Chapter 8

Breaker - Three Months Later

I listenas Snake goes over the next club run, which, thankfully, I don"t have to attend. The thought of being away from my Goldie and Noah that long gives me hives. This time, though, Sniper and Tats, who barely comes to the club unless it"s for club business, is going along with Snake. They"ll be meeting with the Untamed MC, who're going with them to Wincher, Louisiana, to meet up with the Rebel"s. Then, all together, they will head to Washington, taking the "packages" to the Huntsmen MC. They'll be gone for about two weeks. Axel"s old lady is due to give birth next month, and he wants to do a double load of ammo, meaning more men, which he hasn"t got spare, with kids popping out left, right, and center at his club. Snake volunteered and was happy to help our club's allies, especially when they helped us when needed.

"The plan is to make it like a poker run, hopefully, fooling the law. We"ll stop several times on the way, ensuring to raise money for the small hospitals around the state."

Smokey continues, "Basically, it is a poker run. We"re just killing two birds with one stone. It also means we"ll have a few months" rest before the next run."

Everyone nods in understanding as Snake looks over our expressions, making sure we"re happy, which we are, before going on to the club's legit businesses. He looks at his blood brother, Sniper, first, asking, "How"s the garage doing?"

I zone out as Sniper talks about the business as my girl comes to mind.

The more I"m with her, the fucking harder I fall. She feels something for me but won"t admit it. She"s still a little closed off, not willing to open up to me, and when I mention her family, she completely shuts me down, and afterward, she"ll zone off for a little while.

I know she"s struggling without them around, yet she won"t explain why. I could ask Jack, but I"d be going behind her back, and I don"t need to give her any excuses to end us, especially when I know she struggles with trust. She looks uneasy most of the time, always questioning my actions if I do something nice for her, and don"t get me started when I look at a woman for too long. She"ll furrow her brows, and normally, I"ll only look because they're speaking to me. I talked to Ken about it that first night I slept with Quinn, and she helped open my eyes a little.

My girl has been through something, but what, I don"t know….

I slowly run my fingers through my girl"s hair as she sleeps. Her head is on my chest, her leg is thrown over my waist, and her hand is on my heart.

Fuck, this is the best feeling in the world.

I get the meaning of my dad"s words. I understand them, and the feeling Crow said he felt for Momma, that urge to have her near always. I know I"ve met my one; now I need to convince her I'm hers.

I place my nose on the top of her head, and I'm inhaling her vanilla scent, trying to figure out how to keep her settled with me without scaring her off when my phone buzzes. I furrow my brows when I see it"s past eleven in the evening. I carefully grab my phone, concerned it"s about Noah.

I grin when I look at the screen, see the caller ID, and quickly answer it.

"Well, if it isn"t the world"s best NICU nurse," I say, making her laugh.

"Not yet I"m not," she replies.

I hum, slowly moving my fingers up and down my girl"s back. "But you will be, so don"t doubt yourself, Ken, you"re pushing yourself to greatness. I know you"re probably tired, but you"re doing good, I promise. And the fact they chose you for that job proves how amazing you are."

She sighs. "I"m sorry. I"m not trying to put myself down, I swear. It"s been a hard day."

I furrow my brows at her sadness and plead, "Talk to me, Kennedy…."

She sniffles, and I tense, causing Quinn to stir. I move my hand back to her hair, running my fingers through it, making her settle.

After a moment, Ken says, "We lost a preemie today, and it was hard. It"s the first baby I"ve lost since being here, and I guess I just miss home. I miss you and Noah and Lola."

I sigh. "I"m sorry, Ken…. It"s a tough job, a job I know you can do because you're fucking awesome. And maybe try giving Lola a call? I know she misses you and she's hurt you haven"t called. And if you"re homesick, I"ll pack Noah up and come see you, I"ll even bring my girl for you to meet."

I grin as I add Quinn in at the end and wait for Ken's reaction. Every time we"ve spoken, it"s been a rush. Either she"s on her way to work, or I"m at the strip club working. Noah talks to her the most. Sniper told me she hasn't been in contact with him much lately, but I know it"s because she"s been busy. He believes she wants to cut ties with us, but she doesn"t, well, she does with Doc, but that"s about it.

