked by someone they'd been pining after for months, and I'd call them out as the liar they were.

Trevor chuckled and shed his jacket as well. I whined, having finally undone the corset but still having to work on the buttons of my shirt. Giving up on the shirt, I started undoing my pants, until his hands reached out to still mine.

"Let me."

His voice had dropped an octave with a hint of growl that I knew would have my dick leaking. I leaned back against the bike and pressed my hands into the seat to brace myself again. Trevor held my eyes as he pulled my shirt from where it was still loosely tucked into my pants. Grabbing the bottom of either side, he pulled hard and the buttons flew off. I took a full deep breath for the first time all night which only made things worse as his scent completely filled my lungs. After trailing a finger down my chest and stomach, Trevor slid my zipper down and tugged at my pants until they were around my ankles. His eyes were locked on the dark gray of my boxer briefs as they hugged my dick.

"Did you come already, Ethan?"

Embarrassment curled through me a little at the reminder of how messy I could get. I knew the others hadn't minded but I'd also warned them. Shaking my head, I chewed on my lip.

"Omegas are messy. You don't have to?—"

I sucked in a sharp breath as Trevor gripped my hips and pressed his face into the bulge and inhaled.

"You smell like heaven. Can't wait to find out if you taste as sweet."

He tugged at my underwear until they joined my pants around my ankles and my dick was free. Trevor sucked lightly at the crown, and I was so wound up, I thought my knees would buckle. He released the head and licked a long, wet line from the base of my dick back up before swallowing me down. His nose pressed into my skin and I thought I was going to expire. Faint like a fucking Victorian damsel. Did this man not have a gag reflex?

"Ohhholyfuck, Trevor. How—fuck, yes."

My fingers dug into the leather of Trevor's bike seat and I moaned as he sucked my soul out through my dick. He moved off me with pop and a keening whimper came from me until he gripped my dick and squeezed as he worked his hand up my shaft.

"I told you to fuck my throat, Omega."

He released my dick and pulled my hips until I was standing more than leaning. Reaching for one of my hands, he put it on his head.

"Pull my hair. Choke me with your dick. I need it, Ethan."

His eyes were blown with desire, and I could see his chest heaving where it strained against the material of his button down. I could only nod as I sifted my fingers through the hair just beneath the band that held his bun in place. He dived back onto my dick, sucking me down, and I couldn't help but grip the roots of his hair as tightly as I'd been gripping the seat.

I had a split second to worry that I had gone too far before he moaned around me, and a full body shiver wracked through him. Fuck. He really did like this.

Keeping my grip on his hair, I held his head in place and slowly thrust in the wet heat of his mouth until his nose was once again against the trimmed hairs at my base. He hummed and then brought my other hand around his throat, forcing me to squeeze gently before he swallowed. The sensation of his tight throat contracting around me as I felt it against my palm sent me over the edge.

I cried out as I emptied myself into his throat and he swallowed every drop. The feel of him drinking me down, the way I had total control over his head and throat, was fucking addictive. But then he looked up at me with those completely blissed-out, watery blue eyes and I was done for. Pulling myself from his mouth made him release a needy whine as he continued to chase my dick with his lips.

"Fuck me." His eyes met mine as I looked down at him. "I need you to fuck me, Alpha. Can you do that?"

Trevor surged up in a motion so fluid, it should have been impossible for a man his size. He was ripping at his shirt and undoing his pants so fast that I couldn't decide where to look. I caught up and toed off my shoes so I could free my legs, but I only got one leg of my pants off before Trevor spun me around. Bending me over, his broad chest pressed into my back as he maneuvered me to brace myself with my elbows and forearms on the seat of the bike.

"Fuck, Ethan. Been dreaming about sinking into this perfect ass. You ready to take me?"

I nodded frantically as he reached around me to jerk my still hard dick a few times. I knew I was leaking pre-cum like a fucking faucet again and his hand was coated in it. I felt him stroke himself before spreading my cheeks and spitting onto my hole. Fuck, why was that so hot?

"Can't wait, beautiful thing. Should have taken you up to the nest and gotten lube or something, worked you open sweetly, but I'm fucking dying to get inside you."

"Please, Trevor."

His hand moved down my spine until I was arching, pressing my ass firmly into where the head of him prodded at my entrance. He lifted my hips slightly until I hovered on my toes, then he sank in with exquisite slowness. He grunted and purred as he thrust and suddenly I felt the familiar slide of barbell piercings. I whimpered and pressed my forehead into the seat.

"Fuck, you feel so good, Omega. Not hurting you?"

I rolled my head from side to side, unable to lift it as he picked up the pace just enough to thrust hard and I moaned loudly. He was turning me the fuck out and he hadn't even given me his knot yet. Knot.

Once the word popped into my brain, I couldn't focus on anything but how good it would feel to have him locked inside me.

"Knot. Trevor, please. Knot me."

His hips stilled with him mostly pulled out and I whined, trying to fuck myself back onto his dick.

