51. Matteo

51

MATTEO

I hated not sleeping next to Lux last night, but I knew she needed to be with her mother, so I respected her wishes. That's not to say I didn't sneak into the spare bedroom during the night to check on her. It might've been the worst decision I could've possibly made, as all I wanted to do after seeing her lying there was take her back into our room, wrap my arms around her, hold her tight, and never let go.

Leaving their bedroom door open was the only thing that kept me sane, but when I went to check on them this morning, I could hear them talking.

He's in the Mafia, Lux.

I don't want to see you go down a dangerous path like I did.

Char's words seared through me like a heated knife lit by the flames of hell. I didn't stay a second longer, wanting to give Lux and her mother some privacy, but also needing time to cool off. Someone coming between us, especially someone so important to Lux, was pushing me to the point of insanity.

As I rest my back against the counter, I turn my head to look at Lux, and damn . She's still absolutely stunning, even with the cuts that fucker Fausto left on the side of her face. When she explained to Doc how she got her injuries last night, all I could see was red and I nearly had to leave to go find someone or something to take my anger out on. The only thing that grounded me was Lux's hand on my thigh and the look she gave me that told me she needed me there for support.

"I missed you last night," she says with a smile as she slides off the stool and wraps her arms around me.

Unfolding my arms, I wrap them around her, making room for her to snuggle into my chest. I take in a deep breath, allowing her scent to consume me.

"I missed you, too, Little Lux," I murmur into the soft silk of her hair.

Pulling her head back she gazes up at me, studying my face with a crinkle in her brow. "What's wrong?" she asks.

I hate what I'm about to say next, but Lux's mother is right. This world is no place for her, and as much as I want to be selfish and keep her to myself, I have to at least give her the option to get away from this life. No matter how much it breaks me or tears at my heart, shredding it into a million little pieces with no chance at repair.

Cupping her cheek in my hand, she leans into it while her eyes remain focused on mine. "My life is constantly full of danger, Lux. That's not something that will ever change." The crinkle in her brow sharpens as her confusion grows.

"I forced you into a marriage with me." She opens her mouth to speak, but I stop her with a quick move of my finger, placing it lightly on her lips. "I forced you to say yes to a world you should have no part of. And now. . ." I gaze back and forth between her eyes and can see the vulnerability behind them as I speak. It's as if I'm seeing a direct reflection of the heartache I'm feeling within myself. "Now I'm giving you the chance to say no. To walk away from the dangers of this place. To walk away from me."

Lux brings her hand up to my chest, pressing on it lightly. "You want a divorce?" The surprise in her voice lingers in the air between us for a few moments.

I keep quiet, not able to let the words fall from my lips because this isn't what I want. I want to keep Lux to myself for the rest of our lives, but I can't be selfish.

"I want you to say it," she says, her voice growing louder. More urgent. "I want you to tell me that you want a divorce."

I drop my head and shake it as my voice remains low. "I can't."

"Then what is this all about?" she demands. Her hand pressed against my chest gets firmer. I lift my gaze back up to hers and cover her hand with mine.

"I'm trying to keep you away from a dangerous life. To give you a reason to get out."

"So you're saying you're not able to protect me? To keep me safe?"

"Of course I can protect you," I growl out. "I'd put my life on the line to keep you safe. I'd do fucking anything for you, Lux."

"Then I'm not going to say no. I'm not going to say no to being part of this world that you live in." She wraps her other hand around the back of my neck. "Because a world without you is a world I want no part of. I'm in this with you, Teo. I'm choosing to stay married to you for the rest of my life."

Her words set off an explosion of warmth in my chest, and I get lost in her eyes, not wanting to fight her on this because I need this woman like the air I breathe. She wants to stay with me. I've given her the choice, and she chose me. Like I would choose her every damn day.

I let out a long sigh of relief, knowing I've done the right thing. Knowing she refuses to leave me is the greatest fucking joy I could receive. "I swear I'll live every single day making you the happiest woman in the world."

A smile breaks out on her face. "You already do, Teo. You already do." She pulls my face down to hers, and I close the distance between us with a deep kiss full of meaning and emotion. I've fallen for this woman with everything that I have.

Sliding my hands up from under the sleek fabric of her pajama shorts, I grip the curve of her ass, lifting her into my arms. With a giggle, Lux instinctively wraps her legs around me, locking them in place behind my back as I continue to kiss her.

"What exactly do you think you're doing, Mr. DiMaggio ?" Lux asks before pressing her lips back to mine.

" Mr. DiMaggio , huh?" I mumble against the heat of her mouth. "I could get used to you calling me that."

Tangling my fingers in her soft hair, I bring her closer and crash my lips back on hers as I walk us to our bedroom.

"Mmm, Teo. I want to feel you inside me," she murmurs as I set her down on the edge of the bed before stepping back to look at her—her flushed cheeks and swollen lips that beg to have mine back on them.

"In due time, baby, but right now I need to taste you. Not having you in my bed last night starved me of that pleasure," I say as I strip my jacket and dress shirt off. "Undress. Now." It comes off as a command and she responds immediately. I fucking love it.

She shimmies out of her pajama bottoms, letting her black lace underwear fall to the floor with the black shorts while I kick off my shoes. She watches me through hooded eyes as I push down my pants, letting my boxer briefs go with them, releasing my strained length from its confined space .

Lux's eyes light up when they fall to my dick. An involuntary twitch pulls from me as she licks her lips, but that's not what right now is for. Right now the only thing that matters is me tasting her.

She lifts her arms to pull her top over her head, but the movement has her stopping and sucking in a sharp breath.

Her back.

Closing the small distance between us, I place my hand on hers, pushing it back down to her lap. "Let me," I say as I unbutton her silk top. My fingers graze the valley between her breasts as I work my way down the buttons, and the heat from her skin sends a spark through my entire body.

