Chapter 4

Chapter Four

Rowena

Stepping out of the bathroom, my breath hitches a little bit when I see Oakley lying in my bed, making me feel a little odd as I look at him. This pulsing need erupts inside of me, tempting me to do more but I don’t know if it’ll be alright.

I’m a Princess and I can’t give into my desires because I could end up doing a lot more with him. I think that the minute that I make him mine, I am never going to let him go and I’m going to make sure that he will be alright.

“You sure make yourself comfortable.” I tease him, seeing how he looks up at me with a smirk on his face, “I kind of didn’t realize that you were going to be lying in my bed and everything. It is a good thing the door is locked.”

“Don’t worry, I would hear them coming before anything else.” He assures me, and he is patting the bed next to him as he watches me, “I can promise you that we are going to be safe and nobody is going to figure this out. Not unless we want them to.”

He is watching me with an intensity in his gaze that was enough to make me feel really weird and I couldn’t be sure what was about to happen here. I did know that I was going to enjoy it and no matter what, I was going to make sure that he would be mine.

“Well, I think that it’s going to be time to go to bed soon.” I agree with him, nervously licking my bottom lip as I’m watching him, “So I’m going to get into bed and go to sleep.”

I didn’t realize how nervous I could get until I’m crawling into bed next to him, feeling a little weird about it. This intense feeling burns within me, tempting me to do a lot more.

His heat is radiating off of him, making me feel really warm and like everything feels good. But I’m more than just a little surprised when he pulls me closer, wrapping his arms around me as he buries his face into my hair.

It is enough to make my heart skip a beat. I feel too perfect, like this feeling inside of me is enough to make me want so much more. It was an intense feeling, like nothing I had ever felt before.

I felt like I was going to be his and it wasn’t going to matter. I don’t even know if he feels the same way but I did know that I was going to enjoy being close to him. I wanted him so badly, but I had to hold back these desires.

I didn’t want to end up ruining everything just because I didn’t want to keep it in my pants.

But by the look on his face, I think that he is feeling the same way, or at least wanting to do a lot more to me. Nervously gnawing on my bottom lip, I watch him, worrying about what is going to happen if he ends up touching me.

Will it even be okay?

I don’t know but I’m tempted to find out.

“Is that the only reason you became a Rogue?” I ask him, feeling a little curious and not ready for bed, “It seems a little ridiculous that they would do that to you when you hadn’t really done anything.”

He sighed, shaking his head, “Honestly, it was going to happen no matter what I did. Even if I attempted to do the right thing, I’m almost certain that it would have blown up in my face no matter what I did. I guess you can say that I couldn't bring myself to care so much.”

A part of me is curious about what else to say about it because I couldn’t be sure it would be alright, “but why? It seems like a ridiculous reason to just toss you out or to label you as a Rogue. That stuff follows you, doesn’t it?”

He nods his head, “It does but I don’t let it get to me. If I do, then it is just going to ruin my life even more and I’m not interested in letting them win. I’m sure you can understand that.”

I couldn’t be sure what else to say because it was quite clear that he was only thinking about going to bed now. I would love nothing more than to do the right thing and not care about anything else but I did know that I was going to make it alright.

And when I think about the future, maybe having Oakley by my side is definitely going to be the right call.

I think that if I end up pushing him away, then I'm going to regret it and I don’t want to be filled with regrets. I just want to know someday if he ends up feeling the same way about me as I feel about him.

“Do you truthfully think that this is going to work out?” I ask him curiously, licking my bottom lip, “I don’t know what I want to do but I do know that I’m going to make sure it is going to be alright. I don’t care if Dad never approves of it.”

Oakley just smiles and shakes his head, “truthfully, I think that he is probably more concerned about keeping you safe. I don’t blame him because I know that I wouldn’t want anything to happen to you either.”

A part of me wanted to know precisely what he meant by that but I also knew that it was going to be alright. I wasn’t going to let anything else stand in the way of my future and I think that Oakley is feeling the same way.

Maybe he wouldn’t want me, I don’t know.

But what I do know is that I’m never going to stop the way that I feel.

Because losing him is something that I would regret more than anything else.