34. Lucy

Oh god.Liam wasn't just crazy, crazy, he was fucking insane.

The way he kissed me made it feel like he'd only been on a long trip, one that took years, but now he was finally home – showing me just how much he's missed me.

His tongue gently slid against mine, making every thought in my head stutter, but there was no way I could forget about what he'd just done.

I broke away from him, breathing hard.

What the hell was wrong with him? How could he call his mother and throw everything in her face like that?

The goddamn alpha of the entire Valor pack had basically offered him a blank check – the entire fucking world on a diamond platter if that's what it took to get him to stay.

And Liam had refused her like it was nothing.

His eyes were such a dark red as he stared down at me but they glowed with this inner light…this motherfucker had cried for me.

An alpha—a legacy alpha got down on his knees with tears streaming down his face. For me. I don't know if he was even aware he was crying as he begged me not to leave and that somehow made it all feel more real than it would have if he was sobbing.

I was his home.

The skin of my cheeks burned with the heat of my own tears, but neither of them did anything about it this time. They didn't move a single muscle as I stared at Liam like he's lost his goddamn mind.

Who was I fucking kidding? He's always been like this. This man's been unhinged from day one and I really needed to stop being shocked when the crazy boy did crazy boy things.

Honestly, if I could accept that he was monitoring me, stalking me, tracking my phone, and torturing people in his basement because they tried to hurt me…why was this what had me speechless?

Why did him cutting ties with his pack actually shock me more than the fact that he's been hiding who he was?

All I did was give him a hypothetical situation and he instantly destroyed any possibility I might use that as an excuse to reject him.

Like it was nothing…and I was everything.

Somehow, he managed the impossible. Liam actually made me feel like I was the one with all the power even when I was the omega – like I was holding his leash and all I had to do was say the word and he'd rip apart all these stupid rules to give me the world I wanted.

With his teeth.

Liam would make the world bleed for me and I really, truly believed he would.

I was still breathing hard, trying to catch my breath as too many emotions to count rose and then fell.

Yeah, he didn't tell me who he was, but Liam was right. The morning we ran into each other for the first time in fifteen years was only hours after he found out his brother was dead. Murdered. That very same day I got sick.

There were times he could have mentioned it after that, but could I say I wouldn't have done the same thing if our roles were reversed? If he acted like he didn't want to be with me without pheromones giving me a chance?

Yeah, I was still pissed about it, but more than anything I was relieved. He knew everything. Saw all my crazy and didn't even blink. Liam knew who my father was and he was very aware that I wasn't quite…right.

"Can you really do this?" I asked, needing to be sure. "I refuse to end up in the same situation my father did. I'm an extremely clingy omega and I don't like being alone, but I don't like having to ask for attention either. I won't do it. What I need…one of you will always have to be by my side. Do you understand just how annoying that will be for you?"

The slow grin spreading across his face would terrify most people, but I couldn't fucking get enough of it because I knew exactly what it meant.

Liam loved how crazy I was.

"And I'm an extremely clingy alpha," he murmured, those dark red eyes full of so much hunger. "I need to see you looking at me – wanting me. The thought of being apart from you for even a second infuriates me. I won't do it. So, the real question is, can you handle it when we give you everything you want – all that you've asked for and all that you couldn't?"

The way he was looking at me right now was a warning. It didn't matter if I could handle it or not because he was going to give it to me anyway. I believed with all my heart and soul Liam would give me everything he could and more, but…

"How is this even going to work?"

Liam's arm flexed and he shifted his position until I was back in Cas's lap. "I'm pretty smart, you know. And currently unemployed. I'm sure the Genesis agency would give me a job."

Was he fucking serious? "But I already have a partner."

"Then I'll be your assistant." Liam nipped my jaw, his grin so wide I could see just how sharp his teeth were. "Even if the only thing I can do is drive you around all day, I'll do it."

I really needed to stop being shocked when the crazy boy said crazy shit.

"Maybe I'll just buy the agency so I can see you whenever I want." Liam sank his teeth into my bottom lip and I turned toward him on instinct, needing to kiss him, but he pulled away before I could. "You know exactly what I am…what I'm capable of. You should understand by now, Lucy. I'll do whatever you want me to because you're my whole fucking world."

Cas slid his arm around my waist and I leaned back against him, reaching back to hold onto his neck. I needed his comfort and security more than ever right now and even that was something Liam already knew or he wouldn't have placed me in his arms twice now…

Even when he wanted me so desperately I knew without a doubt he would have killed us both if I'd tried to walk out of this room and leave him.

It was fucked up, but I understood why. Just the thought of him taking his mother's offer to find another omega better suited to the Valor pack had me ready to rip his throat out if he so much as hinted he might take her up on it.

