121. Devastation

KIARA

"I love you… Amore…" His voice pierced my heart.

The sadness, regret and guilt in his eyes before they closed.

No… This was not farewell!

Pain ripped through me and never had I felt such a level of hurt. It was worse than seeing Alejandro and Jasmin together at the mating ceremony. My knees almost buckled under the agony, my eyes on Alejandro as he ripped her heart apart.

"Baby no!" I shrieked.

No! I can't lose you! No!

His howl of pure agony ripped through the air, and it was a sound I'd never forget. I rushed towards him, falling to my knees.

"Hold on!" I cried, pressing my hands to his chest.

I poured all my healing into him. My heart was thundering as I tried to listen to his heartbeat. Nothing.

"Goddess no! Please no!" I cried. My eyes were blurring with tears but I didn't stop.

He had to heal! He couldn't die! Why him! No… please no…

"He's… gone…" Someone whispered.

I didn't even notice when everyone had gathered around me or the fact that it was raining lightly.

"He isn't!" I cried out.

He couldn't leave me, I felt the weakening bond, but it was still there… He's still here…

No one spoke, as Mom wrapped her arms around me, letting me do what I needed to…

Please, Selene… Please…

A broken sob left my body as I rested my head on Alejandro's chest.

"Please…" I whispered. "You promised me…"

A faint beat of a heart reached my ears and my heart leapt. He was still here! I didn't stop pouring my healing into him, but the heartbeat remained faint. Why wasn't this working?

"Alejandro! Baby come on…"

"Kiara… You've healed what you can." Dad's quiet voice came.

"No! It's not strong enough yet…"

I kept going. My entire body was screaming for a break but I couldn't. My vision blurred, but I couldn't stop. What if he slipped away? The thought terrified me. I couldn't live without him. He couldn't just step into my life and then leave!

"Kiara! Think of the pup!" Mom pleaded, cupping my face and forcing me to look at her.

My heart pounded as the truth hit me. I couldn't help Alejandro… Why?! Wasn't this my gift?! Why can't I heal the one I loved?! What kind of joke was this? I pulled away, refusing to stop, not relenting until I felt the strain wrapping around my stomach.

I stilled, I had used up everything I had… but I couldn't risk the pup. If it wasn't for my pup, I'd have drained my entire life source for Alejandro. My tears spilt down my cheeks as I kept my hands on Alejandro's chest. His heartbeat was so faint…

"You've healed him. The rest is up to him. Endora tried to take him with her, but she didn't succeed. Have faith, Kiara." Rafael's hoarse voice came.

I looked up at him, seeing the pain in his eyes.

"He'll be ok, Kiara… We all know how stubborn Alejandro is." Dad said softly.

I didn't reply, looking at the man before me, his body covered in dirt, blood and sweat. His handsome face looked as if he was simply asleep. I cupped his jaw, leaning over and placed a deep kiss on his lips.

Wake up, my king… Please wake up…

Nothing. I could barely feel him breathing. What was wrong? Why wasn't his heartbeat steadying? My mind was going through a vicious cycle of questions that had no answers.

"Kia…" Mom said softly.

"Let's take him inside." Rafael said, gently.

I didn't want to move away. Mom pulled me back and Rafael lifted his brother. I could barely stand, my energy was completely depleted. I reached out to Alejandro, don't leave me… please… My vision spun and I felt myself fall forward before darkness welcomed me…

-----

TWO DAYS LATER…

The devastating aftermath of a battle was never one of happiness… We had won, yet I felt nothing but remorse for our losses.

We had lost so many… Uncle Aaron, Grandma Amy, Grandad, Aunty Indy, Daniel and his mate... Valentin… Someone I had struggled to save, in the end, he still lost his life. So many had lost their mates, parents, siblings. It hurt more than I could ever put into words.

Everyone was affected, one way or another.

Two days had gone by, yet my king never awoke. His heartbeat was fainter than an unborn pups… I was unravelling.

Looking back, I felt like he knew there was a chance of this happening. I had seen how he had shielded me from her right until the end, but he was not protecting himself… At that last moment when he had her heart in his hand… The silent apology in his eyes, the pain and the guilt.

The man who said he was a monster, sacrificed everything for our kind.

Why did you leave me?

The worst thing was, I couldn't even let myself break. An entire pack was looking at me for guidance. For answers to why their king did not make it? To know that it's going to be ok.

I looked towards the shining moon. Was this fair? I felt as if I had failed everyone… I had failed my mate. Every day I tried to heal him, but nothing. Callum had come as well, but there was nothing. It was not magic. We both had determined that… But there seemed to be nothing we could do.

Whatever Endora had done in her last moments by linking their hearts had all but destroyed Alejandro. Although I had been able to stop it from completely killing him, it only put him in a deadlock. It was as if I had simply frozen him on the brink of death. The bond was so weak I could barely feel it, and in its place was a terrifying emptiness that was pulling me into its depths.

"Kiara, It's time for the farewell." Liam's voice broke me from my thoughts, and I turned towards him.

His eyes were filled with sadness, I nodded.

We had burned our dead and tried to list everyone who was gone, but not everyone was intact. It had been hard to tell their families that there wasn't even a body for them to look upon. Many Alphas had taken their dead and moved on, but The Black Storm, The Blood Moon and The Night Walker Pack remained. We were combining our farewells, those who had lost mates and family had all joined us here.

