Chapter 16 - Joyce

No, no, this can’t be happening, I screamed inside my head. Turning swiftly, I moved to the room where I stayed before. I was horrified to hear he was also part of the Bratva world. I have heard so many stories of people like him. How could I have gotten myself involved with someone like him?

Slamming the door shut, I locked it before falling on the bed. Tears streamed down my face. As I lay there trying to grasp all Anton had just shared with me, I felt my chest closing. Angst filled my body as I recalled how the other man treated me. Rubbing my cheek, stung as the swelling from his hit hadn’t gone down yet.

Sitting up, I looked at the door. No, Anton was one of the bad guys, I told myself as I went to the bathroom and rinsed my face. Looking into the mirror, I swung around, sure I had seen someone in the window. But there was no one outside.

I walked closer to the window and looked around. It was early morning, but the sun was high enough to light up the world. Everything was quiet and undisturbed outside. Breathing out heavily, I went back to the room and sat down on the bed.

How could I not have seen it? I knew what Jax had done; the family spoke openly about the sighs. Yet, Anton didn’t show any of them, or I missed it. I was enchanted. His charismatic nature, broad shoulders, and perfect build.

I thought this was what living a closed-in life did to me as I rose from the bed. Standing by the window, I admired the birds flying in two groups overhead. They were free from all the troubles life held. I wished I was one of them. I would fly away, leaving all my issues behind.

A knock at the door startled me, and I let out a small scream. “Joyce,” Anton’s voice boomed through the door as he started banging on it. “Joyce, are you okay?”

I was still jumpy and filled with angst, but knew I couldn’t stay in here alone. I was scared and having him as company might just ease my fears. Moving to the door, I reluctantly unlocked it. “I’m fine,” I replied in a soft tone.

“Want something to eat and maybe watch a movie,” he called back.

Walking out, I followed him to his room. “Get comfortable and I’ll get the ice cream,” he said, walking back to the kitchen. My stomach was still churning, and I felt sick. Maybe ice cream would be good, I thought.

I sat on the side of the bed as he came back. Anton placed the ice cream down on the bedside table. He fluffed up the pillows and stood back, smiling. “Right, try that,” he said.

Leaning back, I had to admit that it was comfortable. He handed me the bowl and a spoon. “Enjoy,” he added, taking a seat on the floor by the foot end of the bed. He skipped a couple of channels and put on a comedy.

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“Anton,” I said as the movie ended before he could play another one.

He turned to face me, smiling broadly as he spoke. “Yes, you need anything?”

“No,” I replied, shaking my head. “I thought there is no need for you to be uncomfortable tonight. You can sleep with me in your bed. But please, don’t try anything.”

He nodded without hesitation. “Yes, mam, thank you. One more before we turn in?”

I laughed at his reply but found it charming. “Okay, one more,” I acknowledged.

Once the movie was done, I felt drained even though we spent the day relaxing. He lent me a pair of slacks and a T-shirt to sleep in. After a nice bath, I crawled into his bed while he used the bathroom.

I was practically asleep when I felt him getting in on the other side. “Good night, Joyce,” I heard him whispering as sleep took me.

Opening my eyes, I felt Anton’s hand on my hip. Staring at the window, I noticed it was still early. The sun had just begun waking the world. Picking up his hand carefully, I turned to my back. I placed his hand down on the bed beside me.

Anton was lying on top of the covers. He wasn’t wearing a shirt, and I could see all the bulges of his perfectly formed chest and abs. Studying him as he slept, my eyes wandered lower as I followed the line down his abs.

I was surprised to see he was still sleeping, but his cock appeared to be awake. It was pulling the boxers he had on taut. A sudden influx of heat rose within me. Carefully, I sat up and shifted to sit against the headboard. I could feel my hormones working as sexual hunger grew inside of me.

No matter how hard I tried diverting my gaze, I couldn’t stop staring. I had never seen one in real life, only in movies and the educational material used in school. As I sat staring, I didn’t realize he had woken up. I was so deep in thought that he startled me when he spoke. “See something you like?” he asked, grinning widely.