Liam knew what I needed, but… "What about Cas?"

I felt his lips against the back of my neck then and Cas let out a relieved sigh, but he didn't say anything – waiting for Liam to explain like they'd planned for this.

"Well, Cas needs to be needed. Don't you?" Those red eyes shifted to the alpha behind me when Cas let out a soft growl. "He may not be as desperate for your attention as I am, but don't let yourself believe he's not just as bad. He'll always be watching and lurking, waiting for you to look for him – to trust him with all your problems. It"s honestly the most endearing thing about him."

Why did I believe this would work? Why did I trust them not to leave me when I needed them most? Even after everything…I didn't doubt for a single second that either of them would rearrange their whole lives for me.

How could two alphas manage that? How did they circumvent everything I knew to be true to show me they could be different? They didn't just tell me either, they showed me.

Maybe it was the gleam of insanity I could see in Liam's eyes even now.

I turned my head and looked up at Cas, seeing the same gleam in his blue ones.

They were crazy, obsessive, needy, desperate…they loved the same way I did – viciously.

A fifteen-year-old promise one alpha spent every day trying to keep while the other did his very best to help him.

Cas may not have been there when we were kids, making memories with us, but he'd spent just as long looking for me as Liam had and it was so fucking romantic I couldn't stand it.

Turning back to Liam, I decided the logistics didn't matter anymore. I wanted them and their bonds. Our relationship was weird and fucked up but it was ours.

I loved them even when they pissed me off and I had no idea how I was supposed to live without them anymore. I didn't think I could. If they got up right now and told me just kidding I'd paint this room red and drown us all in their blood.

Reaching for Liam, I saw my fingers trembling but he didn't give me the time to freak out about that. He instantly moved forward and took my wrist, placing my hand against his cheek. His eyes were rimmed with unshed tears, making the red of his legacy genes shine even brighter.

It reminded me of that day we had to say goodbye so much I inhaled sharply, feeling the squeeze in my chest when it finally hit me. This was real.

"There's no turning back," I warned him. "You're mine. In every way. Even your breath belongs to me."

Tears spilled down Liam's cheeks again, but he was grinning so wide I knew we'd never have to say goodbye again.

Leaning forward, I licked those tears from his cheek and relished in the taste of salt. "I need your teeth in me. Deeply." I licked the other cheek and then took his face in my hands. "Slowly."

Brushing my lips over his, I licked inside his mouth so he could taste the salt on my tongue. "Sink your teeth in so hard you can feel the violence in my bond mark."

Liam held so still I didn't think he was even breathing but I could hear his heart pounding harder—faster.

Biting down on his bottom lip hard enough he hissed in a breath, I looked up into those gorgeous garnet eyes the same color of blood and knew I wanted him to ruin me.

I gave him a soft kiss and then turned around, taking Cas's face in my hands next. He looked just as shocked as Liam, searching my eyes like he couldn't believe what he was hearing.

Pressing my body against his, I shivered when I felt the bare skin of his chest, kissing him just as softly as I had Liam. "Remind me that my skin is fragile. My bones breakable…"

Each word slipped into Cas's mouth and I knew he could taste them. He swallowed them down and I breathed in the scent of his endless craving for my flesh. My soul.

"I need you to consume me—prove your love for me," I whispered. "Mark me as yours until I'm black and blue. I want the whole world to see how fiercely you love me."

They must have had the same exact thought at the same time because suddenly their hands were everywhere.

Cas's mouth crashed into mine, hard and unyielding. I couldn't hold back my soft moan – crying out when he bit my lip hard enough to draw blood. It felt so good with Liam at my back, his lips trailing across the nape of my neck as he dragged his teeth over the sensitive flesh.

Hands slid up my waist, over my ass, squeezing and caressing. I wasn't sure whose was whose and I didn't care, not when Cas was licking the blood from my lip, groaning as he sucked the tender flesh into his mouth. I gasped as he slid his hand up to rub his thumb over the barbell in my nipple.

Liam's breathing was harsh as he slid his hand between my legs to press his fingers to my clit. "Keep your eyes on him," he whispered against my neck. "I need to bond you so badly…I might accidentally eat you alive for real, but I want us both to be inside you when I do. I want to watch him mark you while I make you come and lick the blood from your skin. I want to paint those spider lilies red…"

God, everything he said was proof of just how feral he really was, but he whispered those words against my skin with such a soft, reverent cadence it felt like he was worshipping me in the only way he knew how, rubbing small circles into my clit from behind with just enough pressure to make me feral.

Cas pulled my shirt up and over my head, leaving me completely bare and I leaned back, letting him grip my thighs and yank them apart. I could barely feel the pain despite the bruises already forming on my skin.

All I could feel was hunger.