My cousin has gone through hell, and as far as I"m concerned, Doc can fuck off. He"s a brother and my friend, but he"s not good enough for Ken, and I"ve told him several times to his fucking face since punching him.

"I can"t call Lola. I refuse to make her choose between me and her brother. I regret even telling her about us, and I would love for you and Noah to come here, even just for the weekend, and to meet…." She pauses a moment before whispering, "Did you just say you have a woman?"

I grin, placing my nose against my girl"s head and admitting lowly, "I have. It turns out Noah decided I suited his teacher."

Kennedy gasps. "Oh my God! You and Quinn Sanders, really?"

I chuckle. "Yeah, little cuz. I took one look at her and knew she was supposed to be mine. Tonight, she finally agreed to move out of the dating zone and become official, though I do believe I have a fight on my hands to keep her."

Kennedy hums and states, "Quinn is amazing. She went to school with Violet, Lola, and me. She always kept to herself, but she was sweet and kind of closed off. I think something happened that traumatized her and caused her not to want to commit to anyone, even in friendship. The number of boys she told to get lost was unbelievable. Please don"t give up on her, Alex. She"ll push you away; I saw it a lot in school. You need to show her that you"re willing to fight, unlike everyone else in her life."

I nod, grateful for her words, and say, "I miss you…." to her as Quinn moves her head, looking up at me. I smile at the sleepy look she"s supporting.

Fuck me, she"s beautiful.

Kennedy chuckles. "You miss my wisdom, huh?"

I smile as I trace Quinn"s lips. She furrows her brows at the phone, most likely because she can hear the woman on the other end.

I hum and admit, "Of course, I miss your wisdom. You got me out of a lot of shit growing up." Kennedy laughs, and I smile as I put the phone on speaker. "Say hi to my girl, Ken…."

She chuckles again. "Hi Quinn, how"s that boy of mine doing? Is he as smart as me?"

Quinn grins wide and says sleepily, "Well, up until a month ago, he was getting in-between me and any man that would speak to me. And right before his dad asked me out, he poured paint over a teacher's pants, who then slipped, and Noah decided to pour the paint over the teacher's head, too. He"d asked me out for drinks, and Noah disagreed, but he"s definitely smart, maybe Violet smart. Though, with his pranks, we need to watch him."

Kennedy is silent for a moment before she cackles down the phone, making me shake my head as Quinn"s body shakes with silent laughter.

Yeah, she can laugh about it now, but when my son was pulling pranks, she struggled to keep her composure, needing to act professionally.

Kennedy says, "Oh God, I wish I"d seen it."

Quinn grins, admitting, "I have a camera pointing at the classroom door, I"ll send you the footage."

Kennedy celebrates, and I just chuckle.

The girls talk for five minutes, catching up on the people from school and what they"re up to as I play with my girl"s golden hair.

Fuck, it"s soft.

Kennedy yawns, bringing my attention back to them, and she says, "Okay, I"m off. Thank you both for distracting me from my awful day."

I grin and state, "Anything for my favorite cousin," making Quinn"s eyes widen in shock as Ken laughs.

"I"m your only cousin, dumbass. Quinn, we"ll talk soon. Send my love to Noah, Ale,x and tell him I"ll call on Saturday. Love you."

"Alright, will do. Love you, too," I reply before she hangs up, and I smile at Quinn, then place my phone back on the charging pad. She raises a brow at me, and I nod, admitting, "Her momma is my aunt, my dad"s sister. Their parents disowned him when he joined the MC, knowing this was the path he wanted, Ken"s momma followed her parents. She turned into a bitch, while my grandparents were extremely sorrowful after learning my father had died from cancer. They left Ken and me a trust that neither of us have touched yet, and that her mother knows nothing about. No one knows we"re related, either."

Quinn nods, her brow still furrowed as she asks, "Her momma?"

And I smile, slowly gliding my finger along her brows, "Yeah…. Things wouldn"t go well if she knew Ken had access to us, so we kept it a secret. I won"t tell anyone until she"s ready."

Confusion laces her beautiful dark blue eyes as she remembers, "But you"ve told me; you put her on speaker."

I nod. "Because I know you have trust issues, and I"m not willing to lie to you, Quinn." I hold her tighter and admit, "I know it"s scary, and I know I"m going in headfirst with us, but fuck, Goldie, I"m falling for you. I need you to understand where I stand and why I wanted to go exclusive with you. You"re turning into my whole world, and I need you to trust me, and in doing so, I"m trusting you with the one secret no one knows about. Ken is allowing it, knowing what you mean to me."

