15. Mack

Chapter 15

Someday, I wouldn't need to use condoms with my boy. But until that day, I couldn't just wipe him down with the towel he was still lying on and fall asleep beside him. I had to get up to dispose of the latex before heading back to bed.

Caleb still had a sex-drunk expression on his face as he grinned up at me. "Can you stay over tonight?"

I had hoped he'd ask me that and had a bag of clothes in my trunk. "Sure, if you'd like me to."

"I would." He held up his hand, reaching for me. "Bedtime, Daddy."

"You're not wearing pajamas."

Caleb shrugged and opened one eye to look at me. "Don't need them."

I sat on the mattress beside him and ran my fingers through his messy hair. "Would you like some milk before bed?"

That got his attention. "Yes, please. I'm so thirsty, Daddy."

I leaned forward and gave him a quick kiss. "Then would you like to sleep in a diaper tonight? Just in case?"

Caleb exhaled heavily, and he seemed to melt into the mattress, even more boneless than before. "Yes, Daddy. I knew you'd think of everything. I knew you'd be my perfect Daddy."

I wasn't perfect, and I definitely wouldn't always know what to do. But I was ready to learn…with Caleb. Together, we'd figure out what we needed for ourselves and for each other. And we'd figure out what it truly meant to love someone.

After taking longer than necessary to get the cotton diaper comfortably on my boy, I slipped into the bed beside him and held him to my chest as he drank. The sensation of his mouth sucking me so intimately was already becoming familiar and something I could never get enough of.

It had only been a week since I was convinced surgery was my only option for happiness. Now, the thought of surgically stopping my milk and never being able to share it with Caleb actually made me ache with regret from even considering it.

Everything I'd learned from The Lactin Brotherhood and from Caleb was right.

It was a gift that I now accepted. Appreciated. Cherished. Because it brought me the only man I'd ever loved and brought him pleasure that he would only ever get from me.

When he was full, he pulled off my nipple with a kiss and nuzzled into my arm. "Good night, Daddy. I love you."

"Good night, sweetheart. I love you too. Always."