Chapter 10

CHAPTER TEN

TAVISH

I start the shower as Draven told me, but instead of getting undressed, I sit down on the bed. I can't hear what Draven is saying, but I trust him to handle whatever comes up. With Samuel rearing his ugly mug, I'm spent. I can't deal with all that. All I know is I don't want to be anywhere near him.

When Draven comes into the bedroom, he stops short when he sees me on the bed.

"Ye were supposed to get in the shower, mo ghille."

"I know, but…"

He drops to his knees in front of me, silently removing my shoes, before he pushes me back to lie on the bed. His hands hover over my waistband. Waiting. For what I don't know, but I catch his gaze. Threading my fingers into his hair, I scratch at his scalp lightly. His beautiful blue eyes slide closed as he leans into my hand, purring.

"The shower's running," I remind him.

He nods, his eyes still closed.

"Are you going to undress me, or should I do that myself?"

"Nae. I'll do it."

His gaze catches mine as he opens my fly. The heat in that blue gaze rivals the one building in my stomach. Wiggling my hips as he pulls the jeans down my legs, I watch that heat catch fire, turning into an inferno as my cock bounces free. I couldn't find my manties when it was time to land, so I've been free balling since, and I hated it. Or at least I had. I may have to reconsider my stance on going commando if that's the reaction.

"Where's those sexy panties, lilla du?" he grumbles.

"On the plane."

He pulls me up to my feet as he stands, and I crash into him. His hands grip my waist for a moment before sliding up under the t-shirt I'm wearing. The feel of his callused hands on my skin has me panting with need. I never knew you could crave a person's touch like I crave his. His touch, his attention, his… yeah, not going there. I glance up at him when the shirt bunches under my arms. Staring at him, I raise my arms and he pulls the shirt over my head.

Following his actions, I do the same to him. Or try to. I'd need a stepladder to pull his shirt off him when he's standing, but as his shirt stops under his arms, he yanks it over his head for me, tossing it to the side. It flutters to the floor with mine, pooling over the smaller piece of fabric, blanketing it the way I want Draven to blanket me. I want him over me, covering me from head to toe, taking me, claiming me, using me for his pleasure.

As I drop to my knees to open his pants, the hard line his cock paints in the material makes my mouth water. Looking up at him, his chiseled body makes me quiver with need, but as much as I know he wants me, I know nothing will happen between us until I explain better what happened.

"The meltdown I had earlier that made you stop the scene had nothing to do with not enjoying what you were doing to me. I love when you edge me. When you overpower me and take me how and when and where you like. The savage, primal nature that comes over you sometimes when we're together is the biggest turn on."

He threads his fingers through my hair, fisting the strands tightly, pulling at my scalp. The pain sends tiny shockwaves through me, lighting up nerve endings as if preparing them for what's coming. At least what I hope is to come.

"Go on."

The command comes out rough, his voice harsh with the lust that has his cock jumping before me, begging to be sucked hard and deep. It's a heady experience knowing you affect a man like Draven Helvig. He's big, enormous really, strong beyond imagining, so it's no wonder I'm falling in love with him. Not that I ever expect it to be returned, but he's vulnerable, despite his size and strength, in a way that makes the fact that my feelings may never be returned okay. He loves Simon. And I'll love him for Simon.

"I turned bratty because I was frustrated and needy and I wanted you to fuck me. I thought not answering your question would go a different way. When you said you were leaving me, it scared me. My life started when you wrapped your hand around my throat that night and shoved me against the stone wall. Even though in your mind, I was the enemy, and I knew you were thinking of all the ways to kill me, you brought me to life that night."

Taking a deep breath to calm the tremors that race through me at the agony the thought of losing him brought on, I continue, "I never want to lose that, Draven. I can't go back to the nonexistent existence I lived before you came into my life. I'd rather die. I'd rather be sold to the highest bidder than live life without you in it."

His jaw clenches. The muscles pop at the corners as his teeth grind together under the pressure.

"I'll never let you go, min kara. Never."

"Then use me as you will and know that I don't want what's between us to be some contractual thing where we sit down and hash out every minute detail. I want it to be a living, breathing, organic thing that grows between us naturally. I only ask that you don't use abandonment to punish me for offenses or bratty behavior. That I cannot take."

He grasps my upper arms, yanking me from the floor and into his arms. I can't help but climb the man like a koala, wrapping my arms and legs around his body as tightly as I can. "Are ye sure ye dinnae wish to put everything down in writing?"

"If you want it or need it, I'll do it, but I don't need it. I trust you with my life."

"Are ye sure?"

"I'm positive."

"Ye can change yer mind anytime."

"I won't, but thank you."

He sighs. I don't know if he's frustrated with me, with the conversation, or something else, but just as my anxiety kicks in, he kisses my forehead and then drops his to rest against mine.

"It nearly broke me seeing ye fall apart like ye did. That was the only reason I suggested it."

Knowing he was upset by my meltdown endears him even more. "So, since you refuse to let me go, and I know I'm not going anywhere that's not with you without a fight, can we please, for the love of God and all the other holy deities in the realm of possibilities finally fuck? I'm dying here."

He chuckles and that rare smile I love to make dance across his face shows up.

"Well, we cannae have that now, can we?"