10. Anna

10

Anna

I was so upset with Jax that I could barely look at him as I stormed back to our room. He followed behind and smartly didn't say a word until the door was closed. Then, I rounded on him.

"What is wrong with you? She is scared and she has no one and you're just going to kick her out in the cold? You don't make every wolf pledge their loyalty to you when they visit, so why are you making her? Can't you see how fucking traumatized she is?"

"You are correct that I do not force a bond on wolves tethered to another, but I absolutely make rogue wolves swear a temporary oath with me when they stay on my lands, and I've gone as far as to create temporary bonds with one," he said as he leaned against the wall and crossed his arms. "Cindy is a rogue wolf now, and she is not coming to stay for a couple of weeks. Her stay as no expiration date, so I will absolutely have her bond with me."

The fire continued to roar inside of me. "She doesn't even know what it means to be humanely released from a bond!"

"I made a promise to not rip the bond away from her. Do you think that I'm not going to keep it?" he asked icily.

"You're not exactly known for keeping your promises, are you?"

As soon as the words were out of my mouth, I regretted them. His arms dropped by his sides. "Are you referring to the promise that I let you go? Or perhaps you're referring to the promise I made that I would not let Emerson touch you?"

His own pain flared inside of me, and I shuddered. Had he been masking this all along? Guilt slammed into me, and I swallowed hard. "I was referring to the former," I managed.

"I see. Well, I am trying to make up for that now. Anytime you want to leave, feel free to go," he said stiffly before he opened the door and walked out. When it slammed shut behind him, I sank to my knees and tried not to cry. What the hell was wrong with us? All we seemed to be doing these past couple of days was just circling each other and throwing pot shots.

Me more than him. So maybe it wasn't an us problem but a me problem.

Still sitting on the floor, I reached up and grabbed the folder I'd haphazardly dropped onto the bed earlier. Needing a distraction, I opened it up and began to skim the contents when the door opened back up again.

Jax stormed in, pulled me up from the floor and stood me on top of the bed. I squeaked as papers went flying. "What are you doing?"

"Clearing up a misconception," he growled. "When I told you that you could leave, it was not because I want you to leave. I've told you before and I'm telling you now that I don't really know if I can let you go. I'm pointing out your exit because I promised it to you, and I want to see you happy. If you walk out that door, I suspect it'll take me less than a month to concede my status as alpha to Jenson and come after you. I want you ruling by my side, but if this life isn't for you, then I will happily build you a fucking hut in the middle of the rogue territory where we can live an anonymous life as nobodies. My wolf chose you, Anna, but I am the one who is going to keep you. Both of my halves belong to you, if that's not clear."

Oh. "That…um…that wasn't clear."

"Am I making it clear now? I love you."

My knees nearly collapsed under me, but Jax continued to hold me up. "Kiss me," I whispered. "Please."

His lips touched mine in a devastatingly slow kiss that had me clinging to him. Lifting the hem of his shirt, I forced him to break the kiss long enough for me to take it off him while I ran my hands down his body.

It was strange that I could hate him for so long and now, I couldn't believe that he was mine. Strength and power and compassion all rolled into one.

His lips trailed down my neck, and he pulled my own shirt up. There had been only one bra for each of us packed on the ship, so most days, I'd been going without. Jax took full advantage as his lips trailed down my collar bone and chest to nip lightly at my nipple.

I moaned.

His hands traced the scars on my body, but I didn't even stiffen now. They were part of me, and he accepted them.

He accepted me.

When he picked me up and laid me down on the bed, he smoothed my hair from my face and kissed the top of my head. "Three times," he murmured.

"Three times what?"

"Before we're done here, I want to hear you moaning or screaming my name three times."

With a wicked grin, he pulled down my pants and slid his hand between my thighs. I was already hot and wet for him.

I was always hot and wet for him.

Slowly, he inched a finger inside of me as he kissed my nipples. There was something achingly sweet about how he played with me. He added a second finger and then curved his thumb over my clit until I was arching up into him and panting.

"Who knows how to fuck you good," he asked in a low voice. "Say my name, Anna."

The orgasm roared through me, and I panted his name as I exploded.

He eased his fingers out of me and licked them clean with a smile I'd associate more with a cat than a wolf, although there was a predatory gleam in his eyes that made me shiver.

"Do you have any idea how you sound when I touch you?" he grunted. "Nothing gets me harder."

With my feet, I slid his sweatpants down until I felt his naked cock nestling between my thighs. "We can do something about that."

"I was thinking you might like to play with it, while I eat you," he said casually, and my toes immediately curled. "But don't make me come. I'm going to be inside you for that last orgasm."

Before I could blink, he rolled us until I was on top. "Straddle my face, Anna. I want my tongue deep inside of you."

Fuck. I'd just had an amazing orgasm, but my body was tingling for another one. Slowly, I moved and straddled his face. Knowing that I was still a little sensitive, he licked me gently as I lowered down to his body and wrapped my hands around his cock.

His grunt of appreciation had me smiling. He wanted me to play, so that's exactly what I did. I gently squeezed, lightly licked, and slowly pumped until his hips were undulating under me. He teased me as well, driving me more and more crazy until he flicked his tongue over my clit in rapid succession. My mouth was around his cock, and I sucked him deep while I squealed.

"Fuck," Jax grunted, his mouth still plastered against my pussy. "Fuck, Anna, again. Do that again."

Pulling back, I dove down on him again while his tongue caressed me, and I screamed against his cock. Suddenly, I couldn't play any longer. Releasing him, I chanted his name repeatedly, my eyes tightly closed as I shoved my pussy so hard against his face, I worried for a second that he might not be able to breath.

Then light flashed behind my eye lids, and my second orgasm took me even higher.

I barely registered that we'd moved before I was suddenly on my belly, flat against the mattress. Jax drove into me from behind and roared.

Fucking hell. I inhaled sharply as his weight settled against me and he intertwined our fingers, keeping my hands trapped above my head. We'd fucked hard and fast, desperately and playfully, but this was a whole new level. I expected him to rail into me until I cried, but he withdrew slowly, inch by inch, and then slammed into me again.

"I will never ever get enough of this pussy," he growled over me. "Fucking made for me. So good, Anna. Goddamn, you are so good. Squeeze me again. Yes, just like that."

I have no idea how long we stayed like this, him trembling on top of me, but when my thighs started to shake, he hissed and stopped playing. Driving into me over and over again, he fucked me straight through my orgasm, never even stopping a beat, and when he came, it was my name he roared.

And it was on the tip of my tongue to tell him that I was his as much as he was mine, but his warmth cradled me, and any words I mumbled were swallowed by the pillow as I drifted to sleep.