Chapter Thirteen

Gina

I saw Falcon and Rattler in the yard talking with Scout. Joilyn marched off and headed toward the gate. Rattler took off after her and I wanted to see what Falcon would do. I braced myself for him to join Rattler. If he did, I really thought my heart would break.

I took a breath and my heart pounded. Falcon turned to come back inside the clubhouse. He moved with purpose, his strides long and sure. The second he spotted me he hurried straight to me. I opened my arms and he wrapped his around me, crushing me to him.

“Honey, what are you doing out here? I thought you were asleep?”

“I missed you.”

He urged my legs around his waist as he made his way through the clubhouse back to our room. The second the door was closed, he kissed me. It was frenzied at first and I thought I was in for a wild ride, but he gradually slowed things down. He laid me on the bed and covered my body with his, but simply settled between my legs before staring down at me and stroking my hair gently.

“I’m sorry, baby. This hasn’t been easy on you. I’m sorry I’ve not been real… sharing. You know. With my feelings and shit.”

I had to fight a grin as I blinked up at him. “Feelings and shit. You have feelings?”

“Brat,” he grumbled, but grinned and leaned down to kiss me again. “I have feelings.”

“Oh yeah? What kind?” I was probably setting myself up for heartache, but I couldn’t help but push him a little.

“You know. The kind where I can’t bear to let you out of my sight.”

“So, you’ve got an obsession. You gonna stalk me?”

“If you try to leave me, sure. I’ll stalk you until I find you out by yourself, then I’ll drag you back to Grim Road and tie you to my bed.” The arrogant lift to his eyebrow said he fully believed he could accomplish that, but I could also see a bit of humor in his features.

“Tie me to your bed?” I raised an eyebrow at him but smiled just the same. “Is that supposed to make me feel threatened?”

“It’s supposed to make you feel wanted. Desired.” He kissed me gently, then whispered against my lips. “Loved.”

I pushed him back slightly so I could look into his eyes. “What? What did you say, Falcon?”

He grinned at me. “Is it so hard to believe I love you, Gina?”

“You… you love me?” I sucked in breath after breath, hardly able to believe what he’d said.

“I do, baby. I love you so fuckin’ much.”

“Oh, Falcon! I love you too! I love you too!”

The kisses that followed built a lust so hot I thought it would combust. The man was great with his tongue. In several different ways.

Somehow, he managed to get both of us undressed. It was kind of a blur because I couldn’t get past kissing him. I loved the way he tasted. And how the Christ he managed to drive me so high so quickly with nothing but his kiss was not something I wanted to look too deeply into. Mainly because why should I care? It felt fucking good and I loved Falcon with all my heart.

I was about to come when Falcon entered me with a swift, hard thrust. The world blurred and I could only focus where our bodies joined, and my orgasm threatened to overwhelm me. I lost myself in the intensity coursing through every nerve ending. Falcon’s movements were precise, designed to evoke a whirlwind of sensations that bordered on overwhelming. He knew exactly how to make me forget everything but the here and now.

“Falcon,” I gasped between breaths, clinging to him as if he were my lifeline. He slowed then, almost stopping, pulling back to look into my eyes.

“What is it, baby?” Falcon’s voice was thick with emotion, his eyes searching mine for any sign of hesitation.

“Just… don’t stop,” I managed to whisper, feeling an unexplainable fear of losing this connection we’d found. I shouldn’t have worried, though. Hadn’t Falcon proven time and time again how much he cared about me? Maybe I hadn’t seen it at first, but even when he’d had to confront his past, he had never wavered in his commitment to me. I could see that now. Sure, finding out Joilyn was still alive had thrown him, but wouldn’t it anybody? He’d never made me feel like he regretted being with me. He’d only ever made me feel loved. Cared for. Like I mattered.

With a sharp cry, I came, sweat erupting over my body as I clung to Falcon.

“I’ve got you, baby. I’ve got you.” His voice was hoarse, and he trembled just as much as I did. His cock pulsed hard inside me and I realized he’d come with me.

We clung together for a long while. Falcon collapsed on top of me, pinning me to the mattress. I loved his weight. I loved how much bigger he was than me. I just loved Falcon.

I wanted to drift off into a sated sleep, but I had questions I needed answered.

“Falcon?”

“Yeah, baby.”

“What happens next?”

He shifted, turning his face into my neck and sucking gently on the skin he found there. “We sleep for a while. Make love again before going back to sleep. Then, tomorrow, we go home. Then hopefully repeat the making love part. Several times.”

“Falcon…”

He chuckled. “I’m only partially kidding. The truth is, I’m not really sure. For us, we’re going home. I mean, assuming you want to come back home with me to Grim Road. Right?”

“Where else would I go? I want to be wherever you are. But what about Joilyn? She needs a place to stay. I heard part of what you guys were talking about in the yard. You don’t know if you can trust Joilyn. But what happens if the people she works for didn’t want her to survive? Won’t she be in danger?”

Falcon let out a slow breath. He took his time answering. I wasn’t sure if it was because he was choosing his words or if he wasn’t sure how to answer. “I don’t know. Honestly, though? Yeah. I think she’s in danger. Maybe not right away, but at some point she’ll start to think for herself. When she does, she’s going to be more trouble than she’s worth to them.”

“So, you’re saying she might dodge a bullet now, but more will follow.”

“Yeah.” We lay in silence for a while, and I had very nearly dozed off this time. “I feel sorry for Joilyn, Gina. Not like I pity her or anything. I’m angry she let them talk her into joining the CIA, and I’m angry she either didn’t think through all the ways their arrangement could go wrong or did and still went along with them. I feel bad for her, but she created this situation herself. The second they said anything about faking her death, she should have run in the other direction.”

“Sounds like maybe she should have run long before that.”

“She wanted to serve her country like me and Rattler. I can respect that, even if I wouldn’t have wanted that life for her. I can’t be sorry she chose to serve her country. I know how the agency works. They’re experts at recruiting the right people for the right job. They obviously saw something in Joilyn they knew they could use. And they were right.” He nuzzled my cheek and neck, the coarse hair of his beard tickling slightly. “Joilyn wants to be where she is, I think. Sure, she misses me and Rattler, but she’s all about the job. Whether she’ll grow to understand the politics and intrigues of the agency is something we’ll just have to wait and see.”

“What are you going to do?”

“Now, that’s an easy question, baby. I’m gonna take you home and do all that stuff I mentioned before. Hopefully all day every day for a long time.”

I smiled. “You know what? That sounds just about perfect.”