Chapter 1

MONTEPULCIANO, ITALY

It’s been five years and she’s the first woman—first person—to make Ryan smile.

“Why do you want to be a lawyer?” Nora Watanabe asks.

They sit at a tall table at the bar—the only place walking distance from their bed-and-breakfast. It’s barely ten o’clock, but the place is clearing out. Everything in Montepulciano closes early, even the bars and nightclubs.

“What, are we on a job interview?” Ryan replies, smiling at her tenacity. It’s the third time she’s asked. Across the room he sees their classmate Eddie striking out with Italian women who are pretending not to speak English.

Nora narrows her eyes, offers a faint smile of her own.

If Ryan answers her question neither of them will be smiling. The idea to attend law school started five years ago with the criminal defense lawyer Ryan’s dad hired when the questions from the police became more pointed: Had you and Alison been fighting? Were you breaking up? Why didn’t you call the police immediately? How could you not see anything?

They were fair inquiries. There were no clues, no leads, no trace of Ali or her father’s BMW.

Over time, the investigators grew impatient, outwardly suspicious. You’re a big guy, why didn’t you put up a fight? How could someone just take her?

But it was their last question—What did you do to her, Ryan?—that alarmed Ryan’s dad enough that they hired Marty Salinger. Marty came into the interrogation room, told the police Ryan was done talking, and to arrest him or let him go.

They let him go.

But he wasn’t free. Not from the suspicions. Not from his own guilt over failing to protect her. Not from his inability to deliver the authorities one viable clue.

Ryan even went to a hypnotist. In the session, he’d recovered a nanosecond of a memory. A face. A plain face, one that the sketch artist threw up his hands over. And there was the vision of two hands—each one missing the pinky finger—dragging Ryan out of the car. The therapist termed it more of a nightmare, a guilt-fueled image of a monster, than a memory.

Ryan is spared Nora’s further interrogation when Eddie plops down on the stool next to them. Ryan agreed to come out tonight only because the others in their group are tiring of Eddie. They’re the elite few in their 1L class who made it on to The Georgetown Law Journal, a student-run publication for the best and brightest that no one reads. An alumnus donor funds the summer trip every year as a bonding experience for the new editorial staff members with the highest grades. Ryan initially declined the invitation, he found it all a bit too privileged, but was pressured to come by his roommate. Eddie begged him. Said the others wouldn’t hang out with him unless Ryan came along.

“I hate Italy,” Eddie says, glancing at the women who had shot him down. He’s been grousing this way the entire trip, an example of why people find Eddie annoying, if not problematic.

Nora appraises Ryan and Eddie like she’s unclear why the two are friends. Ryan isn’t quite sure himself. Other than the fact his roommate needs a friend. Ryan’s been there.

They make the perilous walk back to the B and B along the roadside path. The area has no streetlamps, and cars and scooters drive unreasonably fast on the narrow motorway carved into the rolling hills.

“Is one Mexican restaurant in all of Tuscany too much to ask?” Eddie says as they walk, their shoes crunching in the gravel. “I just want a taco, is that so wrong?”

Nora gives Ryan a sidelong glance but doesn’t say anything.

“And what’s with the no ice in drinks, no air conditioning? It’s so hot.”

Ryan and Nora walk far enough ahead so that they can no longer hear what Eddie’s saying. They climb the steep hill that leads into the medieval town.

Like the bar, most of the restaurants and shops are closed at this hour, but there are kids playing in the piazza. A young boy kicks a soccer ball to Ryan, who stops it with his foot, then kicks it back. Nora laughs when the kid points at Ryan and says, “Gigante! Gigante!”

Ryan holds up his hands and growls, walking at them like Frankenstein. All the kids run away shrieking with delight.

“The giant,” Nora says. “It fits.”

