26. Cassidy

Lunch was exactlywhat I needed, and after spilling my guts to Lila about both Hayden and Roman, I feel about two tons lighter. We even got one of those elusive Washington sun breaks on my walk home, so I got a nice shot of vitamin D to boost my mood, too.

Lila demanded I take the night off from The Sin Bin tonight, that she had the bar and would call in the new girl, Saylor, if she needed help. She told me I needed to take some time to figure my shit out and just have a night to myself without any distractions.

The message in my kitchen is a distraction, so when I get home, I clean it up. I don't want to think about it. I want to bury my head in the sand and pretend everything's fine. Even if it's just for one night. I need to mentally check out.

But what I need more than anything is some new content for my OnlyFans. Since Hayden published that video of me going down on him, my growing fan base has been demanding more partner stuff. It"s been hard enough just shooting solo videos lately between the drama that"s now my life and Hayden being completely over the top possessive.

I sigh and fall onto my couch, staring up at the ceiling as I think about how to handle this. I"ve got a few solo videos backed up, but they"re nothing special and definitely not enough to keep my followers happy for long. Hayden sort of screwed me by posting a partner video and I know that was the whole point of his little show of ownership. But a little solo play will at least give them something until I figure out if I"m going to forgive Hayden.

I sit up straighter and a devious smile curves across my lips. Maybe a little tit for tat is in order here. Literally.

Hayden tattooed my name on him. Seems only fair I do the same, right?

When he gets home, he"s getting a new dick tattoo.

But until then, I"ve got a video to shoot.

I get my camera set up in my bedroom, adjust the ring light until it"s just right, and strip out of my clothes. I dig through the back of my closet for the lingerie Lila bought me when Roman cheated as a way to make me feel sexy again and push me to get back out there. It didn"t work and ended up shoved in the back of my closet, but thankfully didn"t end up stolen like the rest of my underwear.

I slip into the bright white lace and look at myself in the mirror, frowning when I realize I need to tug it up to cover the tattoo of Hayden's name. I still can't believe he actually did that to me, and I'd never admit it to him, but I love how he meets me crazy for crazy. Or maybe I meet him. Either way, these games between us make me feel alive in a way nothing else does.

On a whim, I decide to torture my sort of boyfriend and snap a mirror selfie at the perfect angle, showing off both tits and ass.

Cassidy: What do you think?

Hayden: That better only be for me.

Hayden: I'm already plotting Maddox's end after your little stunt on OF

Cassidy: Aww, is someone feeling left out?

Hayden: His death will be on your hands

Cassidy: Calm down, crazy

Cassidy: No need to get violent with your teammate

Cassidy: But maybe next time you'll think before you mess with me

Hayden: Don't count on it

Hayden: And why the fuck are you wearing that?

Three seconds later, he sends:

Hayden: Are you in your apartment?

Hayden: Cassidy.

Hayden: You know I have access to the cameras, right?

Hayden: You better not be shooting a video without me.

Cassidy: And what are you going to do if I am? You"re not here.

Cassidy: Besides, I"m still pissed off at you. You"re not getting back inside me until we settle the score between us.

Hayden: ...

Hayden: What"d you have in mind?

I grin down at my phone, then up at the camera in the corner.

Cassidy: You"ll see.

Then I turn my phone to airplane mode and set it up in the tripod, satisfied that I got his attention and wherever he is, he"s watching me do something he told me not to and there"s not a damn thing he can do about it. A shiver runs through me at how powerful I feel right now, as I hit record and start running my hands over my body, giving the camera a flirty smile.

I love that Hayden will be able to see me talking but not hear me and not be able to do a damn thing about it. At least until he inevitably watches this upload later. Keeping that in mind, and the fact that I"m living to torture him right now for what he did, I talk to the camera, saying the words I"d love to say to him... if I let myself. Which I haven"t and I"m still undecided if I will.

"It"s been too long," I say, running my fingers over my pussy through the lace. "I haven't been able to stop thinking about you." For some reason, admitting things to the camera feels safer than to Hayden's face.