She tears up. She nods, finally letting the truth of my feelings hit her. She leans up and presses her lips against mine before rasping, "I"m falling for you, but I"m scared."

I smile, kiss her lightly, and say, " Let me catch you, Goldie…. I promise I won"t drop you."

After a long moment of staring into my eyes, she nods, and then kisses me again. I relax, kissing her harder as she lifts herself up, straddling me. The head of my hard cock hits her entrance as she slowly slides down, swallowing me whole.

"Breaker, how"s Devil"s Temptation?" Snake asks, bringing me out of my head. My body needs my girl. I sigh, running a hand through my hair.

"The business is great. Business is booming?—"

Doc cuts in, "Then what"s the problem? Because brother, you don"t look like a happy man with a booming business or a woman who looks at you like you shine the moon."

I snort but grin. Three months later, and my girl finally let all her walls down. She"s become my everything. She puts me and Noah first, and I couldn"t be fucking happier. Heck, I"ve even started slowly moving her in with Noah"s help. He"ll go into her apartment when she takes him home, and packs some of her stuff in his school bag.

My girl hasn"t noticed yet, but I don"t think she"ll care. She spends most nights with me anyway, cooking us dinner when I"m late, bathing Noah, and putting him to bed. Fuck, even Momma asked Quinn to call her Momma after they met the morning after Quinn and I slept together the first time.

Things are fucking great, and honestly, I love her. I love her so much I"m scared of losing her.

I clear my throat before reporting, "Angel decided to fuck Bunny"s husband." All eyes widen, and I nod, continuing, "Yeah, in the fucking dressing room. The man had just come when his wife, who only works with us to pay off his gambling debts with the casino in town, walked in, and instead of running off crying like I thought she would, I ran into the dressing room to see Bunny beating the shit out of Angel while Jake stood back watching his wife with wonder and awe. The fucking idiot tried to hug her but ended up coughing blood on the floor—that"s how hard she kneeled him in the balls. So now I"m not just one dancer down, I"m down two. Bunny told Jake she wants a divorce and to pay his own debt, and then she quit. And Angel broke several rules, so I had to fire her."

The brother"s mouths drop open, and I sigh. "Can we get the patching done, because my fucking head hurts, and I really want to have a drink before bed. The sooner I sleep, the sooner my girl gets here."

The brothers laugh at that, knowing I hate being away from Quinn, and Tats grins. He loves my girl; they get on like a house on fire, and he"s opened his arms to her. To him, she"s like his little sister.

Half an hour later, Liam has been patched in. I"m sitting at the bar, mumbling about my girl and how I distract her too much for her to do her lesson planning here, making Snake laugh at my sorry ass as everyone celebrates around me.

Let"s face it, she"s also nervous around the brothers. They know it, and I know it.

I miss her, and she knows it too.

My Goldie: Sweet dreams, Alex. I"ll be round first thing, promise xxx

I swear I need to move her in.

I sigh as Crystal hands me a glass of water, and I smile in thanks. I pick it up as I head to my room here at the club. Noah is with Momma tonight because she demanded grandson time. I place the glass on my nightstand before undressing and taking a leak.

Cracking my neck, I grab the glass and down it with an Advil, knowing after the few shots I"ve had, I"ll end be hungover in the morning. I climb into bed, wishing I was climbing in next to my woman.

Hearing a gasp, I wake groggily. An arm is clutching my waist, making me furrow my brows.

Didn"t Quinn say she was staying at her place?

I open my eyes…. Something is not right. I squeeze them shut tight and groan at the throbbing behind them.

What the fuck?

I open them again and look at the doorway. I freeze at the sight of my girl who has tears running down her beautiful cheeks. The arm around my waist tightens, and I look to my left to see Jingles lying next to me naked. I look down and notice a condom on my flaccid cock, before looking back at Quinn in horror.

I have no memory of the night before or how I ended up in bed with a fucking bitch. My heart races, but the pain in my woman"s eyes physically kills me.

She shakes her head, her eyes hardening, as the wall I"ve spent four fucking months breaking down snaps right back into place. She turns and runs.

Fuck!