Chapter 9

" H e said yes," I grunt, after walking back to the bedroom. My cock is hard, and I'm pissed off that Ash still causes such a reaction.

I hate him for leaving. For breaking apart our family. But fuck, his body—so tight and wet… and that ink. Holy shit.

Chastity laughs, pointedly staring at my hard cock and I shrug. She pats the mattress with the hand not holding the baby and I climb up.

Resting her head on my shoulder, I gaze down at our little girl while she nurses. "She looks just like you and Levi. She's beautiful," I murmur, then press a kiss onto Chasity's head.

Our woman is a fighter, a warrior, and she blows me away every day with how compassionate and loving she can be, even when she's had demons from Hell try to drag her down.

I guess that's why we work so well. She lightens the darkness that tries to consume me at times.

"I know that what Ash did was wrong, and he should have left us a clue so we didn't worry as much, but he's back now. He's safe, and from what Levi told me after getting shitfaced together the other night, he's never once moved on."

"Doesn't change the fact he could have."

Chastity groans and gently smacks me on the arm. "There has been too much evil and heartbreak in our lives, Jonas. We have a huge battle to come. I say we enjoy the little things and let the past go."

I look into her blue eyes and sigh. "You make it seem so easy."

Someone knocks on the door, and I know it's him. Looking sheepish, he moves from foot to foot.

His dark hair is still wet, and I avoid looking at his body again.

"Hey, Ash, I'm glad you decided to join us," Chas says, and my breath halts when Ash gives her a huge smile. His eyes light up and it makes me miss the old days.

"Yeah, um, Jonas mentioned a movie?"

Chastity wiggles, then hands me Charity and a cloth to burp her. I sit up against the mountain of pillows and rub her tiny back.

"I'll sit in the middle. Come on. We don't bite."

"That's debatable," I grunt.

Chastity glares at me and I shrug. She may be willing to forgive easily, but I am just not there yet, which is okay. Ash and I had a connection long before we met our Eve.

Ash moves beside Chas, and soon Bast and Levi join us. Levi scoops Chastity up and places her in between his legs, while Bast feeds her some grapes. Ash ends up pressed against me, and if I wasn't still holding my daughter, I would shove him away.

I don't know how much time has passed, but I haven't been paying attention to the movie. Bast reaches for Charity and takes her from me so he can change her. Eli is passed out on my lap, and I don't miss how Ash is just staring at him.

"You can touch him, ya know. He won't break," I whisper, and Ash swallows before hesitantly reaching out his hand and placing it on the back of his son's head.

"He's so small and innocent, I don't want to taint him with my filth." Removing his hand, he rolls off the edge of the bed and walks out of the room. Chastity gives me a look and takes Eli so I can chase after him.

Fuck, is that really what he thinks?

"Shit, I'll be back," I grumble, standing up carefully so I don't jostle anyone. Stalking out of the room, I search for a whiny little bitch.

I'm really trying, even though I don't understand all of the reasons why he left. I was willing to watch a movie as a family, but he's too worried about spreading his invisible filth. I don't buy it.

This shit ends today.

I watch him duck into the garage, as if that's going to save his ass, or shake me off. I have him locked in my sights, and he's not getting away. Opening the door, I step into the garage, where he's dragging his hands through his hair.

It's still longer than I've ever seen it. I know that Snake isn't done with him yet, but I need to have this out with him.

"You seem to be getting really good at running away," I say nonchalantly, shutting the door behind me. "Aren't you tired yet?"

I'm a ticking fucking time bomb, but Ash hasn't realized this yet. My blood is boiling.

"I didn't run!" Ash roars. "I was sent away, Jonas. When The Society gives you an order, you obey it. It was supposed to be you, but I refused to let you go through that. I couldn't contact you, I couldn't break my cover. I have to protect our family."

"Good," I grunt, walking forward until I'm in front of him. Now it's time to poke the beast. "We are your family. Stop pushing us away for doing the things that allow us to exist. I get that you have big feelings about the horrible things you've had to do, but they do not make you a bad person!"

I'm screaming as I hit him in the chest, pushing him back as I provoke him. In a move faster than I can see, he grabs me by the throat, pulling me around until my back hits the concrete wall.