Shedding the fabric off her shoulders, I step back and relish in her naked body. The piece of artwork it is. How it's something I know I'll always look at in absolute awe and never take for granted.

"I don't know what I did to deserve you, Little Lux, but I'm going to spend every day for the rest of our lives worshiping you the way you deserve."

I move around her to climb onto the bed and lie down, positioning my head at the base of the headboard before directing her. "Climb on top of me."

With a smile on her face, she crawls over me and straddles my hips. I let out a groan as her slick heat rubs against my hardened length. Grabbing a hold of her hips, I say, "Not there, baby. Climb on top of my face. "

Lux's eyes widen before a smirk pulls at the corner of her mouth. "Yes, Mr. DiMaggio ," she says in a sexy-as-sin voice. I almost force her to stay put, wanting to slam my cock so deep inside of her at the way she calls me Mr. DiMaggio , but I let her crawl up to my face, positioning herself right where I want her. Right where I need her .

The wet heat from her core drips on my face as she hovers over me. "Already so wet for me, baby?"

"I'm always wet for you, Teo," she breathes out as I grab her ass and pull her down onto my mouth, forcing her to drop her weight onto me.

"Teo," she cries out as she grabs ahold of the headboard and tries to offset her weight on my face, but I don't let her. I want to feel everything she has to give me.

Gripping her ass harder, a silent warning to her not to move off me, I mumble, "That's right, Little Lux. Brace yourself on that headboard while I eat this delicious pussy of yours. You're going to need it."

Her body quivers while I move my tongue along her slit, drinking in her sweet juices I crave day in and day out now. I let out a low groan at the same time she lets out her own voice of approval before I increase my speed.

Finding her clit, I rub it with my tongue and press her harder to me, not able to get enough of her.

"Oh fuck, Teo. Oh gosh, yes," she moans as she grips the headboard with both of her hands. The view of the curve of her tits hanging above me as she leans over will forever be inscribed in my brain.

As if they're calling my name, I move my hands to cradle her boobs, rubbing the hard peaks between my fingers. She lets out another feral moan as she grinds into me, and the rawness of it all has my throbbing cock standing on end. I won't last long at this rate.

Lux picks up her speed on my face as I keep the pressure of my tongue on her pussy, and a few seconds later, she's crying out in pleasure as she rides her orgasm out on me.

Her labored breaths come out uneven as she settles down from her high. "That was fucking amazing," she pants out.

I mumble out a chuckle when I wrap my hands around her waist and lift her. "We're not done yet, baby," I say as I help position her over my cock that might combust as soon as I enter her wet heat.

Lux wraps her hand around my dick and runs it along her slit, coating it in her juices before lining up with her entrance. I let her take control, and she eases herself onto me, but the little minx messes with me by pulling herself up so just my tip remains inside of her.

"What exactly do you think you're doing, Little Lux?" I growl out with a raise of a brow.

A devilish smirk forms on her face. "This is kind of fun being in control," she says. "Seeing just how far I can push you."

I let out a tortured laugh as she repeats the movement. "Oh, you think you're in control, do you?" I ask, but before she's able to respond, I grip her hips once more and slam her onto me while thrusting my hips forward, her slickness allowing me to fully impale her tight hole.

She lets out a cry as she leans forward, resting her hands on my chest. " Holy fuck , Teo."

"Ride me, baby. Use me like the good girl you are."

She feels so fucking phenomenal as she clenches her walls around me and grinds her hips into mine. Her hair falls forward, draping against my chest before I brush it out of the way. Wrapping my hand around her head, I bring her face down to mine and crash my mouth against hers, thrusting my tongue into her mouth as it seeks the comfort of her own.

Lux's sharp moans mix with my low groans as I push myself up to a seated position. Feathering kisses down her neck, I make my way to her tit as she bounces up and down on my cock. "Oh yeah, baby. Keep bouncing on me just like that," I growl out, loving the sensation of her on top of me.

I suck her nipple into my mouth and caress her other boob. She runs her fingers through my hair, pulling on the strands as she lets out another moan of pleasure.

Grabbing her ass, I lift her slightly, and as if we're on the same wavelength, she readjusts her legs from straddling my sides to wrapping them around my back, giving me a new angle so I can get deeper inside of her.

Bringing my mouth back up to hers, I mumble, "I can't get enough of you, Little Lux. I don't think I'll ever get enough of you."

She increases her pace, squeezing me with everything she has, and I meet each of her thrusts with my own. "You feel so fucking good, Teo," she pants out before thrusting her tongue back into my mouth.

Her walls tighten as I brace myself with my hand, extending it behind me so I can get more leverage as I lean back. Knowing I'm hitting that sweet spot, her moans become more in sync with my thrusts, so I pick up my pace while she does the same until she pulls her lips off mine and cries out my name while throwing her head back.

After a few more hard thrusts, her orgasm pulsing around my cock sends a tingling sensation to my balls and has me exploding like none other inside of her, giving her every drop of me as her name passes on my lips.

Our movements slow before coming to a stop, and there's nothing but the sounds of our rhythmic breathing as we come down from our highs.

I wrap my fingers in her hair and rest my forehead against hers as I close my eyes and marinate in this feeling. "You're everything, Lux," I breathe out. "I'm so fucking honored to call you my wife. I love you, baby."

Lux stares at me with parted lips before a smile breaks out on her face. "I love you too, Teo," she whispers. "And I'd choose this life over and over again if it meant choosing you. "

She snuggles into me and I've never felt so satisfied in my life. I know it's wild that we haven't known each other long, but we've fallen in love with each other, and I can't imagine a stronger woman than Lux standing by my side, becoming the mother to my children, keeping me on my toes each of every day.