Chapter Nineteen

NYCTO

Without taking the shot sitting in front of him, Void sits back and watches me. I bring the glass of tequila to my lips and throw my head back, letting the caramel-colored liquid burn all the way down my gullet. “Hit me, Stace,” I demand, slamming the shot glass back on the bar.

Void places his hand over the top of my glass, halting Stacey from pouring my fifth shot. “He’s had enough,” Void tells Stacey, then tilts his head, instructing her to leave.

I grumble under my breath and shove his hand away. “You’re a fucking pussy.”

“I am? You’re the one up here sulking or some shit.”

“I’m not sulking.”

“You gonna pout and throw a tantrum?”

“Fuck you!”

“Why are you acting miserable. Eva’s staying… isn’t that what you wanted?”

I groan, swiveling on my stool and turning my back to the bar. “Yes, and it’s all going to plan…”

“Then what the fuck are you bitching about?”

“What if Eva finds out? What if someone lets slip? What if this all comes tumbling down around my stupid ass and she leaves? Not only does it put her in danger but us too. I have royally fucked this shit up from the start.”

Void slaps my shoulder. “Then, we have to make sure Eva never finds out.” He picks up his shot, tips it my direction in a salute, then throws it back.

Now he finds a reason to drink.

“That’s exactly my point. Eva can’t find out. No matter what. You have to drill it into Ivy.”

“She’s smart. She knows what’s on the line.”

“You think Eva’s gonna stay down there all night?”

“You’re the president of Tampa Defiance. Stop thinking with your dick. Get your head into gear, Pres.”

“The fuck did you say?”

“Look, I know Eva has your balls in a vise, but since she came into our lives, you’ve put this club at risk. You’ve changed into this person I don’t even recognize. I’ve never seen you so tied in fucking knots. While it’s good to see you putting someone before yourself for a change, you’re putting her before your brothers, and that could be dangerous for all of us.”

I glare at him. “You got your panties in a twist ’cause Ivy’s not putting out for you?”

“You’re an asshole.” He stands, shoves the glass across the bar in frustration, and walks off.

It wasn’t my intention to argue with Void. He’s been the only brother on my side through this mess. The one brother I can count on. Taking Eva and Ivy in has been a hardship for the club, and if Andrés finds out, we will be in a world of shit.

Running my hand through my hair, I glance at the stairs again, willing Eva to come up, but there is no sign of her. So, I stand to make my way to my room. Eva needs to spend time with her sister—I get it. I’ll give her that. I also have to show some trust that they won’t leave. For now, I need to have a shower and wash some of this frustration off me.

As I open the door to my bedroom, it’s a strange feeling, entering and Eva not being there. The whole room smells of her, amplifying her absence. It’s intoxicating.

After heading into the bathroom, I close the door and take off my clothes, then reach into the shower and turn on the hot faucet as far as it will go, only adding a bit of cold once it has heated up. The lighting in the room is dull, just the way I like it.

I stare back at myself in the mirror. “You really are a fool, Nycto,” I murmur to myself, then step past the glass divider, which has already fogged up, and let the beads of scorching hot water ignite my skin. I hiss through my teeth at the burn. I need it as punishment. Cleansing. I’ve made bad decision after bad decision.

I’ve made one good one too.

But for the good of one isn’t necessarily for the good of the many.

Saving Eva was not my best move, but I can’t deny I am glad I did it. She might fight me, resent me for my actions on some level, but I did it all to save her from a life of hell.

Guilt for breaking my oath—for not putting my club first always—weighs me down as I place my hands on the wall and move my head under the stream. Holding my breath, I let the water pummel me, the droplets cascading over me like a fiery waterfall, drowning away my sins. It’s refreshing until a sudden creaking noise has me on high alert. Pulling out of the stream, my hand scrubs water out of my eyes as I look to the bathroom door.

My heart leaps, thuds, then stops.

Eva stands half in, half out of the bathroom, her eyes transfixed on the foggy screen. The mist swirls in the air, leaving just enough to the imagination, but I’m sure the outline of my body is on full show for her right now. Our eyes connect as my lips part slowly. I’m not sure what move to make next.

So, I still, and watch her watching me.