“Uhm…” was the only sound coming out of my mouth as I tried to speak. I felt strangely guilty and didn’t know what to say. My insides were doing somersaults, and my mind went blank.

Anton sat up and shifted towards me. As he put his hand on my leg, my body tingled. An amazing sensation ran through me, and I felt my pussy pumping. It was an odd feeling but delightful.

“See,” he said, squeezing my thigh. I promised you nothing would happen, and nothing did.”

I looked at his hand and back at his face. He looked so good even though he had just woken up. My mind and body were swimming in new waters as my body flooded with hormones. I fought to keep control, to not lean in and kiss him. Every inch of me was calling out as desire snuck in.

His grin turned into a tender smile as he shifted closer. Feeling like I was about to burst, I gave in to the hunger inside and leaned closer. I moved quickly, our lips barely touching as I kissed him and pulled back. I felt like a naughty teenager and knew my parents would disapprove.

Anton lifted his hand and stroked my cheek, sending a sharp shiver down my spine. Closing my eyes, I felt his fingers tenderly moving into the nape of my neck. I felt his breath on my face as he pulled me towards him. Then our lips met as he kissed me back.

My body was screaming, and my mind felt like it was melting as strong desires pushed through me. Opening my eyes and pulling back, I stared into his mystical gray eyes. He sat upright, moving closer, and he placed both hands on my neck.

Pulling me back to him, Anton kissed me more sensually. I felt his hands softly moving down my back as our mouths explored each other. Placing my hands on his shoulders, I couldn’t resist trailing them over his chest. He firmly took hold of my hips, and I gasped as my senses lit up.

Anton lifted me as he turned on the bed, placing me on his lap. Feeling his bulge pulsing between my legs drove my desire even more. I felt my pulsing pussy warming. His hands came back to the front, and he started unbuttoning the shirt I was wearing.

“Anton,” I breathed out into his mouth, not wanting any distance between us.

“Yes,” he replied softly as his mouth moved down my cheek to my neck. He tenderly moved his hands over my shoulders, pulling off the shirt. A cool breeze blew in through the window, prickling my nipples.

My body shook as his hands closed over my breasts. My breathing was jagged as I leaned back, placing my arms on the bed behind me. “We shouldn’t,” I managed to get out between heavy breaths.

Closing my eyes, I leaned my head back, absorbing every touch. I felt his mouth close over my breast as he sucked at my nipple. I shook in his hands, feeling slightly numb with pleasure. Pulling back, he spoke as he licked the other nipple. “We can stop if you want.”

He lightly squeezed my breasts as he placed tender kisses between them. “No,” I huffed out. I didn’t want to; my desire for him was too strong. Anton’s hands moved around to my back as he pulled me to him.

Opening my eyes, I stared into his, feeling lost, begging to be rescued. He kissed me softly as he spoke. “Are you sure?”

Where our skin touched, it felt like fire. My body was a burning inferno, and he was the solution. “Yes,” I breathed out heavily, placing my hands around his neck.

Anton hugged me tightly as he lifted me and turned. He lay me down, staring deep into my eyes. “You are amazing,” he huffed as he pushed himself up. He covered my body in kisses as he moved down over my breasts and stomach.

Grabbing hold of the sheets beside me, I moaned, filling with sensual tingles as he went. As he got to the top of my pants, he stopped. Glancing down, he smiled up at me. “You sure?” he asked softly.

I nodded my head and licked my lips. “Yes, I am.”

His hands curled around the sides of the pants. Laying back down and closing my eyes, I felt exhilarated. Anton pulled down the pants and my panties slowly and tenderly, placing a kiss on each hip as he went.

Once he got to my knees, he lifted my legs, and I brought them together so he could pull the clothing off completely. Even though my body was flooded with adrenalin and I wanted him, a small part of me wasn’t sure.

Closing my eyes, I turned my head to the side as I pulled my legs up to my chest. I felt Anton move on the bed and was slightly startled when he touched the side of my face. Opening my eyes, I saw he was lying next to me.