"Here? I-I've never…"

"Please, Alpha. I need it. Please."

I was close to sobbing from the pleasure and then, when he pulled completely out, a few tears actually fell in anticipation of the rejection. Faster than my mind could process, Trevor turned me around, lifted me and laid me onto the hood of a car. The shirt and corset still clinging to my shoulders kept the cool metal from my back.

"Shh, sweet Omega. I wouldn't leave you needy like that."

He pressed his lips to mine as his strong hands lifted my hips and he sank into me again. My head tipped back and I panted as he hit the perfect spot inside me. His growl brought my gaze back up to his face. He was so fucking handsome.

Some of the shorter pieces of his dark blond hair had begun to escape from his bun and fall into his face. The muscles on his ink-covered torso contracted with each thrust and it was hypnotic. My gaze stalled for a moment on the silvered scar of Jade's claim right above his heart and I bit into my lip to keep myself from begging for a bite.

Looking back to his face, I saw that he was staring at where his cock was disappearing inside me and I groaned as his thrusts slowed to more of a rocking motion as his knot teased at my rim.

"You want this, Omega?"

He pressed just the slightest amount in and my dick jerked like it could answer him itself.

"Yes."

"Going to suck every last drop of my cum out of my knot with your tight hole?"

"Fuck, yesss."

I drew out the last word until it broke with a cry as Trevor slid his knot inside me and nearly collapsed his weight on top of me before catching himself with one hand on the hood by my head.

"Holy fucking hell, Ethan. I've never… like this, goddamn, I can't stop coming. Fuuck."

He leaned back making his knot shift and I cried out again as it rubbed against the sweet spot inside of me. He gripped my dick and jerked it with the perfect amount of pressure.

"Give it to me, beautiful. I want to see you covered in cum so I can lick it off you."

My orgasm erupted and my ass clenched around him, hard, making him groan and squeeze my dick as cum shot out, hitting my chest and neck. I sobbed through the overwhelmingly sensitive euphoria of having him locked inside me while I came. The warm wet slide of his tongue up the center of my chest and to the column of my neck had me opening my eyes to look at him.

He leaned back slightly before opening his mouth and sticking out his tongue enough that I could see my release there before he closed his mouth and swallowed.

"Goddamn."

He hummed and then pressed his chest to mine before nuzzling into my neck and peppering it with kisses. A warm sensation bloomed in my chest and it took me a moment to realize it was Theo, sending me his amusement. I groaned because I hadn't fucked anyone else in the pack since we bonded. Getting real time feedback about his feelings on the matter was odd. Not bad because, somehow, it fit, but it was still going to take some getting used to.

Trevor pressed another kiss to my neck before leaning back and brushing his fingers through my hair.

"What was that noise for?"

"Uh, Theo is happy for us, I think?"

Trevor laughed and lifted me enough that I wrapped my legs around his waist. Then he turned so he could sit on the hood and I winced at the sound of the metal depressing from our combined weight.

"Jade might not be as happy for us if we damage her car."

"Oh no, Ethan: she is over the moon right now. She won't care about a dent that's easily fixed."

I nodded and then sighed as I leaned down to press my face into his neck, inhaling deeply and letting his scent settle into me.

"How long does it usually take for a knot to go down? I don't mind carrying you but I'm not sure we'd make it all the way to the nest or even my room without hurting you if it's going to be a long time."

I sat back a bit, putting my weight on my knees. I lost my train of thought for a moment as he hit that spot again inside me and my softened dick tried to rally. I moaned and rocked on him for a second before remembering we were talking about something important.

Bringing my eyes back to his, I got lost again in the expression on his face. It was wonder and joy and it stole my fucking breath.

"You've really never knotted anyone?"

He shook his head once and his hands moved from my back to settle on my hips.

"Jade and I tried a few times. But couldn't get more than part way, while I liked the pain of her lock strangling my knot, it hurt her and that was not acceptable. After that we found cuffs and just played with those."

"Cuffs?"

His lips quirked and a playfulness entered his eyes.

"Like a blood pressure cuff but for my knot."

I shivered at the vision my mind provided of him splayed out on Jade's bed, in something like that harness I'd seen him in before, face twisted in pleasure as the cuff tightened on him.

"To answer your question. I think you just fucked me through a small spike so your knot should go down faster than normal. The doctor said that any rise in adrenaline so close to a heat can lead to a spike."

"You're going to have another heat soon?"

I chewed on the corner of my lip as I nodded before he freed my lip with his thumb and pressed a kiss to my mouth.

"Because I was on suppressants for so long. The doctor said I'd probably have them more often, at least the first year."

He hummed an understanding kind of sound and circled his thumbs on my hips.

"Will you stay with me tonight?"

His eyes crinkled at the corners and I smiled back.

"You don't have to stay in the nest if you don't want to?—"

Silencing me with another kiss, his hand cupped my jaw and his purr had me melting against his chest.

"I'd love to stay in your nest, Omega."