Chapter 12

S tepping out of the shower, I almost slipped on a pair of silk boxers. "Levi," I growl, not expecting him to reply to me.

"Yeah, Little Sinner," he shouts from the other room, and I roll my eyes. I'm cranky, cramping, and all I want to do is curl up in bed with a heating pad and a book.

"When are we supposed to be leaving for Holy Cross?" I ask while wrapping a heated towel around myself.

Levi steps into the bathroom, and I don't miss how his eyes are glued to my chest. I swear they keep getting bigger, and it's about time for Charity to eat.

"Tomorrow. Otto and Jacob have some of the pledges coming over to pack us up and move our things."

I nod and shuffle over to the counter, grabbing my toothbrush. Levi comes up behind me, and I can feel his hard cock rub against my ass.

"Fuck, I don't think I will ever get tired of seeing you dripping and your skin flushed," he mumbles, wrapping his fist in my hair as he tugs my neck to the side, making space for his lips.

"Levi," I whimper when he nips my pulse point. Gently bending me over the counter, he releases my towel and grinds his cock against my ass. His smooth flesh presses into me and I sigh.

I don't know when he took his basketball shorts off, but I'm not complaining.

I'm already soaked and craving him. Next week is when the doctors told me I could have sex again, but I don't want to wait.

"Please," I gasp as his tip gently presses against me. "Levi, I need you."

No one ever tells you how horny you are after birth. Kissing and dry humping just aren't cutting it. I need him to fuck me.

"Are you sure?" he mumbles against my skin, moving my head until he can kiss my lips.

I nod, moaning as he takes my mouth harder, tangling his tongue with mine.

"Bed," he growls, releasing my hair and spinning me so I can jump into his arms. His cock grinds against me while he walks us to the bedroom.

"Oh, fuck a duck. There goes my breakfast," Jacob shouts and I scream, squeezing Levi harder to keep my chest pressed against him, hidden from view.

Levi grumbles about blue balls and grabs the throw blanket on the bed, wrapping us in it. Peeking my head up, I look at my brother, and he does seem like he may be ill.

"What?!" Levi snaps, and Jacob closes his eyes, taking a breath.

"I knocked a few times. I was just going to shout through the bathroom door, but you guys came out…"

"What did you need?" I croak. God, this isn't the first time Jacob has walked in on us naked, but it is the first time he's almost seen his little sister getting railed.

"Tempest left for the day, and Otto needs to help me with some Society things, so I came to let you know that the kids are taking a nap. Snake is coming with us, but Ash is staying."

So much for our morning quickie.

"Okay, got it," Levi grunts and Jacob sighs, nods, then leaves the room, slamming the door behind him.

"Oh, God," I groan, burying my face into Levi's neck, and he scoffs.

"That is not the type of moan I was wanting, Little Sinner, but…"

"No, no, put me down. I am so far out of the mood, I'm now the Sahara desert."

"Fucking cock blocking brother," Levi grunts and then freezes. Setting me down, he grabs us some clothes and tosses them on the bed.

"You okay?" I ask him, because now he looks like he's going to be sick.

"Yeah, but we need to talk."

"Those are the words of death, Levi Madden. So before I start to spiral, you better spit it out."

I toss the long shirt over my head, and yank the shorts up my legs and over my ass.

Levi sits next to me on the bed and pulls me onto his lap. Wrapping me into his arms, he takes a deep breath.

"Jacob is my brother," he grumbles, and I almost don't understand him.

"Wait… What?" I shout, trying to jump up, but he won't let me go.

"Levi, that's… Oh, God." I cover my mouth with my hand. I think I'm going to throw up.

"Please, please, please, tell me I'm not married to my… Wait. Snake is my dad, so that means."

"My dad is Jacob's."

Closing my eyes, I wait for the panic to chill, then relax back against him.

"Okay. It's weird, and I'm mad that you kept more secrets from me, but it'll be alright."

