9. Thomas

THOMAS

She's so creative when you cut the lights …

S helby and I walked out of Kenley's house in shock. I had no idea what the fuck had just happened but it was in Kenley's hands now.

"What the flying fuck was that?" Shelby hissed. "I've tried all week not to get angry but I sure am feeling that way now."

"Shelby, she's just confused. This is totally new to her and she needs to process. I know it's hard but if we really want this, we need to be patient."

"Why did she start this if she didn't want to do it?"

I could tell that she was trying to mask her sadness with anger but our options were to be patient or to call this over before it ever really got to start.

"We need to be reasonable about this. It's not that she didn't want it. It's that she needed to try it to figure that out. It seems it was just easier for you and me."

"This sucks monkey balls," she pouted.

"I know," I chuckled. "That's quite the visual though."

That got a small laugh out of her. I pulled her into a hug and kissed the top of her head.

"What do you think is going to happen?"

"I'm not sure, Shelby, but I sure hope she decides to pursue this. Do you want to come back to my place?"

"Honestly, I don't feel like I'd be very good company right now. I'm just going to head home and nurse my wounds with a good stiff drink."

"Okay, baby girl. Call me if you need anything, okay? And don't text Kenley. Let's just wait for her, okay?"

"Okay. I'll see you later," she said, kissing me gently.

She got into her car and drove away. I headed to my car with one last look at her house before I climbed into my car and headed home. Once there, I poured myself a drink and settled into my chair in my living room. I had spent a lot of time over the last week thinking about that night. I was surprised that I didn't hate sharing the Dom role… much. I wasn't sure if it was something I could do regularly long term, even though I was trying to fix things with Kenley. What I knew for sure was that I wanted a relationship with them. Both of them.

I never thought I would be part of a ménage relationship but here I was trying to make it work. I had never shared the Dom role and it was something I really needed to think about. If we went forward with this relationship, I needed to figure out whether I could actually do it. After all, that was part of Shelby and I couldn't very well ask her to drop it.

The sex had been amazing. Fucking Kenley had been unlike anything I'd had with anyone else. Watching her eat Shelby out while I fucked her was hot as hell. I could definitely get used to that and couldn't wait to fuck Shelby too. I just hoped I had that opportunity. I finished my drink and headed to my gym in the basement to work out some of my frustrations. I wasn't mad at Kenley. I was just afraid of what was going to happen. After all, I wanted both of them. Would I be able to build a relationship with just Shelby? Would I be happy to have to bring in another sub to satisfy her needs? I just didn't know.

The next day I decided to have a conversation with Shelby to see if we could come up with something to deal with Kenley. I didn't want to pressure her but I did want to make her see that this was something that could work. It could be something wonderful.

Thomas: Hey, Shelby .

Shelby: Hey, Thomas. What's up?

Thomas: I wanted to talk. Any chance you could come over?

Shelby: I would like that. What's your address?

Thomas: I'm at 356 Shannahan Blvd. I'll see you soon.

Shelby: GPS says 25 minutes. I'll be there shortly.

I put my phone beside me and started a pot of coffee. I didn't know how Shelby was feeling but I hadn't been sleeping very well this week and needed the pick-me-up. I let her in when she arrived and kissed her gently. Not wanting to get out of control before we'd even talked, I broke the kiss. I wanted this woman so badly but there were more important matters at hand.

"Would you like some coffee?"

"Oh my God, yes. I feel like a zombie today. I swear I haven't slept all week."

"I haven't been sleeping all that well either. I don't know about you but this shit with Kenley has hit me hard."

"Me too," she said sadly, taking the mug from me and adding milk to it. "What are we going to do?"

"I'm honestly not sure," I said, leading her to my living room.

I sat on the couch and I was happy when she sat right beside me. I set my coffee beside me and put my arm around her. She leaned into me and I squeezed her tight.

"I miss her. I'm not used to going this long without being around her."

"I know. I miss her too. We need to figure out a way to make her see this is real and that it can work."

"Well, talking to her did no good."

"I wonder if pointing out how well it works for Seb, Chase, and Raven would help. Hell, maybe they could talk to her about her concerns."

"I'm not sure that's such a good idea at this point. She may feel threatened by that."

"Hmm, you could be right. Do you think she felt that way when we were both there to talk to her?"

"I don't think so, Thomas. I mean, she invited both of us there."

"Yeah but look at how well that went."

"I think that was more the situation that scared her off than her feeling ganged up on."

"Still, do you think it would be worth one of us talking to her one-on-one?"