Eva draws her bottom lip in with her teeth, and the sight instantly hardens my cock. Tension fills the air, and if she’s going to stand there ogling me in the shower, then I’m sure as hell going to give her a show. I reach for the body wash, my eyes staying transfixed on hers. Eva’s eyes widen as I bring the container to my hand and squirt the liquid into my palm. She studies my movements, edging farther into the room. My palm slides up my chest, an instant lather of bubbly soap forming on my pec as I let my hand circle. She gulps as she inches closer.

With my other hand, I swipe the steam off the glass down to my lower abdomen, hopefully still keeping my hard-as-rock dick hidden from view. Don’t want to move too fast and scare her off. A slow smile crosses her face as her eyes wander up and down my body, which I’m now lathering with soap. The air pops and crackles with tension as I lower my hand down my abdomen…

Eva tenses, her body going rigid. Is that a good or a bad thing? Either way, I can’t help myself as my dick throbs with desire. My hand grips hold of my cock, and I give it a firm pump, letting out a quiet groan as pleasure rolls through me. She can’t see past the steam—probably—but there’s no mistaking what I’m doing.

Eva’s lips part as she lets out a heavy breath. I pump harder, grip tighter, squeeze more at the tip as my eyes stay focused on hers. Her pupils are dilated, and her chest heaves like she’s having trouble holding back. Good. I don’t want her to.

I pull faster and firmer on my cock, and pleasure rolls through me. My other hand comes up onto the glass to hold me in place. “Fuck, Eva,” I exclaim, my climax nearing.

Her eyes widen like I’ve woken her from a trance, and she finally moves. My gaze follows, and my hand slows as she pulls my shirt off her body in one swift movement. She slides the sweatpants down, and my cock throbs in anticipation. She’s in nothing but underwear, and she’s fucking stunning. Her hands hook around her bra. It falls to the floor, freeing her full breasts.

I almost come on the fucking spot.

I stroke myself again and again as she lowers my briefs, showing me her perfect pussy. She gives me a shy look, biting her lip so sweetly. I groan, loving how much of a fucking angel she is right now. She places her hand on the other side of the glass, where mine rests.

Is she going to give me a show? Stand there and pleasure herself while I do the same?

She shocks me, stepping around the glass wall and into the shower alcove.

I stop stroking as she stands at the edge of the shower, waiting for permission to enter. I reach out for her, wrapping my arms around her waist and pulling her to me under the water. She hisses at the temperature, so I swivel her out of the stream as much as I can because all I care about right now is touching every fucking delicate inch of her body.

I turn and slam her into the wall, my cock pushing against her, the slide of soapy skin against skin making me moan as I crash my lips to hers. Eva’s hands run up into my hair as mine feel her body, needing to touch every inch of her skin. My hips rock into her, needing the contact I have been lacking. Having her lower belly rubbing against my already worked-up cock is making this almost unbearable.

My tongue collides with hers in a flurry of passion as I kiss her like this is the last time. She has her sister now. Maybe it will be.

“You’re gonna be the death of me,” I moan out, moving my lips to her neck and sucking.

“ Hasta la muerta. Until death. I thought my heart was going to explode watching you touch yourself,” she pants out, one of her hands moving down to my ass, pulling me closer to her.

Fucking hell.

My cock throbs so hard that if we don’t move this along, I’m going to come from the anticipation alone. So, I pull back a little, sliding my hand down her stomach, then between her legs. Her head falls back as I move in between her perfect folds. I find her clit and circle, and my mouth comes back in, kissing her with as much purpose as I can muster. She’s like fucking heaven.

Eva’s hips push against my hand like the needy bitch she is, so I circle harder, faster, working her toward her climax. I need to get her there because I don’t know how much longer I can hold out.

I need to fuck her.

I’ve been holding back, trying to be a decent guy, but I can’t. Not now that she’s started this.

Soft whimpers echo from her lips as I move my mouth to her neck, biting and sucking on her skin. She likes that, so I bite down and suck harder as her muscles tense. I pull back to appreciate the marks I’ve left on her neck. Mine. Her body shudders, her nails clenching into my back, tearing my skin. I guess she’s leaving her marks on me too.

Eva moans, throwing her head back against the shower wall as she climaxes, and it’s the sexiest fucking thing. Her pussy clenches and flutters around my fingers, and her body tenses, then goes weak. I grip her hips tight as her glassy, dazed eyes stare into mine. “Holy shit.”

