Chapter 16

Breaker

I walk outof the school reluctantly, my fingers balled into a fist. My whole fucking life is inside that building. We should all be going home to cook dinner together, but no, that fucking bitch drugged me and started this whole shit storm, and everything just spiraled from there.

I miss my girl, and I miss my son, and my body still fucking feels dirty after what I did with Suzy, the guilt never leaving me.

Sighing, I place Noah's helmet and harness under my seat, and sit on my Harley and wait. I won"t head to work until they are both safe at her apartment. I do this every evening, but tonight I won"t just sit outside her door for two hours before driving around town like usual. I know she wants this time with our boy.

And yes, our fucking boy. If I have my way, she"ll be his momma before the year is out.

I tilt my head toward the door as my family walks out hand in hand, both smiling at each other while they talk. I grab my phone and take a picture, needing the memory of love for each other in their eyes.

As I put my phone away, Noah looks my way, looking sad, causing Quinn to glance at me. Her eyes soften before she bends and whispers something in his ear. He nods, handing her his bag before he runs toward me, and my heart stutters. I don"t move as he gets in front of me, his eyes tearing up, and fuck, I hate that sight.

"Do you hate me, Daddy?" he whispers.

Fuck…

I bend and lift him up, his arms wrapping around my neck, and I hug him tight, whispering back, "How could I ever hate you, bud? You and Quinny, you"re my world. Do you understand me? You are both my everything!" He nods, sniffling, and I hold him tighter before promising, "I"m going to win her back, bud. I promise you, we won"t lose her."

He nods again, squeezing me tightly before saying, "I love you, Daddy."

I smile with relief, and I reply, "I love you too, bud…. Now go spend the night with the woman I promise I'll make your momma."

He nods again before kissing my cheek, and I place him down, then watch him run over to Quinn. I smile as he hugs her legs before climbing into his car seat. I watch as she clicks him in before shutting the door and looking my way.

I smile, stating loudly, "I"ll follow you back to yours before going to work."

She nods, knowing not to argue with me. I"ve been following her home for a month, and that won"t change until she"s living in my house with my ring on her finger, my cut on her back, and hopefully, my baby in her belly.

Sighing, I start my bike and follow her to her apartment, wishing we could go back to where we were in my house, and I"d walk downstairs to find her in nothing but my shirt, her golden hair on the top of her head as she makes pancakes for our boy.

Soon, fucking soon.

After following them home, she beeps her horn, making me smile, before I head off to work. All I want to do is head inside with them, eat a meal with them, then cuddle up with them.

I give Phil a head nod. He"s on door duty tonight at Devil"s Temptation; all prospects have to rotate on door duty, and some, like him, hate it but still do it, wanting a brotherhood patch. When I walk inside, I notice Suzy behind the bar in nothing but a bra and panties, which means she"s been practicing on the stage, getting ready for opening. But I ignore her and head to my office, or at least that was my plan until she decides to step in my path like the idiot she is.

I raise a brow at her, and she scowls, placing her hands on her narrow hips, and states, "Seriously, I thought you would have apologized by now!"

I snort. "Really? After you took advantage of my drunken state, knowing my girl ended things with me, then decided to fucking blab what happened right in front of her at Smokey"s wedding, hoping she"ll never forgive me, giving you a chance to get my patch?" She flinches. I bend forward and spit, "I"m pretty sure my prez warned you to stay the fuck away from me, or you"ll lose your job. He wasn"t bullshitting you, Suzy…. Get back behind that bar and stay the hell away from me, or your done." I look down on her, wondering why in the fuck I allowed her to touch me, and sneer, "You don"t want to fuck with me, Suzy. Just because I fucked you doesn"t mean I had feelings for you. You were just a hole to fill, and I"ll easily snap your neck, and then sleep like a baby at night."

Her eyes widen, but I ignore her and push past the bitch, going to my office to start on the fucking paperwork that needs to be done. I've been busy riding around with Tats, looking for the fucking drug runners that're trying to come into our territory. The past month has fucking been hard. Snake had a call from his old lady Sarah last week. Some slimy fucker tried to intimidate her when she was alone in the garage, wanting her to sell their drugs using the bikes as a cover. He fucking shit himself when we pulled up. I spent an hour smashing my sledgehammer into his body to get some answers, before sitting outside of Quinn"s door while Noah slept at Momma"s, refusing to come home.

Four more men are still at large, scared because their men are slowly going missing, and by missing, I mean me breaking their bones before Smokey burns their bodies.

And don"t fucking get me started on a few weeks ago when Violet, Tat"s wife, was kidnapped by her fucking uncle, wanting her inheritance. She was fucking tied spread eagle to a dirty fucking bed for three weeks in a building that crumbled as soon as Smokey fucking lit the match.

Not only did we learn that her uncle also killed her parents, but she was pregnant. Doc couldn"t find a heartbeat, and we all thought she lost the baby, killing a little bit of her soul. Thankfully, the baby moved that evening, and she's been on bed rest for the past week. There may be a chance that the baby has brain damage; we just won"t know until he"s born.

Fuck, my hands itch to break something.

I shake my head as I open my office door, wondering how Violet survived her captivity, before I catch sight of something and stop at the open door.

Motherfucker!

Amber moans from my desk, where she arches her back, shoving her fingers deep inside her exposed cunt as she smiles at me. My fucking patience has gone.

My paperwork that was once in order is all over the floor, four men are still selling laced cocaine in our territory, Violet is struggling, and the club still needs to fucking grovel to Tats, who decided to try and hand his fucking patch, my son has only just spoken to me, and my girl, the woman I love, has decided to take a job over a thousand miles away.

Fuck this shit!