Liam took my hand and led me from the room. I saw Grandma Jessica standing there and it hurt to see that she was losing it. The loss of her mate and daughter had hit her so hard. She also didn't understand why Grandma Amy had not saved Aunty, not understanding when Mom told her the baby was holding out thanks to something Grandma Amy had given to both me and Aunty beforehand. This only triggered Grandma Jessica even more, to the point where she was blaming Grandma Amy for not stopping us from joining the battle.

But I understood, whatever Grandma Amy's gift was, it seemed she couldn't really foretell it. She always seemed to know things, but at the same time, she never said much. We would never truly understand the depths of Grandma Amy's past or her heritage. But to me, no matter how many people were disgusted that she had a witch heritage and that she had lived amongst us, I would always remember her as that beacon of light who had always been here for me and for my mom. The one with witty crass remarks and how she loved to tease all the men.

That was another thing that pained me. The hatred our people felt towards witches had increased ten-fold. It hurt considering Janaina had helped us somewhat, Delsanra had given her life to relay the truth and Grandma Amy, maybe not a full witch, but she had some lineage. No one saw that, in fact… the disapproval that mom agreed to carry a child transferred by magic had hit the wrong way. It seems no matter what we accomplish, something else takes its place. The negativity and stigma that Mom was facing shocked me. Although she took it all and put people in their place, it did not stop people from talking.

"We should go." Mom said to Grandma, who clung to her.

Dad was quiet too... He had lost so many people he loved, including his best friend. Damon had stepped in as Beta already, although he wasn't showing his emotions at all. I tried a little, but there was nothing I could do when I myself was crumbling from within.

"You're going to have to speak for the Night Walkers Pack." Dad said to me.

I nodded, as he pulled me into his arms and kissed my forehead.

"You got this; he's going to wake up." He said firmly, looking down at me.

I nodded but said nothing, I had barely spoken unless I needed to give orders. Alejandro… I looked at the glittering ring on my finger and my heart clenched.

I need you, my king.

-

Ten minutes later, we were gathered in the open grounds, not far from where Endora had tried to resurrect the dead witch.

My mind flitted back to that night. I had felt the darkness she was resurrecting and I had channelled my own power into destroying the remnants of the magic that remained within the earth. I wondered if I hadn't focused on that, would Alejandro be here now? I had deviated from the plan… But something had told me I needed to stop her from completing that ritual no matter what… and I had succeeded. I knew she had already made the link with the darkness, even if we killed her, I had a feeling it wouldn't have been the end of her…

I was sure if Endora had gotten the third death, or even me, she would have accomplished her plan. It had been close but we had won.

But we had paid a price…

"We've all lost someone close to us; parents, siblings, mates, children, friends, neighbours… someone. I understand your loss because I have lost many too. Each one of my wolves and those of our allies were like brothers and sisters. We faced an enemy who had been planning for years, we won but at a great cost, one we are all feeling. And our King… was the one to deal the finishing blow, but at a price. He is currently in a coma."

A murmur rippled through the crowds, and while everyone knew something had happened, no one knew what it was. Until now.

"Luna! Can't you heal him?!" Someone asked.

One of Alejandro's warriors growled, but I raised my hand.

"I tried." I said quietly. "But Endora did something before she died. I have faith that Alejandro will wake up soon. Until then, let"s pay our respects to those who have lost their lives. Let's work on supporting those who need it, to show your emotions aren't weakness, to feel isn't wrong. Be there for one another and let others in. I'm hurting too, for every loss that has happened, for my mate, your king Alejandro… my grandfather Jackson, my great aunt Amelia, my aunt Indigo, Uncle Aaron… and everyone else who lost their lives... It's ok to let the world know how you feel. They say time heals all wounds, but I think it doesn't. We just learn to live and accept what's happened. To come to terms with it, it won't be easy, but we will get there…"

I couldn't carry on. The suffocating pain that threatened to consume me overtook me once more, and I felt Raven's arms wrap around me. She had wanted to fight, but her father had refused, and Dad had also said no one without a wolf was to even try. She had been so pro-active since everything had happened, helping Mom around the pack, telling Mom to take breaks. Without Mom and Aunty Monica at their best, Raven had stepped up and taken on the role that the Luna or Beta female would usually do.

Rafael said a few words and I simply listened quietly. The pain in my chest was growing, but for my pack, I had to hide it no matter how much I told them that I was ok. Everyone was suffering, and as queen, I couldn't afford to fall weak. I would not ruin my king's reputation, not when he had done everything for the werewolf kind…

Everyone fell silent as we remembered those we had lost, joined as one as we howled into the night sky. The pain and loss of our loved ones will never be forgotten…

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"Come on guys, cheer up." Raven whispered. The four of us were sitting near the river. They were drinking beer and I clutched a mug of hot chocolate. It was long into the night, and everyone had retreated indoors after those who had gone for a run in remembrance of those we had lost had returned.

But the four of us had come out here, and although it was rainy and cold, it didn't matter. Nothing was worse than the pain we felt inside.

"How the hell do you expect that to happen?" Damon asked quietly.

"How is Aunty?" I asked softly.

