Chapter 22

Posey

My thoughts dance in a tempest of apprehension and longing, swirling like leaves caught in a gusty wind. I can barely hold on.

I wasn't lying when I said I've never wanted anything like I want Ledger. It's the truth. A truth I've been fighting for weeks.

A truth I never fully wanted to admit because I knew we couldn't be together. I'm still not even sure about my future.

Bane could show up and carry me kicking and screaming back down the aisle. But I know one thing for certain, I won't be a virgin when he decides to sell me off.

My heart thumps wildly in my chest as I stare at Ledger.

He stands before me with nothing on, his big dick in his hand.

And it is huge.

It's definitely going to hurt, and I shy back on the bed, pushing further toward the headboard.

He reaches for my ankle, touching me lightly. "You trust me, right?"

I nod, my eyes connected with his. "Yes." I do trust this man. With every fiber of my being.

"I won't hurt you."

My heart flutters in my chest, and the bed dips as Ledger climbs over me. "I trust you," I whisper.

He cups my cheek, tracing my bottom lip with his thumb. "I'm so happy you're here right now."

"There's nowhere else I'd rather be."

He kisses me tenderly at first, but then the kiss grows into something more urgent. Something more passionate. There's a fire burning between us. An intensity.

It's raw.

It's not forced.

It's something I'll never be able to replicate with anyone else ever again. I nearly want to cry as Ledger holds me in his arms as he kisses me.

His hands move over my body. First my breasts, next between my legs. "You're so wet for me," he says, as if I would ever not be.

Since the first moment I saw him I knew he was the one for me. Ever just see a person and know? We connected on so many different levels, and now we're connecting on the ultimate level.

I spread my legs, wrapping them around his back as he runs his fingers through my wetness. My heart thumps a steady rhythm, but it picks up the longer he touches me.

"Ah, please," I beg of him, pleading with him to take me.

"I'll give you everything you need, Posey." His eyes meet mine. "I'm going to go as slow as possible, but I don't know how long I'll be able to go slow."

"Why?" I blink at him.

"Because I've wanted you for so long. My cock is ready to explode and I haven't even gotten inside you yet."

This warms me up, his dirty words. "Go as hard as you want, Ledger. I'm yours."

His eyes light on fire as he stares at me, registering my words. I want him to know he owns me. And I want this to be good for him too. I want him to enjoy himself.

He uses two fingers to spread me open, and places the head of his dick there. He slides inside, an inch at a time, and I breathe in through my nose, trying to accept the size of him.

"You're too big," I whine, not sure if this is a good idea anymore.

"Look at me, Posey," he says and our eyes meet. "Just keep looking at me." He thrusts his hips gently, pushing in even further, and I keep my eyes on him the entire time.

There's so much trust there.

So much desire.

This man truly wants me, and I can see it written so clearly all over his face. And then I can see the pain there. How he's struggling to go slow. The need to go faster as he pushes deeper inside me, and I spread my legs further apart, wanting to accept him in.

Wanting to give this man every part of me.

"Take me, Ledger," I say, wanting him to move quicker.

He stares down at me. "This is going to sting a little, baby," he says, and punches his hips forward as he eradicates my virginity. He stills, so I can acclimate to his size, and then he kisses my cheek. "Are you okay?" he asks me.

I know this is a good man.

Bane wouldn't care about asking me how I'm handling anything. Neither would the prick who would buy me from their auction.

I nod, and give him a soft smile. "I'm not going to break," I tell him, and once again his eyes darken at my words.

He gives me a tiny smirk, and says, "Then I'm going to fuck you until you do."

My legs squeeze around his body tighter as I rake my nails down his back. My insides turn to liquid lava as he thrusts a little harder this time, testing to see how well I handle it. The more he moves the better the sensation is for me, until I'm meeting him thrust for thrust.

"Is this what you wanted?" he asks me.

I nod.

"Then take it." He pushes deeper inside me, filling me completely up.

I can barely breathe correctly as he pumps faster. This is what I wanted. To watch this man take me. All of me.

No holding back.

No thinking about anything but the here and now.

No thinking at all.

Just living in the moment. Feeling every sensation.

And there're so many sensations coursing through me.

My body climbs to a precipice, and I keep thrusting my hips, needing to be closer to him as my body builds and builds.

My orgasm is so close, and Ledger moves his hand between our bodies so he can toy with my clit.

That sets me off, and the next thing I know is colors explode behind my vision as my body tumbles, catapulting toward the best orgasm I've ever had in my life.

I hold onto Ledger like he's my lifeline, as he whispers in my ear, "That's it. Take my cock. Come all over me."

