15. CAMILA

Chapter fifteen

CAMILA

My lips are thoroughly bruised by the time we reach their condo, Kolsen grunting when he has to tear his attention away from me to carry me up the stairs. No amount of protesting to stand on my own two feet works. When Amiri tells me to settle, I do—the other two catching onto what Amiri found out earlier. God, I'm not sure I will survive the kind of heat that these three men put me through with mere words and gestures.

They haven't even fucked me yet and I've been more thoroughly sated than I have been in years. I want to say that it's a mate thing but I'm positively sure that being the owners of a sex club helps. When Kolsen carries me over the threshold as we step off the elevator, I know I'm right. Their apartment reminds me of the entrance into a sex party, black and crimson covering most of the living room and kitchen. The walls are a cream that accentuates the dark themes but it's definitely a much darker aura in contrast with my mother's periwinkle than I'm used to.

Kolsen finally sets me down on a plush rug just outside a door off to the right of the living room. His broad shoulders block out the rest of the room, including Amiri nearly dragging Sasha down the hall to bed after dropping my bags by Kolsen's feet. I throw them a small smile, not completely understanding the dynamic I've walked into. Kolsen reaches around me to twist the doorknob as I really begin to see how much smaller I am than him.

"There's an attached bathroom with clean towels. If you need anything, just ask." He guides me into the room, one of those large hands splayed across my back as the other one carries my bags inside. I'm not sure what to do or say at this point. The ease of this budding relationship has turned awkward, my failures intruding on the romance I wanted to explore. It's also a lot to wrap my head around in just a day.

This morning I was yelling at Teo, refusing to be his pack Beta. Now, I'm in my mates' house, unsure if this is a temporary interest or if we've somehow jumped right into the ‘I want you forever' stage. I'm just moving through the motions as I stand by the queen mattress, staring down at the black duvet.

"Camila, you can't sleep in the dress."

"What? No. I know that."

My chaotic thoughts won't let me move, though. I'm trying to figure out what's going to happen tomorrow after work—after I realize I don't have a place to stay. And what about Teo? He's going to retaliate. I know him well enough that he won't wait for our fathers to talk it out. I'm not scared of the Alpha but I'm over him trying to physically worm his way back into my life.

"Let me help you, love." Kolsen's presence is suddenly behind me, the heat of his chest pressing up against my back. A heavy breath falls from my lips as my thoughts clear and the only thing on my mind is the Alpha behind me and his heavy rum scent. His hands settle on my shoulders, his thumbs fingering the straps. His head dips to my ear, his lips sucking the lobe into his mouth before he speaks. "Words, Camila. I need your words."

" Please. " Between Kolsen and Amiri, it is so easy to give in. To submit. To let them take charge. I realize it's because I feel safe with them. Their touch is firm but gentle. They'll take my no. And that's what I've been searching for all these years. A little excitement—hell, a lot of it—but at my pace and within my parameters.

Kolsen kisses my ear as he drags my straps down my shoulders. His hands then move to my chest before slipping to the sides of my dress to tug the entire fabric down my body. I clench my teeth, waiting for him to comment but there are no words between us. Just exploration. When the fabric bunches at my waist, Kolsen's hands cup my breasts through my bra, massaging them with those massive hands of his.

His lips dip to my neck, just above my scent gland as he nips and licks, heat building in my lower belly again. "You are absolutely gorgeous, Camila. Perfect for us." Kolsen's words come out in a purr as he continues down my torso. When he lightly grips my waist, the extra ring of skin fitting into his hands, I tense. Teo hated that part of me. He never explicitly told me to exercise but he told me that my size made me look like an Omega.

I'm taller than most of them—not Sasha, obviously—but I look a lot more like my mother and Ethan—Omegas—than Violet and Susie. "You don't have to-"

Kolsen's growl keeps me from finishing that sentence. "You won't stop me from loving every last part of you, Camila. Every. Last. Part. Besides, I love my women a little thick and you, love, are exactly that." He punctuates his words with a thrust against my ass, his full erection poking me in the back. "You are everything that I want, Camila. Do you hear me?"

"Ye-es?"

"Camila."

"Yes, I hear you. Fuck, I hear you."

He nibbles on my neck again as his fingers dig into my waist. "Say it again."

"I hear you?"

"No."

"Fuck?"

"Yes, it's like the sweetest poison on your lips. It sounds like honey and darkness at the same time. Goddess, I'm going to enjoy every last minute of this. I won't ask you into Sasha's nest until you're ready but know that you have a place there."

I shudder against him as he resumes peeling my dress down my body. "I've only known you for a day."

"And yet it feels like I've always known you. Where is this going, love? Tell me, do you want to crawl into bed and call it a night?" His purr turns into a rumble as he kisses down my neck before sucking my gland between his lips. "Or would you like to cross another thing off your list?"

My breath catches in my throat, his arm wraps around my stomach, his other hand slowly moving upward to encircle my neck. He angles my head to the side, giving him better access. I feel so small in his hands, so thoroughly protected in his hold. "What were you thinking of?"

"Just something to help you relax. Do you trust me?"

I do, strange as it is. "Yes, Alpha." The term of endearment comes as a surprise to me, Kolsen chuckling. The sound moves straight to my pussy, a gush of wetness coating my panties.

"Is that what feels comfortable for you, love? Calling me Alpha? "

It's not something I've ever entertained. There hasn't ever been an Alpha I've wanted to acknowledge like that. But with Kolsen? I think it will be. "I think so."

"Mmmm, you're so precious. Let's try something, alright?" I nod. "Just like what you did with Sasha and Amiri—tap me or say red if it becomes too much. If you're ever uncomfortable, then we'll stop." His voice is making me want to push back against him but his firm hold keeps me from moving.

