6: END GAME
She’s so damn soft and wet, fitting perfectly around me. Being with Nova like this is like going home again. All I want is to be with her because she’s the only one who completes me. She’s the only one that knows Kai Donovan McGinnis in all his finery and still accepts me for who I am; the only one whose eyes I don’t see judgment in after one of my famous fuck-ups.
Before the brotherhood of my MC, there was Nova. There was always Nova. No matter how many times I got in trouble, suspended for fighting, kicked out of group therapy, or spent the weekend in juvie until our foster parents could pick me up, she was there waiting.
We’re still entwined in each other as I carry her back to the couch where our meal begins. I sit on the couch, and she’s still straddling my dick, her legs on either side of me. As she tosses her head backward, I take one of her breasts in my mouth and feed on it. She has yet to pull her shirt off, but that doesn’t stop me from enjoying her. I’ve pretty much soaked her shirt by sucking on her breasts.
Golden skin is so light, rich, and complex, like a rare bottle of Duncan Taylor Macallan single malt Scotch tastes smooth and soft, like vanilla and honey combined. Long, dark curls, the color of the finest bourbon that showcases blonde highlights in the sun, tumble over her shoulders and caress my knees.
Those glittering eyes that sparkle green and amber like a fire set in the forest pin me into place, telling me she wants, no needs more. The sunburst of her hazel eyes sparkles, drawing me deeper into their depths and manipulating me into giving her just what she wants.
My thrusts grow harder and deeper as she grinds down on me, lifting her tee-shirt up and offering me her uncovered breasts. Her arms tighten around my neck, pulling me back to feed on those purplish pink-hued nipples the color of Lilly Pilly berries but much sweeter. The more that I suck on them, the more she moans and the harder I grow.
Nova slides up and down my pole, dragging out my pleasure and making me want to beg her to give me what I need. She’s like a fucking drug shot up in my veins that I can’t come down from, and her body dances a sweet tango while her pitchy cadences convey the passion she’s feeling.
My fingers find their way between us, and I pinch her clit, making her hiss as she jerks her head forward, pressing her forehead against mine.
“Damnit, Kai!”
“Does it feel good, Nova?”
“You know it does! Give me more. Now damnit!” she begs, jerking wildly all around me, her former choreography long forgotten.
One hand grabs her ass, kneading it like dough while I slide the fingers of my other hand inside of her, gliding along my dick and coaxing her pussy to free what she’s holding back.
“I’m not ready,” she cries in a higher pitch.
My hand frees her ass, grabs the back of her head and pushes her forward and closer to me. Our kiss is a heated clash, a passionate argument full of affirmatives and negatives of the same debate. Her tongue avoids mine, then dashes back out to duel with mine. I suck at her tongue, her lips, and glide across her teeth.
Nova’s moans are breathy and deep, and she bobs her head back once again when I release her from the kiss. She pushes me back against the couch and keeps her hand in the middle of my chest, forcing me to break the connection with her.
Slowly, she begins to rise and lower, biting her bottom lip and staring at me as if she dares me to look away. When did she become this beautiful, confident vixen?
The girl I remember was shy and unsure, constantly second-guessing herself and looking for approval even in sex. The one that’s riding my dick hard and ready to put him away for the night is confident, persuasive, and eager to please herself...fuck me.
“Okay,” she hisses, making me realize that I spoke those words aloud.
Nova rises high and slams back down on me, her ass smacking against my thighs. She grips the hem of her tee shirt in her teeth, and as she watches me watch her, a fire lights in her eyes.
There’s something sexy as hell about her, with the tip of her tee-shirt clenched between her teeth while she rides my dick and gyrates her hips. I look down at her again and take note of the sparkling diamond piercing in her belly button.
I press my thumb there, and she slows her moves, her eyes growing darker, her mouth gaping open as she drops the hem of her shirt from her mouth. Slowly my finger trails from the piercing to her mound and then drops lower to finger her clit before slipping inside her pussy.
“Come on, Kai!” she screams.
“Just cream for me, baby,” I grunt as she loses breath now that I’m taking over once again.
She’s powerless to ride me the way that I’m pumping inside of her.
“Come here,” I say, lifting her off me.
“Huh?”
“This is your loveseat,” I say before opening my mouth and wiggling my tongue.
