Chapter 1

Breaker – 27 Years Old

I smileas Addison slowly glides her nail along my forearm, tracing Noah"s name, which is tattooed diagonally in old English lettering. Tats, my club brother, did it for me.

Addison's brown eyes shine with lust.

We"ve been dating for about five months, and she"s nice. There"s something there, at least I think there is.

Fuck….

Something isn"t right. Crow mentioned maybe I feel off because I haven"t introduced Noah to her yet. She"s the first girl I"ve dated since he was born two years ago. I"ve ensured he"s always put first, and I"ve put this meeting off for a while.

I fucking love that boy to bits. When the DNA came back stating he was mine, my momma was standing there right next to me, telling Jingles exactly how things were going to go, and she had rules to follow; one of them is that Noah is not to be left alone with her.

I don"t trust the bitch as far as I can throw her.

Jingles was pissed, realizing she wasn"t getting my patch or a cent from me because I have full custody, a judge on our payroll ensured it before she even gave birth. She continues to be pissed because she"s on the no-go list. She cleans the clubhouse, cooks the food, and gets half of her wages for it, the other half paying for her food and board, but that"s it. No brother will touch her, and she hates it, and has only stayed because she has nowhere else to go.

Her plan failed epically. She clearly did not look too closely at Snatch"s situation, who is Tats" egg donor. He has nothing to do with her, despite her still being in the club.

I call bullshit shit.

I give Add a smile. Jingles won't interact with Noah. The most interaction they had was when the nurse put him on her chest, and she shouted for them to remove him. Ken grabbed him instantly.

"I"ve missed you today, baby. Why don"t we go to your room?" I raise a brow at Addison"s low whisper as she bites her bottom lip seductively, and…nothing. I feel fucking nothing.

I lean forward, making her eyes brighten, but they dim, as I say, "We"re here for you to finally meet Noah, Add. Be patient, yeah?"

She clears her throat and nods before I peck her lips, making her smile.

Yep, nothing, I feel absolutely nothing. The feeling my dad said that he felt for my momma, that she consumed him with every touch, and now the way Crow mentions the tingling sensation he gets whenever she's near….

And I feel nothing….

"Dadda…." I hear a screech, making me turn to the door in time to see my perfect boy, who is thankfully my double, gingerly rushing toward me on his two little legs. His black hair is all over the place, and his green eyes shine as Ken rushes after him, giggling. I notice Doc in my side view, watching her with longing, making me want to snort.

"Noah, slower, pickle…" Ken calls, making me chuckle as she catches him right before he faces plants on the wooden flooring.

I shake my head and stand as Jingles, who is on a very fucking thin line, sneers in his direction, making me bark, "Jingles, out now!" This causes her to jump and rush out of the room in time for Noah to jump from Kennedy"s arms and into mine, and I chuckle at Ken"s flustered gasp.

"Have you been running Auntie Ken ragged, bud?"

He giggles as Ken shakes her head, small pieces of her black hair with the blue dip dye falling out of the messy knot on top of her head.

"He"s been an angel, as always…."

I give her a grin knowing she"s bullshitting. The boy is a handful. You take one eye off him, and paint is covering your floors. I should fucking know.

Noah places his head into my neck, making me sigh in contentment, holding him close.

Ken's eyes soften as Addison clears her throat and states, "No offense, Kendell, but you being all over my boyfriend and my soon to be stepson is not okay! Take a step back, yeah."

I look at her in shock as Ken makes a gagging sound and I have to try not to smirk as I look to Addison.

"First of all, her name is Kennedy, and she is family." Ken clears her throat, and I roll my eyes, backtracking. "She"s grown up with the club, so that makes her family. Second of all, she"s Noah"s aunt, and has been there since the day he was born. Heck, she was even in the delivery room, holding him even before I did."

Addison"s eyes narrow in a way I"m not liking. My voice low with a warning, I state, "Thirdly, stop being territorial over a child you haven"t even met, especially when the two people he spends the most time with outside of myself and my momma is Tats and Ken!"

She flinches, hurt passing through her eyes, hurt that I"m not falling for; I can see a fucking gleam.

Is she a patch chaser and I missed it?