"Why are you pushing me?!" he roars. "I'm not safe to be around."

"Then show me what you're so afraid of," I growl back. "It's clear to me that you're no longer the same person you were before you left. Well, neither am I. We're not supposed to be. We get older, we change… I just thought we'd do it together."

Ash turns me until my cheek is pushed against the wall, his hard cock pressed against my ass.

"Doesn't it disgust you that I'm harder than steel right now?" he asks. "There's something wrong with me! I shouldn't want to hate fuck you, to punish you, to make you feel me for days afterward."

"Who says sex needs to be good or bad?" I ask. "They fucked with our heads, told us we had to be virgins for The Society's purposes. It's just another way they controlled us. Do what you want with me. Show me what evil you think you're saving us all from?"

Cool air hits my ass as Ash pulls my pants down over my hips. One hand keeps me against the wall as he smacks my ass with his other palm. It stings, making me hiss, but my cock begins to weep pre-cum in response.

"I'm going to punish this tight little ass," Ash grunts, releasing his cock as the sound of his zipper fills the room. "My life is dark, my soul is tainted, and I've been trying to save you from all of that. But you're too much of a brat to see it!"

Ash spits into his palm, coating his cock like a gentleman. I know he thinks he's being callous and cruel, but I'm the one pushing him. The head of his thick dick presses against my asshole, making my eyes roll.

"I hope you're fucking proud of yourself," he rasps in my ear as he pushes himself deeper inside of my ass. It stings, but God, it's exactly what I need.

"I'll be happy when you fuck the brat out of me," I hiss. "You better be balls deep and willing to make me scream so loud people will wonder if?—"

I gasp as I get cut off, because Ash takes that moment to squeeze my balls in a vise.

"Wonder what?" he asks, his hips beginning to thrust harder. "I'm going to fill your ass with my cum, and then I'll fucking walk away. The only memory will be that you let me use you like a cum rag."

"I'd rather be your cum rag," I cry out as he fucks me against the wall. "Fuck, is that all you've got? I can't believe I waited around for this… Ohhh shit!"

Ash bites down on my shoulder hard, warning me to shut the fuck up. I may have gone too far, but the truth is, I would never cheat on him. He and Chas are my forever. If he has to fuck out his demons, I'll be his willing fuck toy.

"Your mouth is going to find you on your knees while I skull fuck you after I take your ass," he grunts. "Such a bad boy, taking my cock as a punishment."

His cock feels amazing, hard and thick as it fucks me, firing off nerve endings I haven't felt in ages. Groaning, I can already feel my balls drawing up, even though he's purposely neglecting my cock.

Ash smacks my dick, making me cry out as his hips piston and thrust. "You don't get to cum before I tell you to," he rumbles. "Fuck, you're strangling my cock. Such a dirty boy. Do you like this?"

"Yes," I moan, gasping when his hand around the back of my neck shifts to the front and he squeezes.

"I'm learning so much from my little cum slut," he mutters. "Fuck, why do you have to feel so perfect? Dammit, I'm so close."

My cock bounces with every thrust, and as if against his will, Ash begins to stroke it roughly.

"Does rough sex do it for you now? I didn't think I'd ever be able to get hard again, but you're like my very own little blue pill. I wanted to punish you… This is just reminding me of why I can't have you."

My breath comes out in thready rasps until he closes off my airway completely. His words are harsh as he fucks me, but my fucked up brain eats it up like candy. Since he left, all I've ever wanted,, besides my baby girl, is him, so I'll take him anyway I can get him.

"Come for me," he grunts, his own hot cum beginning to fill my ass.

Shuddering, I explode at his words, and the feeling of him marking me, my cum splashing against the concrete wall. For just a moment, I'm glad that no one will be coming out here until I've had a chance to clean it, but then I realize I'm past caring right now.

My heartbeat is thundering in my ears as Ash releases me, pulling out of me so quickly, I'm left bereft and missing him. Turning, I rest against a clean section of the wall as Ash glares at me.

"Please, don't ruin this with your bullshit," I say quickly, beating him before he has a chance to speak.