"Yes, Alpha."

"I'm going to feel you enjoy my fingers in your tight cunt and you're going to tell me everything I'm doing to you."

My face flames at the thought of detailing what Kolsen is doing to me aloud but I'm also intrigued. I have no idea where this is on the list but at this point, I don't really care. "Okay." His arm tightens around my belly as my dress is finally shoved to the floor, leaving me only in my bra and panties. His free hand rests just over the hem of my panties, fingers playing with the fabric. I'm trying to stay present but his warmth wrapped around me is coaxing me into the same sensual spell Sasha had me under.

It might even be worse.

Then his fingers slip into the fabric before pressing against my clit. "What am I doing, love?" I squirm, embarrassed to say those words aloud. For too long, I've been told to keep from expressing myself—that my love of sex and exploration was a sin. Teo just told me that I'd never find an Alpha willing to give me those desires I held dear—that no one would give me that much attention when the alternative was having an Omega.

His finger disappears and I whimper at the loss of pressure. "My—clit. You were touching me," I finally push out. My body feels like it's on fire with a mixture of embarrassment and pleasure. When his touch returns, I feel like I've pleased my Alpha, especially when he whispers, ‘good girl' in my ear. Those thick digits move farther down and back as I grip his other arm, my head lulling back against his chest. "You're stroking me, Alpha."

"Goddess, you're soaked. Have you been thinking about this? Me touching you? The others pleasuring you? Love, we're going to spoil you with so much pleasure that your voice will be hoarse from calling out our names." His kisses return as his fingers dip inside my pussy, a moan falling from my lips.

"You're inside me." My voice is barely above a whisper, my mind trying to tell me that this is wrong. I met this Alpha this afternoon and he's somehow wrapped up my heart and stolen it along with the other two members of his pack. "Alpha," I whine, wanting more than just the tease of his fingers. "More please." I've never wanted to ask for anything during sex but this submissive attitude feels perfect with Kolsen.

"Since you asked so nicely," he purrs. He adds two more fingers and I gasp at the way my pussy stretches and then constricts around his digits.

"So full," I mumble. "You… you have four fingers inside of me, fucking me."

Kolsen laughs as he starts up a rhythm, my entire body moving with his shallow thrusts. I'm going to come like this, all over his hand. Sasha gave me the same treatment on the dance floor but this is somehow different. Not better but I crave both versions.

"This isn't full, love. Not even close. You'll be full when Amiri or I stuff our knot inside of you. You'll be full when we share all your pretty little holes until you have cum leaking from every orifice."

"Alpha, fuck, I'm going to come. I can't-" I cry out when his kisses turn to a sharp nip at my collarbone, an orgasm barreling through me. The thought of Amiri or Kolsen's knot isn't as terrifying as I thought it would be. Betas aren't made for an Alpha's knot but that hasn't stopped Betas from enjoying it.

I'm pretty sure Violet has more than once.

My hips buck against his hand as I ride out my pleasure, wishing that his fingers were just a bit longer. Soon. When I come down from my high, I find Kolsen whispering how good of a girl I am in between little kisses against my ear. He's holding me up in his arms, the Alpha not keen on letting me go. "Do you want me to shower with you or would you like to shower alone?"

I don't expect the question.

"I want to push you, Camila, not overwhelm you. This night is yours to direct, not mine to command." He twists me around in his arms, smiling down at me. "There will be nights like that, just not this one. Shower alone or together, love?"

"Um-"

There is no hesitation in his movements as he guides me to the attached bathroom and sits me on the toilet seat. Kolsen starts the water, testing the temperature before he returns to crouching in front of me. "Clean towels are on the rack behind me and your bags are by the bed. If you need anything, just come knock on the door at the end of the hall."

"It's that easy?" This Alpha just gave me an explosive orgasm and isn't trying to force himself on me to relieve the pressure in his pants or require that I shower with him.

"If you want it to be, Camila. And get all those awful thoughts out of your head. I will always respect your comfort levels. We might enjoy the kinkier parts of our club but not at the expense of consent and comfort. Goodnight, love. Sleep well."

And then he's gone .

A part of my heart leaves with him even though he's just down the hall.

Each one of them looked at me like I was a goddess, their own piece of beauty to worship. Sasha invited me into his nest, a decision that isn't made lightly. By the time I shower and return to the bed, donning one of my favorite large shirts to sleep in, I can't bear the emptiness that this room brings. Which is stupid. I met my mates twelve hours ago and somehow can't imagine sleeping in here all alone.

It's why I creep down the hall, my fist hovering inches from the door that Kolsen told me to approach if I needed something. The door swings open, Kolsen filling the frame. His crooked smile widens as he holds out his hand. "I was wondering if you would change your mind. Sasha was asking for you."

My brows arch as I take Kolsen's hand and he pulls me into the room. It's very different from the guest bedroom. While there is still a bed, it's perched in the corner. Half of the room is covered in a thick mattress, pillows and blankets covering most of the surface. I'm not sure what I expected Sasha's nest to look like but the dark theme seems to be Sasha's choosing and not completely his Alphas'.

Sasha pops up, reaching for me as I stumble into his nest. He crushes me against his chest as we lay down, Kolsen wrapping himself around my back and Amiri pressing against Sasha. The myriad of scents is just shy of overwhelming but I focus on how well I fit in between them. "Thought you wouldn't come, buttercup. I'm glad you did."

I angle my head up, Sasha taking the invitation to kiss me. It's soft and slow, both Alphas groaning as Sasha's tart scent sweetens.

"I'm glad I did too," I whisper before snuggling in closer.