"She's losing it, I don't think she's going to make it if she continues like this." He sighed,

"Don't say that! Aunt Mo is strong. She'll…" Raven broke off and looked down.

We had all seen her try to take her life earlier today. After that, Mom refused to leave her alone. Grandma was deteriorating too.

"We can't imagine what losing a mate feels like. We can't just expect them to be ok." Liam said softly, pulling me into his arms.

Silent tears trickled down my cheeks. I hadn't wanted to come out here, I wanted to go to Alejandro… I still did… but Liam and Raven had been adamant.

"No matter what, we're always here for one another, right?" Raven said softly.

"Guess so." Liam said.

"The four of us have always and will always be friends, no matter what." Damon said, raising his beer can.

"Always." I whispered, raising my mug as we clinked our drinks.

Alejandro… Please wake up.

We sat there, trying to make small talk, or just falling into silence and comforting one another, huddled together for warmth. I stayed for an hour but the pain within me to go to him could no longer be satiated.

I excused myself and headed to the pack hospital.

I was halfway there, using my powers to illuminate the path. The leaves in the trees rustled and I felt a shiver rush down my spine. I wasn't alone. I spun around, scanning the area.

"I've come for my reward." A quiet voice said from behind me.

My heart thumped as I turned only to see Janaina standing in the shadows. I looked at her, feeling anger at the same time. If she had so easily gotten here now, why hadn't she helped us?

"You could have helped us." I said quietly.

How had she gotten past patrol? Witches were indeed dangerous if they wanted to be. I understood people"s fears, but I still hoped that one day there would be peace between our kind.

"I've told you before, I dislike your kind." She said, holding her hand out.

So she had come for her necklace, I reached into my pocket and took it out.

"He removed it from her neck before she died… He fulfilled his promise." I said softly.

"So, He didn't make it." She said, motioning for me to throw it.

I did, and she caught it. At one point I would have wanted to know what was so important about that pendant? But I no longer cared.

"Can you not help?" I asked, trying not to pay attention to how unbothered she sounded. Despite the fact it stung.

"There's nothing I can do, nor am I willing to. This is the last time we shall meet, daughter of Selene."

I said nothing as she turned and vanished into the woods.

I looked at the passing buildings. Some still had lights on, whilst others were completely dark. Would anyone remember those that had lost their lives? Would they remember a few months or years down the line?

Was anyone worried about their king, who was known as ruthless and cold-hearted? Would anyone remember his sacrifice? In the end, no one cared.

I didn"t care if I sounded bitter. It hurt.

I continued on my way, my heart shattering a little more. With each step, it felt harder to breathe. I broke into a run, rushing through the hospital halls until I pulled open his door. Rayhan jumped, he had seemingly been dosing off in the armchair.

"Sorry." I whispered.

He shook his head, giving me a small sad smirk.

"Not at all… no changes." He said, answering the question he knew I'd ask.

For the last two days, Rafael and I have taken turns being here. Rayhan had come only last night and was returning home tomorrow.

"He'll get better." He said quietly.

I looked at him in the dim light, barely able to make out his eyes.

"I hope so." I whispered.

"I know the timing might not be the best, but congrats on the baby." He said, flashing me a wink.

"Thank you…" I said as I walked over to Alejandro, caressing his cheek. The soft tingle was so faint that my heart ached, his skin was so cold…

"I've been without cousins for ages and now suddenly I'm getting two, Marcel's kid and this one."

"I guess so."

A moment of awkward silence fell between us.

"I'll leave you to it…" He said, picking up his jacket and heading to the door.

"Rayhan."

"Yeah?" He stopped at the door.

"Delsanra. How did she die?" I whispered.

Talking about witches has become so taboo lately that I didn't dare ask anyone else this.

He sighed deeply.

"She jumped. She was under some spell. With every word she spoke, it was destroying her. She wouldn't have survived either way, and the look in her eyes. I can't get it out of my head…"

I turned and looked at him. Clearly, he didn't seem to hate the topic as much as most around here.

"Did you try to stop her?"

"I did, I told her you could help. I told her that I knew someone but she said she has no one and that it wasn't worth living." He looked down, I sensed the guilt and regret in him.

"It's not your fault."

"I try to tell myself that…" He muttered. "Take care, Kia, he's going to be ok. If anyone can make it out of that state, it"s Uncle."

I nodded, turning away as silent tears trickled down my cheek. Only taking a deep breath when the door shut behind him. I looked down at my mate, my lips quivering.

"Wake up, my love." I whispered, bending down to kiss him deeply.

My warm lips met his cool ones, a soft tingle rushed through me. Letting my healing pour into him, but once again there was no change. I moved back, brushing my fingers through his hair as I slowly slid into the bed next to him.

"We're waiting for you to wake up. Me and our little pup." I whispered, sliding my arm under his head.

I lay there gazing at his face. The moon shone on him from outside, illuminating his handsome face. He looked like a work of art as he simply lay there.

I wouldn't give up, not now, not ever. He would wake up. He had to wake up.

I needed him.

***

122. Conflict amp; Hope

OVER FOUR MONTHS LATER…

KIARA

"Luna! Come on, we need to go for a walk!" Kevin said, without even knocking on my office door.