She smiles bashfully at me, and I get a glimpse of the girl she used to be, but she takes my hand. I help her climb onto the couch, and then she straddles my face. I waste no time with small play but set about eating my meal, her ass spread wide and her pussy covering my nose and lips.
With one finger, I trail the line down her ass cheeks until it reaches her ass. She wiggles slightly, but I don’t penetrate. Instead, I just massage her there until she relaxes.
Nova leans forward, pressing her hands against the wall behind me, and I brace her with my hands gripping her thighs. My head works tight, controlled circles while I suck up all the juices she emits and clean my plate.
I don’t let go until she’s shaking and banging her fists against the wall. Only then do I allow her to get up, and when she climbs off, I stand up and turn her to face the back of the couch.
Grabbing one of her legs in the air and out to the side, I guide my dick inside of her folds and pump furiously, coaxing screams from her throat and cream from her pussy. She continues to give me more until my body tenses into one tight muscle.
My vision and hearing slowly dissipate. Bit by bit, the energy drains from me until I’m resting against her back.
Nova lowers her leg from my hold, and I wrap an arm around her midsection to keep us both from falling. Heaving breaths punctuate the silence as we both work to regain our composure, our bodies slick with sweat.
I pull Nova upright with me when I finally stand.
She heads to a little door to the right of the couch. I hear the water turn on as I grab tissues from the little plastic box on her desk to remove the condom.
When she steps back out, she says, “You can clean up in there.”
I head to the door she just exited and take note of a toilet and sink. There’s a glass cabinet across from the sink filled with towels and washcloths.
I grab a washcloth and pump some soap from a dispenser onto it to wash myself up. When I glance into the mirror, I look at my face, the stubble on my jaws, and the beard and mustache that have grown since I last saw Nova years ago.
I look at the tattoos covering my neck, arms, and hands, and I wonder what she thinks of me now. My face is hardened compared to what it used to be. Gone are the soft, boyish looks of a kid who’s had a rough life and is trying to look intimidating. In its place is a man who truly doesn’t give a shit about what others think. A man who isn’t constantly looking over his shoulders because he’s confident in his powers and abilities as well as the protection of his brotherhood.
“You okay in there?” Nova calls.
I turn off the water and head back out of the restroom to where she’s in her office. She’s still sitting on the couch with her legs turned sideways and her feet pulled underneath her.
I take a seat on the couch beside her, and she glances up at me shyly.
“That was a workout for the week,” she says, laughing nervously, and her hair falls forward into her face.
I push it back over her shoulders, tracing the line of her lips.
“We were always amazing together, Nova.”
“Yeah...we were,” she says in a breathless whisper.
“You don’t know how often I’ve thought about you over the years, thinking of all the things we could have accomplished if I hadn’t fucked up so badly.”
“Don’t be so hard on yourself, Kai. Whatever is meant to be will be. I think it had to happen for you to grow up...me too. I’d always been so scared and immature that all I knew how to do was look for someone to depend on. You became that person for me.”
“Still that man. You should have been able to always rely on me, and I’m sorry you couldn’t when it mattered most.”
She reaches out and brushes her knuckles over the hair on my face before taking my hand in hers.
“No. I needed that more than you know. If you hadn’t gone away, Kai, not that I wanted trouble to come to you, but I would have never learned to stand on my own two feet. I wouldn’t have learned that deep inside, I was strong, and I could overcome trials. I wouldn’t own this bookstore,” she says, looking around and smiling.
“That’s not true. Wasn’t it you that just said, ‘Whatever is meant to be will be?’ Then, discovering your strength, overcoming trials, and owning this bookstore would have all come in time. It may have come sooner. All I know is that the things you consider painful, your divorces, your moves, it all led you back to me. If those things hadn’t happened, we wouldn’t be here now.”
I run my fingers over hers and then intertwine our hands again.
“Remember when I said earlier that I wouldn’t miss our coffee dates?”
“Yeah.”
“Well, there’s this annual thing we do. It’s a trip that I take with my brothers every year for about a week. This year, we’re heading down to Dallas.”
“Sounds nice. When?”
I clear my throat. “In a few days.”
“Oh. Oh, okay,” she says, nodding.