I turn sideways and he's gaping at me. His eyes are shadowed and he gives me a big smile, before kissing the shit out of me, getting my body all worked up again.

"God, I love you, Chastity Madden. You are the best gift I've ever received." Sighing, he kisses my forehead and I shake my head.

"I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you and the guys. I'd be in some mental institution, or dead. You're my protector, my savior, my forever."

"You say that we saved you, but you saved us all, Chastity. You and our family are all we need in this life and the next."

God, I want this man. "Kiss me, Husband."

Crying from down the hall pulls me out of the mood again, so I laugh, give Levi one more kiss, then push him off of me as he grumbles.

"Later," I promise with a smile, as I climb from the bed and head toward the living room.

Ash is holding a screaming Charity, and he looks panicked as he bounces her gently.

"Help," he whispers and I laugh.

"Unless you have milk in those tits, she won't stop crying," I sass, taking my baby from him and moving toward the couch.

"I do not have moobs," Ash snaps, and I bite my bottom lip. He looks disgusted, and no, he doesn't have man boobs.

He's tight and toned, and ugh, my hormones need to chill the hell out.

"No, you don't." I shoot him a wink, and his scowl turns into a smirk. Sitting next to me, he watches while I nurse our daughter.

"I really hate that I missed out on Eli growing up," he mumbles, then groans, rubbing his eyes.

"I know you don't want to talk about it, but I hope you know that I've forgiven you. It took me a long time to come to terms with you leaving, but after Elijah was born, I started to see reason. I knew you wouldn't have left of your own free will, and I always suspected you'd return to us."

Leaning in, he's hesitant, and just when I think he's going to kiss me, he turns, pressing his lips to my head.

"That place is where nightmares go to hide. It was Hell, pure and simple, and the things… I thought about you guys every day. It was the only thing that kept me going. That kept me alive."

"Ash," I whisper, and he gives me a sad smile.

"I'm going to have to return. Snake has made some excuses for why we left, and because Isa is so distracted, she hasn't cared, but Jacob is going to want his best spies to go back there."

"No, you will never go back to that place again. I don't care. You're home now, and you're safe."

"He's right, baby girl," Levi says, joining us, holding Romeo in his arms. He's all sweaty, and I can smell his diaper from here.

Levi holds the little boy out in front of Ash. "You have a million diapers to make up for," he says with a grin that's pure evil, and I laugh.

Charity reaches for my hair and holds it while she eats, and I watch as Ash attempts to clean Rome up.

He won't sit still and is trying to run away. Levi is cringing, and I know he's going to step in.

Yep, I called it. "No, Ash, you need to hold him with one hand while replacing the diaper. Just let me do it."

I laugh, shaking my head as I continue to watch them. It reminds me of when Eli had a huge blowout in the middle of the night.

I have never seen Levi look unsure about something before. It proved he is human.

I clap after Rome is in a new diaper and shorts. "Great job. Now take her so I can make something to eat."

Charity is asleep, so Levi carefully takes her and lays her out on his chest. Ash watches them, and I know what he's thinking.

"It just takes practice. That's why you're not leaving again." And with that final statement, I leave the room, hiding my tears.

Because as much as I hate it, I know that he will have to go back to Isabella again.

He's our only hope to bringing her down.

Tempest is still out, and I'm starting to worry. With Isabella on the run, she could be anywhere, and she knows what my best friend means to me.

After the whole lesbian debacle at Holy Cross, I learned that Tempest's mom had started to meet for lunch with Isabella.

Just two psychotic bitches eating and gossiping.

A match made in Hell.

I text her again, but I don't get any reply, or proof that she even read it. I'm about to call her, demanding a status update, when Ash walks in.

"We need to talk," Ash mumbles, entering the nursery. He has Eli in his arms, and my heart skips a beat.

It's taken a few days for them to warm up to each other, but I think Elijah knows that Ash is his daddy.