I looked at him, my lips refusing to turn up into a smile to return his big one.

"I need to complete some paperwork, Kevin." I replied, as I stood up and shuffled some papers.

My stomach was huge, and I was due soon. I placed a hand on my stomach as I bent over to gather some files together. We were having a baby boy and doctor Callum was stunned at his growth already. My baby and the fact that my love was still teetering on the brink of death four months onwards was all that kept me going.

"Nope, doctors' orders, a walk and fresh air every day. Come on, let"s talk about the latest Fenty Beauty release!" He stated, coming over and taking my hand.

I looked at him. He and Carmen were always around me. Serena, Darien and Tia would often accompany me too.

I had returned to this pack four days after the battle with Endora. Alejandro was kept at home, hooked up to the necessary drips and was checked on throughout the day. Even when I was working, someone was always checking up on him. Otherwise, I didn't know how I would even leave him.

I had stepped into Alejandro"s shoes with the help of Darien. Being an Alphas daughter I knew enough, with the guidance and help from Alejandro"s men, I was managing.

However, with each passing day, I lost a bit more of who I was.

"I don't think I need any more make up, Kevin." I murmured, ignoring the pain in my back.

The baby moved a lot and had a habit of digging into my spine. It was clear he was going to be a strong one, just like his Papa.

"Why not? With such a beautiful face to play with." He said, linking arms with me.

Because who should I look good for?

There was a time I dressed up for myself, but the moment I fell in love, my life was no longer my own. That was my truth. I lived for Alejandro… I wanted to look pretty for him… I looked down at the t-shirt I wore with leggings.

None of my clothes fitted anymore, and although Serena and Kevin had begged to take me shopping or to at least let them order some cute maternity clothes, I refused. I didn't want anything. I wore my mate's shirts, it was all I wanted. Him…

I missed his smirk, his dark, piercing eyes, the way he looked at me... The way he held me… Made love to me… Fucked me... Talked to me…

I looked at my ring. The gorgeous diamond sparkled. A symbol of the promise he had made to marry me.

"Luna…"

I looked up and saw the sad look in Kevin's eyes.

"Yes?" I asked.

"About the make-up, I'd say we should get some for when Alpha wakes up." He said softly.

I didn't say anything, but no matter how I acted, my pack knew I missed their king. Despite how hard I tried to hide it.

Everyone tried to help me, Raihana or Raven came down to stay often, but it was still so hard.

Things hadn't been easy for anyone; Aunty Monica had closed up and according to Damon, broke down often. But she was still doing better than Grandma, whose health was deteriorating. The last time I saw her, she looked as if she had aged ten years in the last few months. She was now living at Moms, but it wasn't easy.

Dad was holding strong, and as for Mom herself, she was doing her best despite being pregnant. She was actually due any day, and we were ready to welcome our little bundle of joys into our family. Mom hadn't found out the gender, as Aunty Indy had said when she got pregnant she was going to keep it a surprise.

"Can I make my rounds at the hospital?" I asked Kevin.

He sighed.

"Aren't we going for a walk?"

"I'm their Luna, I think I should visit to see if I can- ouch!.. Help." I finished with a wince, as my baby kicked me hard.

"Oh, he is a tough one! Your entire stomach moved!"

"At this rate, I feel I'll be early! He's already trying to get out!" I exclaimed.

"Come sit down for a moment." He helped me over to the closest log that was used as a bench by the kids of the pack.

I was due soon anyway; a werewolf pregnancy was shorter after all. I sat down stroking my stomach, wincing until he calmed down a little.

"What will you do for the upcoming Blood Moon Ceremony? I know Alpha Elijah wants you to come down, since his pack is hosting the event this time. Have you decided?"

I looked at the sun that shone above us. It was the beginning of April and spring had arrived. What do I do? Mom was due as well... It was ideal to go, but I couldn't bring myself to leave Alejandro.

"I don't want to-"

"What do you mean you don't want to?! You need to go!" Serena's voice came from behind me.

I looked at her and sighed.

"I can't leave." I said, my heart clenching with pain.

"Nonsense, if there is any change we will call you back. You need this, Kia." Serena said gently, sitting down next to me and taking my hand. "He wouldn't have wanted this."

No, he wouldn't have. But how can I live without him? I brushed away the tears that escaped my eyes. I refuse to cry.

"Ok, I will go for two nights." I whispered.

Just the thought of leaving him for two nights squeezed at my chest. Please, Goddess, help me. Heal my Alejandro. I swear I'll never ask for anything else.

-----

The Blood Moon Ceremony arrived, but this time the roles had reversed, and I was getting Raven ready.

She was pale, as she sat before me, allowing me to get her ready.

"I'm not going." She said, suddenly pushing away my hand gently as she stood up and backed away from me.

I looked at her, concerned.

"Raven…"

"No, Kia… I… I don't know, I'm terrified." She whispered.

"Because of your feelings?" I said quietly.

Although we didn't talk too much about it, I knew her conflict between Liam and Damon. I did not know what to hope or wish for. I just prayed whoever her mate was or both, that they'd accept it.

But I had also seen Liam look hurt at her and Damon's interaction. Raven had been there for Damon after he lost his father, something that clearly affected Liam even more. I had felt his turmoil. He tried several times to talk to me but it had only been last night when he asked me if he thought he had the chance of being mated to Raven.