Ryan offers a fleeting smile. He’s used to nicknames. In high school they called him Dodge. Later, in his first game at Kansas State, the opposing team shouted a less friendly name from the bleachers:

Kil-ler… Kil-ler… Kil-ler…

The harassment was unrelenting. And not just from rival teams. From podcasts. From true crime shows. From internet trolls. So Ryan stopped playing basketball, changed his name from Ryan Richardson to Ryan Smith, and transferred to a new college. He thought the public flogging would end last year when authorities announced that they’d found DNA evidence linking Alison’s abduction to the Missouri River Killer. MRK admitted to slaughtering eight women he’d abducted in towns along the river but denied taking Ali. Then his fellow inmates shanked him thirty-seven times, closing the case, and leaving that fucking cloud of suspicion over Ryan.

Ryan’s phone glows with an incoming call. He scans the notification. It’s from his father, seven hours behind back in Kansas and probably just checking in. Ryan lets the call go to voicemail. He’ll call him back.

At the B and B, a converted Tuscan farmhouse on a working vineyard, Ryan says good night to Nora. She holds his gaze a long moment, evaluating him.

“You’re not fooling anyone,” she says at last.

Ryan feels an instinctive wave of panic. His breath is caught in the back of his throat, waiting, praying her next words aren’t about his real name, about his missing high-school girlfriend.

“I know why you want to be a lawyer,” Nora says, eyeing Eddie, who pushes through the door into the common area. There’s another long pause. “So you can help people.” She walks down the hallway to her room, calling, “Good night,” over her shoulder.

Right behind Eddie a small group bounces inside led by Aiden and Jake, two other classmates on the trip. On brand, they’re too loud, too drunk. And they have four college-age women with them.

“Ryan! Bro!” Aiden says. He grabs Ryan’s hand, does the aggressive pull-into-a-shoulder-hug thing.

Aiden gestures to the young women, who likewise have had a few too many. “I want you to meet…” He pauses, like he’s realizing he doesn’t remember their names. “Meet our new friends. They’re from California.”

“We’re hitting the pool,” Jake adds. “You should join us.”

The girls agree.

“Eddie, you too, bro!”

Ryan nods. “We’ll meet you over there,” he says with no intention of going swimming. Nothing’s worse than being with a group of drunk people when you’re sober. But it’s easier to agree than to deal with Aiden and Jake. The duo are Kappa Something-or-Other alums who became fast friends the first day of law school. It’s shocking they’re both so damn smart.

The group stumbles off. One of the young women drags her hand along Ryan’s arm as she walks past. “You should come…”

Eddie shakes his head. “To be you for just one day.”

Ryan frowns.

“Where’s Nora?” Eddie asks.

“She went to bed.”

“And why aren’t you there with her?”

Ryan frowns again.

“I don’t get you, man,” Eddie says, watching out the window at the silhouettes stripping off their clothes as they run through the grass to the infinity pool. “The girls fall all over you, hell, the boys do too. I’d kill for just one day in the life.”

“Maybe you’d have better luck if you let people get to know you. Just be yourself,” Ryan replies.

“Dude, I am being myself.”

Ryan smiles. “Maybe you should be a little less yourself.”

Eddie nods like it’s good advice.

“You should go swimming,” Ryan says, looking out at the group now splashing around in the blue glow of the pool lights.

Eddie thinks about it. “Nah, I’m not getting in the water with the Chlamydia Brothers.” Eddie’s charming nickname for Aiden and Jake. “Not enough chlorine in the world for that.”

“Good night, Eddie,” Ryan says. He starts toward his room.

Eddie calls out to him, “I really gotta see this girl someday.”

Ryan turns, curious. “What girl?”

“The one you’re so hung up on.”

Inside his room, Ryan pulls off his shirt. It’s oppressively hot. Eddie’s not wrong about the air conditioning. He sees that his dad left a voicemail. The guy still can’t send a text like a normal person.

Ryan’s about to play the message when he spots something on the floor, an envelope, like someone had slipped it under the door. He opens it and his heart trips:

I need to see you. Tomorrow, 10 a.m. at the Palazzo.

I know who you are.