Ash gazes at me for a moment before he puts his cock away and yells, "Fuck! Why do you have to look so happy? Don't you think this should bother you? I just fucked you in a garage. I hurt you, I know it."

"I wanted everything you gave me," I say honestly, my chest heaving as I struggle to catch my breath. "The days where you're my dirty little secret are long over. We're living in the light, making our own rules. Figure out your shit."

"Can you ever forgive me?" Ash asks in a tortured tone. My heart swells for him. If he's asking, it means he's this much closer to accepting forgiveness.

"In time…"

I leave my answer hanging in the air, because I think maybe I already have, in some way, but I'm not ready to confess it yet.

"We shouldn't have done that," Ash mutters, and I groan. I'm deliciously sore and will probably regret this tomorrow.

"No, we shouldn't have, but maybe now that sex is out of the way, we can actually talk, and I won't want to beat you to a pulp again."

Ash sighs and nods. "I'm sorry if I was too rough. I'm not the man I used to be, and when you touched me… I just had to be in control."

I think about the handprints and marks I'm going to have covering me in the morning, and shrug. "They won't judge, and it's not like I'm going to be around anyone else."

"Are we okay to talk now? I'd really like to tell you… everything," Ash mumbles, looking at me intently. He seems nervous, which I guess is my fault, since I've been a complete dick to him.

"Yeah, I think we should."

I leave him to follow me back into the house. It's quiet now, so I'm assuming everyone has gone to bed. Walking into the kitchen, I grab us some sodas and a bag of chips, then go to the living room.

Plopping onto the couch, I place the stuff between us and wait for him to start talking. From the bits and pieces that I've heard, I know this isn't going to be an easy conversation, but hopefully, once we've cleared the air about everything, we can all move the fuck on and be over it.

"The day I left… I'd received a call from Snake. I was being ordered to repent for killing your father… Which I will never regret. You are too good, and you didn't need his blood on your hands." Ash rushes out his words and won't let me reply.

"I was taken underground to the trafficking ring that Isabella is running, alongside some very powerful men. Snake and I have been undercover for The Society, and the things I've seen… and done… I don't think I will ever have a normal night's sleep without being haunted."

"What happened, Ash?" I move closer to him with every word, and when the first tears fall from this man's eyes, I grab his hand and hold it tight with mine.

"I was a guard in charge of the women, men, and children. They were selling people, Jonas, but they also ran some kind of illegal video company. I tried to make their stay more comfortable. I kept them safe during transport and when they showered, so they could have some peace from the other rapists that walked the halls."

"Children?" I gasp, my stomach turning as I think about all the innocents who are being tortured and destroyed there. "Well, it won't be for much longer. The Society is going to take care of all of that," I mumble, thinking about all the meetings Jacob has been having with the Elders over the last few days.

"There was this one couple, Rooke and Patience. Jacob knows them, we were supposed to help them before Chastity went into labor… Fuck, I never showed up to help them!"

Quickly standing, he rushes from the room, straight for Jacob and Otto's bedroom. Tempest is asleep on the other side of the bed, with Rome in her arms, and Jacob jumps up, grabbing a gun out of nowhere.

"Fuck, Ash!" he barks and I freeze, staring at the weapon in his hands. Lowering the gun, he looks at me, then rubs his eyes with the hand not holding the weapon.

"We never went and helped Patience," Ash shouts, startling Tempest and making Rome cry.

"Oh, is that it?" Otto mutters, then scoops up Rome and cuddles him close. "We sent someone else to meet them. It was time, anyway. Richard James is dead now too, so all you guys need to focus on is Nixen and Isabella."

"I guess I shouldn't be surprised that you've been eavesdropping," Jacob grumbles, looking at his partner. Otto shushes him, then closes his eyes.

"Can we go back to sleep now!" Tempest snaps, glaring at me and I nod. Taking Ash's hand, I pull him out of the room and close their door.

"Why are they all sleeping together?" Ash asks me once we are back on the couch.

"They are sharing a bed. Tempest has been raising her son with Jacob and Otto. It is all strictly platonic. Just another thing that you missed while away."

Ash glances at me for a moment before nodding.

"Guess you should catch me the fuck up then if I'm sticking around, don't you think?"