Chapter 17

CHAPTER 17

Matt

" M att, why'd you do it? What if Hunter really does kick you out of the fraternity? You wanted it so much."

I snuggle her closer into my side, running my hands through her hair. I thought I did. I thought the fraternity was the key to my future. But then I fell in love with this beautiful girl and realized there's something I want more.

"I realized tonight that I don't want to surround myself with people who make me or my girl feel inadequate. You've been so strong and so brave, baby. And that has given me the courage to want to do this on my own. I don't want to play their game anymore. And if a company doesn't want me on my own merit, then I don't want that job."

She shifts in my arms and rises above me. My heart skips a beat when I see the tears shimmering in her eyes.

"It's you, Matt. You're the one giving me the courage to fight. You're my why now. Why I want to heal. Why I want to overcome my past. I want to be free. But I also want to be worthy of your love."

God, where did this incredible girl come from? She's too much. Every day…and every time she opens her mouth, I fall deeper in love with her. But what she doesn't realize is that I'm the one who wants to be worthy of her. And so far, I haven't been. She doesn't deserve to be kept hidden like a dirty secret. She deserves to be shown off. I should've taken her to that party as my girlfriend. I should've told Hunter to fuck off weeks ago. And I should've stuck up for her that very first night when we were on the double date.

I may not be able to go back in time, but I can spend the future redeeming myself.

"You already are worthy, Sie." I take her cheeks in my palms, brushing over her soft skin. "There's nothing you need to do or change. Nothing you have to prove. All I want is you. Everything about you is perfect. Your flaws make you stunning in my eyes. Your vulnerability is what I crave. And the fact that you can be torn down day after day and remain standing, that makes you a hero in my book. I'm in love with you, Sienna. And I'm sorry I haven't done a good job of showing you that."

"Matt." Her mouth presses to mine and I melt under her touch, savoring her kiss like my life depends on it. "I love you so much." Her sweet words whisper over my lips and are my final undoing.

I shift out from under her, and flip her onto her back, bracing myself over her tiny frame, looking down at my beautiful angel. All of her strength is shining up at me and that's when I know. She's the one. I know it with every shred of my being. And I know what I want.

"I want to make love to you, baby."

Her eyes widen. "But I thought…"

I thought I needed to wait until marriage, but it turns out, my heart was just waiting until I found the person I want to spend my life with. And she is the one.

"All I wanted was to know you're mine, Sie." I wanted to know that I wasn't alone in my feelings. I wanted her to choose me.

"I'm yours, Matt. Just promise that you won't break my heart."

If I had a ring, I'd slide it onto her finger. Prove that that will never happen. It's a crazy notion to think I want to marry this girl, but I can already picture it. Her in a beautiful white satin dress, her radiant smile shining right at me as we say our vows. The family we're going to have on the horizon of our future. The thought makes my heart pound in my chest. This may not be our wedding night, but I'm consummating my love for this girl.

I lean down, imagining the priest telling me I can kiss my bride. I press my mouth to hers, sealing our fate. Her lips are so soft. Her kisses gentle. I tease in slowly, showing her just how precious she is to me. The flames kindle, the momentum of our need kicking up, growing stronger with every stroke of our tongues. Every little moan that sweeps through my mouth drives me into the flames. I pull back, never have I been more ready to give up my virginity.

I slip her pajama shirt off and toss it aside. My eyes devouring her soft breasts, admiring her pink tips, which are begging to be played with. She's the most gorgeous girl I've ever seen. Soft and sweet. Imperfectly perfect in every way.

I drop forward, wrapping my lips around her nipple, and pull us both into the storm. Her back arches off the bed, thrusting deeper into my mouth. She's so sensitive. Wired for pleasure in every single nerve. I need to be inside her. My teenage hormones are taking control and demanding to put an end to the madness.

I hook her panties and slide them down her legs, bringing them to my nose and inhaling deeply. I fill my lungs with my girl's sweet scent, the cum drawing right to the tip of my cock. The anticipation of what's coming is causing my hands to shake as I slide my boxers down my legs. Sienna told me she's on birth control, but even if she wasn't, I don't think it would stop me. Looking at how wet she is between her legs has me on edge. I'm worried I'm going to be too rough.

"If it's too much, you have to tell me, angel." I shift between her thighs, pressing the head of my cock at her entrance. My nerves practically humming as her slick entrance starts to open, urging me into her body as it clings to my sensitive skin. It's trying to entice me deeper. The feeling is indescribable. All of it a heady combination. Her beautiful eyes heavy with lust. Her body trembling under my touch. The juices of her pussy sliding down my shaft. I sink all the way in, and a groan falls from my lips. It's too much. I'm not going to last. I've never felt anything so good.

My hips start to rock, careful not to go too fast or I'll be going off too soon. Her pussy grows slicker, and tingles run down my shaft and up my spine. The build is quickening, my balls tightening. I thrust in faster, rocking her body forward with every pump. Her features are tensing, and her moans are growing louder. She's close. Close enough that I can feel her muscles pulsing around me. I pump harder. My mind going numb as my gut tightens, my balls drawing up, the clench of need starting to unwind.

When her body jerks beneath me, I crack. My orgasm comes flooding in, an explosion of pleasure in every nerve, from head to toe. The shocks relentlessly hitting. Never letting up in their intensity. God, I never thought it would be like this. I always thought it wouldn't be much different than my tight fist lathered with soap, but it's unlike anything I've ever experienced. The last of my orgasm rings out and I finally pull out, dropping beside her and pulling her into my chest. She props her head up, as I struggle to catch my breath. Still in disbelief that sex feels that good.

I open my eyes, and my heart skips a beat. Her sex-blushed cheeks are smiling at me. She looks like she's genuinely happy.

"Come home with me for Thanksgiving, babe." The question rushes out of me. I've been wanting to ask her since the moment she told me about her mom disinviting her, but I didn't want her to think I was asking her out of pity. From now on, I'm not going to wait; I'm going to seize the moment and show my girl that she'll always have a safe place to land with me.

"Really?" She smiles brighter. "Are you sure? I wouldn't want to impose on you and your mom."

When I told my mom I wanted to invite her, she practically jumped for joy. Then when I told her that Sienna was disinvited to her own home for the break, my mother cried. The thought that a mother could do that to her child is unfathomable to her, and it pained her heart. She said that we're Sienna's new family now, and I need to insist that she come home for the holiday.

"You wouldn't be an imposition, baby. Never. The holiday wouldn't be the same without you. Besides, my mom is dying to meet you."

"She is?"

I don't know why she sounds so shocked. She's all I can talk about these days. I've been talking my mother's ear off about the amazing girl who has stolen my heart.

"Need you to do me a favor, Sie."

She nods.

"I need you to trust that this is real. I'm not like your mom. My mother isn't either. When I say I love you, I mean it. And when I tell you how excited my mom is to meet her future daughter-in-law, I mean every word. You can always trust that my word is truth. This is my vow to you."

A tear slips down her cheek, and I wipe it away. Hoping that one day, I'll be able to wipe away all the demons from her past and make her realize that she is enough.