Raven had shifted on her birthday. Her wolf was stunning yet unique, a mix of grey and black. But the thing that stood out was that her wolf form had two different colour eyes just like Raven herself.

"I don't know what tonight will bring. I mean, maybe neither could be my mate." She murmured.

This mating ceremony was hosted by Dad's pack, and although it was smaller than the mating ceremony that The Night Walker Pack held, it was still pretty big.

"You won't know until you get down there." I said gently.

She sighed and sat down again. She looked stunning in a long slinky sequined black strapless dress, with a thigh-high slit. It was backless, with just two straps holding it in place, with cut out sides showing off her slender waist. She had it paired with black heels and sultry make-up with a deep maroon lipstick. Silver shimmer covered her body, her neck was bare, and she wore large dangly earrings in her ears.

I was dressed in an off-shoulder fitted red dress with long fitted sleeves. The skirt had an open sheer layer that trailed behind me. I didn't want to dress up, but I was attending as I was here and as the Queen, I had to appear in control. Alpha Allen had thought it would be good for people to see me, carrying the future King as well.

I just wished… I tried not to think of Alejandro, knowing I'd start crying. I smiled at Raven, forcing her to sit down so I could finish off her eyeliner.

"Selene will give you the best." I said softly.

She nodded and placed her hand on mine.

"Thank you, Kia, for coming. I didn't want to ask you… but I'm glad you came."

I'm glad I did. She had always been there for me and it was only fair that I am there for her.

"Any time." I said, as she leaned over and caressed my stomach.

"I'm glad I got to see my nephew too. He's going to be a big boy like his Daddy." She said, smiling proudly.

I smiled as I added a little more highlighter to her cheekbones. Finishing off with some makeup setting spray, I gave a small nod. She was ready.

-----

RAVEN

I walked hand in hand with Kiara. My nerves were kicking in big time. The party was being held out in the open, lit up brightly with dazzling lights. The weather was gorgeous, not cold yet not hot either.

My eyes were looking for two familiar faces. Would one of them be my mate? I couldn't see them in the sea of young men and women all dressed up for this night.

I moved my body to the music despite how nervous I was feeling, when Kiara tapped me.

"Want to get a drink?" She asked.

I nodded,

"I think I need it." I said, and we both walked towards the drink bar.

When we stopped, both of us were distracted by the chocolate fountain that was set up not far from the drinks. A lavish array of dipping's spread out in front of it.

"Chocolate." We both said in unison.

I laughed as we hurried over to the fountain instead, forgetting about the drinks. We both helped ourselves to a stick and began selecting some items. I added marshmallows, strawberries and brownie pieces to my stick.

"I have gained weight." Kiara said, a gentle smile on her face as she dipped her stick under the chocolate before placing it on her plate and taking a bite.

She hadn't, well, not much apart from on her stomach. I knew she was trying to eat for the baby, but I also knew she was reminded and forced to eat most of the time. I rarely saw her smile, and when she did, it held so much sadness that I wished I could take it all from her. I would give up anything for her to be happy.

I put my plate down and cupped her face, brushing away her tears that escaped.

"You don't want to ruin your make-up." I said softly.

Although she had only worn a touch of mascara and gloss. She nodded and I smiled.

"Besides, I need pictures! Lots and lots." I said, turning back to my stick and dipping it under the chocolate.

"Ok." Kiara said as I licked my lips.

Oh, now this looks so good... Food porn at its finest… I admired my plate before taking a huge bite, taking the marshmallow and a strawberry into my mouth at once. Oops… way too much. I could barely chew and Kiara giggled slightly.

"You look a sight."

I simply nodded my agreement. Imagine my mate seeing me looking like this, chocolate dripping from my lips, I needed a tissue. I put my plate down, about to pick some up when the most delicious mix of scents hit me and I froze. My chest pounded as I inhaled deeply.

Roasted walnuts, fresh rain, spiced cinnamon and honey… Scents that drowned me… Scents that were faintly familiar…

"Oh hey, boys." Kiara said with a smile.

I turned slowly, my mouth still full of chocolate, as I stared at the duo before me. My heart was thumping wildly,

Liam looked mesmerising in a grey suit, and Damon looked as handsome in black. Both oozed sexiness and if I thought they were handsome before, Goddess, they were complete sex invites now!

Both of their eyes were glowing, fixed on me with a possessive look that made my core knot and my wolf howl in happiness.

"Mate." They both said in unison.

Kiara gasped, one hand clamping over her mouth.

I swallowed, forcing myself to eat the mouthful of chocolate, feeling dizzy and barely noticing when Kiara patted my mouth clean for me.

‘Mates. My mates… I have two mates…Goddess...'

The boys gazes snapped to each other. I couldn't speak as I gouged their reaction. Damon looked stunned, and Liam… Liam's reaction pulled at my chest. Accusatory, hurt and disappointment.

He stepped back, running a hand through his strawberry-coloured locks, which had been styled in a quiff moments earlier.

"I… how can she be both of our mate?" He said in his sexy husky voice, making my core throb.

"It happens." Damon's deeper, seductive voice came.

"It does, and there's a reason the Moon Goddess makes pairs…" Kiara said softly.