“Stick with me, chiquita. I’ll take you on the ride of your life . ”

My cock throbs so fucking hard I’m worried it might explode if I don’t fuck her right now. So, I lift her thigh and wrap her leg around me, giving me better access. I bend to line my cock up with her pussy and don’t wait for her approval before I slam inside her. She’s so wet I have no trouble sliding home. My free hand moves to her shoulder, pushing her back against the wall. She gasps out a moan, and I still, calming myself.

Eva feels so fucking good. So warm. So wet. The heat of the shower and Eva has me on fire, and if I move right now, I’m going to come. Her eyes meet mine. A moment passes between us, and tightness grips my chest so much it’s hard to breathe.

She’s so fucking sexy like this.

I need to move, so I slide my hand from her shoulder to the side of her neck. Her eyes widen as I wrap my fingers around her throat, rubbing up and down in a gentle caress as I withdraw, then thrust up inside of her. She pants for breath, her nails dig into my back as she grasps me.

My eyes bore into hers as I pull back and thrust up again, moving quickly now as I fuck her with purpose.

She moans in delight, meeting me thrust for thrust. My dirty girl likes it rough.

Pleasure rolls through me as she wriggles against me, so I squeeze the hand around her neck a little tighter. Her pussy walls clamp down around my throbbing cock as I slide inside her harder, deeper. Excitement bubbles inside me that this fucking turns her on. My skin drips in sweat, not only from the heat of the shower but also from our frantic movements.

Eva clenches her eyes and pants hard while my lips trail firm kisses down her jaw, the movement heightening her pleasure.

I thrust harder into her, moving my hand between us to her clit. She moans loudly as her body slides up and down against the wall in time with my thrusts.

The pressure builds inside me. Her muscles clench around my cock, and I bite her collarbone. She groans out a gasp of delight. I push up, circling my thumb on her clit one last time. My hand around her neck presses just a little bit harder, cutting off her air. My adrenaline spikes, and her eyes clench shut as her muscles spasm, her back arching off the wall.

Her body shudders as she moans so fucking loud I’m sure my brothers can hear it outside. She writhes and explodes in the most earth-shattering climax I’ve ever seen in a woman. Eva’s pussy clamps down on my cock, massaging it, drawing me toward my climax, and I gasp as heat washes over me from head to toe.

Having her shatter around me has my balls pulling up immediately, the tingle starting from my toes all the way up my spine and through my extremities as pins and needles surge through my body. I loosen my grip on her neck and pull out of her quickly. She whimpers, but I pump my cock once, then unload with a groan, spurting my hot cum all over her gorgeous, toned stomach.

“Fucking Christ,” I groan out through gritted teeth, moving my hand out onto the wall beside her head, needing something to keep me upright.

Her hands caress up and down my body, and I jolt from the aftereffects of my high.

Letting out a long, drawn-out sigh, I press my forehead against hers, panting for much-needed breaths. Eva’s hands smooth along my back as I move my fingers back up to her face.

“You’re everything, Eva. Fucking everything.”

“You’re more than I could have ever imagined.”

I move my hand gently to her throat, softly stroking where the red marks I left tarnish her skin. “Did I hurt you?”

Eva lets out a small laugh. “In all the good ways.”

“Fuck. I’ve wanted to kiss you ever since I first laid eyes on you. Well, I’ve wanted to do that even more.”

“I was fighting this… this pull I have toward you. If I’d known what this would have been like, I would have given myself over to you that first night.”

A deep, guttural groan leaves my chest as I smash my lips to hers. I could have been having her all this time, and that thought does my head in. Now she has the Ivy situation dealt with, maybe she can tend to the other itch that needs scratching. The one I just showed her can be so good now that we’ve given in.

“Let’s get you cleaned up so I can get you dirty all over again in the bedroom.”

Eva grins as I pull her off the wall and under the stream of water, adjusting the temperature so it doesn’t scald her and letting it wash away my claim on her. Well, some of my claim—the bite marks on her neck and collarbone will take more than a shower to disappear, and I fucking love that. She may not know it yet, but me fucking her like this has done more than just awaken the animal inside me.

I need Eva to be mine.

I need to possess her.

To own her.

But I have to make sure she’s on board before I go throwing the word claiming around, and she shoves it right back in my face. Eva needs time to adjust and to get on the same page as me. I’m not a patient man, but for Eva, I’ve already changed a part of me I didn’t believe could ever be altered.

I’ve waited all my life for this woman.

So, for Eva, I will wait a little longer.