Her gaze drops to my patch, hunger shining through her eyes, before they turn sad again, and I have to grit my teeth.

Fuck me, she is a patch chaser…. Dammit!

Noah turns to look at Addison, and I raise a brow at Ken, wondering if this is why she never tried to get to know her. She shrugs as the brothers watch on. She won"t tell me what to do because she refuses to get involved. Though, by the side eye she keeps giving Add, I can see she can"t stand her.

Leaning right into Noah's face, Addison grins. "Hi there, cutie," she says in a baby voice, like she's talking to a dog. Ken steps forward, ready to grab him, knowing he"s in a headbutting faze. His scared look turns into a scowl at Addison, showing his true feelings, before he slams forward, making my hold on him slip a little. His forehead smashes against Addison"s nose and a crunch sounds through the clubhouse. Kennedy snorts but coughs to cover it up.

Addison screeches in horror as blood starts to pour from her nose. Anger shines through her eyes as she gets in my two-year-old's fucking face and screams, "You fucking piece of shit, unwanted brat."

My blood runs cold as Noah cries. Ken takes him from me as Tats, who is hardly ever here, rushes over, guiding them to the other side of the room. Doc moves toward them to check Noah's head, while I seethe, my anger boiling.

Addison continues to screech, not seeing the danger she"s currently in as she points at my upset little boy and states, "When we get married, that brat can either live with your mother or his own!"

Everyone freezes and someone, who I"m guessing is Tats, growls.

I sneer at her, causing her to freeze in horror, realizing she"s just shown her true colors. I know he hurt her, but he"s fucking two. Two!

I grab Addison"s arm and drag her toward the door as Liam, Snake"s cousin, rushes in from gate duty. He narrows his eyes at the bitch before taking her off my hands.

"Breaker, baby…" she coos, blood dripping down her lip onto her white lace crop top. Her clothing choice to meet a child should have been an indicator of her true intentions. She trips in her too-high heels, causing her to gasp as she tries to come toward me, fighting against Liam"s hold.

I point at her, making her tense, and growl, "Bitches are not welcome here, and I am not your fucking baby, you fucking patch chaser." I lean forward as her face pales, realizing she"s been found out. I command, "Get the fuck out of here before you leave in a body bag."

Her breath stutters before she scrambles to leave the club, and I turn, rushing over to my boy. There's already a crowd around him.

"Alright, that"s enough, everyone. Back off now!" Snake booms as I make my way through the crowded room.

"Ken-Ken…" Noah murmurs, and my heart trips at his tears.

Kennedy holds him tighter as I get closer, and fuck am I happy to have my cousin around these past two years. She"s been my silent rock.

She gives me a smile as she hands him over, and he sobs, "Da-Da…."

"Take him to his Grams", Alex," Kennedy whispers, and I nod as she kisses Noah, who kisses her back with a loud, "Mwah…" making me laugh.

I kiss Ken on her cheek, whispering, "Love you, little cousin," making her smil,e before she heads out the front, waving toward Lola, who waves back. Lola's gaze keeps flicking between me and Ken, while Doc scowls.

I sigh, unwilling to tell them the truth, knowing what Ken will go through if I do.

"Come on, bud, let"s go see Grams," I murmur, and he nods. I head toward the back door, patting Tats on the back as a thanks for looking out for my son. The fucker is amazing with him. He demands Noah"s time every weekend to give me a break.

Him and Ken are my fucking rocks.

Five minutes later, I walk into Momma"s yellow, two-story Victorian home, which my father built on club property next to Bulls when my dad first met Momma. It"s the home I grew up in, but if things go how I believe they will with Crow, she"ll be moving out soon. Apparently, Dad wanted to travel after I grew up, and he was handing the house to me. Bull and Snake expressed that if I didn"t want it when the time came, I could build my own place. Still, I couldn"t imagine living elsewhere, so, after Noah was born, I left my room at the club house and moved back in.

"There"s my baby boy," Momma calls as she rushes through the swinging kitchen, through the light gray living room, and around the black leather couch to get to us.

Just when I think she"s talking to me, she grabs Noah, making me chuckle as I hand him over. I walk over to the couch and take a seat.

"I ended things with Addison."

