19. Melissa

Chapter nineteen

Melissa

" A re you sure he'll even want to see me? Especially after what I said." Jax takes hold of my chin, tilting it up so I'm looking him in the eyes. His lip quirks up, sending tingles racing through my body as his eyes twinkle.

"I'm positive. It's time we put the past in the past and move forward, the three of us together." I raise my eyebrow, which causes him to gaze at me with confusion before he chuckles. "Let me rephrase, the three of us moving forward, but with our relationships with you."

"So there's no chance of me seeing you and Earl in the heat of passion?" I try my hardest to keep a serious face, but I can't keep from smiling.

Jax shakes his head at me as he makes a gagging noise. "No way in hell of that ever happening. We talked and right now we're okay with watching each other with you, but we're not ready for our dicks to be in the same vicinity at the same time. Now let's get out of this car, go to the door and ring the bell."

My heart races and I can feel the knots in my stomach twisting tighter. I know Jax is convinced that Earl will be happy to see me and forgive my moment of stupidity, but my mind is running through all the scenarios and overthinking every tiny detail. I should just believe what he's telling me, especially after he and Earl talked.

Jax opens his door and I follow suit, slowly getting out. I pause by the truck, my feet feeling as if they're stuck.

"Come on, baby. Time to face the biker boy. It's going to be fine," Jax's voice booms as he steps around the vehicle to my side, slipping his arm around me, guiding me to the porch.

It's going to be okay. I need to have faith. I've wanted Earl for so many years and now it's happening. All my dreams are coming true. Well, most of them. There's still one I need to work on, but with both Jax and Earl's support, I think I can do it.

I take each step at a snail's pace, even with Jax's encouragement. I've been strong for so many years that this vulnerability is new to me. It's a part of me I kept hidden away, never wanting it to rise to the surface again. Guess life had other plans.

"Take a breath, Mels, we don't need you passing out on us." Jax chuckles. "But I volunteer as tribute to give you mouth to mouth."

How can I fight that, having Jax's lips pressed firmly on mine as he breathes life back into my lungs? I'm hot as hell just thinking about it. I stop as we step onto the porch, turning my body so that my chest is flush with the front of him, raise up on my toes and kiss him. If I ever doubted that I love this man, I don't any longer.

"Let's do this." His kiss and support is all I need to walk toward the door and press the doorbell. I wait, but nothing. Anticipation builds as I push the button again, listening to the chiming noise from the other side, before I hear heavy footfalls.

Earl! He's coming.

The door opens and I don't know what comes over me, but I leap into him, my arms going around his neck and kiss him. He seems stunned at first, but slowly his lips part, allowing my tongue to enter as it glides across his. A moan escapes me and I want more. I want Earl. My body yearns to have him inside of me as I scream his name.

"I'm so sorry. I should've never said that to you. Please forgive me," I sob as we break our kiss.

"I know you said it in anger, and I understand why. Shit. How can I judge you when I made the same mistake? There's no need to forgive you." His eyes drift past mine, locking on the man standing behind me. "Jax. Thank you," Earl says three words I never thought I'd hear.

"Are you going to invite us in, or should I just take our woman back to my place and ravish her some more?" Jax asks as he steps closer to me, his hard cock flush with my backside.

Earl steps to the side, making space for us to enter. "Where's the baby?" I ask, looking around.

"Sleepin'. I just put him down about fifteen minutes ago. He shouldn't wake up for at least an hour." Earl takes me by the hand, pulling me into his arms, both hands snaking around my waist and cupping my ass as he kisses me again.

Fuck me if it isn't the hottest thing, knowing that Jax is watching. But just when I don't think it can get any better, Earl releases his hold on me, spinning me around, right into Jax's arms, who does the same fucking thing.

Am I really doing this? A forty-six-year-old woman entering into a menage relationship? Is this even my life?

"We need to talk about something," I mumble into Jax's mouth, my words barely audible.

"Yeah, my grandson is upstairs. We ain't having no porn orgy down here."

"Aww, and I was hoping to get a show," Jax teases, and I catch Earl playfully punching Jax in the shoulder as I pull away.

"Let's sit down," I tell them both, then head to the living room. A house I know well from visiting Ash, the boys, and my godson.