My heart was pounding as I looked at her. She looked scared, as she looked at Liam. Why? No… he would not reject me, would he?

Liam looked between Damon and me.

"Liam…" I said softly.

He shook his head, stepping back.

"I can't do this."

His words cut me like a knife and I felt the pain of his rejection destroy me. He turned and walked off. Not even giving me a chance to say anything.

"Liam!" Damon called after him. He looked at me, his blue eyes softening before he ran after his friend.

I was about to fall to my knees when Kiara caught me.

"No babe, don't let it get to you. It's not a rejection. He just needs time." She whispered, fighting her own tears.

I didn't speak, not wanting to burden her more, simply nodding as I wrapped my arms around her waist tightly.

Don't cry. You will not cry. I swear Raven, if you cry, you are going to run fifty laps around the pack grounds without a break! I threatened myself.

But no matter what I said or thought, the pain of Liam's rejection stung worse than being doused in wolfsbane.

I realised at that moment, I wouldn't be happy with one… I needed them both… They were both a part of me…

-----

LIAM

No, this could not be happening. I had waited for my mate, and this was the game that fate played with me?

Why? And of all people, why was I pitched against my best friend? I pulled off my jacket, getting ready to shift when Damon called my name again.

"Can you stop causing a scene?" I growled.

"Come on man, don't do this." Damon said with a tilt of his head.

Never had I ever felt angry towards the man that stood before me, not even when I found out he was sleeping with Kiara. I clenched my jaw, feeling my anger growing.

"Unlike you, who can shift your attention from one woman to another. I can't." I said quietly.

Yes, it was a low blow, but right now I did not want to see his face.

"Liam, let"s cool down and think this-"

"What's to think?! I swear if we told her to pick, she wouldn't be able to! Shall I tell you why? Because the moment Kiara was gone you decided to shift your damn attention to the one woman I loved! And you knew I did!" I shouted, my frustration overtaking me.

"Liam… I swear I've not made a move on her… I wouldn't have, unless…"

"Unless she turned out to be your mate? Right?" I said, shaking my head.

I swear…

"Calm down, you're letting your-"

"Don't tell me to calm the hell down!" I shouted, my Alpha aura rolling off me.

No longer caring if anyone heard or not.

"Just back the hell off!"

"Hey man! I'm trying here. How the hell do you think I feel knowing I have to share my mate?!" Damon snapped.

"Share? Seriously, are you for real? I am not sharing my mate, it's all or nothing." I spat.

Her fresh floral scent, with that intoxicating hint, filled my nose as I heard her gasp. Damn, she had heard…

I looked at her; her gorgeous, unique eyes glittering with hurt and tears. She looked beyond beautiful tonight in that figure-hugging dress... But how are you supposed to share your other half?

"Do whatever you want... But if you think I'm going to be any part of this… you're sorely mistaken." I said quietly.

Not waiting for an answer, I turned, shifting and racing off. My heart pounding, feeling my wolf"s agony in my head. It hurt so freaking much. Fucking hell, why did this have to happen? Did the Moon Goddess really hate us Westwood's that much, that she did not want any of us to be happy? Because it sure as hell seemed like it.

‘Liam!'

I frowned when Dad's voice came into my head. Did they seriously snitch to Dad?

‘What?'

‘Your Mom is in labour.'

Well damn... Could the timing get any worse?

***

123. Azura

KIARA

This was not supposed to happen. I held Raven tightly as she trembled, struggling to hold her tears back.

"Damon…" I said softly.

He looked at me. I had never seen him look more torn. Confusion, want and guilt all surrounded him. I knew he wanted to comfort Raven, yet at the same time, he felt guilty towards Liam. I had never seen them ever argue like this. They were like brothers in every way. Seeing Liam this angry towards Damon completely shook me up.

"I don't know what to do…" He whispered.

He moved forward, reaching for Raven.

"Liam…" She whispered, her head buried in my shoulder.

I saw the hurt flash in Damon's eyes as he backed away.

She didn't mean it like that... But before I could even speak, Damon had run off. I closed my eyes, feeling confused.

"Luna Kiara." I turned to see one of Dad's warriors approaching me.

"What is it?" I asked.

"Alpha Scarlett is in labour."

My eyes flew open, my heart pounding. I needed to get to Mum instantly! I looked at Raven, who wiped her tears and pulled away.

"You should go…"

"Raven, what about-"

"I'm ok. Do you think I'm going to cry over some men? I just had something in my eye…" She tried lamely to make an excuse.

"I'll come to check on you later… He didn't reject you. Things will be ok." I said firmly.

I believe they would too… Why couldn't they see how lucky they were to have a mate who was by their side? Life is too short to let the moments pass you by.

She nodded, giving me a smile. I turned and ran towards the hospital.

"Careful Luna!" The warrior said.

I didn't reply, in too much of a hurry to get to Mom. We weren't sure how things would go, considering how the baby had been transferred. The pregnancy had also been very draining on Mom despite her quick healing.

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Two hours later, Liam and I were both pacing the hall. He had returned, but I could feel his emotions rolling off of him. I had been by Mom's side until my own little one was getting agitated and Dad told me to go take a break. But I was not able to as I paced the otherwise empty halls.