He caressed my cheek as he spoke. “What’s wrong? Did I do something wrong? If you want to stop, we can?”

“No,” I breathed out. “It’s nothing you did, and I want to. It’s just…,” breathing in deeply, I wasn’t sure how to tell him. But I knew I had to. “Well,” I continued. “It’s just that I’ve never been with a man before.”

Anton smiled and kissed me before replying. “You’re so innocent, and it makes you cute. I promise it won’t hurt, you will enjoy it, and you can trust me. But if you’re not ready, that’s fine too.”

Smiling, I nodded as I spoke. “I want to.”

Leaning closer, he kissed me softly before moving to my neck. “I’ll take it slow,” he said before getting onto his hands and knees over me. Anton covered my body in kisses, fueling the fire burning inside me.

With every touch, kiss, and lick he gave, my body twitched and shook. Before I knew it, he was sitting between my legs touching my pussy. His fingers gently trailed up and down the sides and then the middle. I didn’t stop him or try to push him away, as it felt amazing.

The more he touched me, the warmer I was getting, the more I wanted him. I wanted to feel him inside of me. I tried keeping my breathing steady but failed. It sounded as if I was running a marathon, breathing in and out hard and quickly. I was panting.

Feeling his head move in between my legs, I gasped. His tongue moved up and down and then into my pussy. Moaning, I grabbed his head, pushing my fingers through his hair. “Oh, baby,” I moaned loudly.

I had never felt so alive, every inch of me was alert and reacting to his every move. He licked a couple more times and moved faster with each stroke. Shaking my head, I kept my scream inside. I couldn’t decide if I wanted to spread my legs wider or clamp them around his head.

My body was shaking of its own accord. I no longer had control. Then he pulled back and slowly moved up to my face leaving warm kisses all over me as he went. His lips found mine and were locked in a passionate kiss for a moment. He gently lowered himself onto me, and I could feel his stiff cock between my legs.

Anton pulled my one leg up, so it was bent next to us as he spoke. “Are you enjoying yourself?”

Nodding, I replied between jagged breaths. “Yes, I am.”

As I finished answering, I felt him pushing his stiff cock into me. I inhaled sharply as a soft stabbing sensation ran through me. Anton caught my breath as he closed his mouth over mine. He kissed my cheeks and moved to my neck as he slowly moved in and out.

I felt my body relaxing as the sensation changed. With every move, I felt my desire returning. His dick was vibrating inside me as he moved. Wrapping my legs around him, I pulled him closer as I pushed my fingers into his hair.

With every pump and kiss, my body shook as it filled with warmth and pleasure. I felt him increasing the pace as my breathing hastened. My body was clenching and releasing; I felt like I was drifting on clouds.

As my body finally released in a perfect climax, I screamed with pleasure. Anton moved a couple of times more, penetrating me harder and faster before his body started shaking like mine.

He collapsed onto me, struggling to catch his breath. Lowering my legs to the bed, I felt them still shaking. Anton pushed himself up and kissed me tenderly before getting up. Pulling the sheets up, I watched as he grabbed his pants and headed to the bathroom. I heard the water running a while before it turned off, and he came waltzing back into the room.

“Breakfast,” he said, walking out and leaving me where I was naked in his bed. I was still trying to absorb everything when he returned and handed me a cup of coffee. “I think today we’ll stay in,” he said, walking to the door. Turning back, I noticed he was beaming. “We’ll order take-out and see what’s on. How does that sound?”

Nodding, I placed the cup down. Grabbing the sheet, I pulled them around me as I got up. “Sure,” I replied, heading to the bathroom.

Anton smiled and left. On the vanity, I found clean pants and a shirt he had left for me. After taking a quick shower, I dressed and went to the kitchen.

We spent the rest of the morning watching movies. I napped while he popped out for about two hours after lunch. He returned with takeaways for supper. We watched another two movies before turning in for the evening. Anton lay behind me, holding me tightly in his arms.

I breathed deeply, smiling as I felt safe in his embrace. I would never have thought I could feel this way about any person.