And I do. I keep coming. Falling. Living.

I keep doing it all as Ledger pounds away inside me. His eyes crash into mine as soon as I reach the height of my orgasm, and the feeling of something deep overwhelms me.

I'm in love.

It's crazy but it's true. This man that I've only known for a handful of days has consumed me. His soul is now a part of my soul, and I don't ever want to lose him.

I can't lose him.

He brushes back my hair as he holds himself up with the other. "You're so beautiful. I'm going to come," he tells me, and before I can even register, he pulls out of me, and strokes his dick until there's a sea of white heat landing all over my stomach.

I watch his face as he comes, and it's the most exquisite thing I've ever seen. He's beautiful. He really is.

I see him for what he truly is.

My protector.

My everything.

He owns me.

He stares down at the mess he's made, and beams, his eyes meeting mine. "You've completely ruined me," he says, smearing his finger into his seed, and bringing it to my lips. "Taste me. Taste what you do to me."

I open my mouth, letting Ledger stick his finger into it. It tastes salty, but I suck his finger into my mouth, wanting to taste all that he is. His very essence. I want him to know I'd do anything he ever asks of me.

"I want to take care of you," he says, moving off the bed to head into his ensuite bathroom. He comes out with a warm washcloth, and cleans me up.

Then he reaches for my hand. He leads me into the bathroom, and over to the big Roman tub. He draws me a bath, adding some scented soap that explodes in tiny bubbles.

"Are you giving me a bubble bath?"

"Let me take care of you, Posey. I don't know what happened today, but I know it must have been something bad for you to be here right now."

I look down at my toes, the French pedicure staring back at me. "I need to tell you things."

He looks up at me, climbing into the tub first. "I know you do. Come," he says, and it's not a command. More of a plea. Like he wants to know everything going on in my life, and I know I need to tell him all the things.

But I don't know how he'll react. I don't want him to think I've used him to take my virginity. I also don't know what he'll do to Bane.

If there's even anything we can do at all.

Bane's powerful, and I'm scared by running from our wedding that I've just sentenced everyone I care about to death.

I get into the tub, leaning my back along Ledger's front. I sit between his legs, and he takes a sponge off a nearby shelf and soaks it into the water. He traces it across my shoulders, and I close my eyes.

"Talk to me," Ledger says low near my ear. "Let me help you."

I lean against his rock-solid chest, and close my eyes. A single tear trickles down my cheek, and I know Ledger can't see my face, but still he wraps his arms around me as if he can. Like he knows how I'm feeling without me even telling him.

And maybe he does.

Maybe he's known all along.

"I never wanted to marry Bane."

Ledger doesn't say a word, just keeps running the loofah over my chest and stomach.

I shake my head. "I've gotten myself into a terrible mess, and I don't see any way out of it," I tell him, my lower lip shaking with fear.

"Start at the beginning," he says.

"My mother hauled ass when I was young, and my father was all I had. He stepped up where most men would have just crumbled instead. He tried to raise me best he could, but he was always so broke. We were always so poor. He started gambling and before I knew it, he had worked up quite the debt."

"To Bane?" Ledger asks, obviously seeing where this story is going.

I nod. "Yes," I whisper. "To Bane."

Ledger blows out an audible breath. "So, you're marrying Bane to pay off your father's debt?"

I nod again. "Yeah."

"I can pay it off," he says, and I want to turn around and kiss this man.

I do.

I place my hand on his arm. "I know Bane won't go for that. I humiliated him today. He told me he no longer cares about the debt."

Ledger kisses the back of my neck. "I know. It was worth a try."

I want to tell him how much I love him for trying. "Today, I realized I couldn't do it. Father Carmichael helped us. My father's hiding at the church. And as I was leaving, I overheard Bane speaking to somebody in his office." I spin around to look Ledger in the eyes. "He plans on selling me to pay off his own debt. He said he'd get top dollar for a virgin."

Ledger's eyes grow wild. "Fucking asshole. I'll never let him get away with that."

I kiss his lips. "Maybe you could offer to buy me," I say, knowing it would never work.

"I'd do it in a heartbeat if I thought Bane would ever go for it."

I shake my head, tears racing down my cheeks. "I just don't know what to do."

Ledger wraps his arms around me. "We'll think of something. You know Bane will be searching for your father, and you. It won't take long before he finds you both."

I straddle Ledger's lap. "I know." I kiss his soft lips once more. "Ledger, I'm scared."

He wraps me into his arms, his body growing hard beneath me. "I won't let anyone hurt your father, or you."