"Liam…"

"Don't Kiara…" He said, his voice strained.

"Liam… Don't hurt her-"

"Look, I've not asked for anything in life… but the one thing I prayed for… I…" He sat down, resting his head in his hands.

"Do you know how lucky you are that your mate is here, alive and able to hold you in her arms?" I whispered.

My heart was aching as I thought of my beloved. We spoke quietly, making sure no one could hear us.

"You don't get it? Tell me, Kia, could you share Alejandro?" He asked, looking me dead in the eyes.

My stomach twisted at the very thought of someone else touching my mate.

"Can you imagine Alejandro loving another woman as much as he loves you?"

The thought tugged at my heart and I realised I was in no position to speak, when I myself couldn't even bear to be in Liam's position.

"Exactly my point…" He whispered.

I sat next to him, placing my head on his shoulder.

I wished I could help him, help Raven, help Damon... But this was something they would have to figure out on their own.

"Just… don't run from it all. The three of you need to figure this out… I know that in the rare cases of being blessed with more than one mate, it is usually brothers who are given two mates... But for Selene to bless you and Damon with the same means that she too sees you both as brothers. I believe you can make this work."

He didn't respond. We simply sat there, side by side, until the sound of a baby crying reached our ears. We both stood up, my heart hammering as we rushed to the door.

"Can we come in?" Liam asked.

"Yeah." Dad replied.

We entered to see Dad wiping Mom's sweaty hair off her face as he kissed her forehead tenderly. The nurse passed Mom the baby, allowing her to slip her under the sheet to rest her against her chest. Before leaving us for a moment.

"It's a girl." Mom said tiredly, but despite that, she was smiling. Her eyes were shining with unshed tears.

I smiled softly, going over to look at her. Her mop of black hair reminded me of Auntie's. I looked down at her, my heart warmed as she looked at me with her large doe eyes and those gorgeous long lashes as she yawned.

"She's absolutely gorgeous." I whispered, stroking her cheek.

"Any names?" Liam asked quietly.

He was hiding his emotions perfectly.

"Azura Rayne." Mom said softly, kissing the baby's head tenderly.

"It's pretty and perfect." I said, taking a seat on the edge of the bed.

We fell silent as we all remembered Aunty Indigo. After so many years, she had been blessed with a child, but she didn't live long enough to see her… I just hoped that she was looking down at us and was proud of her little angel.

"She's tiny." Liam whispered, taking her tiny hand in his. She curled her fingers around his finger and I smiled.

We would take care of her no matter what.

"How are you feeling, Mom?" I asked as Dad sat next to Mom and wrapped his arms around her.

"Tired but good. It seemed harder this time around." She said, with a small chuckle.

"Yeah, I did not like seeing you like that again…" Dad said, frowning slightly.

"For Indy…" Mom said. "I'm going to treat my little girl like a queen and raise her to be one, just like her elder sister."

I smiled and Dad chuckled.

"I really am surrounded by Alpha females."

"Get used to it." Liam said quietly, with a wry smile.

"So no luck with a mate?" Mom asked, looking at him with a hopeful look.

"No. No luck." Liam said smoothly, making a stab of pain go through me, my heart skipping a beat.

Mom looked disappointed, and I had a feeling she had wanted it to be Raven.

"Well… You're a male, it"s common not to find your mate so soon." She said confidently.

"Oh, and what about Damon and Raven?" Dad asked nonchalantly.

"I don't know, we ended up coming here." Liam said with a shrug.

My heart was thudding as he gave me a look, his blue eyes piercing into mine. Mom looked between us.

"You don't know if either found their mate?" She asked, raising a perfect brow.

I shook my head, feeling guilt twisting inside of me. There was a small knock on the door to my relief, and the nurse that had left re-entered.

"Mind if I do a few checks and then you can feed her, Luna?"

Mom nodded and I stood up.

"We'll head out." I said, placing my hand on Moms and letting my healing flow through her.

I saw her relax and knew that despite her fast healing, this birth had taken a lot out of her.

"Thank you, Kia." She said gently.

"Anytime, Mom." I said, before Liam and I left together.

I looked around the hall and pulled Liam aside.

"Why did you lie?" I asked.

"They don't need to know." He said quietly.

"Liam… What are you planning?"

"I'm not-" He stopped talking, pulling me further back. I was about to speak when I realised why he had paused.

"…Luna. It's still weird…"

"Shush! If you're heard!" Another nurse hissed.

"All I'm saying is, we are going to have a child born of magic in this very pack. A freak-"

Liam stepped out, his eyes flashing as the nurse who was carrying Azura froze. My own anger was rolling off me at her words. The other woman quickly took the baby from her as both lowered their heads.

"Sorry Alpha…"

"If anyone talks about my baby sister like that, I swear you will get punished for it. If you don't spread such words, no one will think much of it." Liam said quietly.

"Y-yes Alpha."

"Take her back to Mom now." He commanded.

The woman hurried away and the one who had spoken looked at him in fear.

"Come to Dad's office in the morning, I'm sure he'll have the perfect punishment for insulting our little princess." He snapped.

"Yes Alpha, I'm sorry." She looked terrified.

Liam didn't reply as he walked off, but not so fast that I couldn't keep up. I was still in my gown but I wanted to go to Raven.