"Okay, what's up?" I finish changing Charity into her pajamas, then swaddle her tight and lay her in the bassinet.

Her eyelids are heavy, so she should be asleep soon.

"Let's talk in the bedroom," I say as I walk out of the room and down the hall to where the guys and I have been sleeping.

I'm still sore, and my incision from the C-section itches, but I can move around a lot better now, so I'm thankful for that.

We stop at the room the boys have been sleeping in, and Ash lays Eli down. I bend over and give my sweet baby boy a quick kiss.

Ash takes my hand as we walk the five feet to my room, but drops it before we enter.

Levi sits up when we walk in, and sets his book on his chest. I laugh when I see the cover.

He gives me a pout, pushing his reading glasses up his nose, and I bite my lip.

"Do you know how sexy you look in your professor disguise?" I say, climbing onto the bed, forgetting that Ash is behind me, and I'm not wearing panties.

"Damn," he mumbles, and I shoot him a wink from over my shoulder.

Levi grabs me, tugging me up his body until I can straddle him. He's already hard, and I have to wonder what scene he was reading in the book he obviously stole from Tempest.

It's a dark romance, and from what she told me, it's extremely smutty.

"It's later, Little Sinner," he growls, taking my lips with his, biting it and making me moan.

"Uh, I'll just come back," Ash murmurs, and I shake my head. Levi releases me, and I sit next to him.

"Ash, if we are going to move on, you're going to have to start joining us. We can take things slow, or maybe just have some one on one time?"

I glance at Levi and he nods, but Ash shakes his head. He jumps onto the bed, laying on top of me, kissing me hard and furiously before Levi even has a chance to leave.

Well, okay then. I spread my thighs, making room for Ash, and he grunts, rubbing his jean-covered cock against my wetness.

"Fuck, I've missed you," he mumbles and I smile.

"I always knew you'd come back to me," I whisper, tipping my head back so I can look into his eyes.

He gives me a smirk, before going back to my lips once more.

"I'm home," he mutters as I wrap myself around him tighter. I don't ever want to let him go again.

ASH

Only in my dreams did I think I'd be here again. Chastity and I have always had a rough relationship.

I was a complete asshole to her in the beginning, and for a while there, after Isa started to assault me, I thought this was karma.

They say what goes around comes back around, and I have been up, down, dragged along the corridors, and now I'm back from Hell.

I know now that I didn't deserve the abuse, but back then, when I was out of my mind on Paradise, and broken beyond repair, it was hard to think otherwise.

"Hey, where did you go?" Chastity asks, placing her palm against my cheek. I look into her gray eyes and sigh.

She's so beautiful. If anyone was to know and understand the hell that I've been through, it would be her.

I press another kiss to her lips, then roll off her. "I need to tell you some things before we can go any further," I grumble and Levi turns to leave us alone, but I want him here too.

"No, stay." I grab his arm, and he gives me a quick look over, to make sure he should.

"Jonas knows a little already, and I'm sure Bast has figured it out."

Nodding, he moves to the other side of our girl and scoops her into his arms. She smiles and pats his wrist.

I'm jealous at how easy it is for them. Hopefully, one day, I can feel comfortable with people touching me again.

"Isabella used and abused me for almost a year. She's working with some bad, evil, soulless men, and they have created a drug called Paradise. It paralyzes your body, but your mind is still very much alert."

"Oh, Ash," Chastity gasps, but I need to finish this.

"I resisted at first. She'd use me, but it wouldn't last long. Afterwards, she would be embarrassed that she couldn't make me come, so I'd be beaten and locked in a cell until she wanted me again. This went on for months, until I finally just accepted my new fate."

I'm so ashamed that I let her do these things to me, and I even started to crave the drug.

"I don't think any less of you, Ash. You did what you had to do to survive and come back home to us."

Chastity pulls me into her arms and I break. She's so kind and loving, and I don't deserve her, but I'll be damned if I'm ever going to let her go again.