I can feel myself getting wetter and I slide my hand into my panties, rubbing my clit, picturing Hayden on the other side, watching. Knowing I"m provoking him. This show is one hundred percent for him, even if all my other followers are going to see it. "I want you inside me so bad," I whisper to my audience, knowing he"s going to hear it later and get off on it. "But you"ve been a bad boy, haven"t you?"

I pull my hand out of my white lace panties and suck on my fingers while staring into the camera. "So you"re going to have to wait until you earn it back."

Then I turn around and bend over, showing off my ass while I run my hands over it and give the camera a sultry look over my shoulder. "But don"t worry. I"ll make it worth the wait."

I know Hayden"s going to be pissed that I"m teasing him like this, but what he did to me is so much worse. He deserves a little torment, and not gonna lie, agitating him is my new favorite thing—first with that teaser picture in his teammate's jersey, and now this.

He's going to be so furious when he gets home. I can't wait.

I spread my legs a little wider and slide my hand into my panties again, making sure the fabric hides Hayden's name as I finger myself while I look over my shoulder into the camera. "I want you to come with me," I moan, picturing Hayden watching me and knowing how hard he"s going to be right now. "Now."

My fingers move faster and faster until I"m panting and coming hard enough that I have to grab onto the bed for support. When I come down from it, I turn around and face the camera again, running my hands over my tits, plucking at my nipples once as I say in a breathy voice, "Next time, maybe I'll let you watch live."

Then I blow a kiss and end the recording, satisfied that Hayden is going to lose his mind when he sees this.

After I edit the video, I turn my phone off airplane mode and upload it, ignoring the barrage of texts and missed calls from Hayden. Instead, I shower and change into sweats and a tank top before flopping back onto my couch and finally addressing his texts.

Hayden: You better not be making that video for your OF without me.

Hayden: Cassidy.

Hayden: You"re in so much trouble

Hayden: Answer me or I swear to God

I grin and text him back.

Cassidy: You swear to god what?

Cassidy: You"ll tattoo your name on my body without my consent again?

When the three little dots pop up immediately, I don"t give him a chance to respond before I"m typing out a new message.

Cassidy: Did you enjoy the show?

Hayden: You know I did

Hayden: Now take it down

Cassidy: Not gonna happen

Hayden: Don"t make me repeat myself

I laugh and get more comfortable, temporarily forgetting about all the stuff out of place in here or the fact that someone"s broken in and I"m all alone tonight. Messing with Hayden"s exactly the distraction I need so I don't run back to his place. I'm not giving in that easily.

Cassidy: Again, no.

Cassidy: Away games suck, huh?

Hayden: It"s dangerous pushing my buttons like this, Princess

Hayden: But keep testing me

Hayden: And you"ll find out how crazy I can be

I bite my lip and stare at his texts for a long moment, debating if I should push him further. But then I remember what Lila said about how he"s not like Roman or Eric. I"m not so sure she"s right about that because I get the distinct impression that if I try to actually break things off with Hayden, he might get more unhinged. So why am I not running? And why do I kind of like that he"s feral for me?

Cassidy: I"m not afraid of you.

Cassidy: Do your worst.

Okay, yes. I"m definitely poking the bear, but he"s got plenty of time to calm down before they get home from this road trip, and hopefully he"ll take out some of his pent up aggression on the ice before he does. See? I"m helping my favorite team win.

I"m awesome like that.

Hayden: You asked for it

Hayden: Don"t forget that

And then he doesn"t respond again.

I sigh and toss my phone onto the couch beside me, knowing I"m in for it when he gets back. But for now, I"m going to enjoy my night off and maybe even go to sleep early for once.

But as I lie in bed later, staring at the ceiling and trying and failing to fall asleep, I can"t help but wonder if I"ve made a mistake. If Hayden"s not as different from Eric and Roman as I thought. If I"m just setting myself up to be hurt again.

Time will tell, I guess.