"Liam… what-"

"Please Kia, stop it. I'm just going to pretend none of this happened."

"You can't deny the mate bond. Even Alejandro couldn't." I whispered as we stepped out into the cool night.

"He fell in love with you before the mate bond snapped into place, Kia. On top of that, it was a totally different situation!" He said softly, despite the frustration in his voice. "Look, you"re pregnant, you don't need any more stress in your life."

He caressed my cheek, giving me a small smile.

"So, that's your way of saying mind your own business?" I asked, feeling hurt.

"No. All I'm saying is I'm leaving for my Alpha training soon. Alone."

I froze, Alphas who had found their mates were allowed to take them with them… The dorms they lived in regardless of what city they were in, provided for couples too. I understood that his situation was different, but… he could be gone for almost three years, and something told me he wouldn't even come home for the summer holidays…

"You're running away, Liam."

"Then shall I reject her?" He asked so quietly that I just about heard him.

I felt his pain as my own heart ached at those words.

"No…" I said, feeling torn.

"Liam." Damon said.

Liam sighed deeply,

"Don't want to talk to you right now, Damon."

"Alright, take your time man, just don't shut her out."

"Don't tell me what to do. Besides, I was just mentioning this to Kiara, I'm leaving for my Alpha training soon. I want to ask you one favour." Liam said, looking at Damon.

Both were tall. Liam was taller by two inches and he had a slightly bigger build, but both were muscular.

"What is it?" Damon asked.

"Don't mention anything about me being mated to her, I'd appreciate it. If that stays between the four of us I'd prefer it. As for the rest, do whatever." Liam said.

I could sense his agonising pain, despite how calm he was acting.

Damon looked stunned. He frowned.

"Liam, think it over, calmly-"

"Just do as I said." Liam cut in, turning away.

"Fine…"

"Make sure you tell her that too." He said, not directing that at either of us.

It hurt to know he couldn't even say her name any more. He walked off into the darkness and I looked at Damon. Illuminated by the hospital lights, I could see his conflicted expression.

"What are you going to do?" I asked.

Liam's words had disturbed me, I could see the toll this would have on Raven. He sighed.

"Sleep on it. I don't know what to do… Liam is like a brother… I don't think I can just be happy knowing he isn't but then, I can't ignore Raven either. Lately, over the last few months, I've fallen for her." He said quietly.

I smiled gently.

Suddenly, in all of this, I felt that they truly could make it work. Damon was patient, calm and caring. Liam was stubborn, gentle and avoided trouble. Then there was Raven, the spark who would ignite them both. I was positive they would figure this out. No matter how hard it would be to get there.

"So shall I take you home?" Damon asked.

"No, I want to go to Raven." I stated.

"She's at the playground. My Queen." He replied, offering me his arm.

"Oops, I didn't mean to sound so bossy." I apologised sheepishly.

He chuckled lightly.

"Not at all."

I took his arm, letting him lead me in the darkness towards the playground. I smiled sadly. Despite not going to her, he had kept an eye out for her. The playground was somewhere Raven often ran off to after she got in trouble or wanted an escape from home. Growing up, she was a naughty child who was always pranking, and I would be lying if I said she didn't ask for trouble. She was a magnet to mischief and when we were younger, the little demon as most called her, was always in the midst of anything going on, and now it seemed even Selene wanted to give her more trouble.

"Thanks." I said to Damon, hearing the creak of the swing in the darkness ahead.

"No problem." He whispered, letting go of me and retreating. I made my way forward, now using my abilities to light my way.

The swing stopped moving and I saw Raven sitting on one.

"I heard the baby is born, Uncle El announced it. Congrats!" She said smiling.

I looked at her, realising she was always grinning or smiling and it was rare for her to show her true emotions. Deep down, I wondered how often she had pretended to be ok, when she wasn't.

She had always protected me, always taken care of me, and she had always been smiling, just like now.

"Azura Rayne. Stunning name too!" She piped in.

I sat down on the swing next to her. Oh, Goddess, this was so hard! I looked hilarious as I held my belly, my legs parted slightly. I kept my aura around me so I could see her expression.

"It is a beautiful name." I agreed.

"How is he?" She whispered after a moment, her smile faltering.

"Confused." I said, not knowing what else to say and I couldn"t bring myself to lie either.

"And Damon?" She asked. "Even he's avoiding me."

"He isn't, they are best friends. Of course this has thrown them off."

"I get that." She said, looking down as she swung slowly on the swing.

Both of us fell silent, looking up at the moon.

"Did he say anything?" She asked after a moment.

"He said to keep it quiet for now… I mean, they did say ‘mate' at the ball, but I guess everyone was pretty busy in their own business. But yeah, he hasn't told Mom and Dad yet." I replied, hoping she didn't take it the wrong way.

"Mm, that makes sense. Besides Azura's just arrived, I'm sure everyone is going to be going crazy to see our new little Alpha princess."

I reached over, took her hand and let my aura fade away. Giving her the privacy to drop her act if she wanted.

"Things will work out. I know it."

"Thank you." She replied softly as she tangled her fingers with mine.

We sat there silently and it felt like we were kids again for a moment. I hoped one day they would get their happily ever after… and I hoped I got mine too.

I miss you, my love.