My anger takes over as I storm over to Amber, whose grin widens as I grip her hair, but she soon screams as I drag her off my desk, causing her to land with a thump on the floor. She screams louder as I drag her to my door.

"Please, Breaker, stop-stop," she cries, but I ignore her. I"m fucking ready to slit her throat.

I yank her harder as Phil rushes into the room with Suzy trailing him. He grins, while Suzy pales. I point at her as I throw Amber"s naked body at Phil and say, "If I fucking find out that you helped her into my office, never mind your fucking job, Suzy, I"ll kill you." She takes a step back. I look at Phil and state, "Throw the fucking trash out, and keep an eye on that bitch."

He nods, and grabs Amber"s arm, yanking her up as she tries to cover herself while crying. He grips Suzy"s arm, dragging them both down the hallway. I quickly grab my phone and message Tech.

Me: Amber was in my office naked, getting herself off, paperwork everywhere. Check the cameras to see who helped her, then hold them in the outhouse.

I look around the room, my anger boiling. The pressure of everything this past month is getting too much. I kick my desk in anger once, twice, and three times before a voice behind me speaks, making me whirl around.

"What did that desk ever do to you?"

I lock eyes with Quinn"s father, Paul. His eyes look sad, his body posture stiff, and I tilt my head and admit, "I just caught an ex-fling getting herself off my desk a few minutes ago. Winning back your daughter is hard enough as it is. I don"t need her trying to use this as another excuse."

He hums and says, "I was wondering why a naked woman was being dragged out the door." He looks around the room. "Jack mentioned she ended things with you last month after you were set up."

I sigh, leaning against my desk, and admit, "She did. She was looking for an excuse to bolt. I could see the love in her eyes, and it scared her." I shake my head. "I just don"t understand why. I can get a high school or college boyfriend cheating on her, but the fear she has just doesn"t make sense, and nothing is fucking adding up!" I run a frustrated hand through my hair and admit, "I"m running out of time. She accepted a job in California."

He flinches at my words before shock crosses his face, and he rasps, "She"s leaving?"

I furrow my brows. "She didn"t tell you?" He shakes his head. I tell him the truth. "Lola, a club brothers" sister, has a thing for me, has for years, but I"ve never given her the indication or any signs that I felt the same way. She went on a witch hunt to ruin Quinn"s reputation and get her fired. Snake and I tried to sort it out, but Lola went to the parents first, despite never going to the school and none of them knowing her, and they want Quinn out."

Anger shines in his eyes. "And what punishment is this girl getting?"

I admit, "She"s been banned from the club and all club activities. Her dad told me that she"s been trying to contact Quinn to apologize, but obviously, Goldie doesn"t want anything to do with her, and I don"t blame her."

Paul scoffs, "She felt guilty when the damage was done?"

I nod. "She did." He shakes his head, and I state, "I won"t let her leave, Paul. I can promise you that now."

He nods, placing his hands on his hips, and says, "The reason why I"m here…Jack and I spoke, and he explained your trouble, trying to win my stubborn daughter ‘round. I thought you had a right to know why she"s closed off and why she wants nothing to do with me or her momma and, by extension, Jack. I"m helping you because the light in her eyes when we saw you two together hadn"t been there since she was a child. We all want that light back." I furrow my brows, and he sighs. "Fuck…. When she was seven, her Grams had a heart attack. When we admitted Grams to the hospital, Quinn's momma asked her to grab me from my office."

Oh fuck, I can see where this is going, the guilt in his eyes, but his next words prove my theory.

"She walked in on me fucking a nurse over my desk."

I drop my chin to my chest on a sigh. Yep, that will fucking make you hate love.

He clears his throat. "It was the one time, and something I regret to this day. The nurse, she, uh, was trying to get pregnant, wanting my money, but I didn"t know that at the time. My marriage was struggling; my woman hadn"t touched me in a month because she"d seen this nurse flirt with me, and I didn"t do anything about it. It"s no excuse. I fucked up, and then my mother-in-law died, and my woman needed me. She was adamant she wanted a divorce, but I wouldn"t let her. I forced her into marriage counseling while she wasn"t of sound mind, which I know was fucked up, but I didn"t want to lose her, and Quinny, well…."

I look at him. "She realized you used her mother's emotional state to win her back."

He nods. "I ruined her childhood, Breaker. I ruined how she saw me, how she saw love. I fucking ruined everything for her, and she"s never forgiven me. Fuck, she was adamant she was going to be a doctor at one point, a pediatrician. Then she saw what she saw…." He sighs. "A few years ago, my woman and Jack tried to get us in the same room, not telling either of us…since then, she has barely spoken to either of them."

I groan, run my hand over my face, and ask, "I"ve got a lot of work to do, haven"t I?"

He sighs and says, "You have, and for that, I am sorry. But you should also know, before she ended things with you, the nurse confronted her." I look up in shock. He nods. "She accused my daughter of ruining her chances of a lavish lifestyle. I"m sorry, son. If I hadn"t done what I did by being a pathetic idiot, you"d probably still be together. Her heart is closed off. She won"t give me a chance, or speak to her mother, and now she"s pushed you away."

I shake my head. "I won"t let this stop us. I won"t let her run."

He nods. "I know. I just thought you deserved the truth because she already hates me, anyway. I hope you can win her back because, if Quinny moves, then we"ve all lost her."

I nod as he turns and leaves, my frustration burning through me.

I need to fucking break something, and just as I"m about to smash my desk up, my phone pings, and I check it, a smile spreading across my face.

Tech: Suzy let her in while snooping through the paperwork on your desk, taking pictures. She"s waiting in the outhouse.

I nod, putting my phone away, ready to dish out some fucking just desserts. The bitch won't see sunrise!