“I mean, I know we just reconnected and all, but um...I would get out of it if I could.”
“Why’re you telling me this?”
“So, you’ll know where I am when you don’t see me for the next week. Don’t want you to think that I ghosted you after sex, not after this. I don’t plan on losing you again because of miscommunication,” I say, lifting our hands and brushing my lips over her knuckles.
She smiles sweetly and says, “My father used to have this saying. ‘Yǒu yuán qiān lǐ lái xiàng huì, wú yuán duì miàn bù xiàng féng.’”
“What does that mean?”
Nova’s father was Chinese, and her mother is black and white.
“It literally translates to ‘You will meet people who are thousands of miles away if it’s meant to be. Otherwise, you will never meet each other, although you live just next door.’ It basically means that fate brings people together no matter how far apart they may be.”
“So, you’re saying you think that we were meant to be.”
“No,” she says, laughing. “I’m just saying that for whatever reason, we’re here in this space today, in the same town at the same time it was meant to be.”
“That’s what I said.”
“No, you said that it means we were meant to be together, and I didn’t say that. Two totally different things. We could have been meant to be in the same space and time to save someone, save each other, or go to war together. Hell, I don’t know...it just doesn’t have to mean that we’re meant to be together.”
“You say that like it’s a bad thing, Nova.”
She pushes off the couch and walks toward her desk, hiding behind it. I lean forward, resting my elbows on my knees and watching her.
“No, that’s not it either.”
“You wanna tell me what it is instead of keep telling me what it ain’t?”
She breathes out a deep breath, looks at me with a compassionate smile, and purses her lips together as she walks from behind her desk. I stand and smooth a finger over her eyebrows.
“Spit it out.”
“I’m not looking for anything serious, Kai. I just got out of a horrible marriage. My trek record isn’t so great, in case you haven’t noticed.”
“I’m not pressuring you one way or another, Nova. I know shit’s changed in all these years, and we’re not the same as we once were. But...
“I think you’re looking to recapture our youth.”
Scratching the back of my neck, I scoff and shake my head. “That’s the last fucked up place I’m trying to be.”
“You know what I mean,” she says, touching my shirt gently and then pulling her fingers back as though singed. “Maybe you’re remembering us the way we were back then. Only I’m not that same foolish, na?ve girl anymore. I’ve hurt people, and I gave scars, and now it’s time for me to live my life for me. Selfish as it may sound, it’s what I need, Kai.”
“Doesn’t sound selfish at all. I may not like what it sounds like, but I respect it, Nova.”
“Your lifestyle and mine...they just don’t fit, Kai.”
“How so?”
“The things you once did when we were younger, it seems as if...they’ve gotten ten times worse. And while that was okay when we were kids, that’s not the road I’m trying to go down anymore. We’re almost forty, Kai. At some point, it’s time to grow up. I don’t want to be sent to jail for conspiracy or an accessory to a crime. I want to live the rest of my life in peace.”
“You have no idea what I do, Nova. Just assuming that my life will only end one way is pretty presumptuous and judgmental of you.”
“No, Kai. It isn’t. I’m being realistic. Your life, your choices, and the people that you hang around scare me. I’m not saying that you can’t be a part of that life. I’m just saying that I’m not interested in having that as a part of my life anymore.”
“How can you say that when you haven’t even seen my life, Nova?”
“There’s one thing that I know to be true because I’ve experienced it. One thing I know to be true is that I don’t want to fall in love with you again and then lose you. Losing my parents devastated me. Losing you...crushed me. It took two men to try to get me back right...and even now, I’m still not completely whole. So, no, I can’t do it again. So, um...these nightly...things we’ve been doing...”
“Coffee dates?”
“Yeah.”
“You need to cut back?”
“I do. I need to um...meet other people in town, and it’s hard because I’ve been spending every evening with you. I need to live my life, Kai, and you need to live yours.”
I nod and back away from her. “Message received.”
“Kai, please don’t—”
I turn at the door and eye her up and down. “I get it. I don’t know you anymore, and it wasn’t cool for me to pretend I do.”
“That’s not what I’m saying, Kai!”
Her words are lost on me as I make my way out the back door and across the parking lot to where my bike’s parked.
Why the fuck I ever thought a dude like me could have a normal life is beyond me.