I sit down first, opting to take the chair so I can sit alone. I know the minute one of them touches me, I'll forget everything I want to say and let my hormones take over. They sit down on the couch facing me, and I'm taken aback by the tranquility surrounding them. While they take their turns calling each other names, they seem at ease being together, as if they've formed a new comradery.

"I feel like I'm in the twilight zone." It's not until I hear my own voice do I realize I said it out loud.

"How so?" Earl asks.

"Just the two of you sitting there, beside each other, not bickering. It's weird," I blurt.

"I told you, Mels, we have an understanding." Jax smiles widely.

I look up at the ceiling, imagining I can see through it with X-ray vision to check if the sky is falling. All I can do is offer up a small prayer that the two men who hold the keys to my heart are getting along for the first time since they laid eyes on each other.

"Is it going to last long term or is it just a phase? Because I don't want to go further for this to all turn to crap because the two of you are always fighting." Each word comes out clearly and with conviction as I give them a stern gaze. They need to know I mean what I say.

"Mels, while I can't say we won't have playful banter, we solemnly promise to become the best brother husbands out there." He turns his head to look at Earl, who nods in agreement.

"Brother husbands? We're not married." My eyes widen.

"Yeah, Mel, we got it all figured out. You're my ol' lady and his wife. I don't need no fancy-schmancy paper. You're mine." My eyes water at Earl's words. I've never felt more loved than I do at this moment.

"I love both of you. But there's something else," I pause, taking a deep breath.

"What baby? What else is there?" Jax scoots forward on the couch, placing his hands on his thighs.

"Whatever it is, we'll face it together." Earl's bold voice fills the room.

"I want to respond to my son, to have him in my life if he wants to know me."

"Then let's contact him. He's gonna be our boy, too. Havin' Ashlynn made me realize I want more kids, so your boy is mine."

"Ours!" Jax adds on at the end, sending them both into laughter.

"Okay, I'm going to message him and see if he wants the same." I stand slowly and move over, sitting down on the couch between my two men. I'm going to need their support to keep me strong. I scroll through my phone to the message he sent and begin to type.

Me: I'm sorry it took me a while to respond. There's a lot about my past and why I had to give you up. I never wanted to, but I had to keep you safe.

I sit and wait, gripping the phone so tight my knuckles turn white. None of us say a word and after a few minutes, I start to lose hope.

"He's not going to message back." My words are soft as I blow out a breath. He's probably mad at me for taking so long to answer.

"Babe, he may be busy. You can't give up hope." Earl takes hold of my chin between his fingers and turns my face toward him, kissing me softly. "He's a fool if he doesn't want to meet the beautiful woman who gave him life."

It takes a moment for my mind to process my phone vibrating. A subtle, persistent buzz resonates in the palm of my hand.

Unknown: Sorry, I was driving when you messaged and I had to pull over.

Me: Okay.

I pause for a minute, then awkwardly add—

Me: I'm glad you're being safe. Is it possible to see you face to face? I have so much to tell you.

Unknown: I'm already on my way to you. I'll be there tomorrow.

Me: You're coming here?

Unknown: I am. I had to see you even if you didn't want to see me.

I hold the phone tight to my chest as I begin to sob. Today has been an overwhelming ride of emotions and I can't hold in my feelings any longer. My son wants to see me. He's coming to me. I never imagined I'd see his face in my lifetime, but I am.

Me: Drive safe and I'll see you tomorrow.

"He's on his way. My son wants to see me." Fuck, does he still have the same name? I quickly type another message to find out.

Me: What did your adopted parents name you?

Unknown: Harley

Unknown: Like you wanted.

I smile wildly, knowing my wishes were kept. They gave him the name I wanted.

"I'm going to go and let the two of you have some time alone. Then tomorrow I'll be back and we can meet your son together as a unit." Jax stands, taking hold of my hand and pulling me up, kissing me deeply. His arms wrap around me, squeezing tightly.

"I love you," I whisper when our lips part.

"I love you too, Mels. I'll be back tomorrow. You and Earl have fun."

"Oh, we will." Earl laughs as he steps up behind me, slipping his arms around me as Jax releases his hold. Being wedged between the two of them, I can see the benefits of being in a multi partner relationship. I'll need to tell Ashlynn and Arizona that they have the right idea.