Momma sits on the end of the couch with her brows furrowed as she asks, "I thought you and Charlie spoke?"

I hum with a little smile at her using Crow"s legal name, and admit, "We did, but then mister man there accidentally headbutted her after she got in his face, and she screamed at him, then demanded he live with you full time when we marry." Momma"s face reddens, but she looks ready to explode when I state, "Oh and she also tried to warn Kennedy away as well, accusing her of having a thing for me in front of the whole club, before calling herself a stepmom."

"That little…." Momma stops herself, her eyes going to Noah, who is busy playing with her necklace.

I chuckle. "Don"t worry, Momma, she"s gone," I placate her, and continue. "I knew something wasn"t right. I never got the feeling Dad and Crow said I"d get when you meet the one."

Momma hums and whispers, "I guess your one will come around, son. Just be patient."

I nod, tilt my head, and reply, "My momma is lucky enough to find a second ‘the one.'"

She looks at Noah, her eyes looking a little sad as she admits, "I feel guilty sometimes…."

I furrow my brows and sit forward, rasping, "Momma, Dad would be happy that Crow has fallen for you…."

She looks at me, her beautiful blue eyes filling with tears. "He asked me to be his old lady but also to marry him, Alex. But Lola?—"

I cut in, "Momma, you know Lola doesn"t want you two to have a relationship because she has a thing for me. She needs to grow up. You two have kept your relationship on the down low to soothe her but that shi… crap is done with now." I look at Noah and see he"s slowly dozing off. I made eye contact with my mother. "It"s time you think about yourselves. Crow asked for your hand, and I approved, because Momma, you love him just like you loved Dad, maybe even more." She goes to deny it, but I just smile and squeeze her knee. "It"s not the same kind of love. Dad was your first love, who had your whole heart, but Crow, he"s been there for you every day. He"s become your reason for breathing. Don"t let your fears of losing someone else or your fear of what others will do take away your happiness."

Her tears fall as she places her cheek on Noah"s head.

"I love you, you know that?"

I grin at her words and state, "I mean, what"s not to love?" She laughs, and I rasp, "I love you too, Momma."

She smiles wide as my eyes go to Noah, and she states, "You"ll find your happiness, too, son. I just know it. And when you do, she"ll knock you off your feet."

"I concur," Crow states as he walks in, making Momma"s eyes light up. His brows furrow, seeing her tears, but she smiles wider as he bends down and kisses her gently, his hand rubbing my son"s head.

When he pulls back, they make eye contact, and I know he sees her decision because his head whips my way. I grin before his whole body relaxes with relief. No one knows about them besides Snake and Bull, but now it"s time to celebrate, which will most likely be after they elope.

Crow knows she won"t want a big thing, which makes him perfect for her. He understands her.

He sits next to her, leaning back as she leans against him. He points and me and he states, "Some woman would be lucky to have you, Alex. You will find someone. I can feel it."

I nod as my eyes go back to my son, watching him sleep on my mother. I lean back on the couch, getting comfortable, knowing Momma has a pot roast in the oven, and it"s mandatory to stay. I can smell it, and I am hungry, and the thought of going to the attic apartment tonight is not appetizing.

Soon, I"ll be returning to my old room, the master with an en-suite. My parents preferred the main one down the hallway off the kitchen. The house has three rooms upstairs, a basement with half a gym and half a theater room, a large backyard, and an attic room that the brothers built after my dad died to help keep me occupied. That apartment is small, with one room, a small kitchen-living area combo, and a shower.

"So, when are you redecorating my boy?"

I chuckle at Momma"s question and tilt my head toward her, admitting, "I don"t know if I will. Though, your room will be turned into an office. I"ll probably take the bathroom out to make it part of a library. I"ll think about speaking with Snake about removing the attic apartment, and turning it into a playroom. Honestly, Momma, the house is otherwise perfect."

She nods, her eyes showing appreciation that I"m willing to keep the house the same in memory of her first love, the man I looked up to.

Crow grins, kissing Momma"s head, and my appreciation toward him grows. He knows Momma will always love my father, but he also knows he"s everything to her.

I hope I can find something similar in how they look at each other. Having Noah made me realize that I want something like Momma had with my dad, but I also want something more, which is what she"s got with Crow.