"I suppose it couldn't hurt. It should probably be you though."

"Why is that?" I asked, truly curious.

"Because honestly, I'm still feeling pretty damn emotional and I feel like you could control your emotions better."

"Okay, I'll see what I can do. What about you and I, Shelby? What happens to us if she doesn't come around?"

"I don't know," she said sadly. "Could it really work with both of us? I'm a switch, Thomas. Do I give up a part of myself to make a relationship work with you? What if I started to resent you?"

"Shelby, I don't want this to end," I said, brushing a kiss across her temple.

"I don't either but how would it work?"

I decided that talking about it wasn't going to fix anything right now. I wanted her and I wanted her now. I met her eyes and watched as lust flashed across her face. She moved quickly to straddle me and ground down on my rapidly hardening cock. There wasn't going to be any foreplay this time. I needed her inside me now . I pulled her skirt up around her waist and growled when I saw she hadn't worn any panties.

"Naughty girl," I grinned.

She grinned back, reached under the waistband of my track pants, and pulled out my thick, hard shaft. I watched as I disappeared into her pussy, inch by inch. We both groaned as I bottomed out in her. I grabbed her hips and guided her back and forth on my length. My stomach tightened and I had to force myself not to come right now. Her juices soaked my cock, the sounds of skin slapping filling the room. Her nails bit into my shoulders as we moved together, pushing each other toward the edge of our releases.

Her breathing became erratic and her movements somewhat clumsy. I held her firm and thrust hard up into her, time and again. She screamed out my name as she came and her juices soaked my cock. Unable to hold back any longer, I exploded inside her like wildfire, scorching everything in its path. She dropped her head against my shoulder and shivered.

"Fuck, Thomas. I don't think I've ever come so hard."

"We have to find a way to make this work, Shelby, cause there's no fucking way I'm giving you up now that I've had you. I'm not giving either of you up."

"Then let's fix it fast. This is too good to give up without giving it a fair chance."

"I'll talk to her. Hopefully, I'll be able to get through to her."

"I sure hope so."

I adjusted our clothes and laid down on the couch, pulling her down with me. She laid across my chest and her breathing leveled out as she fell asleep, sprawled across me. I gently rubbed her back until I, too, fell asleep.

My heart stopped when I walked into the club that night and saw Kenley sitting at a table talking with Raven. I had been trying to figure out the best way to approach her but this gave me the perfect opportunity. I walked to the table with a smile on my face.

"Good evening, ladies."

"Hey, Thomas," Raven smiled. "How are you?"

"I'm doing a lot better now that I've seen your pretty faces," I grinned.

"Always the charmer."

"Hi, Thomas," Kenley almost whispered.

"Will you dance with me?"

"I—I"

"It's just a dance. That's all."

"Okay."

"See you later, Raven," I said.

"See you guys."

My heart was pounding as we walked to the dance floor. I was so happy she'd agreed to dance with me but I was going to have to tread very carefully with her. The last thing I needed was to spook her again. I was pleasantly surprised when the song ended and she didn't move to leave. I opted to just go for it and keep dancing, being sure to keep a respectful distance. After a few dances, she took a deep breath and leaned close to my ear.

"Let's get a drink and a table and then you can tell me what you really want."

My eyes widened at her boldness but I quickly agreed, following her to the bar to get our drinks. We found a table in a quieter corner to talk. It would have been better in my room but I wasn't going to push my luck.

"You're right, I did want to talk to you."

"I know. So, let's have it."

"The first thing I want you to know is that I don't want to put any pressure on you. I just want to try to understand what's going on in that gorgeous head of yours."

"Okay."

"What is your biggest concern with the relationship with Shelby and me?"

"I worry that I'll get lost in the shuffle. I've never been shared before."

"Baby, I promise you, that won't be the case. I have more than enough real estate for both of you and I know Shelby does too. Have we made you feel lost in any way?"

"Well… no. But it's only been a couple of times!"

"You're right, it has. The thing is, we haven't given it enough time for there to even be any problems. I'm not saying there will be but I know we can work anything out we have to."

"Do you really think so? Can you share being a Dom with her?"

I didn't say anything as I thought back to earlier in the day when I wondered the same thing. I had no idea how to answer that.

"See," she said. "It's not so easy, is it?"

She stood and kissed my cheek. I looked at her, not knowing what to say to her right now.

"Kenley—"

"Thomas, when you figure your own shit out, then come talk to me."

I watched as she walked away and then dropped my head into my hands and groaned.

Now what?